hmm.. so long since i updated..
first.. talk bout xmas.. went shopping on sat.. bought lots of things n now i'm broke!! haha.. mama went cruise so i ask man n frens stay over for some mahjong.. we played tong xiao.. n they went off around 8 plus.. so tired.. bt i slept for onli 2 hrs plus den woke up for breakfast wif dad n sis.. den went home n slp again haha.. sad christmas..
went mr tay's house on 26th.. quite fun.. been a long time since i've seen de seniors.. although not most of dem are there.. bt i think it will b quite long before i can see dem again.. we met up n do a bit of mr tay's present.. wrote some messages for him too.. quite sad to see him leave lahz.. bi jing he was a great coach n helped us a lot along de way.. without him i think it will b quite different.. n can compare de results next yr..
anyway.. we played soft vball in de function hall till someone come in n say no ball games haha.. den we played bingo.. de forfit was to do pumping.. everyone like so scared to tio.. den we were like calling for de no n our hearts all beating so fast haha.. hf was de last 1 to tio n de forfit was to dance.. haha she dance wif ethan.. he's super cute sia.. n can c tt mr tay beri teng his sons.. didn realli scold dem.. onli gave warning.. haha den when ethan help him massage he still kiss him.. we are all playing wif ethan n wan to take pics wif him.. at around 10 plus we left.. dewen drove some of us home n guohua pick zihui up n send some of dem to de mrt station.. so kind of dem.. haha.. in conclusion.. it's a fun nite!! wonder if there'll b such gathering again..
de results still not out yet.. so slow!! bt since it will b out so late.. i guess there'll b no 2nd chance for me le bahz.. i oso dunno how i fared.. mayb i shld start looking out for any interesting courses.. for now.. i'm quite interested to b a pe teacher.. bt tt's after poly bahz.. (if i go poly) for now.. i'll juz see how things goes..

hmm.. re-exams over!! dunno whether i'll pass.. bt it doesn't realli matter le lahz..
suddenly my mama like nt tt strict anymore.. weird.. it really shocked me when she said fail den fail lor.. go poly lahz.. no big deal rite.. if u really noe me well.. u shld noe my mum well too.. haha it's so unlike her to say something littat.. when we went to take family photo she still said something like when i grad frm uni den we take another photo.. den now she like don't care le..
there's still once when i was playing mahjong at home den she came home.. bt didn scold mi oso haha.. juz said dun play money arz... weird rite.. haha bt i prefer it tis way..
oh ya.. when i say i might go nie be pe teacher she still say.. i noe u can do wad.. go b army.. haha.. i was like huh!!?? den she say dun huh.. gt very gd prospects ok.. do some desk stuff or wad lahz.. dunno bout it oso.. haha.. seems like de world is very wide..
went jos house ytd for steamboat and we stayed over for de night.. hmm ate till bout 11 plus!? den we went up to her rm.. play a game which i dunno how to describe lahz.. haha.. den played blackjack for a while oso.. banker wins all.. haha.. we all play till bankrupt (chips) den some of dem went of to slp.. den man, jos, xiuyi and mi played mahjong on de mattress.. wha so ma fan playing there.. cannot lean near de tiles or else it will collapse.. we played for quite long.. till 630 b4 jos n xiuyi cannot take it le.. mayb cuz we hab training earlier so they beri tired.. bt ytd training beri slack for 3 of us.. so i nt really tired lorz.. bt well.. since they wanna slp jiu slp lorz.. quite squeezy oso.. like sardine cannot anyhow move.. heez.. woke up around 9 tis morn.. den ate some breakfast n off back home.. reach home le jiu bath and slp haha.. beri tired.. dark rings forming.. in conclusion.. it was quite fun bahz.. =p

hmm haven been updating for quite a while..
re exams r coming.. really not prepared for it.. sorry for making frens around mi worry.. n thanks for ur card.. really appreciate it although i didn cry lahz.. haha.. i noe u all r trying very hard to motivate mi..
tis make mi think a lot.. including de decision to come jc.. many regrets i may have bt i will nt regret continue playing vball in jc.. de days in kl were my happiest moments i guess.. really miss tis team a lot.. wonder if we will have any chance to play as a team again..
looking back to sec sch.. nt tt i dislike it there bt i think there's really not much for mi to think back.. i can only rmb all de conflicts de boycotting.. it's like u can't b who u r.. muz try to please de ppl around u or u'll only b left out by others.. wasn't realli close wif mi class den cuz i'm always hanging around my team mates.. n it's often split into grps.. sometimes i realli dunno where i belong.. perhaps it's becuz we have 4 yrs together n we will c each other personality.. no matter how coach try he's still being dislike by us.. bt i agree tt he's temper could b a rollar coaster.. i quite pei fu him.. every batch he slowly bring us up even without any foundation..
i realli hope tt tis team could at least make it into top 8.. bt without mr tay i think it's quite diff.. although mr tay's training is very tough.. he's very strict.. expecting a lot frm us.. he can b quite arrogant at times bt he's a gd coach.. dewen is also a gd coach lahz.. bt he's too lenient le.. no body is actually afraid of him.. no stress.. can slack slack play play and 1 training is over.. still rmb when i juz come in mr tay said tt he wan 100% commitment frm mi.. n now.. ppl can happy happy dun come for training.. i think if mr tay was de coach de team might b left wif less den half de no now..
even if i realli pass tis test n scrap through tis yr.. is it worth it? to struggle through next yr.. n not knowing whether i can pass a levels.. is tis wad i wan? to finish tis path n go on to uni.. can i do it? i really dun know wad i wan.. i seriously dun think i'm de liao for studying bt wad can i do?! i actually dun noe anything.. can they give me de assurance n motivation i need?!
almost forget to mention.. went for dinner at clark quay to celebrate xj's bday.. bear intro us to brewerkz.. hmm.. i quite like de ambience there.. drank golden ale.. seriously it juz taste a little sweeter den carlsberg.. muhaha.. can u intro something more lady next time?! took lots of pic bt i still haven got it!! anyone.. juz anyone.. send mi pls!! hmm.. ate 2 main n 1 side dish.. wasn't really tt full lahz.. quite ex some more.. haha.. broke le lahz.. went to walk around clark quay after dinner.. nth much to walk around.. n finally decide to hab some ice cream.. in total.. i spend bout 33 tt day.. lucky it's not more den 50 bucks haha.. anyway.. i enjoyed tt day.. shall we chill out someday again!?
not going to work for next wk.. hab to go for steamboat at jos house.. hopefully can ton there.. n i guess it'll b fun!? cuz most of us r there.. pls dun make mi regret not working!! haha.. think i'm working during xmas wk.. no dates.. so sad.. haha.. hope to b in de same outlet wif bear.. *pray..

Juz watched finish "qing chu yu lan".. I like de ending.. quite meaningful although it's kinda expected lahz.. shall gib a brief summary of de story.. there's tis teacher, ruoshi who is sandwiched upon 2 guys.. de principal, jicai and another guy teacher, zhengliang.. ruoshi was with zhengliang before until she knew tt zhengliang indirectly cause de death of her ex husband.. thus broke up wif him.. jicai was always around her and supporting her.. her ex husband son was down wif leukemia and jicai saved him therefore she’s grateful to him.. both is so good to her thus leaving her wif a dilemma.. she finalli decide to leave for de States without choosing ani of dem.. however at de last min.. she finalli realize tt she had been surpressing herself n de 1 she really loves is zhengliang..
Tis quote was mentioned in de drama.. even if u're heartbroken.. de heart continues beating.. life still goes on.. I feel tt it's beri true.. n I'd like to give an advice to mi sis.. she had broken wif her bf.. n I saw her tearing away juz now.. hope she can understand de msg.. broken relationships are part n parcel of life.. a new relationship will start onli when de old one ends.. without a relationship ur love life is a blank sheet.. I really dun understand y does she have to despair for some time after every relationship.. n onli end up to regret and tok bout how stupid u r in de past.. to give up de things u like juz becuz of a stranger who had to cross ur path.. perhaps I've nt experience such relationships to really give my opinions.. ppl say watching tv is bad bt I think tt through such real life dramas.. we learn how to handle stuffs.. my sis even bought a 40 plus book to make her gt over of tis failed relationship.. she still thinks tt she is strong n independent and doesn’t show her weak side.. in her blog she even lament y she is so strong tt she doesn't think for herself.. and doesn't wan to worry others over her probs.. I dunno whether to laugh or wad.. as her sis.. I would always c her weaker side.. n perhaps she really doesn't show out her emotions easily by nt crying in front of others.. keeping ur probs to urself means u r strong n independent!? Den I must say my family have such genes cuz I think tt my whole family is littat.. my mum would only show her weak side when she's drunk.. I seriously think tt she's nt strong cuz she is very grouchy wheneva she's unhappy.. n I can guess easily wad is happening to her.. heartbroken or in love.. she juz writes it all over her face lahz.. bt I oso feel sorry for her lahz.. even if I'm nt really happy wif her I still try to calm down n nt quarrel wif her.. anyway.. juz hope she quickly gt over it lahz.. it's gd for everyone tt way..
juz read my sis's blog.. din noe tt she had such encounters n now i noe y she prefered my dad den my mum.. i realli dunno whether it's dang ju zhe mi or wad.. cuz i feel tt mum loves her alot.. dad has always been de more lenient 1 n whenever there's bad news he's always de first to noe.. although mum is strict bt she still cares for us.. for example.. whenever sis is coming home for dinner mum will cook soup.. she'll always leave soup for her even if sis doesn't come home for dinner.. recently mum was quite often home during weekends.. (not quite normal cuz in de past 17 yrs she's seldom at home during wk ends..) whenever dad suggested going out to eat.. sis will say she doesn't want.. n we will end up eating nearby cuz mum wanna buy food home for her.. sometimes i realli hate her for tt.. i'm really sick of eating at jurong west.. mayb mum was realli more strict in de past.. bt she juz doesn't want us to walk on de wrong path.. n tt's wad she went into.. she even mentioned in her blog tt mum call mi not to tok to her!? i dun rmb anithing like tt lahz.. bt i noe tt they always quarrel bt it's always bcuz she did de wrong thing.. hello.. wad could b rite to b an ah lian n take up smoking when u're juz 14!?!? perhaps it's bcuz she's there to b my "role model" tt's y i'm so guai lahz.. haha.. since young i swear not to b like her.. smoking n commiting suicide stuff.. yuckz.. i think she's stupid at tt age cuz a ger 5 yrs younger can think better den commiting suicide juz bcuz she quarrelled wif her bf!?! bt studies wise.. she's smarter lahz.. i oso dunno how her mind works...

hmm.. shall backtrack a little..
last wed.. training was supposed to b in de morn. bt was cancelled bcuz of de rain.. however.. it was super last min lahz.. i already bathe le.. n some of dem was out of house le.. so xiuyi, manying n mi decided to meet for breakfast.. jos was oso up so we went bukit timah for prata den proceed to her house for mahjong.. i think it was my first time waking so earli to go for prata haha.. after mahjong met up wif bear n gang to catch a movie.. manying came along too.. bt she beri noisy haha keep saying beri weird.. had a hard time persuading her to join us.. was a little rushed for time so we called a cab to tiong bahru.. haiz.. broke le.. haha
ytd went shopping.. or rather window shopping.. didn buy anything.. too broke to buy things too.. haha.. we went to look for a team bag n saw a few quite nice de.. de price was still within my budget.. hope most of dem wan it or else it will serve no purpose.. went to an addidas shop at novena it has 30% storewide.. bt there nth much to shop so we went to city link n suntec.. at city link saw quite a few nice stuffs.. at de roxy shop saw a watch.. super nice wor.. bt muz work to buy it haha.. spotted some ripcurl bag too.. quite nice.. n quite cheap oso.. heez.. actualli wan to buy slipper oso.. bt didn realli c nice nice de so didn buy ani.. went carls junior to eat dinner.. quite ex wor.. bt de things quite nice.. de burger we share so end up we're nt realli full haha.. last stop.. we went esplanade to eat cake n chill out.. nice view haha.. hmm.. went home around 11 plus.. when i reach je it was de last train le.. haha heng we're nt any later... quite fun.. hope there b such outings more often..
oh ya.. on de 20/11 bear n gang came my house to bake brownie.. we tried 2 times.. de first time was very successful.. actualli de taste is ok lahz.. only de looks nt beri nice.. so we tried another time.. tis time bear went home to take her mixer.. although i prefer hand made bt de mixer definately save lots of time.. it's de thought tt counts mahz.. de brownie is for nu er's bday de.. we oso cut de brownie into star shape.. after baking de brownie we went nu er's house there to gib her a surprise.. long time nber c her le.. bt she still looks de same.. haha.. onli a little fairer!? aniway.. it's a bit late bt nvm.. happy bday ger.. haha..

chalet..

day after chalet.. veri tired.. fall aslp while watching tv juz now.. bt after bathing not tt slpy animore so decide to blog a little in case i forget.. haha
it was overall quite fun.. haha.. first time staying over in a chalet too.. hmm.. de first time we played twister, i kena those very difficult moves.. like cross arms n i still have to stretch my legs somewhere.. was laughing like siao.. n they juz kept taking pics of my ugli pose.. 2nd time we played.. quite slack in de beginning.. (not for others hahaha) bt till de end i oso had some realli weird pose... laugh till i had tears in my eyes sia.. we lazy to bbq so we ordered pizza!! yum yum.. after pizza we watched tv till 8 plus.. den we played truth or dare while watching tv.. didn realli find out ani secrets.. jie xing did a dare!!! she was super daring lahz.. bt de opp ppl not fun de.. nber pei he.. still say we crazy.. bleahz.. after tt.. we had some describing game which evolved in taboo.. n den de super sunday show de game.. (dunno how to explain oso) de way ppl describe it's like very furni lorz.. manying still describe in broken eng.. haha.. de super sunday game was super fun.. (all de while sze hui was toking to her boy boy in de room.. miss out all de fun!!) de way it was distorted till de end.. haha.. veri kua zhang somemore... realli cute lahz.. we played for 1 whole round den went up to de room to squeeze n watch vcd.. it was bout 2 plus by den.. watched a little of scary movie 3 which wasn't realli interesting den watched mr deeds.. was quite furni.. some ppl already fall aslp b4 de movie ended.. after de movie.. those still awake went downstairs to take some bite and played some card games... den we decided to watch a witchcraft show since it's already like earli morning?! those scared went up to de room to slp.. watch a while den quite boring cuz in de middle talk quite a lot.. so we decide to go up n slp too.. imagine 11 ppl squeezing in 2 beds n 1 mattress.. sardine can... i cannot even move lahz.. den jos n szehui went downstairs to slp.. i rest for a while.. can't get to slp.. cannot move bu shu fu.. heard dem toking downstairs den i decided to go down.. lie for bout an hr onli.. chat a while den decided to b very noisy to wake de rest up haha (evil..) n surprisingly.. ting ting by 9 still haven wake up!! regardless of how noisy we were.. so we decided to go up n disturb her.. haha.. we wanted to go downtown east to play pool!! we played a while of pool n went back to de chalet.. xiuyi's mum bringing mahjong tiles here!! yay!! by den.. most of dem left le.. left about 6 of us.. den we played mahjong without money for a while den sze hui left.. den we played money.. play all de way till 1am.. with a dinner break in between.. i'm quite tired le.. plus we drank a little wine (xiuyi's bro buy de) n de game was super slow.. till behind no mood le haha.. all hu xiao xiao.. manying n jos combine is de greatest winner.. won 14 i think.. den xiuyi won 7!! i lost 6 n de rest xiao hui.. wasn't very lucky.. cha eng came late cuz she had rugby in de afternoon.. after mj.. we went to slp cuz there's training de next day.. manage to slp a little bahz.. woke up a little here n there.. *yawnz* we woke up at 9 tis morning to get ready to check out.. haha ate some cereals n bread wif nutella!! *yum yum n we checked out!! i went back home while they went to eat.. didn manage to slp lahz.. bathe n off i go le.. so tired... zZz..
lately my sis quite weird.. wasn't realli herself.. quite irritating.. bleahz.. 1 whole wk nber come home eat dinner.. when she came home n eat.. suddenli say wanna put tv in her rm.. den started arguing wif mum for de yes n no bout tv.. aniway i think she's realli bo liao lahz.. it's like she's seldom home lahz.. wan tv for wad?! den she say it's cuz i watch outside mum watch inside she can't watch.. tok cok lahz.. if i'm mum i oso wun agree buying a tv for her.. waste money waste elec.. n she still storm out of house without saying bye to anione of us.. childish.. mum n dad had a long tok after tt.. hope they aren't quarrelling becuz of her.. tis time i side wif mum.. before i go for chalet i started arguing for some things wif her oso.. n she said she needed de stuff cuz she had dance on fri.. TOK COK again.. she went out todae lahz dance wad.. rubbish.. she's like so irritating lahz.. ask her y she didn go work today oso so gl.. horrible.. thank god she went out.. can't stand her lahz..
oh it's midnite le.. so tired.. going off to dreamland le!! muz replenish my shui mian.. tataz~

updates updates.. somebody keep pestering mi bout updates.. so here i am!! while waiting for my camera's battery to b re-charged so i can upload the photos.. i've decided to blog a little.. pls do not ask mi to put it up here.. i dunno how to!! haha if u r willing to volunteer to help mi do it.. i dun mind.. pls leave ur contact down.. haha..
firstly.. went swimming wif dear peifen on tues.. it was super sunny.. however, i like didn realli tan a lot lehz.. so sad.. bt well.. it's fun!! haha.. lots of ppl there too.. after de swim, went to eat dinner wif my family including my grandparents.. so nan de my mum is at home on public holidays.. we went to eat fish steamboat at tiong bahru.. yum yum.. quite ex aniway.. bt mum said it wasn't realli "hua" afterall.. bt well.. it's better den nth mahz..
had to attend self study on wed thus not able to go sentosa for de class outing.. so sorry.. next time ya?! bt lucky i didn go lahz.. if not i'll b tanning for tues wed n thurs.. den i'll b so burnt.. self study was quite boring.. wasn't realli wad i expected.. bt well.. can slack oso better lahz.. afterall i'm all alone n de break is rather redundant to me.. next time i shall leave at 1130.. muhaha..
went sentosa ytd.. it was raining in de morning so kinda scared tt there'll b no sun.. bt it's still ok lahz.. nt realli beri hot bt can tan lahz.. haha.. met cheryl n chunli there too... so long didn c chunli she so tanned sia.. chao ta le lahz.. bt it's nice!! haha actualli wanted to play 2 on 2 wif her bt no chance lahz.. too bad.. next time ya?! aniway.. we played vb.. slack in de water for a while n kayak for a while.. overall was quite fun lahz.. heez.. i didn gt sunburn cuz i put sun block at my shoulders.. de rest put sun tan lotion n tada.. all kena burnt.. haha.. oppz.. sounds bad.. after bathing we still played a few games of pool.. long time didn play.. keep hit lousy balls haha.. xiuyi still keep playing cheat!! haha.. we waited for a long time for de beach line bus bt it's so full thus we walked all de way back to take de blue line bus.. n guess wad?! i can't even c de end of de queue.. we decided to take cab n guess wad again.. no cab to take sia.. all booking or kena snatched.. 1 mercedes cab driver still so action.. say wad tis is a limo. later de c de price heart pain.. bullsh*t sia.. gt money oso dun wan let him earn lahz.. kuku.. aniway.. xiuyi's dad come n drive us out.. so kind of him.. n bad xiuyi dun wan gib him money haha.. evil evil.. we went pasta mania eat.. didn realli like de food there.. haha dun like pasta sauce.. bt ok lahz.. still edible.. de pizza nt as nice as pizza hut's too.. haha.. after eating we play zhong ji mi ma.. eat de cheese alone.. kinda er xin lor.. i tio de still gt 1 drop of chili sauce.. yuckz!! aniway everybody kena once.. n manying kena thrice.. haha.. reach home around 1030 bahz.. so tired.. watch a little tv n off to dream land.. haha.. oh ya my sis kicked my face twice!! eeee
had lesson today n op reharsal.. it wasn't realli smooth.. n i think tt my speech worse den de first time.. eekz.. i kena de ques all i dunno how to ans de.. hope it doesn't happen during de actual op.. *pray hard* went to eat n actualli wanna cut hair bt de hair dresser nt free.. so we booked an appointment tml!! hope it doesn't turn out too bad.. hmm.. had training after tt.. it was ok lahz.. quite tired today so nt realli enthu bout it.. zzz currently no cfm plans for tml.. so sianz.. haha.. shall stop here.. stay tune to de next post.. tata!!

hmm.. it was long since i updated.. well.. nth much realli happened.. ytd went joscelin's house to play mahjong.. monkey was de biggest winner haha.. gonna gt some treats frm her.. was fasinated by jos's dog.. it was cute!! haha bt i'm afraid of dogs.. bt i still managed to touch him a few times.. look like a soft toy.. haha.. jos's house realli has lots to eat.. n my fridge is always empty.. nth to serve de guests.. so next time pls buy stuff before coming to my house!! haha..
hmm tml gonna gt news bout de moderation.. was quite relief after toking to miss yew.. before tt i was like hanging halfway.. wasn't even sure of wad is going to happen.. feel very tired of sch.. hope everything will go well in de future..
training had resumed.. quite ok.. wasn't realli very tough compared to de mr tay's training.. bt well at least we are learning as we go along.. monkey mentioned tt de team wasn't bonded together.. bt well.. it's hard to bring everyone together.. any comments or suggestions?! let's hope tt we will have a trip overseas den.. haha.. it's easier tis way..
have to do de op slides le.. and there's hw to b completed!! oh ya.. jj had a small black out on fri.. lasted for de whole day though.. phy lect was cancelled was quite happy bout it.. haha cuz we're having phy for 3 hrs due to de phy prac turned tutorial.. most of us were hoping tt lessons would b cancelled for de whole day bt.. fat hope!! we still hab to carry on wif lessons in a dark n warm situation.. bt it wasn't realli tt bad afterall... life is never smooth sailing rite... becuz of a survey.. i found out tt there are hypocrites in my class!! n it was so unexpected can.. never judge a book by it's cover sia...

end of promos

didn update for some time.. promos had ended.. n well.. results are all out.. as expected.. failed all a subs.. haiz.. suddenli i c no light in front of mi.. mayb i expected for a miracle? i dunno.. bt i'm still hoping tt somehow de teachers can pull mi up.. bt mayb i shld realli think bout other alternatives.. even if i gt promoted m i able to pull myself up?! or do i realli deserve another chance?! haiz.. i dunno anithing.. i'm juz hoping for de best.. i dunno wad to tell mi parents.. i dunno wad to expect.. i dunno wad to do.. i juz feel so lost... had training on mon.. realli didn feel like going.. didn wan anyone to ask mi bout my results.. i tried so hard to hide everything.. heng training was quite ok.. manage to pass tt few hrs.. feeling some aches now.. haha old liaoz..
had been watching stairway to heaven tis few days.. it's nice n touching bt i didn cry at all.. haha no heart.. i like de song.. n chengjun is beri beri shuai!! as usual.. korean shows almost have de same plot.. n i noticed tt they almost cry in every disc.. bt well.. to find a guy like chengjun i think it will onli happen in dramas.. haha..
i feel so tired.. i juz hope tis wk will pass quietly....

when i'm going through all tis.. who was there for mi?

promos!!

ok.. officially 2 down.. another 2 to go.. 1st papers were gp n chi.. write till my hand nearli fei diao.. i think my compo didn realli do well.. n my aq wasn't very well written.. towards de end i panicked n i think i wrote craps.. haiz.. chi essay was ok.. de topic was quite easy.. i wrote de 1 on ou xiang haha.. bt dun think i'll gt high marks lahz.. my chi so horrible haha.. de han zi part i think i'm lucky enough to gt 1 correct haha.. well.. dunno how i will do for de paper too.. shall nt make any guesses.. todae had econs paper.. think i will fail de essays!? 25 marks i write 2 pages onli n de 15 marks i write 2 para!?!? n my whole hand is covered by liquid paper.. haiz.. data response de first 10 marks was ok.. bt later 10 marks was horrible.. de part i tot wasn't important come out.. killed me right on de spot.. 5 marks i didn write much.. think de 4 marks part i oso writing crap.. shall keep my fingers cross... hope i can still pass overall.. if nt i'm soo dead... aniway i slacked a lot todae.. watched tv de whole day.. scv n tapes of shows tt i recorded for de past wk.. so relaxing haha..
backtrack a little.. went mac study wif nu er on sun.. atualli it supposed to b on sat bt.. well she slept late so muz let her slp more n when she's awake it's my turn to feel slpy haha.. so postponed to sun.. went down quite late bout 430.. studied a little as i wait for her to come.. haha.. she came at bout 5 plus bahz.. didn realli tok for some time so i manage to cover bout 1 or 2 topics.. think she manage 1 or 2 pages.. oppz.. after tt feel so bored n started chatting wif her.. haha we left bout 9 plus 10 bahz.. chatted for quite long.. accompanied her sit 99 home while i take de rounding.. chose a wrong seat cuz de air con was blowing directly n it was an empty hole! so we were veri cold.. nearli shaking haha.. bt it was blowing directly at her.. poor thing.. after she gt down de bus i changed a seat where i could adjust de air con.. it's nt so cold afterall haha.. felt a little guilty cuz i was de 1 hu asked her out to study n ended up chatting more den studying haha.. oppz.. mayb wasted her 3 to 4 hrs.. actualli wanted to call her out again during de 3 days of study break i hab.. bt i slacked on mon n went studying on tues wif manying n mama and we ended up chatting lots bout vb haha.. all de happy memories brought back.. bt well did manage to study a little.. haha didn wan to disturb nu er on wed as it was de last day to chiong.. haha.. so eventualli i slacked more den i studied.. final outcome.. don't noe yet bt i'm keeping my fingers crossed till de final verdict......

colours award

wanna update a little on de colours award ceremony tt took place todae.. had lessons in de morning and i went to meet zihui n lihui before going down to mgs.. was kinda lost as we cannot locate de sch.. haha called youyi bt she dun wanna ans my phone call (evil) haha.. so i called jos instead.. thanks for ur directions!! zihui called liz too bt think she's also a bit confused.. bt well.. we manage to gt there on time.. had walk up a hill (sort of) to de sch.. now i noe y liz so fit haha.. mayb she's late den hab to run all de way up everyday.. ok.. nt furni.. hmm upon entering we saw whole lot of cars at de porch.. it's like in de afternoon.. don't they hab to work!? they nearli jam up de whole road.. haha rich kids r littat.. gt chauffers.. xing fu haha.. aniway we walked quite a distance to find a toilet.. n we r like bao dao wan.. haha so hot can.. de shoes "bite" my leg!! was feeling very uncomfortable all de way.. took some pics too.. went to eat wif mama at jp after tt..
shall backtrack a little.. went to celebrate mid-autum festival on sun (18/9) was quite fun.. haha played wif candles n sparklers.. actualli it's quite bored to play wif those things by urself.. therefore it's de company tt matters.. hadn't seen dem for quite a while.. so was quite happy to meet up wif dem.. esp nu er.. didn c her frm dunno when.. haha can't even rmb de last time i saw her.. hmm.. they didn change a lot.. onli hair longer bahz haha.. nu er even had de same shampoo smell as b4.. haha.. aniway.. had lessons on mon so i went back a little earli den dem.. nu er accompanied me to de bus stop.. chat a little.. bt de bus came promptly.. tink it was quite late le so didn stayed on longer.. conclusion: it was a fun day.. haha..
read through nu er's journal juz now.. notice tt she's very sensitive to my moods ar.. hmm mayb not now lahz.. haha.. hey dun worri it's nt u.. u noe.. women r made of water.. they have no fix shape thus we r fickle minded.. haha.. mayb tt time is stress bahz.. so i like a bit moody?! aniway i realli miss those times.. can't imagine de yr is coming to an end soon.. don't noe wad will happen after tis 14 days.. my fate all depend on this.. i dunno if i will screw this.. bt i'm sensing some bad omen.. haiz.. i really dun wanna leave my team at tis time.. n manying.. stop making mi feel guilty!! i oso dun wan tis kind of results de u noe.. haha aniway thanks for helping mi too.. =p it's kinda late now.. at least to mi lahz.. so tata guyz!!

haven been blogging for quite some time.. n i think i'm too lazy to blog after tis.. mayb tis shall b my last post till after de promos? another 17 days would b de start of my promo paper.. eekz.. n i shall confess tt i haven really started much on revision!?!? haiz... lazy bones doing the work again.. ok shall back track a little..
went back to sch during the holidays for extra lessons.. the lessons wasn't supposed to b tt long.. bt miss yew wanted more time to go through the tutorials n assignments.. she actualli reserved 2 slots for revision bt we didn't touch on ani.. haha as usual lahz.. we spent much more time going through the tutorial.. aniway stayed back till 6 on 1 day n 4 plus on another.. de rest were considered short days.. spend 1 sun doing up mr tay's present.. it was quite nice.. bt due to time constrain, de present wasn't realli done.. bt it was at least 3/4 done.. we rushed through sun and spend more time on mon.. we celebrated faye's bday on sun too.. was a bit late bt it's better den nth rite.. haha.. bought her a cake which was yummylicious.. took a few pics here n there too.. de incomplete present ended up slpin in my drawer.. hope it will not b too belated for mr tay.. haha.. oh ya we bought him a shirt too.. wasn't cheap ok.. haha.. we spent loads of time thinking of wad to buy for him.. aniway.. had fun during those days... in the process.. brought back many memories too.. heez...
i think i had wed n mon off during de 1 wk.. mon was dedicated to present making.. n wed.. spend some time in bl mac studying wif mama.. although i onli managed to do my assignments.. it was better den nth.. at least i could say tt i realli understand tt topic.. fri went to study too.. did my maths ws.. most of de ques i dunno how to do.. heez.. thanks to mama n lyn teaching mi.. if not i think i sure leave all blank de.. sat was quite lazy so i didn go studying wif lyn.. end up most of de paper i dunno how to do.. damn pek cek.. haha
the holidays ended in a blink of an eye.. bt i think i slp quite a lot.. haha at least 12 hrs a day..(excluding those days i need to wake up for lessons)
there's lots of hw to b done today.. n i'm still here blogging.. arghhh... anyway i shld go now if not i would not b able to finish dem by todae... tatazzz

dePreSseD...

hmm.. was feeling kind of down for todae.. in fact for other days as well.. think i'm going to suffer frm depression if this carries on.. there's cause n effect on everything.. i totally n i realli mean totally SCREWED my common tests... ahhh!!! fail so badly.. even econs which i think mayb i could actualli pass (juz pass)... bt i'm so wrong man.. haizzz... i think i already have 1 foot either in MI or poly... n as i think back... i'm such a failure.. i can't do anithing rite.. n nothing seems to go my way.. haizzz... hmm.. shall blame myself for not working hard enough.. with all de slackings and stuff going on... i juz while my time away during many occasions.. bt can't deny de fact tt i'm busy rite.. wif all de competitions going on.. trainings blah blah... well juz comforting myself.. actualli i think tt even if it's something i like to do... it becomes a burden when it's so intensive or frequent.. it's dragging me away frm wad i am supposed to do.. wad's sad is i can't even gt a stand in tt.. m i wasting too much time on tt?! seriously there's juz something wrong wif me.. n i think it's so unfair to be called away frm my priorities to juz do nothing there.. it's ok when i'm free.. bt apparently i'm not.. especially during tis period when i'm juz struggling to stay alive.. mayb in de end i will not gain anything frm it.. perhaps i shld juz let go.. let mi drown n die.. stress... haiz... it's such a headache to think bout how to pass my promos n overall.. all de Fs n Os falling in love wif me..
competitions started long ago.. shall update a little.. lost 1 match against red team.. left 3 matches to de end of everything.. red team is gd i can say.. especially wif xiuyi in there.. think dot might b a gd opponent to dem.. jia you!!
last bt not least... i'm juz a total failure in every aspect.. tazzz..

unLucKy..

hmm.. hadn't been a smooth wk for mi.. my eyes hab been giving mi probs.. first was infection.. tot tt it was ok already.. bt.. ytd during match my eyes was damn red.. n i realli mean RED.. even i was shocked when i looked into de mirror.. eekz.. dunno whether it's sore eyes or de infection had worsen.. eekz.. going blind soon.. anione wanna b my eyes!? haha.. aniway.. shall tok a little bout de matches..
sat, went out earli to study wif zihui n rena.. bt end up didn study a lot too.. practice on 1 chap onli.. haiz.. bt was beri tired.. cuz i didn slp well de night b4.. eekz.. bt heng didn play de match.. dun think i'll b on form too.. haha... didn like tampines sports hall... think they didn perform up to standard.. played 5 sets.. n all was like close fight.. oh well.. juz a warm up match bahz.. haha.. had to keep my eyes small all de way home.. bt laughed a lot along de way.. heez.. reached home watch tv n went to slp.. woke up earli today.. at 6 on a sun!! eekz.. kok hua drove mi n zihui there.. warm up a little.. bt todae didn even gt to sit bench.. hab to change out of jersey cuz we hab 17 players when we onli need 12.. hmm.. think they played well todae.. haha bt it's home ground so there's no logic tt they couldn't perform.. or mayb de opponents wasn't very gd.. bt almost all de bench players gt a chance to go down.. haha.. my eyes still as red as ever todae.. so i didn wear contacts.. n i think i didn slp well last night n my neck was.... oww... haha.. kinda lucky tt i didn hab to play.. bt well.. wasn't very willing to gt out of bed so earli juz to go n watch matches.. aniway.. continued to watch de matches there till bout 11 plus 12.. wanna c red team play.. bt i think it was no fight lahz.. so went off after de 1st set.. didn gt to c xiaowei play afterall.. haha.. bt xiuyi was impressive.. as usual lahz.. hmm.. de following matches i think we could b habing quite a tough fight.. wasn't realli training much tis days.. so i can say tt i ain't very confident in playing for dem... stress u noe.. think zihui could cope well bahz.. haha mama jia you!!
oh ya.. had napfa tis wk.. 5 stations.. think i've improved de overall grade bahz.. 2.4 wasn't beri fast bt at least i've broke my own record.. haha.. standing broad jump was a new record.. 210.. sit n reach wasn't beri gd.. bt at least i've hit a c.. my sit n reach had always been lousy de.. shuttle run oso beaten my own record.. 10.1 wha was kinda amazed.. n i think i even had a slow start... haha a bit retard.. dunno if mr ang seen properly.. pull up oso improved.. did 20.. think it's more den enough haha.. i wasn't very gd at pull up.. doing 20 is already a feat.. haha bt my class ppl almost all did 20.. impressive.. n way to go!! mr ang was kinda gd to us cuz it's like nt beri standard bt he still count.. haha.. ok lahz... tt's all for de week.. shall rest my eyes le.. n study tml... common tests coming!! n i'm so sure i'm going to screw it again... arghz!!

-pasta-

i forget to mention bout an incident tt happened i think 2 wks ago?! haha.. it's on a tues.. we went to jp n gt hunted by someone.. he wanted us to do a survey for him.. haha.. it's a pizzahut survey on the new dishes.. so we hab free lunch so y not!? de pasta was ok.. nice at first bt veri filling.. feel like puking after i finished it.. n de mushroom tasted weird.. haha.. we were given a 5 dollar voucher after tt.. haha aniway.. went to walk round jp after tt.. saw felicia chin shooting tong xin yuan i think.. haha dayang was there too.. she smiled in our direction a few times.. i guess cuz we're de onli ones standing there to watch haha.. she's quite pretty wor... haha.. a free lunch n free show.. haha wad a day...
went sakae on thurs... it was quite fun.. haha bt we didn realli eat a lot.. compared to those i went wif peifen n joanna.. bt we ate enought to cover de cost.. haha.. my eyes were feeling realli uncomfortable tis days.. so i went to de optician to have a check... waited for a while there.. luckily my classmates where so kind to wait wif mi.. if not i'll b stoning.. haha.. had a little checkup done n found out tt i've an infection.. couldn't wear contacts for a wk.. n hab to go to a doc if de situation worsen.. eekz.. bought an eyedrop.. cuz i didn hab my specs on.. i'm pratically blind on thurs.. haha kind jesslyn became my eyes of de day.. haha wore specs on fri to sch.. look so weird.. haha.. guess i'm nt used to wearing specs le.. hab to wear it on mon tues n wed too!! didn go for training on fri.. guess i'm partly lazy n my eyes r too uncomfortable for mi to focus.. went home to zzz haha.. eekz.. wore specs for training on sat too.. some of dem say i look like a nerd.. some kinder souls say i look cute wif specs on... defination for cute: ugly bt adorable (adapted frm peiyan haha) eekz... aniway i'm used to such comments haha.. better den mi going blind rite!? haha.. aniway i think my eyes are ok now.. at least nt tt pain n red now..
common tests coming bt i'm still slacking away.. it's juz like 1 plus wk away?! n i still haven start studying.. haiz.. competitions coming oso.. which means my weekends might not b free for mi to study.. *panick* haiz.. gt to go do hw now n start a little revising now.. tataz~

fri had interhouse competition.. wasn't realli lucky as we kena de champs owens in de first round.. which means we have to settle for a 3rd.. was aiming for a 2nd at least.. bt well.. due to time constrain.. de arrangement wasn't realli fair.. haha bt nvm.. it's juz a game.. after de matches.. some of us stayed back to play 3 on 3.. very fun cuz we hab to run a lot.. n i gt to spike!! haha..
hadn't been blogging for a long time.. as usual i'm lazy haha.. lots of events happened n i couldn't realli rmb all of dem.. mayb i could tok bout de acc night which i went on sat.. abandoned a wedding dinner becuz of tt.. it was ok.. de ambience was there.. bt no tables wif chairs.. de tables n chairs were separated.. eekz.. de food wasn't tt fantastic.. there were some performances n some of us followed de mass dance.. tt part was fun bt too bad i forget de steps le haha.. oh ya... we celebrated dewen's bday before de dinner.. i accompanied manying to cut hair den we went to buy a cake at prima deli.. we bought an oreo cake.. it was delicious!! haha..
sun my class went bukit batok home for de aged to do cip.. de old folks there look so lonely.. bt i can't speak cantonese which most of dem spoke so i didn realli communicate wif dem.. mr sin n miss yew went along wif us.. n did some of de ice breaker.. mr sin started off wif de table tennis game.. 1 old lady came n played wif my classmates for quite a long time.. so active ah.. haha.. some of us cut orange n make coffee for dem n distributed dem.. it was considered fun.. bt it was tiring.. before we left.. we went for a tour around de home.. it was quite sad looking at those less fortunate ones.. i'll never abandon my parents in such a home.. went window shopping at west mall after tt.. after tt went home n rush my hw.. zZz..
had yoga lesson today.. was kinda fun haha.. bt i can c tt my sit n reach realli sux.. haha.. my bones r stiff!! going to hab napfa on wed i think.. eekz.. rushed home to watch our finals.. so nice to look back at memories....... pleasant memories... =D looking forward to having a gathering wif all de seniors... it's so boring without their presence during training.. ok i'm back to de video!!

0raL

eekz.. todae is de big day.. it's chi oral for a levels!! n i think i totally screwed it.. hmm including de ones i took when i was in pri sch... i think tis is de worst 1 tt i've done.. de reading part.. eekz.. so jerky all de way.. it's like a car travelling on a road of stones.. i even stop halfway suddenli cannot continue.. n de examiner asked mi not to b nervous.. kind rite?! i think they're nice ppl.. haha de conversation was ok lahz.. didn realli do execptionally well.. n when i was about to go.. i asked dem for my ezlink which i kept it at de start n apparently.. i forget bout it!!! so embarrassing can... bleahz.. i think converse more in eng now tt's y when i read it's not fluent.. ok nt tt i speak totally eng bt it's more frequent den when i was in hy.. n i'm partly affected by huai an!!!! he read so loud lahz.. n he's command of chi stronger.. in circumstances like tt.. wun u feel stress!? i think it's onli when he ended tt i started to calm down.. okok.. stop finding excuses.. haha i'm lousy.. i admit.. argh... aniway.. oral is a small part of de chi exams.. so i shall nt stress myself further.. n u noe.. i've gt lots of pimples now already?!!? there's 3 tests tis wk.. mon was maths test n wif my intelligence.. u shld noe how i do rite.. (flunk) tues was econs test n worse.. couldn even gather my tots n i was writing all rubbish n it's so short can.. disgusting.. fri we're having phy test n i noe tt i couldn't gt past tt too.. haiz.. if onli life is as easy as abc.. think i've been slacking all de way since start of sch.. de days past very quickly n in de blink of an eye.. common tests r round de corner.. so hate jc life.. bt de ppl in jj r all very nice... de teachers too.. realli enjoy my stay in jj... bt obviously nt studying.. haha
todae's my sis grad nite.. bt they onli giv 2 tickets.. n i wasn't realli interested in going.. so i stayed home.. my mum wanted us to take a family photo wif my sis in her grad gown.. my mum oso said tt we will take another 1 when i grad.. haha i told her tt wait till i can realli grad den say.. expectations can realli b horrible.. sat is de meet de parents session le.. dunno wad will they say bout my results.. haiz..
shall nt think of it now.. chuan dao qiao tou zhi ran zhi..............

haven been blogging for a long time.. haha.. paiseh peps.. apparently i've been to lazy to online.. haha.. hmm.. lots of things to blog since it's been a long time since i've logged onto here.. shall provide a brief summary bahz..
last mon, a few of us went to watch initial d together.. it was a weekday bt u can realli c de crowd there.. we weren't late in buying de tickets.. n even bought de later slot de.. bt it was onli 6 rows behind de screen.. a little strain in de neck bt nevertheless.. de movie was nice.. wasn't realli great lahz.. bt at least u can c all de shuai geS featuring in de show.. esp edison!!!! he was damn cute lahz.. wuhoooo!! n of cuz shawn and jay wasn't tt bad.. de movie is more to de comedy side bahz.. n it's most exciting when they r racing.. esp de last part.. haha.. went home straight after de movie cuz my mama was at home..
had a long wkend cuz it's youth day!! yey... wasn't realli woken frm de 1 mth june holiday.. was rather looking forward to tis long wkend too.. sat had training so it wasn't realli tt fun.. my first plan for sun was to go eat prata at upper thomson road wif my classmates.. however, many of de gers couldn't make it.. so we decided to cancel it... owww.. bt nvm.. there's always another time.. i'm sure we could find a day when every of us can make it.. 2nd plan of de day was playing mahjong wif zihui lyn n manying.. send dem a msg quite late.. luckily all haven slp.. heez.. quite happy tt they can make it or else i'll b bored to death at home.. lyn was de winner of de day wif lots of furni events frm manying.. i oso nt bad lahz.. frm lose quite a lot till no win no lose.. haha.. lyn had to leave earli cuz she had another mahjong appointment wif her frens.. wad a "du gui" haha.. hope i could find time for another session like tis..
mon was youth day holiday.. n it's liz's bday so we organised a small party for her.. 5 of us went to eat seoul garden at bugis.. yum yum.. manying met me at clementi b4 going down together bt she was late so we both reached late.. therefore we went to buy a cake for liz in breadtok.. manying had a voucher so we bought a bigger size cake.. haha.. in seoul garden we ate lots n lots of hotdogs... haha it's more like a hotdog meal for mi.. we couldn't finish de cake cuz everyone was like.. whaaa so fulll... esp manying.. haha her expression was hilarious.. so liz brought some of de cake home.. lyn hab to leave earli cuz she met her frens to watch initial d.. poor lyn hab to take a cab down.. all in all.. it was a fun day.. bt i was kinda broke after all those spendings haha.. hope we could gather more often n the best outcome is when de whole team is here... haiz.. i missed dem all..
todae is a tutorial day.. n worst of all.. we had pc as de very first lesson and even worst.. we had mr tay as our pc teacher.. eekz.. actualli he wasn't realli fierce cuz i've seen more.. bt his training beri tiring.. run bout 8-9 rounds in total.. so tired after tt.. had maths tutorial next n we kena scolding by miss yew cuz we were late by 10 mins.. haiz.. however.. today everyone gt bitten by de laughing bug.. cuz mr sin is de joker of de day.. hard to elaborate.. wanna noe?! ask mi!! haha *yawnz* so tired... gonna catch a little nap now.. tataz!!

hmm.. didn blog for quite a few days le.. juz some little updates..
had a match wif de malaysian dunno wad team haha bt they r real pros.. some state players or ex state players or national youth players and wadeva.. haha.. even though we lost by quite a lot.. i really enjoyed de game.. to hab de chance to play wif de seniors again.. had a little help frm rena too.. haha.. de score didn realli change much bt at least she helped us gain a few more points.. after de match we were waiting for lunch time to come.. lihui n diana went home to study cuz their mid yr is round de corner.. rena joined us too.. how i wish she will come to jj haha.. realli embarassing cuz we're de onli ones tt wore shorts to de i dunno wad place.. bt seems kinda grand to mi.. sat in a police van on de way there.. was quite comfortable except tt it's very bumpy.. haha wad an experience.. we were laughing all de way there n still laughing during lunch.. some furni events along de way.. it's hard to NOT laugh when u're wif us.. de feeling was realli great n i realli missed all de seniors.. hope there's still chances for us to keep playing as a team.. after lunch we went back to sch for training.. i physcoed rena to jj too haha.. played a little 2 on 2.. was quite fun having her there.. she doubled as a coach.. teaching us stuffs haha.. pros r afterall pros.. =D de day's over bt it's definately worth remembering..
went to sentosa ytd.. had a realli mini gathering.. there's onli 8 ppl.. n onli 3 of us were gers.. pathetic rite.. aniway de weather was gloomy ytd.. realli horrible day if u intend to gt a gd tan.. was raining on n off n there was pratically no sun.. actualli i wasn't realli enthu in going bt i went since i promised jeannie n de weather worsened everything.. anyway.. it wasn't realli boring as we played a little vb.. although they didn noe how to play bt i think it wasn't tt bad for beginners.. saw brenda there too.. think she didn recognise mi.. she's realli skinny in her bikini bt i admired her pacs.. saw a few familiar faces there too.. went of quite earli to play pool.. haha didn realli play beri long bt was quite fun.. laughed a lot throughout de games..
tis is de last wk for de holidays.. didn realli hab time to play cuz there's lessons n lots of trainings.. had lots of uncompleted hw too.. i wonder if i realli can finish dem on time.. aniway.. hope fri sentosa gathering will b successful.. haha if no 1 organise.. i'll realli cry haha.. n i wish tt de sun will b bigbig juz like de time when i went wif dem.. n more ppl to go cuz it'll b more fun!! arghz... hab to finish my hw soon or i'll b dead when sch reopens.. tatazz

finally all de u-19 matches r over.. think de 2nd round matches didn play well bahz.. my setting.. haiz.. getting frm bad to worse.. somebody help!! i think we realli shouldn't hab gt into 2nd round.. like nt taking things beri seriously lehz.. n 1 conclusion.. ppl will think we r realli tyco to win dot.. mayb to us we realli did our best n gt de result we wanted.. bt our best couldn't last.. or mayb we r juz too tired.. tis wk is realli hectic for mi.. frm mon till todae.. non stop.. everyday vb.. eekz.. i notice tt de more i play de more problems i discover.. how how how?!!??! how can i rectify all my que dians!?!? after de finals.. we've been training de new comers.. been training on defence more.. so now my defence better den last time bt my setting.. haiz.. dunno when den i can realli train on setting more.. i realli need someone to help mi correct my probs.. nxt wk is de selection for de open cup team n national youth.. national youth shld b out of my reaches.. haha.. hope to make it to de open cup team even if sit bench.. think i really need de colours award.. de way i keep failing my tests.. i dun even hab time to catch up on my studies seeing de way my days had been packed fully.. haiz so tired.. kinda regret going into jc life.. bt i think de poly students oso kinda busy.. haha.. worried bout my pw, studies, setting.. ahh!! i think i'm going to go mad soon.. haiz.. think i'm going to start on my hw soon or i'll b dead next wk..

nt been blogging for many days.. hmm didn hab de chance to online.. shall recap a bit.. went sentosa a few days ago.. although not many ppl went.. it was fun!! n was realli very hot.. de sand was sweltering.. step on it can feel my leg being cooked.. played vb, soaked in water for a while haha.. went kayaking(pardon mi if i spell wrongli =P) too.. first time wor haha.. thanks to shirlyn for teaching mi how to.. peiyan went off earli cuz she gt piano lessons.. zihui went off around 5 too.. haha meet papa.. saw lots of ppl there too.. hmm.. after washing up we went to harbour front to eat.. cuz too many ppl waiting for bus, we WALKED all de way out.. went we reached de foodcourt we were like wha.. so tired to eat liaoz.. haha.. took some pics along de way.. quite nice.. bt i cut my hair so ugli.. eekz... spoil de pics.. haha.. i'm de redest of all haha.. n i looked like lobster eekz.. haha.. shirlyn was de blackest of all.. can compare to indian le haha.. overall it's a fun day!! hope we could go again wif a bigger grp.. let's all hab fun!!
ytd was a tiring day for mi.. woke up earli in de morn to attend lesson.. afterwhich went to eat wif joscelin n went for training.. training was ok.. not realli beri tiring.. had match after tt too.. i think we all played well ytd.. de spirit was up.. mayb it's becuz we watched jssa n rz de match.. so cool lahz.. make mi feel "hot" haha.. applauses for jurong players.. although i think they didn perform up to standard bt de 2nd set was yi ji bang.. frm rz leading 22 to 11 jurong won dem.. yey!! *claps* i think 2nd set was de best.. they fought hard n never give up.. even though they lost.. to mi i feel tt they hab won.. didn watch de 3rd set cuz we were warming up for our match.. we played 3 sets to.. de 1st set wasn't very gd.. bt we kinda expected to lose.. 2nd set we done well n lead all de way... our spirit was high n our juniors cheered for us.. 3rd set was gd too.. although they caught up alot in de middle bt we still fought on n had de last laugh.. it was cool for a team to stop training for so long n had such results.. well done gers!!!
todae.. wasn't gd.. might b bcuz of some matters tt affected some of their mood.. on the way to ccab i was still hoping tt mayb our unexpected victory ytd might pull up our morale for todae.. even if we were to lose we should lose it in a champions way.. bt i think today we juz couldn't do it.. smb didn perform to their fullest too.. bt we did worse.. haiz.. was realli disappointed.. tot tt we could take down de 2nd set.. we were leading quite a lot in front.. bt i think de mood was nt there.. actually.. should we realli gt into de 2nd round?! it might not realli b a bad thing if we did nt make it.. at least we wun hab such problems.. thurs might juz b our last match together as a team.. i hope we could end it in a nice way.. bt will i b given a chance??! tt day is the source of all probs.. haiz.. nvm.. we could still do it.. there's still a chance.. de worse feeling is regret.. i've tasted it n i dun like de feeling.. so i'll always try to nt regret any decision i make or in anithing i do.. esp during matches.. i try to make myself nt so stress as to perform better.. i keep my xing qing light too.. i think i did my best todae.. nt tt i set beri well.. bt at least i tried my best to keep de team up to cheer to smile.. bt it should b a team effort.. i shld say humans r easily affected.. emotion wise.. 1st time i c coach so quiet throughout de match.. he's face oso beri black.. haiz.. hope we'll do better tml.. jia you bahz..

wad is a blog.. it's sum sort of an online diary where u could record down events of ur life or ani particular feelings u haf.. bt there r lots of things tt could not b written down here.. so wad for own a blog?! to say nice things or record gd feelings u haf? wad about de bad events or feelings.. it takes a lot of courage to actualli criticise someone in a public blog like tis.. n if someone ever does tt to u.. i think u hab to realli look back on ur doings.. quiet ppl are always on the losing end cuz no matter wadeva u do.. u'll nber gt de credit.. it's always the people who dare to speak up gets all de attention.. so in wadeva u do.. dun b shy.. juz speak up.. it's juz the 2 extremes.. u either gt admired or u gt hated for de way u speak.. the quiet ones will juz remain status quo.. ppl look at u n forget u.. it's realli sad n u'll nber understand de feeling cuz u're always getting attention.. sometimes it's good to hold back a little when u're "joking" cuz u'll nber noe when u'll break one of ur inferior fren's fragile heart.. there's always ups and downs in one's life.. ask mi y de sudden "gan chu".. i dunno.. might b bcuz i'm bored.. might b bcuz of de music i'm listening to.. might b i'm tired of life.. dun assume tt u're a goody goody as long as u gt a circle of frens.. cuz u'll never know when they'll hate u in secret..
enough of tt.. been watching tv de whole day.. didn touch my hw.. realli no mood.. nice weather to slp in too.. de matches starting tml.. wish us luck.. it's takes real lot of commitment to actually do wad u say.. so dun make empty promises.. it's nt gd to give ppl hope bt to crush it at de very last min.. sometimes tears juz drop down automatically.. bt sometimes even when u'll feeling realli bad u couldn't cry.. its always times like tis when u feel very down.. juz like wad ppl always say.. cry it out, it makes u feel better.. n i agree.. it's very true.. bt it's very hard to force tears out.. n i mean genuine tears.. oppz.. tis entry becuming beri opinionated.. wadeva.. agree wif mi?! or nt.. hu cares..

haiz..

hmm.. tis wk wasn't realli fantastic.. suddenli realise tt i had been failing most of my test.. actually didn tot much of it.. till todae when i start toking to zihui bout exams.. eekz.. had i been playing n slacking too much tt i fail to cope wif my studies?! haiz.. kinda upset lahz.. bt nt bout de results cuz i noe tt i hadn been really studying.. either toking or kinda day dream.. juz can't seem to focus.. dunno lectures too boring or wad.. always focus for a while den start drifting off.. mayb cuz i dun realli understand wad de lecturer trying to say so my mind auto shut off.. haiz.. realli lost now.. dunno how can i brush up on my work.. it's like i have 101 question marks in my head.. change a new gp tutor.. dun realli like him.. he's furni lahz.. bt i dun understand wad he's saying lehz.. zZz..
ok enough of bad stuffs.. training finally started.. waited so long for tis day.. actualli de seniors wanted to come back bt due to some stuffs.. they didn turn up.. realli miss dem a lot.. hope we could find a day when we r all free to watch de video or hab a gathering or something.. hmm.. training was ok.. teaching those new comers de basics.. kinda fun.. didn train much too cuz keep raining.. supposed to hab training on fri as well bt mr tay cancelled it cuz nt much ppl going.. bt we stayed back for a while to play too.. couldn realli confirm on de training days.. kinda frustrated by de changing of times and days.. so troublesome keep contacting ppl bout tis n tt.. hf having pre u sem for de whole of next wk.. missing trainings n de u19 cup.. bt i think it doesn't realli matter.. feel realli sorri for nt going to "pei" wif dem for de u19 cup.. realli wanted to join dem bt didn hab de time.. at least i went for 1 time rite?! haha.. a bit like gu fu coach cuz we said we wanted to join bt didn go back to train.. aniway will do my best to set well for de team.. let's jia you k?! we'll go through thick n thin together =P shall stop here le.. lappy no batt le.. think to slp.. tata!

hmm.. i'm officially 17 now!! haha receive lots of msg n some presents frm my frens.. special thanks to my triple js grp plus derek (pardon mi if i miss ani of u hu shared for de present) , ah ma n bear, manying, mama n wanling.. for all ur presents.. i love dem all.. =D brief summary on de pass few days...
20/5
had econs tutorial and after tt went to de cafe where they bought a small cake n kinda celebrated my bday.. thanks guys.. after tt went kbox wif joscelin, abel, derek, jesslyn, jeannie n zach.. sang quite a lot of songs.. n they all beri gao xiao.. n i found out tt jess beri qiang.. she can rap pan wei bo's songs.. *jaw drop* haha after tt jess, jos, jean n zach came my house for a few rounds of mahjong.. was very fun bt think will b more exciting if we played wif money haha.. aniway i'm de big winner!! haha played till 5 plus den they went off.. slack for a while before going off to ccab to meet up wif mi sec sch vb frens.. dad drove mi there.. haha.. hmm.. played a few games wif de moe team.. bout 5 days didn touch ball kinda lost touch le.. haha.. didn set well.. aniway juz playing for fun.. played till 10 littat den went to kap for a drink.. chatted a while and went home in a cab.. reached home bout 11 plus.. tt's my day.. haha
21/5
considered quite a boring day.. went for training.. met mama at je.. she gave mi a hug n wished mi happi bday.. haha thanks mama.. after which she passed mi a present frm manying.. guess wad she gave mi!? a muffin!! haha.. which was left overnight cuz she bought it n pass it to mama ytd n mama gave it to mi today.. eekz.. bt it was nice.. haha.. such a weird present horz.. haha training wasn't beri sun li todae.. didn set well.. getting more n more lousy.. think i beri stress there bahz.. train till 6 plus den went home.. eat my mee sua den watch tv all de way.. sianz.. haha..
22/5
went to eat breakfast wif parents.. den go guan yin miao bai bai.. wha lao so many ppl lorz.. squeeze like sardines.. kena pushed here n there.. den ppl so sweaty brush past my hands.. eekz.. after bai bai went jp to cut hair.. hmm.. dunno wad hairstyle i wan so juz call de person to recommend lorz.. end up she cut till beri short... eekz.. dun realli like it.. bt at least my hairstyle change le bahz.. nvm it will grow back again.. haha n i think will grow back to b de same hairstyle as last time.. always littat de lahz.. used to it.. =P hmm.. today oso quite boring bahz.. hab to rush my hw.. lots n lots of dem.. aniway juz wanna thank u guys for all de msg n presents.. =) gonna slack off again.. tata!

zzZzz

hmm.. juz finished eating my maggie mee alone.. did i every say tt i hate to be alone or even feel alone!? in de past, i used to have little time for hw.. n used to rush here n there.. going for trainings.. even during wed sometimes muz rush to other schs for training.. n wed it's my onli earli day (2pm) tt i can go home earli n slp.. bt now when i can finalli come home to rest n rush my mountain like hws, i feel weird.. last time i always manage to finish (either do it or copy) my hw juz on time.. bt now when i have more time, i feel tt de hw is never-ending.. like todae do tml's work den tml oso gt work n more work... dunno is de workload increasing or wad.. haha.. furni rite!? i think i'm still not use to not seeing my teammates everyday.. or even not touching vb for a few days.. might b due to de post intensive training syndrome haha..
saw de articles on straits time n lian he zao bao.. think de zao bao 1 more details.. n de picture more cute.. haha.. de straits time 1 beri lousy.. juz 1 picture n even gt de info for a div guys wrong lorz... japalang.. haha dunno when den can go out in 1 whole big grp wif dem again.. haiz.. think we're all busy wif our work.. training starting soon.. will tis new team be de same!?
think my classmates beri cute lahz.. all beri encouraging.. haha wishing mi luck all de way n congratulating mi after de matches.. even now they sometimes will talk bout de cheers.. they're 1 crazy bunch haha.. always doing weird, furni or lame stuffs.. bt it's still fun to be wif dem.. haiz.. now muz rush my gp portfolio le.. till de next post... tata!!

ChAmPs!!!

we are de champions!!! haha can u believe it?! i dun believe it too!! de 1st time in finals.. 1st time in toa payoh.. 1st time getting champs.. i'm elated..
ytd was de finals against nyj.. they trashed us b4 so we're like de team tt's expecting to lose.. bt it's a once in a lifetime match so muz relax n do our best.. de moment i stepped in toa payoh sports hall i was a little nervous n more paiseh haha.. cuz my classmates n those who noe mi where up there cheering.. bt soon i tried to block off de sounds n de view of over a thousand ppl (i think) looking at us.. i could somehow still hear tt it's very noisy bt i think i've successfully focus on de match.. it's was overall an exciting match.. bt is it close?! i dun realli think so.. de sets we lose or won were not as close as 2 pts.. de 4th set we even won dem 25-12.. amazing ya!? for a team hu is kena trashed b4 somehow show them some colours.. i think tt de whole team did great for ytd.. esp zihui n fenghui.. they were de stars of de match.. did great saves n spikes.. played smart n remain calm throughout the game.. i pulled my muscle a little at de 4th match.. luckily nt tt serious.. we were so strong in our mental power.. we didn noe tt we could win.. it came as a huge surprise to us.. n i believe to de audience too.. jj's cheers were loud.. they were sporting.. cheering for other schs as well.. their cheer leading dance was great.. we were thankful for their support.. as usual we jumped n screamed like mad at de last point.. tears of joy laid at de side of our eyes.. some even cried out haha.. i didn feel really nervous n i'm quite amazed.. 1st time so many eyes watching us throughout de match.. haha after the match we had celebration at sizzler.. was really fun too.. laughing n talking bout de match.. took lots of photo till my memory card full.. (ok my mem. card size small lahz haha) onli sad thing is tt poor lihui had stomach cramp tt was so horrible she couldn't eat or walk properly.. bt i noe she's happy.. she went home earlier thus missing out on lots of photo taking.. bt nvm.. we still had next time n next next next times..
although i'm quite tired ytd.. i can't gt to slp.. i can't bear for de day to end.. i'm happy tt we're de champs.. bt i'm sad tt de journey ended so quickly.. in jc everything comes n goes fast.. unlike sec sch where we can slowly train n play together for 4 yrs.. it's even less den a yr.. i didn noe y we clicked so easily.. wad mr tay say ytd was realli true.. he said we hab de making of de champs cuz we have a special chemistry in us.. he saw it when we were in kl.. de trip indeed make us closer.. so close tt i feel so lost when i finally could go home early to rest instead of training.. i feel so weird when i didn c dem.. it wasn't even a day n i started missing dem.. de times we spent together.. bt i guess it's part n parcel of life.. at least we put a beautiful full stop at de end of it.. no regrets.. beautiful game played.. beautiful ending..
i might regret going to jc.. bt i will not regret joining jj vball team.. to b part of dem.. they bring great memories to me... yeah.. i love u guys.. jj vball team rock!! n yes i told ya tt we'll rock toa payoh sports hall!!

-excited-

omg!! can ani one tell mi if i'm dreaming?! till now.. i still can't believe tt we make it to de finals.. i actualli can experience for myself de feeling to b playing in toa payoh sports hall.. MY GOD!! firstly, we shocked lots of ppl by making it to top 8 den top 4 n finally won over de hot favourite aj.. although i think tt we're quite lucky throughout de games, i noe tt tis is wad we deserved.. we trained hard for dem.. we were mentally strong..
we were trashed by aj in de first round.. bt we did nt give up.. we fought on n won tj..
we were trashed by nyj in de second round and again.. we created a miracle n won hc n sa.. although all those matches we won were 2-1 bt it shows tt we r mentally strong n will nt give up till de very last min.. had some frens in hc n sa.. dunno if i should feel sad or happy to win dem.. esp. hc.. cuz de last point of de 3rd set.. i serve a super tyco ball.. if tt ball falls into our court.. think we might nt win dem..when i saw dem cry.. was feeling kinda guilty cuz it's like i've cheated.. n some of my gd frens are in hc.. bt we did nt gu fu dem.. we won aj!!
for semi's we are playing best of 5 sets so we muz win 3 sets in order to win... we won dem 3-2.. was quite amazed tt we took down de 1st set w/o much effort.. comparing wif de first time we played wif dem.. at first i was quite worried tt my stamina would nt take mi through the 5 sets.. bt i was amazed tt even at de 3rd set i wasn realli tired.. back to de game.. de 2nd set we had some problems and i think we kinda tensed up cuz we were thinking of winning.. mr tay calmed us down by calling us to smile and relax.. he told us to play for fun n nt for winning.. de 3rd set we couldn't catch up... no 11 serve was great.. she ended de game by serving a few aces.. for de 4th set.. we were all relaxed cuz we didn expect tt we would win.. no 11 spiked a few very powerful n great balls.. despite de fact tt one of their main player sprained her leg at de first set.. they fought on.. their fighting spirit was there.. bt i think tt de pressure was on their side so they kinda stress.. 4th set was very close.. i almost feel my heart jumping out at certain part of de game.. they were leading 24 22 when i serve.. i was so stress i didn noe whether to serve it high or ping4.. bt their 1st ball was terrific.. i wasn't confident of an ace.. so i juz did my best n hope for a miracle.. fortunately they fumbled a little.. n we manage to catch up wif dem.. *phew* de 5th set.. we were leading all de way.. bt they did a few great spikes too.. bt i still think tt we relax.. so we played to our potential.. we played smart.. dunno y when it was my turn to serve.. i was like trembling.. haha.. de 3rd serve i served it down de net.. (oppz) bt lucky we're like leading by 2 pts!? i noe we wun make silly mistakes after tt.. n true enough... we won... i cannot describe de feeling... when de last whistle sound.. we were jumping n screaming at de top of our voices.. it was a dream come true.. we didn expect to win.. we juz wanted to do our best.. mr tay's strategy prove tt playing vb was all about mind work.. to play smart n nt to play hard.. as long as u do ur best.. u would gt results tt u didn noe u r able to acheive.. i admired aj's libero.. her first ball was terrific!! n no 2.. she's my fren.. although nt beri close.. she's been reserve for so long bt when she went into de court.. she managed to dig up every spikes.. she's great!! and of cuz no 11.. her spikes were so powerful.. i would still clap for her even if we couldn't dig up de ball.. no 7 didn realli spike much.. all in all.. they were a great team.. =)
when i went to c de b gers finals.. i imagined wad it would b like to play in toa payoh sports hall.. i never tot tt i could play in there.. mayb in my dreams.. when i found out tt 3rd n 4th playing in ccab i was like sian diao lorz.. didn noe tt we would walk so far.. exceed our expectations.. our acheivements.. i'm juz so excited.. after de semi's we went to celebrate zihui's bday.. think tt's her best bday present.. haha till 11 of may.. we will nt give up.. we will do our best till de very last whistle.. team jj will rock toa payoh sports hall!! jia you!!

stress

we lost to ny on thurs.. wasn't a very gd match.. 9-25 11-25.. sad as we might b.. we will nt gib up till de very last match.. very last whistle.. ppl learn frm defeats.. learn to fall before succeeding.. we will stand up again.. there's a match on mon.. vs hc.. tis few days beri stress.. trainings more tough den before.. first time i c coach so fierce.. went nan hua pri to train on fri.. floor beri slippery.. bt i feel tt their spikes r more powerful.. train in sch todae.. was beri hot cuz we trained in de afternoon.. think we all sai till beri black.. my face beri red.. like tomato haha.. their spikes were powerful too.. every one is working hard towards a common goal.. top 4.. although i beri bu she de de seniors bt everything has an end.. bt i hope it will b a happy ending for us.. hc had been kicking us out of top 4 for de pass 2 yrs.. we will nt let tis happen again rite?! jia you everyone!!
something beri amazing happened todae.. i was waiting for bus to go to sch.. den at de bus stop i saw someone beri familiar bt i juz dun rmb hu she is.. bt when i board de bus n sit down.. she suddenli ask..
her: u r sharon rite?
me: ya?!
her: u rmb mi?
me: (puzzled face) eh.. no
her: i'm julie ur Kindergarden fren or something
me: (shocked) oh ok...
didn tok for a while.. haha i'm still in a shock tt she actualli recognise mi when i dun hab de slightest idea hu she is! bt i think i rmb there's such a person lahz haha.. was beri curious how cum she recognise mi so...
me: how come u recognise mi ar..
her: u didn changed at all lorz.. juz tt last time u gt long hair n now u gt short hair..
me: (super shocked) haha izzit..
her: rmb we used to pass xmas cards to each other when we were like living next block to each other?
me: (stunned) smile..
her: is it bcuz of my specs tt u didn recognise mi? cuz many ppl cannot recognise mi when i change specs..
me: haha (confused)
all in all.. i'm stunned... haha.. was amazed tt a kindergarden fren actualli could recognise mi.. n rmb such small details like how we pass xmas cards n my hair long or short.. i feel bad tt i didn recognise her lah haha.. bt if i c her again i'll rmb haha.. bt it's kinda weird to tok cuz no topic.. so i didn tok much to her haha.. oh ya.. my face actualli didn change much frm kindergarden till now.. how interesting.. haha..

it had been a tiring wk for mi.. in fact it's more den a wk.. we had trainings everyday for de past 2 wks.. including sat.. so tired.. n i feel tt i'm going to fail all my test cuz i dun quite understand de lesson.. haiz..
we had a match on mon.. against aj.. we didn really perform bt at least we did nt give up easily.. although de scores were kinda ugly.. (25-16 , 25-10) i dunno y lately my setting was like going down de slope.. accelerating every second.. haiz.. mayb it's my confidence level dropping.. hurt my finger during tis match.. bt nt beri serious lahz.. juz gt blood clot den beri ugly..
had a match against tj on fri.. it's nt an easy 1 bt we still manage to win dem 2-0.. de score was very close (21-25 , 23-25) de 1st set was ok.. we either lead dem or equal.. they didn manage to pull de score far.. de 2nd match was draining.. at a certain period of time they were leading bout 7 points.. although i wanted to fight on i kinda going to lose hope.. bt i know we gt a set advantage so i'm nt going to gib up.. we were all exhausted.. if we gt into de 3rd set i dun think we can make it.. luckily we manage to chase up wif de score n finally beat dem.. we were all beri happy.. at de sound of de whistle we all jumped n cheered.. bt after tt i wasn't really tt happy cuz i noe i didn perform.. gt a little scolding frm mr tay.. bt he was still happy wif de results.. so didn say much.. kena hit on de head by de stupid no 15.. n they cheered so loudly.. stupid.. was so angry at tt time.. told 1 of my senior to revenge for mi haha.. she did hit another person face.. i didn like tj for de fact tt there's lots of cch ppl in there.. esp de no 15.. hated her frm dunno when.. de face all so snobbish like they're de king of de world.. was kinda evil to keep laughing bt de winners always hab de last laugh.. was gloating when i saw their sad face.. think tt they cried bt mayb they didn wan us to noe so they wiped it off.. it was nt obvious tt they cried.. i learnt alot frm tis match.. it was an experience tt i didn gt when i was in hy.. in hy, wheneva we were lagging by 5-7 points, it's a gone match cuz we cannot catch up even if we do we will still lose de match.. bt in jj it proved tt as long as we do nt gib up n fight to de end.. miracles can happen.. anything can happen..
there's a match tml.. against mj.. nt supposed to lose bt de ball is round.. ytd training was a disaster.. mr tay wasn't beri happy.. bt i guess we were all tired.. we needed rest.. my legs r aching cuz of de training ytd.. kinda tough.. anyway we will nt slack.. we will b de 1 to enter de 2nd round.. jia you!! hope my setting dun worsen day by day.. gonna do hw now.. cya!

05s32

i wan to comment tt i hab a great class.. even though we onli noe each other for a wk.. i dun feel out of place in class.. normally i wun b close to de class cuz i'm always busy wif vb trainings n stuff.. 05s32 rox!! haha tis wk was a tired 1 cuz we had trainings everyday.. even todae.. played at ccab wif de boon lay twins haha.. they so qiang.. omg.. i feel exhausted lorz.. bt i feel tt our bond is getting better day by day.. mon is our match against aj le.. heard tt they r very gd.. bt no fear.. haha.. hope tt we wun make stupid mistakes on tt day lahz.. dun wanna hab a lousy start.. n yes.. once we conquer aj we hab nth to fear.. our grp is strong lahz.. bt i believe we can do it.. haha toa payoh.. here we come.. hopefully lahz.. 2 more days.. feel so nervous..
went to watch b gers finals ytd.. bt onli manage to catch 1 set jiu muz go off for training.. sianz.. haha.. beri exciting.. 1st match jiu so close fight le.. n heard tt they played 5 sets all beri close fight.. haiz.. i missed a gd show heez..
had lots of hw lately.. n wif all de trainings.. i dun really cope wif my studies.. like there's lots to learn.. didn do ani revision oso.. always rush hw jiu go to slp.. next wk even worse.. hab competitions.. think will leave earli n miss lots of lectures n tutorials.. haiz.. already so blur le still miss so much lessons.. haiz.. bt nvm haha.. if can touch de champion trophy i think it's still worthwhile.. aniway i gt lots of time to catch up wif studies.. provided i kick of my laziness haha..

-camp-

hmm.. due to de fact tt i didn realli go to de camp... i didn find it super fun lahz.. bt i dun deny tt it's quite fun.. haha.. mayb if i went to jj nite it would b more fun haha.. aniway.. we learn cheers n dances.. de dances were cool haha.. bt too bad lahz.. no ideal partner haha.. n it's getting worse everyday!! haha oppz :x had trainings more den camp tis few days.. didn stay overnight oso.. so it's almost like i'm not in de camp lahz.. bt i've spot some shuai ges.. haha..
omg... competition is coming.. n next wk we will train everyday.. ah!!! so xiong lorz.. n hope my mama wun scold.. haiz.. will b coming home late everyday.. worst still.. sch start le.. sure will kena nag n nag.. hmm.. scared i'll miss lectures due to training.. bt it's de first time i feel tt studies not more impt den trainings haha.. mr tay power lahz.. can confront de teacher cuz she asked mi to hab make up lesson.. haha.. bt it's our final sprint le bahz.. we're facing our strongest opponent on april 11.. once we pass tt obstacle.. it will b a smooth path for us.. wish us luck bahz.. =)

hmm.. it's been a long time since i blogged.. as while as online lahz.. tis few days had been so hectic for mi... i think tt tis yr shld b de best yr for mi bahz.. first i did not so bad for my o's den wif 16 pts i gt posted to jj n into sci stream.. haha.. hope de luck doesn't ends here.. tis wk was orientation.. had to wake up earli.. n it's suddenly lor i tot april den going to sch so i can slowly adjust my slpin time.. now i haven even prepare jiu muz wake up so earli le.. haha tt's y i'm always slping on weekends.. so tired lorz.. 1 day de most 7 hrs.. bt i need 12 hrs of slp.. haha.. i noe lahz i'm a typical pig..

hmm.. competition coming soon.. like not prepared lorz.. it's like we're still lacking so many things.. our opponents i oso dun quite like dem.. haha.. bt it's rumors tt "they" r there lahz.. dunno if it's true oso.. bt we wun b scared of dem.. humph.. snobbish ppl dun come to a gd end.. hahaha..

aniway.. tis few days orientation learn cheers n dances.. de dances quite interesting lahz haha.. bt too bad my dance partners cannot make it.. haha.. think i muz change my lifestyle le.. cannot b lazy le.. i like dun hab much time lor.. bu shi study jiu shi training.. trainings till so late somemore.. scared i cannot make it lehz.. muz fa fen tu qiang.. wish mi luck lahz.. muz cut down on tv.. n slp haha.. haiz.. dread such life bt i dun wan retain or wad lehz.. so muz sacrifice lorz.. ok back to orientation.. i'm having camp tis thurs fri sat.. shld i say yay!? hmm.. think i'll nt b having as much fun as others bahz.. u noe y?! cuz mr tay will excuse us in de afternoon for training... ahh!!! i'm gonna b so tired lor.. think i no mood enjoy de games oso.. aniway hope i still feel tt de camp is fun lahz.. n training hope it wun b so tough.. dun wanna vomit everytime i go for training haha.. most importantly.. hope i'll lose some weight on de way.. haha i'm getting fat!! oki shall blog more when i use de com which 1 think will b after de camp! my sis lending her laptop to others.. haiz hab to fight for com wif my dad.. hope he go n play more golf or wad lahz.. so i can use de com haha..

-kl trip-

yay.. i'm back!! haha hmm shall say tt in general de trip was alrite... although there r several factors tt make de trip imperfect... firstly.. de food wasn tt fantastic.. secondly it wasn very clean there.. or mayb i'm juz not used to it so i fell sick on de second last day which was quite fortunate cuz there's no more training.. onli shopping haha.. bt i'm not de onli 1 tt's having stomach problems.. manying, fengyi n hf (slight) oso hab.. manying was very furni lahz.. came up my room to use de toilet haha.. think onli mi n hf noe wad happen.. was hilarious... we had a few frenli matches there.. was quite fun.. had very close games.. our opponents were like middle age ppl.. bt they're still beri strong.. heard tt they're m'sia ex national or state players.. we played a few sets.. gt win gt lose.. bt really beri close fight.. think we're improving.. nt a very strong team bt definately not weak.. we oso played against japan players.. i love de gifts they gave us.. super nice lorz.. wanna noe wad?! ask mi haha.. bt felt ashamed by de gifts we present... eeks.. jj's postcard n folders.. like of no use lorz... haha laugh a lot along de trip... bt wad i hate most was de long bus rides!! omg.. it's like so near yet de bus ride need an hour or so lor.. de traffic jam in kl... OMG!!! slept a lot in de bus.. bt neck beri pain.. de last nite there was fun bah.. onli tt something happened.. if not it'll b even more fun.. laughed a lot.. they squeeze into my small room haha.. played games n eat n watch tv.. haha.. oh ya did i mention tt my room is small!? unfair lor.. my other teammates room had a queen size bed n a single bed bt mine onli 2 single bed.. some even had sofa lorz... UNFAIR!!! haha n zihui keep laughing at mi saying my room is small.. so bad rite haha.. slept at 4 plus woke up at 7 plus... so tired tt when i came home last nite... close my eyes n slp already.. slept at 11 plus last nite woke up at 12 plus todae haha... even slept a while juz now.. oppz.. i'm a pig haha... have training tml again.. eeks hate shuttle runs.. we're having a frenli wif a south african team on 23rd.. so excited haha..

-stress-

i'm starting to feel de invisible stress tt jcS bring to ppl... n note tt i'm nt even studying yet.. de trainings is enough to take half my life away.. imagine when i hab to struggle between vb n studies.. omg.. ok.. i officially started training on fri.. it was ok.. except for de shuttle run part.. i totally feel like puking n fainting after doing tt.. perhaps my stamina hab drop to zero le.. i feel so lousy.. my first official frenli being a jj player starts on sat.. we vs sqs c boys.. coach even said tt if we won dem we will b first in nationals.. haha dun think tt ppl c boys jiu beri easy to win k.. in fact we lost dem alot.. n they didn use their 100% lorz.. mayb 50% oso dun hab arz.. mr tay had a long tok wif us.. he taught us how to program our tots n analyse de game.. bt i think my brain nt working lahz.. cannot program my tots lehz.. in fact there's hundreds of question marks in my brain lorz.. there's 3 seniors in our team.. it's their last yr le think they oso wanna pia rite.. hope not to bring dem down lahz.. fri going to kl wif dem.. hope i dun die b4 i can return haha.. it will b a tough 4 days to pass..
ok back to de stress.. i start to think bout de subjects.. my studies.. i'm afraid tt i wun b able to pass tis obstacle.. chi... so long didn touch le lor.. n my chi nt solid de lorz.. gp.. my eng oso ban tong shui.. haiz.. nt to mention other subs like physics, econs, maths lahz... econs is a new sub to mi.. maths.. haha my maths already cannot make it.. physics.. hope i still can cope lahz.. i'm starting to regret going to jc.. haiz.. hope my results dun further demoralise mi.. i'm going to hab to cope wif my mum's naggings too.. i guess i muz gib my all for de trainings now cuz if i were to drop out n go to poly next yr... there wun b a chance to compete again.. hope my stamina faster recover.. feel so busy now tt i feel so uneasy.. my days mostly kena chop by trainings n stuff.. wanna relax n go out wif my frens oso hard.. hope they wun kill mi bcuz of tt.. haha mayb i wun drop by for long cuz i now seldom use com n i'm going kl soon.. shall update after my trip bahz...

tis day is really unexpected for me.. haha.. yeps it's de o level results... i tot tt i'll b dead by tis day bt fortunately i did not.. firstly.. i tot tt i'll fail my eng cuz i'm quite positive tt i've written my compo out of point.. y i did well?! might b becuz my words too small tt de examiner can't c n my compre did ok so they assume tt i'm ok.. haha... ok hu cares for de reason.. as long as i did not fail my eng!! n another surprise.. my amaths!! becuz i dun like de teacher... i absolutely lost interest in de subject.. n tt results to my f9S during all de tests.. of cuz i hope to pass lahz.. n i tot i did really lousy for my paper 1... with de easiest 10 pts ques.. i actually cannot do!! n surprisingly.. i passed! it really caught me off guard.. haha... bt lucky lahz.. whether it's luck or i really did put in de effort (did i!?) i'm also happy wif my results lor.. haha.. all de visits to temples does help.. i still offer jossticks before going to sch todae.. haha.. say i'm mi xing.. i dun care... as long as it helps... wad i'm thinking now is wad step i'm going to take next.. shld i go jc or poly.. hmm.. i think it will leave mi pondering bahz.. aniway i'm still elated!! haha... at least i nber gu fu mr soo n mdm yeo.. yeps.. for those teachers i dun like... sorri u didn help mi wif my results.. i refuse to believe tt haha.. u can say it's my own work.. so dun claim de credit.. haha..

it's not tt i have no feel to drop by n put up a post bt wheneva i have de feel... my dad is using.. tis explains de disappearing act.. haha.. hmm.. getting results on mon.. feel a little excited.. bt very scared.. bt wad's done is done so shall not dwell on my results.. something tt is meant to happen.. no matter wad it will still happen..
went back to sch to help coach train juniors.. of cuz i'm taking a pay haha.. bt quite fun lahz..
"neng gou kan dao ni xiao.. wo yi xin man yi zhu"
every sentence hab a full stop.. every start there will b an ending.. love is 1 such start wif an ending.. u c those married couples.. i dun really believe tt in every one of dem there is love.. de onli thing tt made de family b together is responsibility.. tt's y they always quarrel bout money.. ppl say gers r materialistic i prefer to say gers r practical.. hu would wan to marry a guy n lead a hard life.. so i dun believe tt ppl hu stead at a young age will last forever.. mayb it will not even pass 2 yrs.. yet again.. ppl do feel lonely at times n yearn for ppl to care for dem.. so i think it's dumb to ai dao yao si yao huo at tis age.. n de guy can't even support himself wad's more to support u.. we should learn to let go when it's time to let go...

congrats

shall wish my juniors gd luck for tml's match... although i think tt they r quite lucky to hab make it to de finals.. beri happy for dem.. at least they fulfilled our unrealised dream.. hopefully they will even make it to de nationals top 4 bahz... *pray haha.. aniway.. went swimming after their match.. de jaccuzzi at cck was yi ji bang.. bt de other facilities ain't tt fascinating.. still prefered jurong de swimming pool heez..
15/2
some of dem came my house play mahjong n bai nian.. quite fun... bt haven guo ying jiu muz stop le.. cuz my mama coming back haha.. shall call dem come again another day..
16/2
overslept today so didn go watch match.. went gym wif sis.. found out tt i'm so unfit.. haha.. run a while jiu cannot le.. shall go train up my stamina.. at night bai ti gong so slept beri late.. mum cook mee sua n i go add a little liquor to it haha.. taste quite nice.. still gt lots of duck chicken n pig to eat.. wha i'm going to b fat fat fat... haha..

shall blog a little on ytd... actually planned to go k box bt decided not to since it's so ex.. shall make it on other days.. aniway my pri sch fren suddenly invited me to her house... noe y i use suddenly? cuz i'm shocked.. haha not tt we are not on gd terms.. juz tt i haven been mixing around wif dem for de past 4 yrs.. n we met up like once a yr?! on teacher's day.. mayb it's due to yinghan's bday celebration tt we gathered n took notice of each other.. well.. they called me for a mahjong session so y shld i reject?! haha.. hand itchy... actually i tot tt i will b kinda busy so i'll go there later n i'm kinda paiseh tt they hab to push everything back becuz of mi.. luckily in de end.. i did not end up being so paiseh.. when i asked my fren if her parents were home, she said no.. den i didn bring orange.. na li zhi dao all my other frens brought it.. i was so paiseh.. worst still.. my fren still hab oranges to exchange wif us n red packets too.. oh my.. i was sooo embarassed.. played mahjong n blackjack in her house.. real fun.. time seemed to pass very fast.. we reached her house at 5 plus bt in a blink of an eye.. it's already 10 plus.. her fren came late n she click easily wif us haha.. although i still can stay.. 2 of dem wan go so i pei dem lorz.. i went home.. shall find another day to gather again..
today actually wanna invite some of my frens to my house.. bt i really dunno where my maid put de things so i decided to cancel it.. sorri bout it.. shall make it up to u some other days? bt heng they didn come cuz my mum came home at bout 2.30 so it's a phew... if she find mi playing mahjong or drinking red wine without her permission.. i dunno wad will happen haha.. she gave me n my sis 50 dollars as tips as she won money frm her tong xiao mahjong... so gd rite haha.. she muz hab win a lot.. or mayb it's becuz i asked so she gave bt in actual fact she didn win money... i hope it's nt de later one.. it's still considered a gd start of de yr.. hope it will continue for de whole yr.. dragon is lucky tis yr.. yay.. haha..
tml is valentine's day.. too bad no valentine.. bt i still shall lead my life as happy as i can b.. frm now on.. my life will b colourful... yes.. my post will b filled wif colour too.. i'm as happy as a lark... " i wish u happiness.. happy valentine's day!! i will search for my happiness too.. hope it will not be far frm mi... " yes i'm lucky in love tis yr.. hope it will b true oso.. life is full of hope.. without hope there will b no life.. i wan every one to b happy so smile at de end of tis post.. happy valentine's day everyone!! may everyone b happy wif their loved ones.. i shall spend my day wif my passion n a bunch of gd frens... smile! =D

happy new year!

firstly.. happy new year peps.. sorri for not blogging much tis days.. actually there's nth much to b written haha.. ya.. my life is so colourless... can ani 1 add some colour to it?! aniway.. tis yr new yr earnings nt tt much.. seems like my relatives' lives aren't improving.. haha ate a lot in my grandma's house.. feel like a pig already.. well.. her food is delicious haha.. although every yr almost de same.. bt 1 yr eat once mahz.. for tis yr.. shu dragon is de luckiest.. hope it's true for mi.. i need some luck.. haha ok tt's all for day 1..
day 2.. went to my dad's side.. actually i prefer today.. haha.. i feel my dad side more educated n we like gt more link.. more things to tok about too.. n my cousins r somehow still my generation.. haha.. juz older den mi by a few yrs.. my mum's side all speak dialets which i dun understand.. and my cousin not too old jiu too young.. so i dun speak much there.. my dad's side de relatives like mostly old n sickly.. n he so bad lorz.. he say a few more yrs den no need go there le... aniway.. we juz sit a while n tok tok den go another person's house.. went home earli.. bout 5 littat... after tt.. my life is colourless.. haha..
i miss u so much...

-tired-

yawnz.. feel so tired.. after 1 whole wk of continously going out... everyday go c matches.. den go out... transport fee is going to eat up all my money.. imagine i juz topped up 10 bucks on tues n now hab to put another 10 in... haiz... being an adult sux... first.. u r prone to cheats.. second.. u r prone to robbery.. third.. u muz face de cruel world out there.. oh my.. i think my IQ is dropping as i grow older.. i'm in desperate need of work.. ani 1 wanna intro a high paying 1? haha... or i need to eat wind le... hope i gt more "extra" ang baos so i can spend haha... aniway.. congrats to my juniors on winning zheng hua n bpgh.. yupz they r on de road to nationals... 3 cheers for dem.. hopefully they dun lose too badly to jurong.. haha.. oh jurong de no 3.. sutha.. so so qiang.. she improved tremendously.. they trashed zhenghua n bpgh below 10... ya they're tt gd.. hopefully we dun kena trash under 10 oso lahz..
todae went sp.. quite nice lahz.. although didn walk much.. they rushed off to shop haha... mayb i'll end up in sp afterall.. i'm kinda put off by de tot of de "oh big mountain of projects" so i tot mayb ngee ann can slack more haha.. hope i dun make de wrong choice again... my judgement is bad enough.. haha..

so fucking pissed off... there's ppl hu think tt he's a king.. sit there shake leg scolding others... fuck..
ok.. i'm having a pms mood.. wadeva..
todae went to c my juniors match.. kinda disappointed by their performance.. i think they haven stretch to their fullest potential.. c gers lost.. which i think their opponents quite wen.. so it's kinda expected.. b gers won bt i dun think is a glorious 1.. seriously i think they r nt giving their all.. hope tis is a warm up match.. bpgh is nt a fantastic team.. kinda weak if u ask mi.. bt they actually played such a close fight.. well.. at least they won.. hope they perform better at de next match.. played a little vb there.. kinda huai nian.. although i dun like cck haha.. many sad memories there..
no mood to blog furthur.. tata..

-haPPi BdAe-

firstly wanna say happy bday to YANG YINGHAN although i noe she wun c tis haha... hmm.. had a quite joyful day todae.. went to watch match.. de boys match quite nice.. sqs is so qiang.. c chun dee (dunno if there's a mistake) wha... jaw drop... his defence yi ji bang.. kai qiu... amazing.. spiking.. mei de shuo.. he's juz de perfect guy for vb.. haha dun wu hui.. i'm nt falling for him.. juz think tt he makes ppl envy tt he is nt tt tall.. bt hab de almost perfect skills tt everyone wans to acheive.. how amazing... oh ya another guy makes me drool when i c him play... bpgh de libero.. wha he's so cool.. his defence super gd.. n he's encouraging.. his strawberry coach so unreasonable n nearly fight wif de referee.. create such a scene lorz.. nber c b4... well back to de point... de libero actually acted like a middleman.. i think de referee is so correct.. he should teach his coach how to b a better person.. haha.. haven reach acheivement state... such a sore loser...
after de match.. i rush back to jp.. meet yinghan n a grp of frens frm sec sch n pri sch.. a big gathering.. bt as usual guys n gers seperate.. (for pri sch lahz) quite furni at de dinner thing.. we chatted n laugh all de way... i c my pri sch mates so clever all at de top jcS.. 3 at NJ.. 1 at SA.. 1 at AC.. 1 at CJ.. some change quite a lot.. although i juz saw dem during last yr's teacher's day.. gt 2 shou hen duo.. de face frm a bit yuan now is jian de.. n i think he looks quite nice like tt.. they r getting lamer oso haha.. n i think de beri smart guy n old fashion 1 changed de most.. de fact tt he once said he nber watch tv shocked mi.. bt seems like he walked out of tt antique shell.. perhaps i shld nt call him antique le.. haha bt heard tt his class called him old man cuz he gt lots of white hair.. he's nt tt pia le bahz.. can abandon his hw go to eat wif us.. n he said ginny -who's beri stress at nj- beri pia.. dun sound like him.. haha.. aniway.. he's still beri smart.. prelim 4 marks.. it's like wha.... imagine how much i gt.. y muz de world always hab 2 extremes.. well.. ppl frm chinese high is like tt.. bt he's more fun now bahz.. haha.. look forward to seeing dem again... took 2 pics wif dem.. n we went home.. carrying on toking bout lame stuffs in de bus.. quite a nice day rite... haha..

DisLiKeS

top of de list

1. showing mi a yaya papaya attitude.. when u practically noe nuts about wad's going on..
2. act cute or pitiful to get attention.. (attention seeker)
3. hypocrites

not so hateful bt still sinful

• giving me wrong impressions.. b frank.. dun make me think tt way n u turn around to say another... i hate feeling confused..
• criticise me when u dun convince me.. u have no rite to criticise me becuz i noe more then u...
• being alone n i dun mean alone at home.. tt's superficial.. think deeper
  

if u have de above qualities... pls get OUT of my path... cuz once u step on my toes.. i'll bite! shall add on to de list if i think of others... peps.. look out for it!

ps: sorri bout de fact tt i didn blog much tis days.. nth much happen.. ;D

shall update a little since i'm so bored at work...

21.01
woke up earli n waited for my dad's fren to cum n pray.. first time seeing tiao dang.. quite interesting.. heard some chanting too in a dunno wad language.. shall assume it's sanskrit haha after tt rushed off to je complex.. meet up wif bear n com. n went swimming.. it's a quite sunny day.. did sum swimming a tanning.. sad to say.. didn realli tan dao.. after tt.. i rushed to gt some money n went home to put my things after which rushed to meet dem at chi garden.. went downtown to do a little shopping (nt mi) n finally reached home.. tired..

22.1
didn manage to send my pri sch fren off cuz her flight is way too earli.. a little guilty cuz i promised dem i'll go.. bt heng i didn cuz tis day is de fateful day when we officially become "adults"... de fare is going to suck mi dry... haha woke up earli cuz meeting dem to visit poly open house.. went to ngee ann n nanyang poly.. ngee ann's was a little dull.. juz walking around aimlessly.. saw a few familier faces.. didn expect tt ger to actually recognise mi since it had been a while since we met n we didn c each other a lot.. she's a unity vball whom i met during combine sch trials.. i couldn rmb her at first.. oppz kinda bad.. since she rmb mi haha.. after walking for a while when down to nanyang.. de sch's BIG i think i'll b lost if i was to walk alone.. we had to register upon going in.. they scan our ez link cards n i stick a baby bugs sticker there.. de person saw it n smile say "cute" i was so embarassed.. bt i'm nt going to remove it haha.. there's a kinda small shopping centre in it.. went in to buy sour plums.. i think it's expensive bt it taste nice.. the lecturer explain wad business courses there is n i think she's very frenli.. the sch's very inviting.. mayb.. juz mayb i might consider going in.. haha... after de open house.. we went ps to eat n shop.. once again i saw de unity ger in carrefour.. we r fated to meet haha.. she tot i gen zhong her.. eppz :X hmm bought a tube for my sis.. kinda cheap for her bday present haha.. bt it's de tot tt counts rite.. went home earli tt day.. watched tv.. peace out..

23.01
nth much happen.. stayed at home whole day.. play com n watch tv n slp.. very nice.. haha