wad is a blog.. it's sum sort of an online diary where u could record down events of ur life or ani particular feelings u haf.. bt there r lots of things tt could not b written down here.. so wad for own a blog?! to say nice things or record gd feelings u haf? wad about de bad events or feelings.. it takes a lot of courage to actualli criticise someone in a public blog like tis.. n if someone ever does tt to u.. i think u hab to realli look back on ur doings.. quiet ppl are always on the losing end cuz no matter wadeva u do.. u'll nber gt de credit.. it's always the people who dare to speak up gets all de attention.. so in wadeva u do.. dun b shy.. juz speak up.. it's juz the 2 extremes.. u either gt admired or u gt hated for de way u speak.. the quiet ones will juz remain status quo.. ppl look at u n forget u.. it's realli sad n u'll nber understand de feeling cuz u're always getting attention.. sometimes it's good to hold back a little when u're "joking" cuz u'll nber noe when u'll break one of ur inferior fren's fragile heart.. there's always ups and downs in one's life.. ask mi y de sudden "gan chu".. i dunno.. might b bcuz i'm bored.. might b bcuz of de music i'm listening to.. might b i'm tired of life.. dun assume tt u're a goody goody as long as u gt a circle of frens.. cuz u'll never know when they'll hate u in secret..
enough of tt.. been watching tv de whole day.. didn touch my hw.. realli no mood.. nice weather to slp in too.. de matches starting tml.. wish us luck.. it's takes real lot of commitment to actually do wad u say.. so dun make empty promises.. it's nt gd to give ppl hope bt to crush it at de very last min.. sometimes tears juz drop down automatically.. bt sometimes even when u'll feeling realli bad u couldn't cry.. its always times like tis when u feel very down.. juz like wad ppl always say.. cry it out, it makes u feel better.. n i agree.. it's very true.. bt it's very hard to force tears out.. n i mean genuine tears.. oppz.. tis entry becuming beri opinionated.. wadeva.. agree wif mi?! or nt.. hu cares..

haiz..

hmm.. tis wk wasn't realli fantastic.. suddenli realise tt i had been failing most of my test.. actually didn tot much of it.. till todae when i start toking to zihui bout exams.. eekz.. had i been playing n slacking too much tt i fail to cope wif my studies?! haiz.. kinda upset lahz.. bt nt bout de results cuz i noe tt i hadn been really studying.. either toking or kinda day dream.. juz can't seem to focus.. dunno lectures too boring or wad.. always focus for a while den start drifting off.. mayb cuz i dun realli understand wad de lecturer trying to say so my mind auto shut off.. haiz.. realli lost now.. dunno how can i brush up on my work.. it's like i have 101 question marks in my head.. change a new gp tutor.. dun realli like him.. he's furni lahz.. bt i dun understand wad he's saying lehz.. zZz..
ok enough of bad stuffs.. training finally started.. waited so long for tis day.. actualli de seniors wanted to come back bt due to some stuffs.. they didn turn up.. realli miss dem a lot.. hope we could find a day when we r all free to watch de video or hab a gathering or something.. hmm.. training was ok.. teaching those new comers de basics.. kinda fun.. didn train much too cuz keep raining.. supposed to hab training on fri as well bt mr tay cancelled it cuz nt much ppl going.. bt we stayed back for a while to play too.. couldn realli confirm on de training days.. kinda frustrated by de changing of times and days.. so troublesome keep contacting ppl bout tis n tt.. hf having pre u sem for de whole of next wk.. missing trainings n de u19 cup.. bt i think it doesn't realli matter.. feel realli sorri for nt going to "pei" wif dem for de u19 cup.. realli wanted to join dem bt didn hab de time.. at least i went for 1 time rite?! haha.. a bit like gu fu coach cuz we said we wanted to join bt didn go back to train.. aniway will do my best to set well for de team.. let's jia you k?! we'll go through thick n thin together =P shall stop here le.. lappy no batt le.. think to slp.. tata!

hmm.. i'm officially 17 now!! haha receive lots of msg n some presents frm my frens.. special thanks to my triple js grp plus derek (pardon mi if i miss ani of u hu shared for de present) , ah ma n bear, manying, mama n wanling.. for all ur presents.. i love dem all.. =D brief summary on de pass few days...
20/5
had econs tutorial and after tt went to de cafe where they bought a small cake n kinda celebrated my bday.. thanks guys.. after tt went kbox wif joscelin, abel, derek, jesslyn, jeannie n zach.. sang quite a lot of songs.. n they all beri gao xiao.. n i found out tt jess beri qiang.. she can rap pan wei bo's songs.. *jaw drop* haha after tt jess, jos, jean n zach came my house for a few rounds of mahjong.. was very fun bt think will b more exciting if we played wif money haha.. aniway i'm de big winner!! haha played till 5 plus den they went off.. slack for a while before going off to ccab to meet up wif mi sec sch vb frens.. dad drove mi there.. haha.. hmm.. played a few games wif de moe team.. bout 5 days didn touch ball kinda lost touch le.. haha.. didn set well.. aniway juz playing for fun.. played till 10 littat den went to kap for a drink.. chatted a while and went home in a cab.. reached home bout 11 plus.. tt's my day.. haha
21/5
considered quite a boring day.. went for training.. met mama at je.. she gave mi a hug n wished mi happi bday.. haha thanks mama.. after which she passed mi a present frm manying.. guess wad she gave mi!? a muffin!! haha.. which was left overnight cuz she bought it n pass it to mama ytd n mama gave it to mi today.. eekz.. bt it was nice.. haha.. such a weird present horz.. haha training wasn't beri sun li todae.. didn set well.. getting more n more lousy.. think i beri stress there bahz.. train till 6 plus den went home.. eat my mee sua den watch tv all de way.. sianz.. haha..
22/5
went to eat breakfast wif parents.. den go guan yin miao bai bai.. wha lao so many ppl lorz.. squeeze like sardines.. kena pushed here n there.. den ppl so sweaty brush past my hands.. eekz.. after bai bai went jp to cut hair.. hmm.. dunno wad hairstyle i wan so juz call de person to recommend lorz.. end up she cut till beri short... eekz.. dun realli like it.. bt at least my hairstyle change le bahz.. nvm it will grow back again.. haha n i think will grow back to b de same hairstyle as last time.. always littat de lahz.. used to it.. =P hmm.. today oso quite boring bahz.. hab to rush my hw.. lots n lots of dem.. aniway juz wanna thank u guys for all de msg n presents.. =) gonna slack off again.. tata!

zzZzz

hmm.. juz finished eating my maggie mee alone.. did i every say tt i hate to be alone or even feel alone!? in de past, i used to have little time for hw.. n used to rush here n there.. going for trainings.. even during wed sometimes muz rush to other schs for training.. n wed it's my onli earli day (2pm) tt i can go home earli n slp.. bt now when i can finalli come home to rest n rush my mountain like hws, i feel weird.. last time i always manage to finish (either do it or copy) my hw juz on time.. bt now when i have more time, i feel tt de hw is never-ending.. like todae do tml's work den tml oso gt work n more work... dunno is de workload increasing or wad.. haha.. furni rite!? i think i'm still not use to not seeing my teammates everyday.. or even not touching vb for a few days.. might b due to de post intensive training syndrome haha..
saw de articles on straits time n lian he zao bao.. think de zao bao 1 more details.. n de picture more cute.. haha.. de straits time 1 beri lousy.. juz 1 picture n even gt de info for a div guys wrong lorz... japalang.. haha dunno when den can go out in 1 whole big grp wif dem again.. haiz.. think we're all busy wif our work.. training starting soon.. will tis new team be de same!?
think my classmates beri cute lahz.. all beri encouraging.. haha wishing mi luck all de way n congratulating mi after de matches.. even now they sometimes will talk bout de cheers.. they're 1 crazy bunch haha.. always doing weird, furni or lame stuffs.. bt it's still fun to be wif dem.. haiz.. now muz rush my gp portfolio le.. till de next post... tata!!

ChAmPs!!!

we are de champions!!! haha can u believe it?! i dun believe it too!! de 1st time in finals.. 1st time in toa payoh.. 1st time getting champs.. i'm elated..
ytd was de finals against nyj.. they trashed us b4 so we're like de team tt's expecting to lose.. bt it's a once in a lifetime match so muz relax n do our best.. de moment i stepped in toa payoh sports hall i was a little nervous n more paiseh haha.. cuz my classmates n those who noe mi where up there cheering.. bt soon i tried to block off de sounds n de view of over a thousand ppl (i think) looking at us.. i could somehow still hear tt it's very noisy bt i think i've successfully focus on de match.. it's was overall an exciting match.. bt is it close?! i dun realli think so.. de sets we lose or won were not as close as 2 pts.. de 4th set we even won dem 25-12.. amazing ya!? for a team hu is kena trashed b4 somehow show them some colours.. i think tt de whole team did great for ytd.. esp zihui n fenghui.. they were de stars of de match.. did great saves n spikes.. played smart n remain calm throughout the game.. i pulled my muscle a little at de 4th match.. luckily nt tt serious.. we were so strong in our mental power.. we didn noe tt we could win.. it came as a huge surprise to us.. n i believe to de audience too.. jj's cheers were loud.. they were sporting.. cheering for other schs as well.. their cheer leading dance was great.. we were thankful for their support.. as usual we jumped n screamed like mad at de last point.. tears of joy laid at de side of our eyes.. some even cried out haha.. i didn feel really nervous n i'm quite amazed.. 1st time so many eyes watching us throughout de match.. haha after the match we had celebration at sizzler.. was really fun too.. laughing n talking bout de match.. took lots of photo till my memory card full.. (ok my mem. card size small lahz haha) onli sad thing is tt poor lihui had stomach cramp tt was so horrible she couldn't eat or walk properly.. bt i noe she's happy.. she went home earlier thus missing out on lots of photo taking.. bt nvm.. we still had next time n next next next times..
although i'm quite tired ytd.. i can't gt to slp.. i can't bear for de day to end.. i'm happy tt we're de champs.. bt i'm sad tt de journey ended so quickly.. in jc everything comes n goes fast.. unlike sec sch where we can slowly train n play together for 4 yrs.. it's even less den a yr.. i didn noe y we clicked so easily.. wad mr tay say ytd was realli true.. he said we hab de making of de champs cuz we have a special chemistry in us.. he saw it when we were in kl.. de trip indeed make us closer.. so close tt i feel so lost when i finally could go home early to rest instead of training.. i feel so weird when i didn c dem.. it wasn't even a day n i started missing dem.. de times we spent together.. bt i guess it's part n parcel of life.. at least we put a beautiful full stop at de end of it.. no regrets.. beautiful game played.. beautiful ending..
i might regret going to jc.. bt i will not regret joining jj vball team.. to b part of dem.. they bring great memories to me... yeah.. i love u guys.. jj vball team rock!! n yes i told ya tt we'll rock toa payoh sports hall!!