hmm.. was feeling kind of down for todae.. in fact for other days as well.. think i'm going to suffer frm depression if this carries on.. there's cause n effect on everything.. i totally n i realli mean totally SCREWED my common tests... ahhh!!! fail so badly.. even econs which i think mayb i could actualli pass (juz pass)... bt i'm so wrong man.. haizzz... i think i already have 1 foot either in MI or poly... n as i think back... i'm such a failure.. i can't do anithing rite.. n nothing seems to go my way.. haizzz... hmm.. shall blame myself for not working hard enough.. with all de slackings and stuff going on... i juz while my time away during many occasions.. bt can't deny de fact tt i'm busy rite.. wif all de competitions going on.. trainings blah blah... well juz comforting myself.. actualli i think tt even if it's something i like to do... it becomes a burden when it's so intensive or frequent.. it's dragging me away frm wad i am supposed to do.. wad's sad is i can't even gt a stand in tt.. m i wasting too much time on tt?! seriously there's juz something wrong wif me.. n i think it's so unfair to be called away frm my priorities to juz do nothing there.. it's ok when i'm free.. bt apparently i'm not.. especially during tis period when i'm juz struggling to stay alive.. mayb in de end i will not gain anything frm it.. perhaps i shld juz let go.. let mi drown n die.. stress... haiz... it's such a headache to think bout how to pass my promos n overall.. all de Fs n Os falling in love wif me..
competitions started long ago.. shall update a little.. lost 1 match against red team.. left 3 matches to de end of everything.. red team is gd i can say.. especially wif xiuyi in there.. think dot might b a gd opponent to dem.. jia you!!
last bt not least... i'm juz a total failure in every aspect.. tazzz..
Monday, August 22, 2005
Sunday, August 07, 2005
unLucKy..
hmm.. hadn't been a smooth wk for mi.. my eyes hab been giving mi probs.. first was infection.. tot tt it was ok already.. bt.. ytd during match my eyes was damn red.. n i realli mean RED.. even i was shocked when i looked into de mirror.. eekz.. dunno whether it's sore eyes or de infection had worsen.. eekz.. going blind soon.. anione wanna b my eyes!? haha.. aniway.. shall tok a little bout de matches..
sat, went out earli to study wif zihui n rena.. bt end up didn study a lot too.. practice on 1 chap onli.. haiz.. bt was beri tired.. cuz i didn slp well de night b4.. eekz.. bt heng didn play de match.. dun think i'll b on form too.. haha... didn like tampines sports hall... think they didn perform up to standard.. played 5 sets.. n all was like close fight.. oh well.. juz a warm up match bahz.. haha.. had to keep my eyes small all de way home.. bt laughed a lot along de way.. heez.. reached home watch tv n went to slp.. woke up earli today.. at 6 on a sun!! eekz.. kok hua drove mi n zihui there.. warm up a little.. bt todae didn even gt to sit bench.. hab to change out of jersey cuz we hab 17 players when we onli need 12.. hmm.. think they played well todae.. haha bt it's home ground so there's no logic tt they couldn't perform.. or mayb de opponents wasn't very gd.. bt almost all de bench players gt a chance to go down.. haha.. my eyes still as red as ever todae.. so i didn wear contacts.. n i think i didn slp well last night n my neck was.... oww... haha.. kinda lucky tt i didn hab to play.. bt well.. wasn't very willing to gt out of bed so earli juz to go n watch matches.. aniway.. continued to watch de matches there till bout 11 plus 12.. wanna c red team play.. bt i think it was no fight lahz.. so went off after de 1st set.. didn gt to c xiaowei play afterall.. haha.. bt xiuyi was impressive.. as usual lahz.. hmm.. de following matches i think we could b habing quite a tough fight.. wasn't realli training much tis days.. so i can say tt i ain't very confident in playing for dem... stress u noe.. think zihui could cope well bahz.. haha mama jia you!!
oh ya.. had napfa tis wk.. 5 stations.. think i've improved de overall grade bahz.. 2.4 wasn't beri fast bt at least i've broke my own record.. haha.. standing broad jump was a new record.. 210.. sit n reach wasn't beri gd.. bt at least i've hit a c.. my sit n reach had always been lousy de.. shuttle run oso beaten my own record.. 10.1 wha was kinda amazed.. n i think i even had a slow start... haha a bit retard.. dunno if mr ang seen properly.. pull up oso improved.. did 20.. think it's more den enough haha.. i wasn't very gd at pull up.. doing 20 is already a feat.. haha bt my class ppl almost all did 20.. impressive.. n way to go!! mr ang was kinda gd to us cuz it's like nt beri standard bt he still count.. haha.. ok lahz... tt's all for de week.. shall rest my eyes le.. n study tml... common tests coming!! n i'm so sure i'm going to screw it again... arghz!!
sat, went out earli to study wif zihui n rena.. bt end up didn study a lot too.. practice on 1 chap onli.. haiz.. bt was beri tired.. cuz i didn slp well de night b4.. eekz.. bt heng didn play de match.. dun think i'll b on form too.. haha... didn like tampines sports hall... think they didn perform up to standard.. played 5 sets.. n all was like close fight.. oh well.. juz a warm up match bahz.. haha.. had to keep my eyes small all de way home.. bt laughed a lot along de way.. heez.. reached home watch tv n went to slp.. woke up earli today.. at 6 on a sun!! eekz.. kok hua drove mi n zihui there.. warm up a little.. bt todae didn even gt to sit bench.. hab to change out of jersey cuz we hab 17 players when we onli need 12.. hmm.. think they played well todae.. haha bt it's home ground so there's no logic tt they couldn't perform.. or mayb de opponents wasn't very gd.. bt almost all de bench players gt a chance to go down.. haha.. my eyes still as red as ever todae.. so i didn wear contacts.. n i think i didn slp well last night n my neck was.... oww... haha.. kinda lucky tt i didn hab to play.. bt well.. wasn't very willing to gt out of bed so earli juz to go n watch matches.. aniway.. continued to watch de matches there till bout 11 plus 12.. wanna c red team play.. bt i think it was no fight lahz.. so went off after de 1st set.. didn gt to c xiaowei play afterall.. haha.. bt xiuyi was impressive.. as usual lahz.. hmm.. de following matches i think we could b habing quite a tough fight.. wasn't realli training much tis days.. so i can say tt i ain't very confident in playing for dem... stress u noe.. think zihui could cope well bahz.. haha mama jia you!!
oh ya.. had napfa tis wk.. 5 stations.. think i've improved de overall grade bahz.. 2.4 wasn't beri fast bt at least i've broke my own record.. haha.. standing broad jump was a new record.. 210.. sit n reach wasn't beri gd.. bt at least i've hit a c.. my sit n reach had always been lousy de.. shuttle run oso beaten my own record.. 10.1 wha was kinda amazed.. n i think i even had a slow start... haha a bit retard.. dunno if mr ang seen properly.. pull up oso improved.. did 20.. think it's more den enough haha.. i wasn't very gd at pull up.. doing 20 is already a feat.. haha bt my class ppl almost all did 20.. impressive.. n way to go!! mr ang was kinda gd to us cuz it's like nt beri standard bt he still count.. haha.. ok lahz... tt's all for de week.. shall rest my eyes le.. n study tml... common tests coming!! n i'm so sure i'm going to screw it again... arghz!!
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