nowadays haze isn't realli terrible.. bt it has been raining everyday.. not tt i hate rain la.. it's better den de smelly haze though.. hee..
had a weird dream ytd.. dreamt tt i quarel wif mi sis.. de dream felt so real (ok.. which dream doesn't..) tt i awoke angry n still feel angry after de dream.. mum's been drinking quite a lot tis wk.. kinda sot sot.. hope she's juz feeling depressed n not becuz of some big probs.. when i'm young i juz hate it when she's drunk cuz she does things tt she doesn't normally do n sometimes it really freak mi out.. bt now i'm more worried.. it's not as if we dun care bout her.. bt she juz keep things to herself.. ppl may appear strong on de outside bt may not b so on de inside.. i shall not blame her for drinking bt i hope tt she cuts down on it n hope tt everything is well for everyone..
mayb due to de fact tt exams are coming.. i feel easily irritated.. n sometimes dun feel like talking.. there's 1 day when mum drank quite alot le.. n came back to gt money b4 going out again.. sis n her fren (guy) was in de room chatting when mum came back.. she look quite concerned n she's quite seh at tt moment le.. she insist on going out.. (might as well since i think she'll b sot if she stay at home) i'm kinda angry at sis for not being auto enough.. like who would like to c her daughter wif a guy alone in a rm behind close doors.. c.. i gt irritated at de slightest thing.. haha when i'm young i always wonder if i'll b like my sis when i grow old.. she's rather rebellious when young.. seems like i'm still quite an introvert compared to her.. she makes frens easily n she's very open to challenges n new things.. i'm an anti social.. haha.. happy in my own comfort zone.. i'm a peacemaker!! hee..
exams coming soon!! on one hand i hope tt it faster end so i can spend more time having fun n do some things i really wanna do.. on other hand.. i hope i have more time to study n prepare for it.. so afraid tt i wun make it to uni.. bt i juz can't find my goal to keep mi moving.. sigh..
wadever!! days come n go.. juz hope i'll make it bah.. jia you to all of u out there.. n thanks for all ur encouragement.. =)

me?!

you chose BX - your Enneagram type is NINE. "I am at peace" Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them. How to Get Along with Me If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't like expectations or pressure. I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advantage of this. Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit. Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally. Ask me questions to help me get clear. Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery. Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings. I like a good discussion but not a confrontation. Let me know you like what I've done or said. Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life. What I Like About Being a Nine being nonjudgmental and accepting caring for and being concerned about others being able to relax and have a good time knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe What's Hard About Being a Nine being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally being confused about what I really want caring too much about what others will think of me not being listened to or taken seriously Nines as Children Often feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant tune out a lot, especially when others argue are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves Nines as Parents are supportive, kind, and warm are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

it's been a long time since i last blogged.. haha
hmm.. dad came back last fri.. when lots of places to eat.. tt's de advantage when dad is back.. haha.. can drive us round singapore to hunt for places to eat.. =)
sis gt hospitalise due to food poisoning.. poor thing.. c her keep running to de toilet.. bt well.. she now lies in a grade A ward.. n de best thing is.. her company pay for her.. win liao lor.. haha.. hope she dun grumble bout work now..
few wks left till a's.. sigh.. progress is slow.. still lots of stuff tt i din noe.. lots of things to do.. so little time left.. sch had officially ended.. took lots of photos ytd.. all kinds of weird positions.. haha bt i had fun.. took individual photos wif some of dem.. n to think of it.. in tis 2 yrs.. i din tok to my classmate more den 5 sentences.. dunno is i anti social or he anti social.. haha i think i'll miss my classmates n teachers.. looking forward to grad nite.. where we can hab more "memories" haha.. well.. hab to go now.. better gt some work done b4 i start slacking de day away..