hai... i really dun understand y do things always go de other way..
from my previous post.. i said tt we can choose how our life goes..
but now i realise that in many situations, it takes more den 1 person's choice to make things de way u want.. although i can decide what i want.. i can't possibly help another person to choose...
do i have to learn to accept even if it brings along pain.......
can i CHOOSE not to!?
seems like.. life is not always about your own choice either!

i dunno is it a curse.. bt i can't seem to break away from it...
when i c a light in de dark.. i'll walk towards it.. bt it always disappear before i can reach it..

4 papers nxt wk.. 2 papers de following wk..
0 revision done.. with 1 presentation due tml and ongoing fyp..
sighhhh...........

ok busy busy.. same goes for de following mths..
was reading this book - whatever u think, think the opposite
it's damn enlightening!! sets me thinking from a different angle..
quote:
i wish means: wouldn't it be nice if...
u always make de right decision, de safe decision, de 1 most ppl make, you will be same as everyone else...
always wishing life was different (paradox)

totally agree!!! y should i potray myself just like every others?! imagine u c someone acting different from the norm.. u would definitely have a laugh or go around telling ppl wad u saw! it makes an impression rather than the plain jane u c everyday rite?! not tt i wan to be weird from now la.. haha..
but ya rather den whining n wishing life was different.. we could choose to be different!
you are wad you choose to be! a plain jane.. a leader.. a weirdo or someone just different from the rest!! it takes courage to be different! dare to be different!!! i'm too timid n rather shy.. i must be more daring to voice out my views!! according to de bk.. there's no wrong n rite decisions.. it's all about choice.. y should u regret over ur decision.. u should regret not making any!

sometimes being mean is bad.. bt being too nice isn't any better.. i think it's only nice to treat others the way u wan to be treated.. some ppl just aren't worthy of u treating dem well.. not cuz of the way they treat u.. bt of the way they think of u.. no matter how nice u r to dem.. 1 slight mistake they will think de worst of u.. if this is how u treat a fren.. den u're not sincere at all.. friends don't owe each other anything.. i'm not obliged to do things tt u should be responsible for.. but i can still be nice and choose to help u.. but if i choose not to do it for u.. would u think de worse of me?! sounds selfish.. but tt's a fact!! not everyone is nice all de time.. u can't just shift ur responsiblities to someone else like tt isn't it?
haha now sounds like i'm grumbling.. but well.. at least now i would stop whining over my life and like myself for who i am.. not to shape myself according to norms.. do wad i feel like doing and not bothering of others opinions..
i used to dislike de idea of going overseas to study or attachment or wadever.. cuz it's means to be alone n independent.. bt now i suddenly wan to experience a life like tt.. although being alone in a foreign country sounds scary.. n fyi i hate being alone.. haha.. bt i just feel like flying all over n seeing things i dun gt to c.. tt's living life to the fullest isn't it!! =D

new aim: to tour the world and gain experiences till de day i die.. who wans to go wif me?! =)