n yet it may be a good outlet to "vomit" everything out without anyone seeing and assuming otherwise..
i guess i'm really bored while doing night shift.. sites revisited, searched etc.
even tho status different now, and i may not feel tt way about u anymore, i dun deny tt i still care.. hoping someday u would be happy.. instead of now being treated like a fool and yet u dun really mind.. kinda understand how u're feeling but can't help but notice how foolish u r.. nevertheless, i wish u could open ur eyes and have a better future. Ppl say tt i should dislike u after what had happened, but thinking back, i guess at least u din lie and it might just be the same result after a while? Sometimes i would be thinking what will it be like if things didn't change.. i guess tt i'll can leave it to my own imagination......
Similarities attract or opposites attract? I've experienced both but have not come to a conclusion..
Maybe being similar means that many times we wun have to be too explicit bout what we're thinking.. but tt would also mean that we might gt bored very fast. No changes and everything is stagnant. Which could be the very reason why we din work out as well..
Being different have it's own excitement and we get to know n understand new sides of each other.. But being too different bring about many conflicts.. Difference in values, ideas, goals.. it is quite a big problem to be exact.. i can't stand some things he do, he can't agree with some things i do.. Quarrels start.. differences stays cause it's on the character and principles.. Sighh.. sometimes i wish we could be similar yet different.. lol.. contradicting? That's life..
Ready for the next stage? I would say no.. Rushed through the earlier stages tt i'm starting to doubt certain decisions that i've made.. thinking it would be better if i would have given more thought about it instead of following the flow.. never a decision maker but proves to be not tt good to just follow..
It's not about finding the perfect person but to love an imperfect person perfectly? Easier said then done.. been there done that, and still not able to do so perfectly.
Maybe what i want is not a perfect person but someone who could love me just the way i like it and not the way he thinks it is but in fact it's not..
Guess working and being up at this hour brings up all the emotions and randomness. Haha.
