hmm haven been updating for quite a while..
re exams r coming.. really not prepared for it.. sorry for making frens around mi worry.. n thanks for ur card.. really appreciate it although i didn cry lahz.. haha.. i noe u all r trying very hard to motivate mi..
tis make mi think a lot.. including de decision to come jc.. many regrets i may have bt i will nt regret continue playing vball in jc.. de days in kl were my happiest moments i guess.. really miss tis team a lot.. wonder if we will have any chance to play as a team again..
looking back to sec sch.. nt tt i dislike it there bt i think there's really not much for mi to think back.. i can only rmb all de conflicts de boycotting.. it's like u can't b who u r.. muz try to please de ppl around u or u'll only b left out by others.. wasn't realli close wif mi class den cuz i'm always hanging around my team mates.. n it's often split into grps.. sometimes i realli dunno where i belong.. perhaps it's becuz we have 4 yrs together n we will c each other personality.. no matter how coach try he's still being dislike by us.. bt i agree tt he's temper could b a rollar coaster.. i quite pei fu him.. every batch he slowly bring us up even without any foundation..
i realli hope tt tis team could at least make it into top 8.. bt without mr tay i think it's quite diff.. although mr tay's training is very tough.. he's very strict.. expecting a lot frm us.. he can b quite arrogant at times bt he's a gd coach.. dewen is also a gd coach lahz.. bt he's too lenient le.. no body is actually afraid of him.. no stress.. can slack slack play play and 1 training is over.. still rmb when i juz come in mr tay said tt he wan 100% commitment frm mi.. n now.. ppl can happy happy dun come for training.. i think if mr tay was de coach de team might b left wif less den half de no now..
even if i realli pass tis test n scrap through tis yr.. is it worth it? to struggle through next yr.. n not knowing whether i can pass a levels.. is tis wad i wan? to finish tis path n go on to uni.. can i do it? i really dun know wad i wan.. i seriously dun think i'm de liao for studying bt wad can i do?! i actually dun noe anything.. can they give me de assurance n motivation i need?!
almost forget to mention.. went for dinner at clark quay to celebrate xj's bday.. bear intro us to brewerkz.. hmm.. i quite like de ambience there.. drank golden ale.. seriously it juz taste a little sweeter den carlsberg.. muhaha.. can u intro something more lady next time?! took lots of pic bt i still haven got it!! anyone.. juz anyone.. send mi pls!! hmm.. ate 2 main n 1 side dish.. wasn't really tt full lahz.. quite ex some more.. haha.. broke le lahz.. went to walk around clark quay after dinner.. nth much to walk around.. n finally decide to hab some ice cream.. in total.. i spend bout 33 tt day.. lucky it's not more den 50 bucks haha.. anyway.. i enjoyed tt day.. shall we chill out someday again!?
not going to work for next wk.. hab to go for steamboat at jos house.. hopefully can ton there.. n i guess it'll b fun!? cuz most of us r there.. pls dun make mi regret not working!! haha.. think i'm working during xmas wk.. no dates.. so sad.. haha.. hope to b in de same outlet wif bear.. *pray..