shld i even look forward to 2010?!

i used to think tt i noe u very well.. bt now i realise i dun know wad u're thinking.. one moment we can b like normal.. n the nxt.. u'll gimme a very big shock.. now i don't know if i can trust u.. i have to live with the fear tt any moment it will be different again.. it even came to a pt where i don't even have the courage to read the message.. afraid tt things will go wrong again.. i know i'm weak.. bt i rather tt u keep everything to urself.. don't let me know..

hai.. first time i drift in and out of slp.. dun have appetite.. definitely nt a gd feeling.. bt wad can i do.. i just have to adapt to it and stay strong... wad a christmas and new yr.. hai..

how i wish tt everything was just a bad dream.. less pain.. less complications.. if only life would b smooth sailing..

opps.. my itchy fingers dunno click wad.. now my old template is gone! n being an IT idiot.. i don't know how to put back my frenslist.. -.- now i lost all my frens blogs links!!
oh well.. perhaps it's time to start afresh.. i've been lazy to change my previous blogskin.. tho it's very pretty!! haha.. or perhaps i shld just close down this blog.. since i'm already not active in blogging.. haha..

com's super laggy today.. dun know is it because i'm dl-ing things.. or there's virus..

wan to buy a bigger memory space thumbdrive.. bt gt tempted by the external hardisk tt is having a promotion in my sch.. hmm... thinking thinking thinking..

my mum just transferred my hp plan under my name.. gt de student plan which i had been wanting for quite long.. bt 1 bad thing.. i have to pay my own bill nxt time.. haha.. gt unlimited sms now!! faster msg me!! haha bought de data plan too.. so now i can serve net without using wifi!! haha.. i'm afraid tt de 1st mth bill will shock me to death as always heard by others.. charge u for things tt u dun even noe.. anyway.. gt a new phone with my new plan.. anyone wanna buy phone?!

Nokia E63 red in colour..
comes with the standard package which includes, ear piece, battery, 1gb micro SD
*brand new* never even on it before!! (only a few days old..)

price: $350
interested parties please contact me!! prices negotiable!
frens.. if u have anyone in mind who might be interested.. pls intro! haha
enquires allowed!! =)
don't know if u're able to leave comments.. bt i'm nt going to put de my contact online..
can contact me in facebook tho.. if u're really interested..
or email me at shar0n_tan@hotmail.com (0 is zero!)
frens.. just drop me an sms! i'm sure u know my phone no.. =D
thanks!!

last sem of yr 3.. can't believe tt i'm gonna start work soon.. haha
just had a gathering with de jj vb gers.. updates n more updates.. seems like there's lots of changes among us.. bt well.. hope tt everything goes well for all of us!! =)
a successful bbq.. n more to come!! slumber party nxt?! haha..

busy last sem i must say.. with tons of projects.. n test.. n assignments blah blah..
hope tt everything goes smoothly..

oh ya.. if any of u wanna fix some car lights.. pls go to tis blog!
http://www.g-lightings.blogspot.com/

if any of u noe frens who r interested.. can also recommend!! =)
thanks for all de support!!

i lack de confidence.. i had my doubts..
bt frm de way things turn out.. i wasn't proved wrong..
nevertheless.. i don't regret trying to work it out..
even if de result wasn't what i wanted..

saw tis somewhere.. can't rmb le haha..
u shld learn to let go of the past..
as the past would never let go of u..

just watch finish de last episode of My Queen..
8 yrs difference in age..
many many obstacles in between..
bt non deterring love..
how sweet... =)

end of 2 day 1 nite vb camp.. (without training haha)
it's de 1st vb camp out of my 3 yrs in tis cca.. glad tt i went to have fun tog with my team mates before i grad.. =)

dunno is it fortunate or lucky tt i have missed de most strenuous part of de camp.. on de other hand.. it may nt b a gd thing as i did not experience the hardship with de rest.. to be able to encourage each other and bond tog..

despite my slight fear of height.. i am proud to complete de obstacle course.. tho it's only like 2 or 3 stories high and i played 1 part of it b4.. there are still some courses tt are quite scary.. some blue blacks here n there.. ropeburns and big hot sun! we laugh at each other here n there.. bt we still encourage each other to go on.. n give some advice n help along de way.. i think it'll b more exciting if de course was like 5 stories high!! haha tho i might have a heart attack before attempting it..

nevertheless.. de time spent was still quite enjoyable! =)
bt i feel tt something was still lacking.......

Natasha Bedingfield - Soulmate

Incompatible it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do you're not easy to find
Is it possible
Mr. Loveable
is already in my life?
right in front of me or maybe you're in disguise
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
Here we are again,
circles never end
how do I find the perfect fit
there's enough for everyone
but I'm still waiting in line
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you
without being told
somebody tell me
why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

dear feng is gonna sing tis song for her talentime!! like to wish her all de best!! no matter de outcome we'll always love her voice!! =)
i gt "addicted" to tis song ever since i've heard feng sing tis song in ktv! haha..

to all de emo ppl out there..
i believe tt time will dilute everything..
there's a soulmate for everyone.........

had an international friendly with the TOKYO team ytd!!!
a bit of rush in time so din manage to see de guys team much.. hahaha! nevertheless.. i still spotted no 10!!! kawaiii neh!!!
the warm up and everything was international like.. with 10 mins of separate warm up and exchange of souvenirs.. i had a hand phone strap which states tokyo winter volleyball and a cute logo! i "kop" coach's gift too!! whahaha.. it's 4 badges.. chioosss!! zh kop de mini vb with wordings on it.. tt's super nice la.. n her reaction was super fast.. haha! snatching n not letting it go ever again! haha..

they are super qiang!!!! no 7 was scary!! considering their height which was on the average of 168.. their balls are ping pong piang!! and we can't even gt 10 pts frm dem.. haha! 2nd set they put their reserves on.. n we manage to win dem!! wooo!! if we oso kena trash by their reserve.. a bit throw face.. haha.. bt 3rd n 4th set we still fall in de hands of their main... dewen was like de man with a remote control.. controlling our every move.. haha.. our spiking not as gd as theirs so we use our "wits" and used de soft tactics instead.. i think it worked.. at least put on some fight.. haha.. really really enjoyed de game despite getting trashed.. haha.. seeing their tactics and speed of de ball really wow-ed me.. =) besides.. it had been quite some time since i played with de JJ(2005) team!! hoped we could still have de chance to play tog!!! =D

i realised tt it's always with JJ tt i had de chance of playing with teams from other countries.. it was always a nice experience.. thanks team JJ!! =) -luvs-

hai... i really dun understand y do things always go de other way..
from my previous post.. i said tt we can choose how our life goes..
but now i realise that in many situations, it takes more den 1 person's choice to make things de way u want.. although i can decide what i want.. i can't possibly help another person to choose...
do i have to learn to accept even if it brings along pain.......
can i CHOOSE not to!?
seems like.. life is not always about your own choice either!

i dunno is it a curse.. bt i can't seem to break away from it...
when i c a light in de dark.. i'll walk towards it.. bt it always disappear before i can reach it..

4 papers nxt wk.. 2 papers de following wk..
0 revision done.. with 1 presentation due tml and ongoing fyp..
sighhhh...........

ok busy busy.. same goes for de following mths..
was reading this book - whatever u think, think the opposite
it's damn enlightening!! sets me thinking from a different angle..
quote:
i wish means: wouldn't it be nice if...
u always make de right decision, de safe decision, de 1 most ppl make, you will be same as everyone else...
always wishing life was different (paradox)

totally agree!!! y should i potray myself just like every others?! imagine u c someone acting different from the norm.. u would definitely have a laugh or go around telling ppl wad u saw! it makes an impression rather than the plain jane u c everyday rite?! not tt i wan to be weird from now la.. haha..
but ya rather den whining n wishing life was different.. we could choose to be different!
you are wad you choose to be! a plain jane.. a leader.. a weirdo or someone just different from the rest!! it takes courage to be different! dare to be different!!! i'm too timid n rather shy.. i must be more daring to voice out my views!! according to de bk.. there's no wrong n rite decisions.. it's all about choice.. y should u regret over ur decision.. u should regret not making any!

sometimes being mean is bad.. bt being too nice isn't any better.. i think it's only nice to treat others the way u wan to be treated.. some ppl just aren't worthy of u treating dem well.. not cuz of the way they treat u.. bt of the way they think of u.. no matter how nice u r to dem.. 1 slight mistake they will think de worst of u.. if this is how u treat a fren.. den u're not sincere at all.. friends don't owe each other anything.. i'm not obliged to do things tt u should be responsible for.. but i can still be nice and choose to help u.. but if i choose not to do it for u.. would u think de worse of me?! sounds selfish.. but tt's a fact!! not everyone is nice all de time.. u can't just shift ur responsiblities to someone else like tt isn't it?
haha now sounds like i'm grumbling.. but well.. at least now i would stop whining over my life and like myself for who i am.. not to shape myself according to norms.. do wad i feel like doing and not bothering of others opinions..
i used to dislike de idea of going overseas to study or attachment or wadever.. cuz it's means to be alone n independent.. bt now i suddenly wan to experience a life like tt.. although being alone in a foreign country sounds scary.. n fyi i hate being alone.. haha.. bt i just feel like flying all over n seeing things i dun gt to c.. tt's living life to the fullest isn't it!! =D

new aim: to tour the world and gain experiences till de day i die.. who wans to go wif me?! =)

back back back!! super enjoying trip... super fun till i think i'm having the post holiday syndrome now.. a bit lost.. a bit sad.. or perhaps i'm just too tired..
1st day.. wanted to rent scooters instead of a car.. bt after some testing out.. it's rather scary.. so we change to car instead!! n since we reached there early.. we went for the go kart near the airport!! 1st time playing go kart.. super fun.. tho there's like bits of dunno wad flying against my against and nearly hitting my eye.. making me squint at times.. n... my kart somehow died in the middle of my last lap.. n i'm like totally lost.. thinking is it time up?! haha.. n everyone passed me by without stopping!! n i'm like at the bend so kinda scared they bang into me.. bt they all quite skilled.. can still siam me.. haha.. lucky 1 malay uncle stop n help me regenerate the kart.. thanks to him.. he's de kindest ever!! =)
headed to kuah (the town) to have lunch n shop a bit at the shopping mall after checking in.. we were like lost around there.. n 2 out of 3 choices were wrong.. bt the map provided is like so confusing n not accurate!! so we're kinda like u turn here n there.. haha.. there no traffic rules so we anyhow too!! haha.. oh ya.. i saw a nissan fairlady 370Z there!!! i'm like woah! too bad it's a little bit dirty due to the condition of the roads.. haha.. anyway the shopping has like practically nth!! n nt cheap too.. so u can considering skipping tt part if u plan to go there.. =)
after lunch.. we decided to visit all the waterfalls!!! first stop: durian waterfall (something like tt de.. haha i only rmb the name had durian! =X) wasted our time going cuz it's like nth much.. so we headed on the the seven wells!! had a short stop at the black sand sea tho.. (look at the pics in facebook bah..) the route to seven wells is like super duper steep slope tt we had to climb.. we din make it to the top! bt we climb till the bottom of the waterfall.. when we reached... we were like woah!! it's worth the climb!! excited us climbed the rocks to gt nearer to the waterfall n funny things happened.. like slipping etc.. nevertheless.. it was super fun!! had kinda like a water war... thanks to zh!! nt happy if we appear dry.. haha.. we drove like almost a full circle of the island to the different places.. haha..
had dinner and went back hotel to chill at the bar.. music sucks.. some kinda high ang mohs.. n tt's bout all! slp.. haha

2nd day..
woke up about 10 plus 11.. ate maggi.. the breakfast we armed ourselves with haha.. den down to the beach!!! banana boat!!! din manage to take pics for tt tho.. 1st time on banana boat.. n i think it's quite impossible to not capsize if the driver of the speedboat WANTS it to capsize.. haha.. quite fun tho.. totally enjoying life!! the rest of the water sports were quite ex.. so we skipped dem.. went straight to the swimming pool after tt.. ate a bit of snacks.. had a drink and laze around the pool.. tanned a little bt not quite a burn.. =)
we wanted to have 2nd round of go kart.. bt it was closed when we went there.. so we explore around n driver mann found a pretty cool place which is like a seaside restaurant/cafe/bar kind.. we manage to take pics of sunset... den there's tis grp of local pilot students trying to hit on us.. thanks to................. haha.... the person who owe us 20RM which is upped to 20SGD!! haha.. drank like 2 plus big cans of beer.. it was ok at first.. bt i guess it had too much gas and made me very bloated.. n i can't control it anymore.. so i went to puke.. damn disgusting feeling.. sigh.. never liked beer.. 1st time puking as well.. bt... ya felt like i nv drink after i puked.. haha.. n the guys were asking us to go to a club since it's our last night there.. so we went! quite a happening club i must say in quite a rural area.. the live band singers voices were powerful!! n they were like super frenly too.. i must say our attire totally cannot make it.. cuz we din expect to go till so late.. so we're like beach attire.. haha.. had some drinks paid by the guys.. much better den beer i guess.. haha.. went back hotel around 4 plus.. tired n dirty n everything bt we had a fun nite!! =) woke up real early tt morning.. cuz our flight is morning flight...
oh ya.. we star gazed while waiting for the pilot students to change n sneak out.. haha.. lying on the boot of the car.. damn cool feeling.. saw a shooting star!! i think.. haha.. wishes... hopefully it'll come true.. totally love to star gaze... time to dream.. n think.. brings back many memories.. blast music and sing along.. like some drunkards.. bt we're not drunk! haha.. only time to let ur hair down n put down ur troubles.. scream when u feel like.. sing out loud.. even if u break ur voice.. haha.. all the girl talk.. office politics.. gossips... share ur smiles and tears..
totally cool experience.. now u know y i'm feeling empty now.. haha.. totally dun feel like coming back!! bt reality is cruel..

had my fun.. now it's time to work hard again.......

only bad thing bout this trip..
there's no bolster!! =X
n no road side durian.. haha

after much delay... langkawi trip is confirmed!!
thanks to mann for helping to search for appropriate hotels.. (tis is no easy task)
now i noe booking a trip is so troublesome!! have to come out with work and money!!!
we'll rotate planning.. nxt time i'll leave the booking n everything to another person.. whahaha.. i think it's only fair to let everyone have a go at planning n booking.. hehe.. my turn to shake leg!!

can't wait can't wait!!

the sun..
the sea..
the symphony of waves..
the breeze..

pls pls pls!! let me enjoy my trip b4 i start my attachment!! =P

admist all the fun..
some is still missing..
i have everything?
i have nothing..

Holidays are here!!
like finally... haha
the horrible last wk where i have to rush 4 assignments and study for 2 test.. it's finally over!! did my 1st web page design.. the default template made my life easier! haha.. imagine i have to figure out how to write html.. i think i'll prob fail tt assignment.. bt anyway.. it's a nice experience! prob nxt time when i have nth to do.. i can design something like tt again! anyway peps.. here's my very first web page url : www.sharontan.webs.com
i noe it's a sucky name haha.. i din noe tt it'll b the webpage name when i first reg.. n there's a lot of copy n paste stuff so... *cross fingers* dun let me kena some copyright infingement thingy.. and i'll prob remove tt after my hols! so go look at it soon.. =)
i definitely wanna go tt place!! the water sports there like quite cheap cuz it's in peso! haha..

got my very first speeding summon!
haiz... there's no cam along tt stretch of road so i din really take notice of my speed.. haha..
n i've been driving there for the half a yr already n 1st june is the day! oh n apparently.. tp's like to stand on overhead bridges!! so drivers.. pls take note if there's like someone standing on the bridge dunno doing wad.. it's prob to catch speeders! haha..
150 plus 6 demerit pts.. =(

hope tt all the plans for the short 2 wks can fall into place nicely..
before the battle begins again... haha!!

watch a lot like love on tv ytd.. quite a nice show.. gt me thinking...
ok.... 1 typical love comedy.. haha..
bt i guess it seldom happens to ordinary ppl like me! =P
on the other hand.. i don't wan it to happen if u noe wad's the story line is about..
waiting can b quite a pain...
wrong time wrong target is another pain..
or one must endure all this pain to finally gt something sweeeeeeettt..
-.-

good luck for all those that are having exams now!!!
holidays await u.. no stress! *smile*

terminator salvation:
everybody deserves a 2nd chance..

i admire tt half human half robot guy.. tho i forget his name le.. lol!!
noe's he had been made used of.. but still believe in himself.. the conviction of being human..
to help and save john conner.. save the human world..
such strong beliefs.. not seen in many.. not me at least..
i'm ashamed tt i'm easily waivered..
i must learn to be strong!!

was just chatting wif nu er bout changes.. haha.. 21 and achieved nothing, experienced nothing.. kinda pity.. but well.. i believe in waiting for good things.. good times will come if u wait persistently.. of course plus putting some effort.. waiting alone is not enough..
i will try not to waiver in tt belief.. haha..

strong because u came..
weak because u left..
hoping to be and stay strong!

ahh... lacking in flow of creative juices..
wanted to start doing my assignment which are due at de end of de wk.. bt simply gt no motivation.. hopefully.. u'll c a link to my 1st very own web page design SOON.. haha..
omg.. i'm totally an IT idiot! sigh... help!!! html writers anyone? haha..

the weather is super hot in sg... global warming... not helping at all!

2 tests up nxt wk.. 4 assignments not done! n i'm still slacking..
oh no...

i'm addicted to green tea frappe..
super lousy feeling without it..
is sugar an addictive too!?
drinks... company??!

quote of the day:

it's easy to leave a name..
hard to leave an impression..
harder to leave a mark in the heart..
but once there,
it'll be there forever..
u'll understand........

time for a new post!
firstly.. thanks all for the mini celebrations.. really appreciate it.. n sorry for not organising a big event for all of my frens.. =) nevertheless.. thanks for all the wishes.. pressies etc..

eeks.. i'm getting older!! =X

oh no.. napfa is tml!! i've made a training routine tt i'm supposed to keep up wif.. bt i've skip de last 2 runs i'm suppose to do!! my 5 rounds and 6 rounds!! oh no oh no.. hope i dun faint after tml's 2.4km whahaha.. getting less fit day by day.. =X


time always passes by without u knowing..
if u would just slow down and take a look behind..
would u find something tt bring back a smile?
if i can choose..
i would make time freeze at tt moment.....

i can predict busy days ahead..
sch.. trainings.. start of fyp!! major headache contributor.. nafpa oso coming soon! haha..
really tired today.. bt i've to do research for fyp.. *yawns* not much time for me left to do with the trainings.. n 1 coming dunno wad workshop tt is compulsory!! sigh..
bt well.. being busy is gd.. at least it keeps my mind occupied.. learnt something new.. to accept it and not run away from it and continue to be in denial..
promise someone to try to stay trouble free.. haha.. a bit diff tho.. prob by de time i grad.. i'll have whole head full of white hair! =X
my sis said tt dreaming every nite means u dun slp well.. do you dream every nite?!
for me.. i do.. n i asked ppl around.. they do too.. haha seems like we all don't slp well!
if only we can control our dreams.. it'll be nice and sweet everyday.. i'll b even more glad to just slp for the whole day.. haha.. sometimes i dream of everyday stuff.. too real to be a dream.. sometimes i can dream wad i imagine.. (partially control) too much of a fantasy to be real.. sometimes i have animated dreams tt can make ppl roll of the chair laughing if i tell dem..
ask me.. i might consider telling u.. haha..
hate it when someone disrupt my dream.. make me feel super tired.. like i hadn't been slpin..
recently.. i hope tt i dun have dreams.. have a full n enriching slp.. stop my brain from imagining things.. apparently.. ur brain is the busiest when u slp.. activity goes on..

i need sleep..
i need time..
i need music!
i need to be like wolverine..

i can't concentrate on studying for tml's test... seriously sianz...... hai.......

speechless..
is there nth to make it go back de way it is?
seriously distracting =(
i can't believe it came from u...

swine flu alert!!
is everybody on de edge now? thinking when will it hit sg?!
had an itchy throat after de sore throat.. so keep coughing now.. just now in de morning i was sitting in de bus when i starting coughing quite violently i think.. n de person in front actually turn n look at me!! omg.. no i dun have sars or swine flu!! haha.. dun even dare to cough out loud now.. -.- voice still remains sexy.. haha.. will go off tune here n den.. seems like really a lot of ppl is not feeling well lately.. hmm...
in de future when i work.. will there b pandemic?! oh no.. can't imagine i'm being quarrantine.. away frm my family n frens.. oh no oh no..
i hate guessing ppl's tots... bt i tend to observe n draw conclusions.. don't know whether what i've concluded is correct.. bt at least tt's wad i feel... i hope i'm wrong.. aiya.. can u just let me know wad's happening?!
fyp coming up.. need to brainstorm for ideas.. thinking cap where r u!!? hai.. busy busy.. fyp.. training.. test.. lessons.. omg.. hope i can manage my time well..
mp!! dun force me to attend training!! =P
not able to online as frequently now.. bt i guess it doesn't make a difference anymore..........

hmm i wonder is it post attachment stress.. busy and headaches over reports.. constantly changing de way it's being presented.. worrying bout grammer etc... sigh..
i noe everybody needs frens (help) in one way or de other.. bt sometimes i just wish to be alone.. so tt i dun have to worry bout their views.. n dun have to give an ans to wadever i done.. it's not tt i mind being a bad guy.. i can be de one to break de news even if i find it hard.. or even expect wad reactions i'll be getting.. bt it certainly dun help when others sit n say nth.. it feels like i'm de only 1 tt is taking de blame.. hai..
a lot of things are troubling me lately.. even de iphone!! it was damaged even before i started using it.. -.- already headache over how to activate it n stuff.. n now.. cuz de sim card tray was stuck.. so when pulling out.. it broke!! don't even noe where's de 1 and only service centre in sg..
i think most of de time i'm a procrastinor.. bt sometimes i'm rash too.. for eg.. i already bought de iphone casing online regardless of de price n even tho i haven activate de phone.. who noes.. i might end up not able to use de phone or wadever tt happens.. does it really pays to wait?!
prob wad u had waited for might not eventually be wad u get.. likewise wad u get may not be wad u want.. nobody can predict de future... probably timing n fate does play a part in certain decisions u make..
people like to say if only... or what if.. at least it does happen in my case.. can i conclude tt life is full of regrets?! or as time goes by ppl's thinking change?!

did i think too much??
or this is wad u call intuition..
or m i just purely rash..
m i regretting?
r u regretting?
hai....

troubles don't come alone.. (huo bu dan xing) mum was sick for quite some time.. now i've a horrible sore throat.. hope i dun lose my voice soon.. heard there's a flu bug going around.. take care peps..

pls let tis troubled period past fast!!
where r u when i needed u most...
strepsils pls...

i've been getting tis really weird feeling lately.. dunno how to explain.. bt it doesn't really feel good.. shall i let it be or shall i do something... hai.. lost....

wanted to work on my reports during tis long hol.. bt i've been slacking!! 100% procrastinator i am... sometimes i really hate myself... tis means tt i've to b a little more hardworking during wkdays... hai..

anyway.. work tml.. so better slp early...

i don't want to sigh my life away!
bt sometimes i just can't help it..
it's never going the way i wanted it to..

women shld have at least 4 rings in their lifetime.. (seen from tv!)
1. courtship
2. proposal
3. engagement
4. marriage

2,3,4 means 3 rings in a short period of time!!
whaha.. i hope i dun have to buy dem myself! =X

my mum just bought an iphone!! excited.. bt i dunno how to use!! haha.. help!! denny!! i wan ur casing!! haha..

PS: hope my sis dun snatch from me.. =P

2wks of attachment had passed.. busy n headache over reports as usual.. thank god next wk is a 4 day wk!! haha..
i just notice something tt's obstructing after all my planning!!!!! sigh....... mayb it's not gonna happen afterall.. shldn't gt my hopes high only to find it dashed!! =(
y r there always obstacles.. how i wish life is a breeze.. do whatever u wan.. go where ever u wanna go.. nth to stop you.. nth to hold u back....

new blogskin!!!
kudos to mr denny tan! whaha...
thanks thanks!! cookie treat when u're back! =)
1 wk of attachment gone.. looking back.. i think it passed quite fast.. bt every morning.. i dread de day.. haha!! is it just me.. or all women or all human.. we seem to live in a life of irony.. 3 more wks to go... dun like waking up early.. bt yr 3 quite ok.. mostly observe.. prob dun gt to do much too.. bt reports r a headache.. cuz it's diff frm wad we used to write!! n some ppl very troublesome... so many rules n blah blah blah.. hai.........
anyway.. i'm trying very hard to spend 20 per wk!! bt i can't!! things r getting more ex!! a meal cost at least 4 now.. omg omg.. i need to save money!! ahhh!!
i must say i'm quite lucky today!! have seats at je.. n frm raffles all de way back!! can slp!! haha.. sooooooo tired..

words should not be hurtful.. use it to say i love you..

an old couple spent 60yrs together and still said it's not enough..

how sweet..

i feel weird today.. prob it's de weather.. or the dramas tt i watched... or prob i just wan to think too much n irritate someone.. haha.. irony.. (look above)
i'm sure i wun have time to think of anything other den competencies blah blah when i start attachment..
i wan to give my blog a new look.. bt i'm lazy!! n i'm a com idiot.. haha anybody help!?

i feel lousy!! (pms-ing)
down and out...
tata

i went swimming alone today!! yes alone... i always din like de idea of being alone.. looks gu pi.. haha.. bt well.. since i can't find any company.. n i wan to exercise a little.. i dun mind being a little gu pi.. =)
i must say i enjoyed my swim today!! de pool was not crowded at all.. so i can take my fav lane (de 1 nearest to the wall.. in case i drown lol!) without anyone sharing etc.. i swam 24 laps today!! was thinking of 20 initially.. bt since it's so enjoyable.. i swam till i think it's time to go! hee.. it's so relaxing to swim with ur eyes close.. not worrying whether u will bang ppl or wad.. haha tho i often end up swimming zig-zag-ing.. haha!! it's like being semi conscious.. not thinking of anything blah blah.. weee!!
human are made up of 90% water at birth. The water content in the body of a grown-up person decreases to 70%. babies grow in "water" and tt's de state when human have no worries! sooo i dunno if it applies to all.. bt being in de water definitely allows me to relax!! i sooo wanna go swim again!!
1 more wk left to enjoy!! attachment n hectic yr 3 awaits.. can't believe tt de hols are going to b over soon!! i hope tt nxt wk dun rain so often.. so i can make up my mind to go swim when i'm free..
i miss the sun,
i miss the sea,
i miss the beach,
i miss the stars,
i miss my big bolster!
i miss my holidays!

i was watching tv when i saw tis....
long ago.. man and woman exist in 1 form.. however, an evil and jealous elf decided to seperate dem.. therefore.. they began their search for their other half in this vast world.. some are lucky to be able to find them.. however.. some are unlucky and could not find theirs.... forever....
how sad!!! it's just like losing 1 piece of a jigsaw puzzle.... imcomplete!!
just for fun!!
and i learn a new word.... serendipity.. 今生缘定

anyway.. happy birthday to all march babies!! hope u all have fun and best wishes to all!! =)

time for another new update! someone complained tt i nv blog!! =P
enjoying my hols n slacking around now!! went hk some days back.. tis time went macau n zhu hai (some china place) as well!! 1st time in casino.. n de hotel we stayed was freaking nice!! my sis said it was a 6 star hotel!! de suite we stayed was meant for 2 ppl only bt we cramped 4 ppl in n i think could still cramp more!! de casino was big.. had fun there.. tho din win money.. haha.. bt at least din lose! went zhu hai for seafood.. fresh n cheap!! however a mishap happened n kinda spoil de rest of my hol there.. wanted to really curse n swear when it just happen.. bt my qi xiao le.. n forget it la.. don't wanna affect my mood over tis.. bt sometimes life is just unfair.. n i dun even understand whether is it de money or de attitude.. in my view.. i din give any attitude while she's de 1 giving me attitude.. n i said i'll pay for it.. so i dun even noe wad she's angry bout! irritating.. bt well.. it's over.. n i paid her back for it.. sooo.. fullstop..
anyway life now is slp eat watch tv n use com!! omg i can predict my weight after tis.. haha.. i soo wanna go exercise.. long time since i played ball!! bt my arm still hurts at time.. well.. i think it's not gonna recover so ya.. heck it.. anybody pls ask me out for exercise!! if not i'll become a fat pig in no time!!
lots of 21st tis yr.. esp in feb!! haha.. feels it's an auspicious month to have babies ar.. gonna burn out my wallet soon.. attending so many parties.. makes me wonder bout mine.. at first i'm really lazy to organise 1.. bt after attending the parties make it interesting to plan for 1.. bt now.. i'm back to square 1.. lazy old me.. haha!! even de place itself is hard to find.. well.. i shall take a step at a time..
things start to gt a little complicated at tis time.. hmm.. at least i din tot it would turn out tis way.. bt well.. such things are not within our control.. de power of nature! whaha.. once again i'll take a step at a time.. i hate myself for being such a procrastinator.. bt.. tt's wad i am!! take it or leave it!! =P

ivp over.. attachment ending.. new yr coming = exams coming.. holidays next!

ivp was such a disappointment.. nth much to say.. cuz we din do well even when we have a "shang shang qian" compared to the other grouping.. zh said she'll kill me if we din gt in.. ahh!! for encouragement.. at least we won 1 game.. haha..
can't gt my lazy brain to start working!! sigh exams in bout 2 wks time n i've not started studying!! looking forward to new yr bt dread exams.. bt it's at de same time! contradictory.. looking forward to holidays tho.. hongkong trip confirm!! gd food, cold weather awaits.. woo!!
feb is a short mth.. bt i hope i'll really spend my time fully and happily..
not looking forward to march at all.. yr 3 awaits.. fyp (hot topic).. stress n more stress.. where's my de-stressor!? not around also.. hai hai haizz
lots of 21st bday's tis yr.. i soooo wanna disappear from the earth.. lol!! guess more headaches over presents! bt.. certainly hope everyone enjoy their 21st!! n i like to c parties of different themes.. lol.. prob gimmi an idea on wad i would do for mine! =D

waiting waiting waiting.. bt feels so far from reach..
i wan to tell the world.. bt it's complicated..
future?! i don't know..
emo-ing thinking bout exams.. lol..

2009!!!

happy 2009 everyone!! =)
hmm.. ask me bout new yr resolutions... i haven tot bout it yet!! lol...
last yr passed by in a flash! before i knew it.. it was 2009 already! been quite busy in de later part of 2008.. only 2 short wks of break which is filled with xmas shopping.. n gatherings etc.. bt it's fun filled!! =D
now i'm having attachments again!! n up nxt will b ivp! hai busy busy busy.. after all tis would b cny!! looking forward to de new year goodies! haha *yum yum* 1 sad thing.. i've major exams during cny!! soooo can't play n spend time out!! have to date my bks!! sobx.... i hope nxt yr time table would not b like tis!!
spent de new year watching fireworks!! lots of ppl squeezing in on marina square hoping to catch a glimpse of the fireworks.. n yes.. i'm 1 of dem!! i always like fireworks.. tho they are shortlived bt they're spectacular!! really enjoyed my day!! of cuz.. de company always play an impt role.. hee.. went brewerks after.. drank some magaritas.. nice!! my kind of drink.. swt! haha.. i nv like those super alcohol kinda drinks.. there're super lots of ppl tt night! din noe tt brewerks can b tt happening too! all along i tot it was just a restaurant/pub kind..
1st time on night rider!! haha.. save up on cab fare.. we are poor ppl.. =X haha.. night rider goes on all de small roads.. n it's a long way home.. lucky halfway gt seats le.. haha.. bt i like long bus rides! can sit n slp!! lol.. can talk talk =)
in conclusion.......
de start of 2009 is great!! i dunno how long it can last.. bt let just hope for the best..