time for another update.. hee..
de yr is coming to an end to.. talk bout end like very sad.. bt look at it from another view.. it is a new beginning too.. time to set new goals n resolutions.. anyway.. wish all of u out there have a merry xmas n a happy new yr!!!
been working for bout 2 wks le.. de working environment is typical 9-5 kind.. 5 mins b4 lunch n end of work.. most of dem r ready to go.. de ppl there quite frenli.. at least u can find someone hu is willing to smile to u.. n thank god i have gd supervisors.. frenli n patient.. as usual u can find typical aunties gossiping around.. bt there are less office politics going around.. in conclusion.. it's still quite a nice place to work in..
started my practical driving lesson.. today first time on the road.. lucky it din rain if not i think i'll still b doing rounds in the circuit.. n heng today is not de irritating instructor tt i had last wk.. he keep condeming auto car drivers.. frm the moment i stepped into de car till i left he keep saying auto car not gd la.. blah blah.. ppl hu can drive shld learn manual blah blah.. talk non stop.. today i had a peaceful ride.. with only instructions for mi.. bt i still prefer the 1st instructor.. talk in moderate and better topics.. hee nevertheless.. i'm still happy learning auto car.. doesn't matter if i can't drive manual la.. as long as i have a car to drive next time.. shall change my dream car since i dream to drive a sports car which i can't now.. haha..
oh no!! i've not shop for prom stuff.. hope there's still time for mi to gather all the things i need.. bt really very budget tis few days.. keep spending without any pay coming in.. hope to spend as less money as i could for tis event.. actually i dun like to buy stuff tt i onli use once (mayb in a lifetime haha) waste money.. bt well.. still have to do some grooming.. respect others n myself.. read de horoscope today.. it advise mi to pamper myself more.. haha
i'm off for my tv session!! prob update after my trip.. hope it's a joyful 1.. =)

hmm starting work soon.. kinda dread de no life days ahead.. n imagine it's going to last for 6 mths.. din had a gd experience in my past admin job.. hope tis is not as boring as i tot.. in addition.. de pay's not really fantastic.. n it's less den my previous 1.. bt well i guess de deduction in de few dollars can b made up by de company of frens.. at least i'm not alone!! guess tt's a consolation.. =)
anyway.. had suki sushi on i forget wad day le.. hee.. i noe.. i'm old.. =p went there after our driving evaluation.. i passed!! bt de test date is 2 wks away.. sianz.. ok back to sushi.. xy made a "cake" for leena.. poor ger have to finish tt amt of sushi on her own.. bt well.. i helped to eat her crabstick de hee.. we were quite lousy cuz i think all of us ate quite little.. so de 20 bucks not quite well spent.. bt well.. we had fun la.. after tt we went arcade.. spent 7 bucks each.. quite a lot rite.. haha.. kinda hooked into dytona nowadays.. mayb cuz we learning driving now.. haha
tok bout driving.. i'm going for my first practical lesson tml!! kinda excited.. although it's in de circuit bt it'll b my first time driving.. hee.. hope nth goes wrong.. hee
went smb play ball for de past 2 sats.. kind dewen drove us there earli in de morning.. very long no play ball le.. de feeling of playing competition again was quite shiok.. hee.. although there were aches de next day.. bt it was quite worth it la.. very fun!! besides.. de aches on de 2nd sat were not as horrible as de first 1.. guess i need lots of working out.. fats r accumulating.. hee n congrats to feng on passing her driving test.. 1 more person to drive us around next time.. hee
ok tt's all folks.. cya next time =P

aN eVentFuL dAy..

frm de title u noe la.. a lot of things happen in a day...
for now.. i shall first announce tt i've officially finished my A's!! cheers!!
after my last paper.. we went for movie (step up) at town on tt very day.. next day.. went derek house for bbq.. it was quite a fun day.. n i believe everyone enjoyed themselves.. even miss yew was there n we shared some secrets.. shhh.. haha.. went back around 1 plus.. cab fare very ex.. no money le.. sobx.. anyone any lobang pls include mi..
fri went to reg driving n went xiuyi's house for mahjong.. lost money.. even more broke.. haha.. her kind dad drove us home in maxi cab.. =)
today went ecp to blade.. bt ya.. lots of things happen.. anyway.. hope jess quickly recover n enjoy her LA trip.. been playing for de past few days.. n back home midnite.. lucky mummy nber make noise.. hee.. haven been slpin enough too.. so tired.. *yawnz*
shall go n rest le.. tataz!!

nowadays haze isn't realli terrible.. bt it has been raining everyday.. not tt i hate rain la.. it's better den de smelly haze though.. hee..
had a weird dream ytd.. dreamt tt i quarel wif mi sis.. de dream felt so real (ok.. which dream doesn't..) tt i awoke angry n still feel angry after de dream.. mum's been drinking quite a lot tis wk.. kinda sot sot.. hope she's juz feeling depressed n not becuz of some big probs.. when i'm young i juz hate it when she's drunk cuz she does things tt she doesn't normally do n sometimes it really freak mi out.. bt now i'm more worried.. it's not as if we dun care bout her.. bt she juz keep things to herself.. ppl may appear strong on de outside bt may not b so on de inside.. i shall not blame her for drinking bt i hope tt she cuts down on it n hope tt everything is well for everyone..
mayb due to de fact tt exams are coming.. i feel easily irritated.. n sometimes dun feel like talking.. there's 1 day when mum drank quite alot le.. n came back to gt money b4 going out again.. sis n her fren (guy) was in de room chatting when mum came back.. she look quite concerned n she's quite seh at tt moment le.. she insist on going out.. (might as well since i think she'll b sot if she stay at home) i'm kinda angry at sis for not being auto enough.. like who would like to c her daughter wif a guy alone in a rm behind close doors.. c.. i gt irritated at de slightest thing.. haha when i'm young i always wonder if i'll b like my sis when i grow old.. she's rather rebellious when young.. seems like i'm still quite an introvert compared to her.. she makes frens easily n she's very open to challenges n new things.. i'm an anti social.. haha.. happy in my own comfort zone.. i'm a peacemaker!! hee..
exams coming soon!! on one hand i hope tt it faster end so i can spend more time having fun n do some things i really wanna do.. on other hand.. i hope i have more time to study n prepare for it.. so afraid tt i wun make it to uni.. bt i juz can't find my goal to keep mi moving.. sigh..
wadever!! days come n go.. juz hope i'll make it bah.. jia you to all of u out there.. n thanks for all ur encouragement.. =)

me?!

you chose BX - your Enneagram type is NINE. "I am at peace" Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them. How to Get Along with Me If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't like expectations or pressure. I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advantage of this. Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit. Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally. Ask me questions to help me get clear. Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery. Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings. I like a good discussion but not a confrontation. Let me know you like what I've done or said. Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life. What I Like About Being a Nine being nonjudgmental and accepting caring for and being concerned about others being able to relax and have a good time knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe What's Hard About Being a Nine being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally being confused about what I really want caring too much about what others will think of me not being listened to or taken seriously Nines as Children Often feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant tune out a lot, especially when others argue are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves Nines as Parents are supportive, kind, and warm are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

it's been a long time since i last blogged.. haha
hmm.. dad came back last fri.. when lots of places to eat.. tt's de advantage when dad is back.. haha.. can drive us round singapore to hunt for places to eat.. =)
sis gt hospitalise due to food poisoning.. poor thing.. c her keep running to de toilet.. bt well.. she now lies in a grade A ward.. n de best thing is.. her company pay for her.. win liao lor.. haha.. hope she dun grumble bout work now..
few wks left till a's.. sigh.. progress is slow.. still lots of stuff tt i din noe.. lots of things to do.. so little time left.. sch had officially ended.. took lots of photos ytd.. all kinds of weird positions.. haha bt i had fun.. took individual photos wif some of dem.. n to think of it.. in tis 2 yrs.. i din tok to my classmate more den 5 sentences.. dunno is i anti social or he anti social.. haha i think i'll miss my classmates n teachers.. looking forward to grad nite.. where we can hab more "memories" haha.. well.. hab to go now.. better gt some work done b4 i start slacking de day away..

omg.. de com is freaking laggy now.. no idea y.. bt i hope it's not virus.. *fingers crossed
start of prelims.. n a wk had passed.. 2 more papers to go..
hmm.. i guess i dun hab to say bout it le.. quite amazed over de fact tt i'm not as guilty when i noe i din do well.. had i sub consiously gave up?! or i juz can't b bothered.. bt well.. after much thinking.. i start to feel bad.. haha especially after i found out de things i memorised din really came out de rite way.. totally depressed.. almost gave up on my physics paper.. bt still managed to revise a little bah.. kinda dread de end of exams.. cuz tt's when de results will b out.. n by den.. things can realli get depressing..
ok wad's past is gone forever.. shall not dwell on it.. anyway wanna thank mama for encouraging mi.. will try to keep de spirit up de.. =) n jia you to everyone out there.. when u're feeling down.. take a look around u.. there r always ppl who really care bout u.. =D really looking forward to de day when i can put everything behind n truely enjoy de beautiful things out there n de company i've gt..

actualli i'm quite curious.. do i really look like i dun care??
i lost faith in myself.. only to find tt most of u have lost faith in mi as well..

hmm.. another 1 wk plus to prelims.. did a mock maths paper today.. quite a no dunno how to do.. hai.. not quite like a test.. was discussing n refering oppz.. haha
was discussing bout after prom plans n holiday trips before de mock paper.. (where's our sense of urgency!! haha) ji tao no mood to do mock after tt.. haha.. think quite a no of dem going on holiday wif their family.. zhen xian mu.. i think it's been ages since i went on a holiday n sit on a plane.. so sad.. seems like all of dem are busy wif their own things n not interested to go on a holiday.. besides.. mum dun like long hours of plane.. so there goes my hope of a nice holiday trip.. wonder will there b a next time when we can go on holiday as a whole family again.. no one seems interested.. kinda sad rite.. others r looking forward to de hols n trips overseas.. while here i am looking for something to do..
should i even look forward to the hols.. oh.. i start to miss sch le.. haha.. actually i kinda miss my secondary sch frens.. peifen and gang.. huishan n caifeng n huiping.. so long din c dem le.. even my classmates.. mel, zinmar, xuantong, shaolin, chantong, avan...etc guess everyone is busy wif their stuffs.. hope everything is going well for u guys..
hmm.. should i even start thinking of wad job i should look for during my long break.. i hope i can find something tt interest mi.. at least i wun feel bored.. it's high time i should gt a life.. for de past 18 yrs.. my life is revolving around sch n home.. totally no life can.. sigh..
well.. i hope de class holiday trip will b successful.. n can anyone bring mi on a trip!? yes.. i'm dying to leave singapore.. not tt it's not gd.. bt i'm bored of de greens tt i c everyday.. haha.. oh i hope a's will pass faster.. n de results lost in de airplane.. haha..

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superband finals!!

had quite an eventful 5/8.. it's de superband finals!! ok.. nt really enthu bout superband la.. bt gt free tics so.. y not.. hee
firstly.. met up wif mh, yy n jos in town to watch click.. hmm.. quite a nice movie.. i would rate it 4/5 although it's not realli realistic.. bt de moral behind it is quite meaningful.. first half it's a comedy.. as everyone would expect it to b.. 2nd part was quite touching in fact.. all 4 of us somehow gt emotional haha.. shall not reveal de story lah.. it's nicer to explore it on ur own.. well.. de moral of de story is.. dun take things for granted.. it may pass faster den u noe.. n when u wan to cherish it.. it's too late.. sometimes we should really slow our pace down n pay more attention to ur surroundings.. show more care n concern for ppl around u.. tt will make u a happier person!! so ya.. i shall b kinder now.. b nice wif my words.. hee..
after de movie.. we went shopping around for jess's present.. it was quite fast compared to de past.. haha.. when expo shortly after.. freaking lot of ppl.. bt luckily de queue wasn't as long as i expected.. once they let ppl in.. it was quite fast.. yupz.. de atmosphere was quite high.. n noe wad.. renfred was standing quite near us!! so shuai!! haha.. can't c de stage cuz i'm like quite short.. so was looking around for shuai ges.. sadly there's none.. lots of crazy gers though.. screaming their lungs out.. bt well.. there r always crazy fans out there..
although we stood for like 5 hrs?? bt i still enjoyed de performance (can c a little bit lah) haha.. bt mayb i prefer watching it on tv.. haha.. when's de repeat!??! oh ya mi lu bing is de champs!!
ok.. enjoy ur national day hols.. peps!!

tis is de one taken on de escalator.. with a ahem uncle at de back..

tis is my fav pic.. although we din seem to b looking at de cam.. haha

had a class gathering on 28/7 and yes.. it's fun.. de tot tt it might b de last gathering before de a's made mi sad.. the turn out was quite gd.. 20 ppl or so?!
first we met at city hall.. n as expected.. there were late comers.. bt i'm late too!! haha so.. some time spent on waiting.. n guess wad.. we saw mr sin wif her gf.. oppz.. dunno is he suay or wad.. haha.. n we went to search for places tt can accomodate such a big grp like us.. de subway at marina square was quite empty.. luckily they din go there.. cuz i wasn't really expecting to eat tt.. in de end we went to cafe cartel.. after like 45mins of waiting?! de gers did their forfeits in de meantime.. haha was quite furni cuz it's like quite lame?! i think tt left de guys thinking for a while haha..
jess jeannie n mi shared a seafood combo n a grilled chicken meal.. yum yum.. bt i think we ate a lot!! (fats) bt we're quite hungry for de fact tt we ate at 9 plus?! we played a little game at de end of it.. was quite fun.. although i had to de forfeit for like 2 or 3 times... n guess wad.. de forfeit was to put either chilli sauce or wasabi or de tobasco sauce on de bread!! n sorry to say.. i'm de 1 tt suggested it!! haha.. i kena once wasabi n another de tobasco sauce.. i think de tobasco 1 was yuck!! although de wasabi 1 wasn't tt nice too.. all in all.. FUN!!
after dinner.. it was de usual photo taking sessions.. fun as usual.. as crazy in our posing.. there were like yoga pose in 1 of dem.. den de guys jumped onto a lorry n took pics wif their middle finger out.. my fav 1 was when we took it outside ms.. on de path to de mrt.. post it in a second.. n another grp photo of us gers on an escalator.. sorry i dun hab de rest of de photos cuz issac or whoever haven send mi..
sat de last train home wondering y mummy din call mi.. despite de time.. n it's de 7th mth.. bt well.. i was lucky.. juz mins after i reached home.. mum came back too.. if i'm late 5 mins will i gt a scolding?! bt since i din gt 1.. it's gd!! haha..
in conclusion.. it was a really fun day!!

hey!! i'm back again..
meet de parents session was scary.. bt lucky it's over.. hmm.. gt to noe some of my mum's view of mi.. as expected.. she knew tt i did badly.. bt juz kept quiet.. it's nt tt i dun wanna tell her.. bt i juz dun wanna upset her n make her worried.. i noe tt everyone is worried bout mi.. n i'm so sorry.. i'll work hard.. hope tt i wun die off halfway bah..
promised jess tt i'll blog bout something.. so here i am.. a bit late though..
well.. my sis decided to hop job i think.. so she asked mum for her support.. n mum started to tok grandmother's stories.. bt it spark of some of my tots..
what if...
frm de start i went to poly instead.. i sort of regretted my choice of going for jc.. mayb it's juz de kind of mindset tt i have in de past tt led mi on tis road.. last time i dunno wad course i wanna do in poly plus my mind pop out something like.. if can go jc den go lor.. now.. i think further.. what if i cannot make it.. den i'll b like wasting 2 yrs of jc.. plus where can i go? go back poly?? i dun say tt de sch is not gd lah.. i quite like de environment n ppl.. especially my seniors.. they're like so kind ppl.. n de time when we went to kl.. it's like my 1st trip overseas w/o my parents.. it was a memorable 1.. n getting champs.. i dun think i'd ever experience it if i din enter jc.. n of cuz.. gt to noe u ppl.. so u c.. there's pros n cons.. bt well.. it's too late to regret.. regret is always a bad thing.. cuz u noe u can either do it better or do it another way..
now..
what's impt is de end results.. so.. left with 6wks to prelims.. w/o any heading.. bt i noe i gonna work.. i dun wanna side track.. so let's c wad miracle can happen during tis period of time..

p.s: come on ppl.. let's work together!! go go go!! hee.. jia you everyone..

hello guys.. i'm back again.. (after so long haha)
ok.. got back my results.. n as usual.. dun ask mi wad is it.. it's juz so disappointing.. sometimes.. it's juz so hard to find de motivation especially when wad u gt for at least trying is equal to not trying at all.. hai.. n when i heard tt there's meet-the-parents session.. which i've been afraid of since young.. i was like.. wha.. siao liao.. dunno how will mum react.. so i've been procrastinating n din tell her my results till ytd.. n i onli gave her a very vague idea.. n there's not much of a reaction from her.. i dunno if she expected it.. or she think tt i passed juz tt din do well.. i'm so afraid it's de later.. at tis pt of time.. i really miss my dad.. when i can tell him my result n gt nag a little n more encouragement.. n wad's best is tt he always shelter me frm my mum during such scary periods by going to meet de teacher instead of her going.. bt tis time.. no chance.. i was hoping tt he come back for a holiday or something at tt day.. bt fat hope!! sigh..
countdown.. 7-8 wks to prelims.. bout 13 wks to a's?? omg.. i wan to start bt i dunno how.. ahh!!
i tried motivating myself wif lots of ways n ideas.. (dun ask mi wad is it.. it's lame) bt seems like it's not working..

relatives! pretty auntie on my left.. lucien de1st little boy frm de left 

me sis n cindy

hmm it's been a long time since i've updated..
it's de end of holidays which doesn't seem like hols.. cuz of de studying n de exams.. eekz.. dun tok bout de sad things.. haha
when to my cousin's (cindy) 21st bday chalet at east coast on 24/6.. actually wanna go blading in de morn de but man say it will rain n thus we cancelled de trip.. ended up at man's house for our usual mahjong session.. i muz say tt my luck wasn't beri gd.. in fact it was lousy haha.. anyway.. i had to leave earli to attend de party.. n guess wad.. my mum said she's going!! mayb it's not a surprise u some of u.. bt it's really rare for her to attend such events.. unless it's her side tt's organising something.. (cindy is my dad's side) it was really crowded at de party..
it's heart warming when u c everyone in ur family is so busy trying to make everything work juz to make u happy n make ur bday a memorable 1.. i think their family is really bonded n i kinda envy them.. cuz i noe tt i couldn't gt my whole family to do something like tt.. mum always grumble when she have to handle a lot of things.. n they dun seem to like de idea of organising a chalet cuz u have to clean up when everyone goes off n stuff like tt.. so u c de effort cindy's family made juz to make her happy..
anyway.. i gt to c lots of relatives tt i seldom see.. some not even once a yr.. (chi new yr) n i think i mentioned tt i like to b in my dad's side gathering in my blog (ages ago) there's more kids of my age n they're kinda more educated.. n i gt to c lucien again!! after 2 or 3 yrs.. i think tt he changed a lot.. bt still as cute as ever.. haha n his mum still as pretty.. i always gt confused over all de aunties at my dad's side cuz din gt to c dem much.. bt i rmb her as de pretty aunty.. hee.. n her husband as a sporty dad.. he take part in trilathons!! so fit can.. n i think they're super rich too.. envy envy.. all de kids around made de place very lively..
normally mum would rush us home after a while when she gt bored.. although she did do tt again.. bt we weren't de first to go off.. another amazing thing.. haha.. her mood seems pretty gd after dad went overseas.. n she's home more often.. weird..
in conclusion.. i enjoyed myself at her party!! hope for more gatherings.. =)

hmm.. quite no mood tis few days.. dunno is de stress or juz de time of de month..
sis din came back last night n guess wad.. juz like de weather.. she had a big quarrel wif mum.. hmm.. actually when she called earlier i kinda gt irritated by her too.. here's part of de conversation:
mum: what did ur sis say to u
s: nth much lar.. (dun feel like talking much to her oso)
mum: u say she call u den she never say anything meh..
s: i dunno lahz..
m: wad dunno! den did she tell u she's not coming back last night
s: ya..
m: wad time she told u
s: dunno slp already
m: wad dunno! cannot trace back mehz
s: my settings gt problem lahz (it's de truth) so de timing when i receive de msg sot sot lor
m: u den sot sot.. den buy so gd hp for wad.. use my lousy kind 1 can le..
s: u think i buy hp juz to check wad time ppl send mi msg mehz (kinda angry le..)

c how unreasonable she is.. n since tt day i came back at 3.. she's been unreasonable.. ok i noe 3 is kinda late.. bt it's like once in a blue moon mahz.. n another time when i went for gathering wif my seniors.. she called at 10 (still earli can) n as usual shouted n wan mi to go back at tt instance.. whatever lahz.. i din really care cuz we're having coffee n chatting tt time.. n i can't possibly juz walk off rite.. wad's more.. some of de seniors i dun gt to c dem often.. chat a while.. no harm.. den i came back before 12.. mind u.. before 12 is earli ok.. although she slp already.. i din escape scolding.. de next day i went lib to study n called her to tell her.. n guess wad.. kena scolding.. wad the!! say i not time conscious den say something like i'm going to call ur dad back n not care about all tis anymore.. wadeva lahz.. dad more understanding den her lahz.. i'm totally angry at her at tt time.. 11 plus is not late lahz.. wad's de big issue.. n i'm already 18 can.. not tt small little ger tt dunno wad's rite n wrong n need to b protected.. ppl say i'm dependent.. bt how can i b independent when i dun even hab de chance to learn how to.. how many ppl 18 haven go chalet (other den de 1 when i said i going for camp lah) haven ton at other ppl house (de first time i oso said i went camp haha) cannot come back after 10..
wad makes mi more angry is tt.. she dun wan us to do those things but she always does tt.. drinking.. smoking.. playing mahjong till i dunno how she play until 1000 plus.. not coming home to slp.. den if we din come home slp or even ask her.. she will scream n shout again.. she herself din set an example for us n actually wan us to obey her..
i guess she'll b out drinking tonite.. i rather she dun come back den come back n make a hell lot of noise.. i need to study n sis need to work.. we dun hab time n energy for her nonsense.. since dad went abroad she came back drunk 1 day.. n tok a lot of nonsense to rose since dad was not around to entertain her.. lucky i need to go to sch.. i hate to entertain her when she's drunk.. yuck!

hmm.. shall add on to my bday present list..
peifen, xingjuan n joanna bought mi a handbag!! haha.. although it's so bear's type.. bt i still love it.. haha muz b keep seeing i use de same bag rite.. n it's my sis 1 somemore.. heez.. hope it doesn't turn yellow cuz it's white!! nice nice.. thanks pepz..
guess wad.. my mum bought a bday cake for mi!! she din buy 1 last yr so i kinda din expect.. she said something like.. i bought a cake for u.. although ur bday over.. bt still can eat.. awww.. so nice of her.. mayb tt's my present frm her since she din bought anything for mi.. or mayb juz to make up for de fact tt she din celebrate my bday wif mi.. hmm.. bt i din blow any candle or wad lahz.. juz cut de cake up and eat!! yum yum.. my fav ice cream cake.. reminds mi of de small 1 tt chai n huishan bought one of my bday.. took a pic of it.. bt it's in my hp..
hols coming!! dunno shld b happy or sad.. cuz it means tt mid yr coming too.. guess hab to send most of my time studying le.. if not i'll gt triple f.. besides.. 2nd wk of hols quite busy.. there's phy camp.. n lucky i'm not in maths camp (thanks to xh) if not there'll b lots of hw to b completed by de end of next wk.. there's oso some econs stuff.. some talk or wad.. n gp common test.. ahh!! i hope de 2nd wk pass quickly.. jia you for all ur tests... polys having dem soon.. muz study hard wor... =) and to my jc frens.. buck up!! it's de final lap.. or rather de 2nd last.. cuz there's still prelims den reach final lap which is a's haha..

hapPy biRthdAy to mE!!

ok.. i'm officially 18... able to go clubbing.. pubbing.. watch m18 shows.. blahz blahz.. n sad to say.. i'm older by a yr!!
bt still.. i wan to thank lots of ppl!! for all their msg n pressies.. think tis yr is one of de most presents i've receive and more imptly.. it's all stuff tt i like!!
firstly.. i've receive lots of bday greetings frm many ppl.. some even unexpected.. de first to msg mi is nicholas.. although a little earlier den 12am.. bt still happy tt he remembered my bday.. =) last shld b jess bahz.. not too sure.. cuz i off my new phone (refer to below haha) to charge n when i on it.. jess msg was de last.. haha..
ok now for de presents.. de earliest i receive was frm jess mh n jeannie on fri.. it is a pencil box!! kinda expected lahz.. they keep wanting mi to change into something like theirs.. haha.. bt well.. it's nice n i like it!! very practical too.. =D mytriplejs treated mi to a cake in tcc too.. so nice of dem.. haha.. went to watch da vinci n later went to jj's talentime.. it was a really enjoyable day.. i think de talentime was very entertaining.. n glad abel won something.. at least de stuff we did was of use.. haha.. went kboxing wif man, lyn, mama, yuhan and feng after talentime.. sang till 3.. although go home kena a bit of scolding, it still din spoil my day.. haha
went rollar blading on sat.. very fun!! lucky i gt my knee guard n wrist guard on.. if not i'll b like poor xh.. wif wounds all around.. din fall as many times as i did de previous time.. n de falls had lesser impact lahz.. mayb cuz i learnt how to fall in front instead of on my butt.. haha still an enjoyable day.. can't wait for another outing..
went to buy my new phone on sun!! actually it's supposed to b a present frm mummy n sis de.. bt my mum's fren refused to take money frm dem.. so end up.. it's a gift frm him to mi.. so generous of him.. waited quite long for de queue.. so mi n my sis went shopping around.. after tt gt my new phone which i love very much!! haha..
today received a nike bag frm de vballers.. oso like it very much!! thanks gers... haha.. inside de bag there's still a handphone poach.. which i oso wanted to buy.. now it's like suddenly i have everything.. haha.. n derek even said i gt rich overnight.. no lahz.. all those are presents!! juz now.. even yingjie drop by to pass mi a present.. was quite shocked!? haha.. beri thoughtful of her to come all de way down after her lesson which ends at 5!!?? i might not wan to move around if my lesson is till 5.. haha.. thanks nu er!! haha
to conclude.. i hav a fruitful birthday!! only thing missing is a proper bday cake.. bt i still hab a small 1 to blow candle.. haha.. hope tis yr is a smooth flowing yr cuz tis is a major yr for mi.. and to all my frens.. thanks for everything!! jia you for a's!! =)

haven been blogging for long.. hmm the matches finally ended.. not quite in a good way.. bt... hmm..
had long weekends for 2 wks.. n i can't wait for tml to come.. cuz it's our sch's talentime!! n abel is singing.. not tt i nber hear him sing b4 lahz.. bt well.. he's my classmate!! of cuz i'll support him.. haha
last wk.. met up wif bear.. xj.. ah ma n a rare guest.. ah chaix!! haha.. it's been a long time since i saw her lahz.. still look de same.. as pretty.. haha.. we went to eat yuki yaki!! quite nice.. although there's time limit lahz.. quite sucky.. bt there can make ice cream!! which is quite interesting.. laugh most of de time.. they're a bunch of jokers lahz.. oh ya.. i think we quite stupid.. cuz de waitress cover de stove?! den when she remove de lit there's water inside.. n not juz a few drops wor.. it's like quite alot.. we're like quite amazed lahz.. den we started saying wha.. magic.. haha den she explained how she did tt.. n we're like.. omg.. we look so stupid lahz.. haha.. well.. i enjoyed tt day.. n hope another 1 will come soon..
fri was mahjong day at lyn's house.. first time i won so much.. treat dem eat dinner.. n i still gt surplus.. haha.. next day going sentosa.. bt i still lie awake till 4am.. shagged lahz.. wasn't very enthu tt day.. kinda tired n slpy.. n it rained!! coach drove us out to eat.. heng he's there lahz.. if not hab to queue n wait for shuttle bus.. went pasir panjang for dessert too.. went home n slept quite early.. slacked at home for de whole of sun too..
now kinda dread sch.. like suddenly no aim.. nth to look forward to.. kinda lost lahz.. i guess most of us feel tt way.. sounds so sad horz.. haha haiz.. mid yr coming.. quite worried bout my results lehz.. like no improvement.. so demoralising.. haiz.. tis june hols will b quite a busy period for mi.. hmmz..

now for de final update on de matches..
sad to say.. we're out.. tml is our last match.. vs aj.. jia you everyone..
tues vs vj.. din play well.. in fact.. i think it was one of my personal worst.. we blew away our only chance n hab only ourselves to blame.. i think it's our mental state tt is not strong enough.. anyway thanks for all ur support.. n good job manying.. i think u did well tt day..
wed vs sa.. they're a strong team.. didn gt a good start cuz i'm injured before everything started.. during free spike as usual i was setting.. n den suddenly as i was setting a ball up.. another ball hit my finger.. it's like.. huh!! i'm so near de net le lahz.. n de impact was quite big lahz.. although it's not those thunder ball.. bt it's nt those pwew ball oso.. it's juz a spike lahz.. n tada.. my last finger sprained.. bt not very serious lahz.. lucky is little finger n not index.. haha.. bt well.. tt's juz my luck.. they had a few tyco balls which convinced mi tt we're really unlucky.. nevertheless.. i think we did well for de 2nd set.. dunno is 19 or 20.. at least we put up a little fight n let dem sweat a little.. haha.. n time for debrief.. huihui cried..(very long haha) think she quite guilty cuz quite a no of balls died at her area.. jia you ger.. quite a no. of us cried too.. de tot of everything ending at de end of tis wk makes our heart feels heavy.. i dun dare to go near dem cuz i noe i'll cry too.. i shall leave my tears for de last match..
tml is our last match.. hope we'll do well.. or at least better den de previous.. let us all enjoy de game bahz.. i noe tt our team tis yr not beri strong.. in top 8 u can really c de difference cuz all de other teams were like playing 3 sets or 20 plus points for both sides.. so not really much regrets cuz it's kinda expected lahz.. let de better team wins..
i still hope tt we'll hab gatherings n not drift apart.. we should go down to play ball when we're free to ya?! after tis we should reformat our "com" n focus on our studies le.. let's all jiayou for a's..
de tot of having nth to do after lessons next wk, really makes mi sianz.. wonder how long do i need before i can tune back to de right frequency.. missing quite a no of lessons tis wk.. quite a lot of doubts for many topics.. haiz.. really sianz.. i'm feeling wad i felt during my sec 4 days after match - no life....

time for updates!!
hmm.. de matches had started.. i think we did ok for de 1st match bahz.. was quite a gd start except some parts of de match when we kinda lax le.. bt well.. it went smoothly.. de feeling of going back there was pretty gd.. rmb de good old days.. saw mr tay there too.. bt wif a different role.. hope we'll improve as time goes..
had a long day today.. bt kinda fun.. haha.. slacked during pc.. did only 2 stations.. i wanna redo sit n reach!! onli tt gt b.. bt kinda lazy too.. n i might nt do as well.. haha.. contradicting ya!? phys lesson was short as mr sin went through skill a in brief n let us off 15 mins earli!! yay.. n we're still munching on titbits n de gers playing hei bai pei when he was in de class.. kinda bad bt it is lively!! din make mi wanna slp.. econs lect was quite fun too.. we're busy copying or rather they cuz i can't really see clearly.. n miss chin was like bullet train lahz.. (as usual) thus it made copying a rather challenging task.. i wasn't up to it so i began reading de notes n highlighting dem while listening to her n see wad's de relevent pts.. apparantly her scribbles are de notes mayb in greater details?! haha so in de end.. their notes were messy n mine colourful! i found out tt sitting beside jess could make time pass faster.. true joker n entertainer.. lols.. provided she not pms-ing lahz.. was quite sian after econs n plan to pon gp to watch match bt.. well.. decided to b guai n not pon.. think i din really do well for de tca.. din had enough time.. think it's time to manage my time properly.. aq n summary was done in a rush.. like 10 mins for summary n 5 for aq!? completely screwed.. n b4 gp de gers were like crapping bout some classroom romanace.. haha.. my god lahz.. do i look so despo.. bleahz.. used to it le.. mayb someday i will crap along wif dem.. will they think i really like him!? eekz.. haha sounds evil.. blah blah.. all de no 5 r my rumoured bf.. pls queue.. oppz.. juz laming around.. =)
training tml morn.. hope it will turn out fine.. ah man seems quite stress.. hey ger.. relax n enjoy!! dun always blur blur de k.. believe in urself n believe in us.. jia you k!! as i have said.. we aim high bt there's always limits to wad we can do.. as long as there's no regrets.. let de better team win.. =D ok.. kinda tired le.. off to my lovely bed!! taz.. take care everyone..

haven been blogging for quite some time.. dun hab de time to even online..
a div starting soon.. beginning to feel nervous whenever i think of de competitions.. trainings are more frequent too.. bt somehow i feel it wasn't really effective.. i even think it's getting worse day by day.. haiz.. is it de bonding!? or de attitude?! or wad.. somehow i dun really feel confident.. we are really lucky for de draw.. bt so wad if we pass de 1st round.. i noe we hav high chance bt i dun wan to feel really bad after we won.. will we play like we did during trainings? or worse.. or better.. de previous 2 times training wasn't really gd.. n i think my setting beri horrible!! how!!?? when coach say whether we win or lose all lies in my hands (as in setting lahz) .. really feel beri wad lorz.. de pressure is setting in.. i really need de confidence frm my team mates.. bt mama say i shld b de 1 giving dem confi. haiz.. how to?! i really dunno.. any advices? i'm always a beri passive person.. waiting for ppl to give mi confi. for ppl to help.. for everything to come on it's own.. i'm scared if my teammates dun play well.. is it due to me? r they angry at mi for wadeva reasons? once i gt such feelings i will juz drop to de bottom.. how to build up my confi!? jiu ming ar!!
went to watch finals ytd.. de feeling was really gd.. esp when de last pt end.. de jumping n crying n everything was so familiar.. i really dun wan to look on.. i'll miss everything.. lyn said we muz come back again tis yr.. somehow it looked so far frm mi.. bt we'll do our best rite?! i hope there'll b no regrets.. no thinking back on how bad i've done.. wad i shld n shld not do.. cuz it'll b too late.. i'm tired of tis.. there r too many regrets to look back on.. i dun wanna add on to de list.. hope tml's training will b better.. i need something to pull mi back on..
for my team mates.. lets all jia you!! looking forward to de match.. lets have smiles instead of tears k.. i noe we will all miss a lot of lessons during tis period bt dun giv up.. it's normal.. we need 12 hearts beating as 1.. we will catch up after tis ya!?
can't concentrate on my studies now.. it's juz so distracting.. grades is still so horrible.. been hearing a lot of nagging frm de teachers too.. "its already too late to start.. ask ur seniors.. they will call u to start studying now.." give mi some more time..

oppz.. i've disappeared for so long.. haha.. shall update a little..
in a blink of an eye.. de march hols are over.. think most of de days spent on training and going sembawang play play.. anyway.. congrats to dem into getting into top 4.. coach very happy worz.. haha..
i think my life is getting so mundane.. like everyday going through de same routine.. blahz..
saw mr tay on wed.. he gave us some advices.. really wanna work on it.. bt sometimes things do not happen because we want it to.. sometimes i really wish he was back here coaching us.. miss de days.. anyway hope everything juz works out at de end of de day.. it might not b easy bt i believe we can do it.. jia you everyone!! point to rmb: dun slack ur way through.. u might onli b deceiving urself in de end.. dun give up till de very end.. days left: 1 month or mayb 2..
hmm.. bei shang lian ge starting soon.. *excited haha.. off to watch tv.. tataz!!

*i rather not have tt little happiness from de start.. when i noe tt it will lead to nothing, i feel like i've drop to de bottom.. i shld have juz let go.. nothing will come out of tis.. *kiss goodbye - leehom

haven been blogging for quite some time.. hmm.. nth much to blog about bahz.. haha
forget wad's de date tt i went to sentosa.. de effect of manying (bring rain) n some sunshine gers.. it was sunny bt it also rained.. n it din happen once.. it happened many times!! like so hot.. den so cold.. den hot again.. den cold again.. horrible weather.. nevertheless.. i still kena sunburn!! now my shoulders r peeling like mad.. n it's so ugly cuz there are 2 colours.. eekz..
had been sick since fri.. omg.. i think tis is 1 of de worst cuz normally i wun b sick for more den 2 days.. my slight fever din go down.. i tink it did.. bt it went up again after a while.. haiyo.. did not speak for tis 2 days cuz hab throat infection n i hab no voice.. lol.. hate it when ppl call mi.. cuz i dun wan to ans dem wif my sexy voice.. haha.. anyway.. didn do any hw.. quite lazy n no mood lahz.. doc say if after 3 days fever haven subside muz go for blood test.. i was like.. huh.. so serious mehz.. n he din gib mi ani med for my sore throat.. something like lozenges lahz.. horrible.. make mi suffer so long.. n i keep drinking water.. i think i drank at least 1.5 litres ytd.. lolz..
shall update again another day.. tataz..

had to take a breather from all de maths hw.. had training ytd n didn realli do much hw.. so had to rush dem today.. can't even finish.. still hab to study for econs test tml.. omg stress!!
training ytd was quite fun cuz we juz keep playing games.. bt i'm quite moody cuz of de lack of slp.. bt well.. had to recollect my xin qing.. later affect others jiu bu hao le.. mum brought back frens n made so much noise in de middle of de night.. so i lay awake frm 1 to 4 till de noise finally go down a bit.. haiz.. n i oso told her i had to wake up earli in de morn.. how inconsiderate.. she everytime comment on how noisy we r.. n blah blah.. bt she din even bother to set an example for us lor.. say cannot ton or wadeva bt she always do tt.. say 1 thing n do another thing..
went sentosa on fri.. was quite sunny in de morn n we tot tt we can finally have a gd tan.. bt it started raining when we reach sentosa.. den manying said tt she go sentosa always bring de rain.. n she went late cuz of prac.. so we all joked tt she brought de rain there.. haha.. there wasn't much ppl there.. we saw some jj ppl there.. think it's og outing bahz.. left around 6 to eat..
actualli wanna go c my juniors match on mon de.. bt i dun think can le.. gt extra lessons.. n training.. it'll start to b a busy period le.. mon hab to train till night too.. dunno if i can finish any hw anot.. hope there'll b no test on tues.. bt at least we gt to use indoor bahz..
hab to gt back to my books le.. zZzz.. tata!

hello!! after so long.. i'm back again.. actually nth much to blog about lahz.. haha.. anyway it was valentine's day ytd!! bt well since i'm nt attached.. it's juz another day to mi lahz.. nevertheless.. i'm still very happy on valentine's day eve.. haha.. my wish made long long ago came true.. mayb not all still dunno haha.. lots of furni things happen on v-day.. youyi gt a song dedication frm someone.. it was so furni lahz.. n she's like so paiseh de whole day.. n her oasis tickets!! it's like whoa.. so ex can.. xin fu de yy.. haha.. sad to say.. there's econs mock test which apparently no 1 cares!! cuz no 1 hand in de essay.. lols..
now for de sad thing.. kinda disappointed tt de j1s r leaving.. actually expecting all of dem to stay.. bt for other reasons they wanted to go to other jcs.. when we asked dem before de results.. they said most prob will stay bt now almost all r leaving.. i hope we successfully pyschoed jiale to stay.. i really hoped tt she'll b able to stay wif us.. bt i really think tt jj is a better choice den pj lahz.. bt it's all up to u..
didn really train much cuz tian bu yao us to train.. de moment we start training it started raining.. den we stop n tok den de rain stop.. till gt a bit sun den we start again n within 5 min.. started raining again.. zzz.. it's really hard to train under such conditions.. in de end.. yuhan treat us to swensens!! so kind of her.. haha had a little bonding lahz.. tml is another long day... zzz

happy new yr!!

happy new yr peps.. so fast.. celebrations ending le.. hab to go back to sch again.. sigh.. visited both my mum n dad sides.. bt i think i like going to my dad's side more.. mayb cuz i onli gt to c dem once a yr!? or mayb their side more educated n there's more cousins which r closer in age wif mi.. bt as usual.. went dad's side for half de afternoon onli.. n my grand aunts are all old n weak?! like wad dad said.. (kinda bad lahz) mayb after 2 more yrs we dun hab to visit dem le.. kinda sad lahz.. hope everything goes well for dem tis yr.. din gt to c pretty aunt n rich cousins tis yr.. u c de reasons y i keep forgetting their names?! i dun gt to c dem often!! mayb if i'm lucky.. once every 2 yrs or even 3.. went home around 3 n i arranged some prog for myself..
went to watch i not stupid 2 wif bear n ah ma.. quite a nice movie.. n i think it's worth de ticket price lahz.. at least it reflects real life.. de problems between those "old" teachers n students.. de rebellious part of our life.. de 2 extreme kind of parents tt some of us have.. there were furni scenes n touching scenes as well.. i would highly recommend u all to watch it.. n i hope parents would oso watch it.. de movie is trying to tell all parents love their children bt it's always a question about expression..
joshua side: dad is an ex-convict.. keeps hitting him.. tok vulgarities.. as a result.. son kena expel.. join gang.. smoke.. enjoys hitting ppl.. n dun understand his father's love for him.. onli when he's father is dying den he realise everything.. bt it's too late lahz..
shawn side: parents too engross in making money.. giving him a house with everything bt end up it's even more empty to him.. as a result.. son gets rebellious.. gt public canning..
there's tis part which is so sad lahz.. de little bro of shawn.. saves up all his money.. sell his fav pokemon cards n even resort to stealing juz to use money n buy his father's time to watch his concert.. n when he was caught stealing.. he was even canned by his dad..
there's so much more lahz.. shld watch it urself to know more.. very meaningful movie..
dad's going abroad soon.. dunno how my life is going to change.. without him in de house.. it's always empty with mi with de four walls.. although having him makes no diff cuz he does his things n i do mine.. bt at least there's some noise around.. sis n mum always not around.. sigh.. it's going to b quite a bad yr for dragon babies i think.. haha bt it's always up to u to believe or not.. wadeva it is.. i hope everything goes well throughout de yr for mi n my family n everyone of u out there..

oppz.. haven been blogging for wks.. shld say i have no time.. or say i'm purely lazy.. up to u lahz..
anyway.. update a little.. our class been busy preparing for de cny decos at de canteen n concourse area.. actualli juz doing something simple like making lanterns n hanging de sakura flowers.. feel a bit like de production line when we have to tie de strings onto de lantern haha.. anyway it was fun doing it lahz.. joked n laugh along de way too..
econs tutorials was quite horrible de past wk.. miss chin is going like a bullet train esp after she scolds us for not settling down.. dun really understand.. n we hab to copy n listen n at de same time figure out which part of de notes she's toking about.. although she's fast.. bt she still haven finish de lecture on tis chap.. bt anyway.. i have a bad feeling of de coming test..
went shopping ytd at town.. bought a watch which wasn't my first choice.. as in de 1 i saw at first which i really wanna buy.. bt anyway i still lurve my watch.. it's a mambo watch tt cost onli 104 after discount.. de initial 1 tt i wanna buy cost 139.. it sure looks nicer den de previous 1 n cheaper!! so happy.. haha..
think we walk for a long time in town.. busy trying on clothes haha.. manying end up din buy her bikini partly becuz we wanted to go n eat le lahz.. haha.. she beri fickle de.. a while wan a while dun wan.. so we gave her more time to think haha.. i tried on lots of clothes too cuz mi aim was to pull dem along to help mi choose cny clothes.. most of de stuff tt i tried was like de last piece?! so if dun hab my size den can't buy le.. after a whole day of shopping i bought a top n a skirt chosen by jos.. shopping queen is a gd adviser.. haha bt they made me try so many clothes lahz.. so tired oso.. haha.. actually wanna buy shorts too.. bt either no size or too ex or din c nice ones.. anyway.. i'm done wif cny shopping.. yay!!
oh ya.. we oso had a small vb gathering wif de seniors on fri.. went jp to eat dinner.. actualli wanted to go swensens bt it was kinda full house n we were a big grp so end up we slack at 1 corner while some of dem went to check out where gt place for us to eat.. feng even called de pizza hut delivery to ask if there's space at taman jurong's outlet.. lol.. it's like so cartoon lahz.. when we called de outlet n nearly reserved places, jp's 1 had place for us so feng was like "oh it's ok there's seats at de jp's outlet bye" n she hung up without allowing dem to say anithing haha.. anyway.. it's fun to have a gathering wif dem.. shld organise such outings more.. bt quite sad cuz not much gers (seniors) were there.. after eating mama lyn n my came my house for a short mahjong session.. it's a fun day as well.. lol!

tis is a new yr and a new start for everyone.. firstly, wish everyone a happy 2006 and may ur road be smooth always..
shall start wif de countdown.. went boon lay to countdown on new yr's eve.. been going there for bout 3 yrs le.. haha i noe it's boring bt no choice lahz.. lazy to go n squeeze wif ppl.. n wad's impt is de company u're in.. nth much happened lahz.. juz tt we sat a free bus ride home cuz de bus is packed wif ppl n we eventually went in frm de back door.. n for ur info.. there's no entry scanner at de back door..
1 bad news at de 1st day of sch (wad a way to start tis yr..) i still failed 1 sub.. bt eventually.. principal let all of us promote.. juz like wad mr tay said.. it's bad n gd news.. he actually came over after work to have a tok wif mi.. juz to give me some advices bahz.. all along i noe tt i'm a person without goals bt it took me tis long to realise tt how dangerous such a situation is.. so for now.. i'm in search for a target which i can work towards to..
shall share some of mr tay's words..
how do u define a millionair? a rich man or someone who had struck toto?! for him.. a millionair is someone who can lose a million onli to earn it back.. and someone who had struck toto is juz a rich man wif a million dollar in his pocket..
i'm quite amazed tt he can actually say out some of our character.. and it's all quite true.. de time i spent wif him is onli about 2 mths plus.. (until vb finals..) n he could already see our character through our actions.. n de reason behind my constant failure is because i have no goals.. no ambition to work towards to.. so i juz anyhow walk which is de first step off de path..
next is some chim chim china words.. bt i juz roughly describe bahz.. first is xiu shen which is cultivate urself.. den ding jia.. which is after cultivating urself den u can stablise ur family.. family is very impt cuz in times of danger mayb all ur frens may not help u.. n if anything goes wrong in life u can jolly well go home n cry.. next is ping guo.. which is after u kao dim urself n family den u can look at de larger picture which is ur country.. n finally something related to world de.. (too noisy can't hear him say..) bt i roughly gt de idea lahz.. it's step by step process.. so now i muz xiu shen first.. n schs are meant to let u cultivate urself..
i've set some new yr resolutions which i seldom make.. cuz i'm juz living day by day without any plans..
1. noe wad is my target..
2. strive towards my target..
3. learn to be more decisive.. (instead of anything all de way..)
4. learn to stand up from set backs..
and my wish for new yr is to do well in my studies.. or rather improve lahz.. cuz now is really beri jia lat.. if i sidetrack along de way.. someone pls remind me.. cuz i noe i have weak determination.. i'm easily swayed!!