hmm.. so long since i updated..
first.. talk bout xmas.. went shopping on sat.. bought lots of things n now i'm broke!! haha.. mama went cruise so i ask man n frens stay over for some mahjong.. we played tong xiao.. n they went off around 8 plus.. so tired.. bt i slept for onli 2 hrs plus den woke up for breakfast wif dad n sis.. den went home n slp again haha.. sad christmas..
went mr tay's house on 26th.. quite fun.. been a long time since i've seen de seniors.. although not most of dem are there.. bt i think it will b quite long before i can see dem again.. we met up n do a bit of mr tay's present.. wrote some messages for him too.. quite sad to see him leave lahz.. bi jing he was a great coach n helped us a lot along de way.. without him i think it will b quite different.. n can compare de results next yr..
anyway.. we played soft vball in de function hall till someone come in n say no ball games haha.. den we played bingo.. de forfit was to do pumping.. everyone like so scared to tio.. den we were like calling for de no n our hearts all beating so fast haha.. hf was de last 1 to tio n de forfit was to dance.. haha she dance wif ethan.. he's super cute sia.. n can c tt mr tay beri teng his sons.. didn realli scold dem.. onli gave warning.. haha den when ethan help him massage he still kiss him.. we are all playing wif ethan n wan to take pics wif him.. at around 10 plus we left.. dewen drove some of us home n guohua pick zihui up n send some of dem to de mrt station.. so kind of dem.. haha.. in conclusion.. it's a fun nite!! wonder if there'll b such gathering again..
de results still not out yet.. so slow!! bt since it will b out so late.. i guess there'll b no 2nd chance for me le bahz.. i oso dunno how i fared.. mayb i shld start looking out for any interesting courses.. for now.. i'm quite interested to b a pe teacher.. bt tt's after poly bahz.. (if i go poly) for now.. i'll juz see how things goes..

hmm.. re-exams over!! dunno whether i'll pass.. bt it doesn't realli matter le lahz..
suddenly my mama like nt tt strict anymore.. weird.. it really shocked me when she said fail den fail lor.. go poly lahz.. no big deal rite.. if u really noe me well.. u shld noe my mum well too.. haha it's so unlike her to say something littat.. when we went to take family photo she still said something like when i grad frm uni den we take another photo.. den now she like don't care le..
there's still once when i was playing mahjong at home den she came home.. bt didn scold mi oso haha.. juz said dun play money arz... weird rite.. haha bt i prefer it tis way..
oh ya.. when i say i might go nie be pe teacher she still say.. i noe u can do wad.. go b army.. haha.. i was like huh!!?? den she say dun huh.. gt very gd prospects ok.. do some desk stuff or wad lahz.. dunno bout it oso.. haha.. seems like de world is very wide..
went jos house ytd for steamboat and we stayed over for de night.. hmm ate till bout 11 plus!? den we went up to her rm.. play a game which i dunno how to describe lahz.. haha.. den played blackjack for a while oso.. banker wins all.. haha.. we all play till bankrupt (chips) den some of dem went of to slp.. den man, jos, xiuyi and mi played mahjong on de mattress.. wha so ma fan playing there.. cannot lean near de tiles or else it will collapse.. we played for quite long.. till 630 b4 jos n xiuyi cannot take it le.. mayb cuz we hab training earlier so they beri tired.. bt ytd training beri slack for 3 of us.. so i nt really tired lorz.. bt well.. since they wanna slp jiu slp lorz.. quite squeezy oso.. like sardine cannot anyhow move.. heez.. woke up around 9 tis morn.. den ate some breakfast n off back home.. reach home le jiu bath and slp haha.. beri tired.. dark rings forming.. in conclusion.. it was quite fun bahz.. =p

hmm haven been updating for quite a while..
re exams r coming.. really not prepared for it.. sorry for making frens around mi worry.. n thanks for ur card.. really appreciate it although i didn cry lahz.. haha.. i noe u all r trying very hard to motivate mi..
tis make mi think a lot.. including de decision to come jc.. many regrets i may have bt i will nt regret continue playing vball in jc.. de days in kl were my happiest moments i guess.. really miss tis team a lot.. wonder if we will have any chance to play as a team again..
looking back to sec sch.. nt tt i dislike it there bt i think there's really not much for mi to think back.. i can only rmb all de conflicts de boycotting.. it's like u can't b who u r.. muz try to please de ppl around u or u'll only b left out by others.. wasn't realli close wif mi class den cuz i'm always hanging around my team mates.. n it's often split into grps.. sometimes i realli dunno where i belong.. perhaps it's becuz we have 4 yrs together n we will c each other personality.. no matter how coach try he's still being dislike by us.. bt i agree tt he's temper could b a rollar coaster.. i quite pei fu him.. every batch he slowly bring us up even without any foundation..
i realli hope tt tis team could at least make it into top 8.. bt without mr tay i think it's quite diff.. although mr tay's training is very tough.. he's very strict.. expecting a lot frm us.. he can b quite arrogant at times bt he's a gd coach.. dewen is also a gd coach lahz.. bt he's too lenient le.. no body is actually afraid of him.. no stress.. can slack slack play play and 1 training is over.. still rmb when i juz come in mr tay said tt he wan 100% commitment frm mi.. n now.. ppl can happy happy dun come for training.. i think if mr tay was de coach de team might b left wif less den half de no now..
even if i realli pass tis test n scrap through tis yr.. is it worth it? to struggle through next yr.. n not knowing whether i can pass a levels.. is tis wad i wan? to finish tis path n go on to uni.. can i do it? i really dun know wad i wan.. i seriously dun think i'm de liao for studying bt wad can i do?! i actually dun noe anything.. can they give me de assurance n motivation i need?!
almost forget to mention.. went for dinner at clark quay to celebrate xj's bday.. bear intro us to brewerkz.. hmm.. i quite like de ambience there.. drank golden ale.. seriously it juz taste a little sweeter den carlsberg.. muhaha.. can u intro something more lady next time?! took lots of pic bt i still haven got it!! anyone.. juz anyone.. send mi pls!! hmm.. ate 2 main n 1 side dish.. wasn't really tt full lahz.. quite ex some more.. haha.. broke le lahz.. went to walk around clark quay after dinner.. nth much to walk around.. n finally decide to hab some ice cream.. in total.. i spend bout 33 tt day.. lucky it's not more den 50 bucks haha.. anyway.. i enjoyed tt day.. shall we chill out someday again!?
not going to work for next wk.. hab to go for steamboat at jos house.. hopefully can ton there.. n i guess it'll b fun!? cuz most of us r there.. pls dun make mi regret not working!! haha.. think i'm working during xmas wk.. no dates.. so sad.. haha.. hope to b in de same outlet wif bear.. *pray..

Juz watched finish "qing chu yu lan".. I like de ending.. quite meaningful although it's kinda expected lahz.. shall gib a brief summary of de story.. there's tis teacher, ruoshi who is sandwiched upon 2 guys.. de principal, jicai and another guy teacher, zhengliang.. ruoshi was with zhengliang before until she knew tt zhengliang indirectly cause de death of her ex husband.. thus broke up wif him.. jicai was always around her and supporting her.. her ex husband son was down wif leukemia and jicai saved him therefore she’s grateful to him.. both is so good to her thus leaving her wif a dilemma.. she finalli decide to leave for de States without choosing ani of dem.. however at de last min.. she finalli realize tt she had been surpressing herself n de 1 she really loves is zhengliang..
Tis quote was mentioned in de drama.. even if u're heartbroken.. de heart continues beating.. life still goes on.. I feel tt it's beri true.. n I'd like to give an advice to mi sis.. she had broken wif her bf.. n I saw her tearing away juz now.. hope she can understand de msg.. broken relationships are part n parcel of life.. a new relationship will start onli when de old one ends.. without a relationship ur love life is a blank sheet.. I really dun understand y does she have to despair for some time after every relationship.. n onli end up to regret and tok bout how stupid u r in de past.. to give up de things u like juz becuz of a stranger who had to cross ur path.. perhaps I've nt experience such relationships to really give my opinions.. ppl say watching tv is bad bt I think tt through such real life dramas.. we learn how to handle stuffs.. my sis even bought a 40 plus book to make her gt over of tis failed relationship.. she still thinks tt she is strong n independent and doesn’t show her weak side.. in her blog she even lament y she is so strong tt she doesn't think for herself.. and doesn't wan to worry others over her probs.. I dunno whether to laugh or wad.. as her sis.. I would always c her weaker side.. n perhaps she really doesn't show out her emotions easily by nt crying in front of others.. keeping ur probs to urself means u r strong n independent!? Den I must say my family have such genes cuz I think tt my whole family is littat.. my mum would only show her weak side when she's drunk.. I seriously think tt she's nt strong cuz she is very grouchy wheneva she's unhappy.. n I can guess easily wad is happening to her.. heartbroken or in love.. she juz writes it all over her face lahz.. bt I oso feel sorry for her lahz.. even if I'm nt really happy wif her I still try to calm down n nt quarrel wif her.. anyway.. juz hope she quickly gt over it lahz.. it's gd for everyone tt way..
juz read my sis's blog.. din noe tt she had such encounters n now i noe y she prefered my dad den my mum.. i realli dunno whether it's dang ju zhe mi or wad.. cuz i feel tt mum loves her alot.. dad has always been de more lenient 1 n whenever there's bad news he's always de first to noe.. although mum is strict bt she still cares for us.. for example.. whenever sis is coming home for dinner mum will cook soup.. she'll always leave soup for her even if sis doesn't come home for dinner.. recently mum was quite often home during weekends.. (not quite normal cuz in de past 17 yrs she's seldom at home during wk ends..) whenever dad suggested going out to eat.. sis will say she doesn't want.. n we will end up eating nearby cuz mum wanna buy food home for her.. sometimes i realli hate her for tt.. i'm really sick of eating at jurong west.. mayb mum was realli more strict in de past.. bt she juz doesn't want us to walk on de wrong path.. n tt's wad she went into.. she even mentioned in her blog tt mum call mi not to tok to her!? i dun rmb anithing like tt lahz.. bt i noe tt they always quarrel bt it's always bcuz she did de wrong thing.. hello.. wad could b rite to b an ah lian n take up smoking when u're juz 14!?!? perhaps it's bcuz she's there to b my "role model" tt's y i'm so guai lahz.. haha.. since young i swear not to b like her.. smoking n commiting suicide stuff.. yuckz.. i think she's stupid at tt age cuz a ger 5 yrs younger can think better den commiting suicide juz bcuz she quarrelled wif her bf!?! bt studies wise.. she's smarter lahz.. i oso dunno how her mind works...