nowadays haze isn't realli terrible.. bt it has been raining everyday.. not tt i hate rain la.. it's better den de smelly haze though.. hee..
had a weird dream ytd.. dreamt tt i quarel wif mi sis.. de dream felt so real (ok.. which dream doesn't..) tt i awoke angry n still feel angry after de dream.. mum's been drinking quite a lot tis wk.. kinda sot sot.. hope she's juz feeling depressed n not becuz of some big probs.. when i'm young i juz hate it when she's drunk cuz she does things tt she doesn't normally do n sometimes it really freak mi out.. bt now i'm more worried.. it's not as if we dun care bout her.. bt she juz keep things to herself.. ppl may appear strong on de outside bt may not b so on de inside.. i shall not blame her for drinking bt i hope tt she cuts down on it n hope tt everything is well for everyone..
mayb due to de fact tt exams are coming.. i feel easily irritated.. n sometimes dun feel like talking.. there's 1 day when mum drank quite alot le.. n came back to gt money b4 going out again.. sis n her fren (guy) was in de room chatting when mum came back.. she look quite concerned n she's quite seh at tt moment le.. she insist on going out.. (might as well since i think she'll b sot if she stay at home) i'm kinda angry at sis for not being auto enough.. like who would like to c her daughter wif a guy alone in a rm behind close doors.. c.. i gt irritated at de slightest thing.. haha when i'm young i always wonder if i'll b like my sis when i grow old.. she's rather rebellious when young.. seems like i'm still quite an introvert compared to her.. she makes frens easily n she's very open to challenges n new things.. i'm an anti social.. haha.. happy in my own comfort zone.. i'm a peacemaker!! hee..
exams coming soon!! on one hand i hope tt it faster end so i can spend more time having fun n do some things i really wanna do.. on other hand.. i hope i have more time to study n prepare for it.. so afraid tt i wun make it to uni.. bt i juz can't find my goal to keep mi moving.. sigh..
wadever!! days come n go.. juz hope i'll make it bah.. jia you to all of u out there.. n thanks for all ur encouragement.. =)