hmm.. shall add on to my bday present list..
peifen, xingjuan n joanna bought mi a handbag!! haha.. although it's so bear's type.. bt i still love it.. haha muz b keep seeing i use de same bag rite.. n it's my sis 1 somemore.. heez.. hope it doesn't turn yellow cuz it's white!! nice nice.. thanks pepz..
guess wad.. my mum bought a bday cake for mi!! she din buy 1 last yr so i kinda din expect.. she said something like.. i bought a cake for u.. although ur bday over.. bt still can eat.. awww.. so nice of her.. mayb tt's my present frm her since she din bought anything for mi.. or mayb juz to make up for de fact tt she din celebrate my bday wif mi.. hmm.. bt i din blow any candle or wad lahz.. juz cut de cake up and eat!! yum yum.. my fav ice cream cake.. reminds mi of de small 1 tt chai n huishan bought one of my bday.. took a pic of it.. bt it's in my hp..
hols coming!! dunno shld b happy or sad.. cuz it means tt mid yr coming too.. guess hab to send most of my time studying le.. if not i'll gt triple f.. besides.. 2nd wk of hols quite busy.. there's phy camp.. n lucky i'm not in maths camp (thanks to xh) if not there'll b lots of hw to b completed by de end of next wk.. there's oso some econs stuff.. some talk or wad.. n gp common test.. ahh!! i hope de 2nd wk pass quickly.. jia you for all ur tests... polys having dem soon.. muz study hard wor... =) and to my jc frens.. buck up!! it's de final lap.. or rather de 2nd last.. cuz there's still prelims den reach final lap which is a's haha..

hapPy biRthdAy to mE!!

ok.. i'm officially 18... able to go clubbing.. pubbing.. watch m18 shows.. blahz blahz.. n sad to say.. i'm older by a yr!!
bt still.. i wan to thank lots of ppl!! for all their msg n pressies.. think tis yr is one of de most presents i've receive and more imptly.. it's all stuff tt i like!!
firstly.. i've receive lots of bday greetings frm many ppl.. some even unexpected.. de first to msg mi is nicholas.. although a little earlier den 12am.. bt still happy tt he remembered my bday.. =) last shld b jess bahz.. not too sure.. cuz i off my new phone (refer to below haha) to charge n when i on it.. jess msg was de last.. haha..
ok now for de presents.. de earliest i receive was frm jess mh n jeannie on fri.. it is a pencil box!! kinda expected lahz.. they keep wanting mi to change into something like theirs.. haha.. bt well.. it's nice n i like it!! very practical too.. =D mytriplejs treated mi to a cake in tcc too.. so nice of dem.. haha.. went to watch da vinci n later went to jj's talentime.. it was a really enjoyable day.. i think de talentime was very entertaining.. n glad abel won something.. at least de stuff we did was of use.. haha.. went kboxing wif man, lyn, mama, yuhan and feng after talentime.. sang till 3.. although go home kena a bit of scolding, it still din spoil my day.. haha
went rollar blading on sat.. very fun!! lucky i gt my knee guard n wrist guard on.. if not i'll b like poor xh.. wif wounds all around.. din fall as many times as i did de previous time.. n de falls had lesser impact lahz.. mayb cuz i learnt how to fall in front instead of on my butt.. haha still an enjoyable day.. can't wait for another outing..
went to buy my new phone on sun!! actually it's supposed to b a present frm mummy n sis de.. bt my mum's fren refused to take money frm dem.. so end up.. it's a gift frm him to mi.. so generous of him.. waited quite long for de queue.. so mi n my sis went shopping around.. after tt gt my new phone which i love very much!! haha..
today received a nike bag frm de vballers.. oso like it very much!! thanks gers... haha.. inside de bag there's still a handphone poach.. which i oso wanted to buy.. now it's like suddenly i have everything.. haha.. n derek even said i gt rich overnight.. no lahz.. all those are presents!! juz now.. even yingjie drop by to pass mi a present.. was quite shocked!? haha.. beri thoughtful of her to come all de way down after her lesson which ends at 5!!?? i might not wan to move around if my lesson is till 5.. haha.. thanks nu er!! haha
to conclude.. i hav a fruitful birthday!! only thing missing is a proper bday cake.. bt i still hab a small 1 to blow candle.. haha.. hope tis yr is a smooth flowing yr cuz tis is a major yr for mi.. and to all my frens.. thanks for everything!! jia you for a's!! =)

haven been blogging for long.. hmm the matches finally ended.. not quite in a good way.. bt... hmm..
had long weekends for 2 wks.. n i can't wait for tml to come.. cuz it's our sch's talentime!! n abel is singing.. not tt i nber hear him sing b4 lahz.. bt well.. he's my classmate!! of cuz i'll support him.. haha
last wk.. met up wif bear.. xj.. ah ma n a rare guest.. ah chaix!! haha.. it's been a long time since i saw her lahz.. still look de same.. as pretty.. haha.. we went to eat yuki yaki!! quite nice.. although there's time limit lahz.. quite sucky.. bt there can make ice cream!! which is quite interesting.. laugh most of de time.. they're a bunch of jokers lahz.. oh ya.. i think we quite stupid.. cuz de waitress cover de stove?! den when she remove de lit there's water inside.. n not juz a few drops wor.. it's like quite alot.. we're like quite amazed lahz.. den we started saying wha.. magic.. haha den she explained how she did tt.. n we're like.. omg.. we look so stupid lahz.. haha.. well.. i enjoyed tt day.. n hope another 1 will come soon..
fri was mahjong day at lyn's house.. first time i won so much.. treat dem eat dinner.. n i still gt surplus.. haha.. next day going sentosa.. bt i still lie awake till 4am.. shagged lahz.. wasn't very enthu tt day.. kinda tired n slpy.. n it rained!! coach drove us out to eat.. heng he's there lahz.. if not hab to queue n wait for shuttle bus.. went pasir panjang for dessert too.. went home n slept quite early.. slacked at home for de whole of sun too..
now kinda dread sch.. like suddenly no aim.. nth to look forward to.. kinda lost lahz.. i guess most of us feel tt way.. sounds so sad horz.. haha haiz.. mid yr coming.. quite worried bout my results lehz.. like no improvement.. so demoralising.. haiz.. tis june hols will b quite a busy period for mi.. hmmz..

now for de final update on de matches..
sad to say.. we're out.. tml is our last match.. vs aj.. jia you everyone..
tues vs vj.. din play well.. in fact.. i think it was one of my personal worst.. we blew away our only chance n hab only ourselves to blame.. i think it's our mental state tt is not strong enough.. anyway thanks for all ur support.. n good job manying.. i think u did well tt day..
wed vs sa.. they're a strong team.. didn gt a good start cuz i'm injured before everything started.. during free spike as usual i was setting.. n den suddenly as i was setting a ball up.. another ball hit my finger.. it's like.. huh!! i'm so near de net le lahz.. n de impact was quite big lahz.. although it's not those thunder ball.. bt it's nt those pwew ball oso.. it's juz a spike lahz.. n tada.. my last finger sprained.. bt not very serious lahz.. lucky is little finger n not index.. haha.. bt well.. tt's juz my luck.. they had a few tyco balls which convinced mi tt we're really unlucky.. nevertheless.. i think we did well for de 2nd set.. dunno is 19 or 20.. at least we put up a little fight n let dem sweat a little.. haha.. n time for debrief.. huihui cried..(very long haha) think she quite guilty cuz quite a no of balls died at her area.. jia you ger.. quite a no. of us cried too.. de tot of everything ending at de end of tis wk makes our heart feels heavy.. i dun dare to go near dem cuz i noe i'll cry too.. i shall leave my tears for de last match..
tml is our last match.. hope we'll do well.. or at least better den de previous.. let us all enjoy de game bahz.. i noe tt our team tis yr not beri strong.. in top 8 u can really c de difference cuz all de other teams were like playing 3 sets or 20 plus points for both sides.. so not really much regrets cuz it's kinda expected lahz.. let de better team wins..
i still hope tt we'll hab gatherings n not drift apart.. we should go down to play ball when we're free to ya?! after tis we should reformat our "com" n focus on our studies le.. let's all jiayou for a's..
de tot of having nth to do after lessons next wk, really makes mi sianz.. wonder how long do i need before i can tune back to de right frequency.. missing quite a no of lessons tis wk.. quite a lot of doubts for many topics.. haiz.. really sianz.. i'm feeling wad i felt during my sec 4 days after match - no life....

time for updates!!
hmm.. de matches had started.. i think we did ok for de 1st match bahz.. was quite a gd start except some parts of de match when we kinda lax le.. bt well.. it went smoothly.. de feeling of going back there was pretty gd.. rmb de good old days.. saw mr tay there too.. bt wif a different role.. hope we'll improve as time goes..
had a long day today.. bt kinda fun.. haha.. slacked during pc.. did only 2 stations.. i wanna redo sit n reach!! onli tt gt b.. bt kinda lazy too.. n i might nt do as well.. haha.. contradicting ya!? phys lesson was short as mr sin went through skill a in brief n let us off 15 mins earli!! yay.. n we're still munching on titbits n de gers playing hei bai pei when he was in de class.. kinda bad bt it is lively!! din make mi wanna slp.. econs lect was quite fun too.. we're busy copying or rather they cuz i can't really see clearly.. n miss chin was like bullet train lahz.. (as usual) thus it made copying a rather challenging task.. i wasn't up to it so i began reading de notes n highlighting dem while listening to her n see wad's de relevent pts.. apparantly her scribbles are de notes mayb in greater details?! haha so in de end.. their notes were messy n mine colourful! i found out tt sitting beside jess could make time pass faster.. true joker n entertainer.. lols.. provided she not pms-ing lahz.. was quite sian after econs n plan to pon gp to watch match bt.. well.. decided to b guai n not pon.. think i din really do well for de tca.. din had enough time.. think it's time to manage my time properly.. aq n summary was done in a rush.. like 10 mins for summary n 5 for aq!? completely screwed.. n b4 gp de gers were like crapping bout some classroom romanace.. haha.. my god lahz.. do i look so despo.. bleahz.. used to it le.. mayb someday i will crap along wif dem.. will they think i really like him!? eekz.. haha sounds evil.. blah blah.. all de no 5 r my rumoured bf.. pls queue.. oppz.. juz laming around.. =)
training tml morn.. hope it will turn out fine.. ah man seems quite stress.. hey ger.. relax n enjoy!! dun always blur blur de k.. believe in urself n believe in us.. jia you k!! as i have said.. we aim high bt there's always limits to wad we can do.. as long as there's no regrets.. let de better team win.. =D ok.. kinda tired le.. off to my lovely bed!! taz.. take care everyone..

haven been blogging for quite some time.. dun hab de time to even online..
a div starting soon.. beginning to feel nervous whenever i think of de competitions.. trainings are more frequent too.. bt somehow i feel it wasn't really effective.. i even think it's getting worse day by day.. haiz.. is it de bonding!? or de attitude?! or wad.. somehow i dun really feel confident.. we are really lucky for de draw.. bt so wad if we pass de 1st round.. i noe we hav high chance bt i dun wan to feel really bad after we won.. will we play like we did during trainings? or worse.. or better.. de previous 2 times training wasn't really gd.. n i think my setting beri horrible!! how!!?? when coach say whether we win or lose all lies in my hands (as in setting lahz) .. really feel beri wad lorz.. de pressure is setting in.. i really need de confidence frm my team mates.. bt mama say i shld b de 1 giving dem confi. haiz.. how to?! i really dunno.. any advices? i'm always a beri passive person.. waiting for ppl to give mi confi. for ppl to help.. for everything to come on it's own.. i'm scared if my teammates dun play well.. is it due to me? r they angry at mi for wadeva reasons? once i gt such feelings i will juz drop to de bottom.. how to build up my confi!? jiu ming ar!!
went to watch finals ytd.. de feeling was really gd.. esp when de last pt end.. de jumping n crying n everything was so familiar.. i really dun wan to look on.. i'll miss everything.. lyn said we muz come back again tis yr.. somehow it looked so far frm mi.. bt we'll do our best rite?! i hope there'll b no regrets.. no thinking back on how bad i've done.. wad i shld n shld not do.. cuz it'll b too late.. i'm tired of tis.. there r too many regrets to look back on.. i dun wanna add on to de list.. hope tml's training will b better.. i need something to pull mi back on..
for my team mates.. lets all jia you!! looking forward to de match.. lets have smiles instead of tears k.. i noe we will all miss a lot of lessons during tis period bt dun giv up.. it's normal.. we need 12 hearts beating as 1.. we will catch up after tis ya!?
can't concentrate on my studies now.. it's juz so distracting.. grades is still so horrible.. been hearing a lot of nagging frm de teachers too.. "its already too late to start.. ask ur seniors.. they will call u to start studying now.." give mi some more time..

oppz.. i've disappeared for so long.. haha.. shall update a little..
in a blink of an eye.. de march hols are over.. think most of de days spent on training and going sembawang play play.. anyway.. congrats to dem into getting into top 4.. coach very happy worz.. haha..
i think my life is getting so mundane.. like everyday going through de same routine.. blahz..
saw mr tay on wed.. he gave us some advices.. really wanna work on it.. bt sometimes things do not happen because we want it to.. sometimes i really wish he was back here coaching us.. miss de days.. anyway hope everything juz works out at de end of de day.. it might not b easy bt i believe we can do it.. jia you everyone!! point to rmb: dun slack ur way through.. u might onli b deceiving urself in de end.. dun give up till de very end.. days left: 1 month or mayb 2..
hmm.. bei shang lian ge starting soon.. *excited haha.. off to watch tv.. tataz!!

*i rather not have tt little happiness from de start.. when i noe tt it will lead to nothing, i feel like i've drop to de bottom.. i shld have juz let go.. nothing will come out of tis.. *kiss goodbye - leehom

haven been blogging for quite some time.. hmm.. nth much to blog about bahz.. haha
forget wad's de date tt i went to sentosa.. de effect of manying (bring rain) n some sunshine gers.. it was sunny bt it also rained.. n it din happen once.. it happened many times!! like so hot.. den so cold.. den hot again.. den cold again.. horrible weather.. nevertheless.. i still kena sunburn!! now my shoulders r peeling like mad.. n it's so ugly cuz there are 2 colours.. eekz..
had been sick since fri.. omg.. i think tis is 1 of de worst cuz normally i wun b sick for more den 2 days.. my slight fever din go down.. i tink it did.. bt it went up again after a while.. haiyo.. did not speak for tis 2 days cuz hab throat infection n i hab no voice.. lol.. hate it when ppl call mi.. cuz i dun wan to ans dem wif my sexy voice.. haha.. anyway.. didn do any hw.. quite lazy n no mood lahz.. doc say if after 3 days fever haven subside muz go for blood test.. i was like.. huh.. so serious mehz.. n he din gib mi ani med for my sore throat.. something like lozenges lahz.. horrible.. make mi suffer so long.. n i keep drinking water.. i think i drank at least 1.5 litres ytd.. lolz..
shall update again another day.. tataz..

had to take a breather from all de maths hw.. had training ytd n didn realli do much hw.. so had to rush dem today.. can't even finish.. still hab to study for econs test tml.. omg stress!!
training ytd was quite fun cuz we juz keep playing games.. bt i'm quite moody cuz of de lack of slp.. bt well.. had to recollect my xin qing.. later affect others jiu bu hao le.. mum brought back frens n made so much noise in de middle of de night.. so i lay awake frm 1 to 4 till de noise finally go down a bit.. haiz.. n i oso told her i had to wake up earli in de morn.. how inconsiderate.. she everytime comment on how noisy we r.. n blah blah.. bt she din even bother to set an example for us lor.. say cannot ton or wadeva bt she always do tt.. say 1 thing n do another thing..
went sentosa on fri.. was quite sunny in de morn n we tot tt we can finally have a gd tan.. bt it started raining when we reach sentosa.. den manying said tt she go sentosa always bring de rain.. n she went late cuz of prac.. so we all joked tt she brought de rain there.. haha.. there wasn't much ppl there.. we saw some jj ppl there.. think it's og outing bahz.. left around 6 to eat..
actualli wanna go c my juniors match on mon de.. bt i dun think can le.. gt extra lessons.. n training.. it'll start to b a busy period le.. mon hab to train till night too.. dunno if i can finish any hw anot.. hope there'll b no test on tues.. bt at least we gt to use indoor bahz..
hab to gt back to my books le.. zZzz.. tata!

hello!! after so long.. i'm back again.. actually nth much to blog about lahz.. haha.. anyway it was valentine's day ytd!! bt well since i'm nt attached.. it's juz another day to mi lahz.. nevertheless.. i'm still very happy on valentine's day eve.. haha.. my wish made long long ago came true.. mayb not all still dunno haha.. lots of furni things happen on v-day.. youyi gt a song dedication frm someone.. it was so furni lahz.. n she's like so paiseh de whole day.. n her oasis tickets!! it's like whoa.. so ex can.. xin fu de yy.. haha.. sad to say.. there's econs mock test which apparently no 1 cares!! cuz no 1 hand in de essay.. lols..
now for de sad thing.. kinda disappointed tt de j1s r leaving.. actually expecting all of dem to stay.. bt for other reasons they wanted to go to other jcs.. when we asked dem before de results.. they said most prob will stay bt now almost all r leaving.. i hope we successfully pyschoed jiale to stay.. i really hoped tt she'll b able to stay wif us.. bt i really think tt jj is a better choice den pj lahz.. bt it's all up to u..
didn really train much cuz tian bu yao us to train.. de moment we start training it started raining.. den we stop n tok den de rain stop.. till gt a bit sun den we start again n within 5 min.. started raining again.. zzz.. it's really hard to train under such conditions.. in de end.. yuhan treat us to swensens!! so kind of her.. haha had a little bonding lahz.. tml is another long day... zzz

happy new yr!!

happy new yr peps.. so fast.. celebrations ending le.. hab to go back to sch again.. sigh.. visited both my mum n dad sides.. bt i think i like going to my dad's side more.. mayb cuz i onli gt to c dem once a yr!? or mayb their side more educated n there's more cousins which r closer in age wif mi.. bt as usual.. went dad's side for half de afternoon onli.. n my grand aunts are all old n weak?! like wad dad said.. (kinda bad lahz) mayb after 2 more yrs we dun hab to visit dem le.. kinda sad lahz.. hope everything goes well for dem tis yr.. din gt to c pretty aunt n rich cousins tis yr.. u c de reasons y i keep forgetting their names?! i dun gt to c dem often!! mayb if i'm lucky.. once every 2 yrs or even 3.. went home around 3 n i arranged some prog for myself..
went to watch i not stupid 2 wif bear n ah ma.. quite a nice movie.. n i think it's worth de ticket price lahz.. at least it reflects real life.. de problems between those "old" teachers n students.. de rebellious part of our life.. de 2 extreme kind of parents tt some of us have.. there were furni scenes n touching scenes as well.. i would highly recommend u all to watch it.. n i hope parents would oso watch it.. de movie is trying to tell all parents love their children bt it's always a question about expression..
joshua side: dad is an ex-convict.. keeps hitting him.. tok vulgarities.. as a result.. son kena expel.. join gang.. smoke.. enjoys hitting ppl.. n dun understand his father's love for him.. onli when he's father is dying den he realise everything.. bt it's too late lahz..
shawn side: parents too engross in making money.. giving him a house with everything bt end up it's even more empty to him.. as a result.. son gets rebellious.. gt public canning..
there's tis part which is so sad lahz.. de little bro of shawn.. saves up all his money.. sell his fav pokemon cards n even resort to stealing juz to use money n buy his father's time to watch his concert.. n when he was caught stealing.. he was even canned by his dad..
there's so much more lahz.. shld watch it urself to know more.. very meaningful movie..
dad's going abroad soon.. dunno how my life is going to change.. without him in de house.. it's always empty with mi with de four walls.. although having him makes no diff cuz he does his things n i do mine.. bt at least there's some noise around.. sis n mum always not around.. sigh.. it's going to b quite a bad yr for dragon babies i think.. haha bt it's always up to u to believe or not.. wadeva it is.. i hope everything goes well throughout de yr for mi n my family n everyone of u out there..

oppz.. haven been blogging for wks.. shld say i have no time.. or say i'm purely lazy.. up to u lahz..
anyway.. update a little.. our class been busy preparing for de cny decos at de canteen n concourse area.. actualli juz doing something simple like making lanterns n hanging de sakura flowers.. feel a bit like de production line when we have to tie de strings onto de lantern haha.. anyway it was fun doing it lahz.. joked n laugh along de way too..
econs tutorials was quite horrible de past wk.. miss chin is going like a bullet train esp after she scolds us for not settling down.. dun really understand.. n we hab to copy n listen n at de same time figure out which part of de notes she's toking about.. although she's fast.. bt she still haven finish de lecture on tis chap.. bt anyway.. i have a bad feeling of de coming test..
went shopping ytd at town.. bought a watch which wasn't my first choice.. as in de 1 i saw at first which i really wanna buy.. bt anyway i still lurve my watch.. it's a mambo watch tt cost onli 104 after discount.. de initial 1 tt i wanna buy cost 139.. it sure looks nicer den de previous 1 n cheaper!! so happy.. haha..
think we walk for a long time in town.. busy trying on clothes haha.. manying end up din buy her bikini partly becuz we wanted to go n eat le lahz.. haha.. she beri fickle de.. a while wan a while dun wan.. so we gave her more time to think haha.. i tried on lots of clothes too cuz mi aim was to pull dem along to help mi choose cny clothes.. most of de stuff tt i tried was like de last piece?! so if dun hab my size den can't buy le.. after a whole day of shopping i bought a top n a skirt chosen by jos.. shopping queen is a gd adviser.. haha bt they made me try so many clothes lahz.. so tired oso.. haha.. actually wanna buy shorts too.. bt either no size or too ex or din c nice ones.. anyway.. i'm done wif cny shopping.. yay!!
oh ya.. we oso had a small vb gathering wif de seniors on fri.. went jp to eat dinner.. actualli wanted to go swensens bt it was kinda full house n we were a big grp so end up we slack at 1 corner while some of dem went to check out where gt place for us to eat.. feng even called de pizza hut delivery to ask if there's space at taman jurong's outlet.. lol.. it's like so cartoon lahz.. when we called de outlet n nearly reserved places, jp's 1 had place for us so feng was like "oh it's ok there's seats at de jp's outlet bye" n she hung up without allowing dem to say anithing haha.. anyway.. it's fun to have a gathering wif dem.. shld organise such outings more.. bt quite sad cuz not much gers (seniors) were there.. after eating mama lyn n my came my house for a short mahjong session.. it's a fun day as well.. lol!

tis is a new yr and a new start for everyone.. firstly, wish everyone a happy 2006 and may ur road be smooth always..
shall start wif de countdown.. went boon lay to countdown on new yr's eve.. been going there for bout 3 yrs le.. haha i noe it's boring bt no choice lahz.. lazy to go n squeeze wif ppl.. n wad's impt is de company u're in.. nth much happened lahz.. juz tt we sat a free bus ride home cuz de bus is packed wif ppl n we eventually went in frm de back door.. n for ur info.. there's no entry scanner at de back door..
1 bad news at de 1st day of sch (wad a way to start tis yr..) i still failed 1 sub.. bt eventually.. principal let all of us promote.. juz like wad mr tay said.. it's bad n gd news.. he actually came over after work to have a tok wif mi.. juz to give me some advices bahz.. all along i noe tt i'm a person without goals bt it took me tis long to realise tt how dangerous such a situation is.. so for now.. i'm in search for a target which i can work towards to..
shall share some of mr tay's words..
how do u define a millionair? a rich man or someone who had struck toto?! for him.. a millionair is someone who can lose a million onli to earn it back.. and someone who had struck toto is juz a rich man wif a million dollar in his pocket..
i'm quite amazed tt he can actually say out some of our character.. and it's all quite true.. de time i spent wif him is onli about 2 mths plus.. (until vb finals..) n he could already see our character through our actions.. n de reason behind my constant failure is because i have no goals.. no ambition to work towards to.. so i juz anyhow walk which is de first step off de path..
next is some chim chim china words.. bt i juz roughly describe bahz.. first is xiu shen which is cultivate urself.. den ding jia.. which is after cultivating urself den u can stablise ur family.. family is very impt cuz in times of danger mayb all ur frens may not help u.. n if anything goes wrong in life u can jolly well go home n cry.. next is ping guo.. which is after u kao dim urself n family den u can look at de larger picture which is ur country.. n finally something related to world de.. (too noisy can't hear him say..) bt i roughly gt de idea lahz.. it's step by step process.. so now i muz xiu shen first.. n schs are meant to let u cultivate urself..
i've set some new yr resolutions which i seldom make.. cuz i'm juz living day by day without any plans..
1. noe wad is my target..
2. strive towards my target..
3. learn to be more decisive.. (instead of anything all de way..)
4. learn to stand up from set backs..
and my wish for new yr is to do well in my studies.. or rather improve lahz.. cuz now is really beri jia lat.. if i sidetrack along de way.. someone pls remind me.. cuz i noe i have weak determination.. i'm easily swayed!!

hmm.. so long since i updated..
first.. talk bout xmas.. went shopping on sat.. bought lots of things n now i'm broke!! haha.. mama went cruise so i ask man n frens stay over for some mahjong.. we played tong xiao.. n they went off around 8 plus.. so tired.. bt i slept for onli 2 hrs plus den woke up for breakfast wif dad n sis.. den went home n slp again haha.. sad christmas..
went mr tay's house on 26th.. quite fun.. been a long time since i've seen de seniors.. although not most of dem are there.. bt i think it will b quite long before i can see dem again.. we met up n do a bit of mr tay's present.. wrote some messages for him too.. quite sad to see him leave lahz.. bi jing he was a great coach n helped us a lot along de way.. without him i think it will b quite different.. n can compare de results next yr..
anyway.. we played soft vball in de function hall till someone come in n say no ball games haha.. den we played bingo.. de forfit was to do pumping.. everyone like so scared to tio.. den we were like calling for de no n our hearts all beating so fast haha.. hf was de last 1 to tio n de forfit was to dance.. haha she dance wif ethan.. he's super cute sia.. n can c tt mr tay beri teng his sons.. didn realli scold dem.. onli gave warning.. haha den when ethan help him massage he still kiss him.. we are all playing wif ethan n wan to take pics wif him.. at around 10 plus we left.. dewen drove some of us home n guohua pick zihui up n send some of dem to de mrt station.. so kind of dem.. haha.. in conclusion.. it's a fun nite!! wonder if there'll b such gathering again..
de results still not out yet.. so slow!! bt since it will b out so late.. i guess there'll b no 2nd chance for me le bahz.. i oso dunno how i fared.. mayb i shld start looking out for any interesting courses.. for now.. i'm quite interested to b a pe teacher.. bt tt's after poly bahz.. (if i go poly) for now.. i'll juz see how things goes..

hmm.. re-exams over!! dunno whether i'll pass.. bt it doesn't realli matter le lahz..
suddenly my mama like nt tt strict anymore.. weird.. it really shocked me when she said fail den fail lor.. go poly lahz.. no big deal rite.. if u really noe me well.. u shld noe my mum well too.. haha it's so unlike her to say something littat.. when we went to take family photo she still said something like when i grad frm uni den we take another photo.. den now she like don't care le..
there's still once when i was playing mahjong at home den she came home.. bt didn scold mi oso haha.. juz said dun play money arz... weird rite.. haha bt i prefer it tis way..
oh ya.. when i say i might go nie be pe teacher she still say.. i noe u can do wad.. go b army.. haha.. i was like huh!!?? den she say dun huh.. gt very gd prospects ok.. do some desk stuff or wad lahz.. dunno bout it oso.. haha.. seems like de world is very wide..
went jos house ytd for steamboat and we stayed over for de night.. hmm ate till bout 11 plus!? den we went up to her rm.. play a game which i dunno how to describe lahz.. haha.. den played blackjack for a while oso.. banker wins all.. haha.. we all play till bankrupt (chips) den some of dem went of to slp.. den man, jos, xiuyi and mi played mahjong on de mattress.. wha so ma fan playing there.. cannot lean near de tiles or else it will collapse.. we played for quite long.. till 630 b4 jos n xiuyi cannot take it le.. mayb cuz we hab training earlier so they beri tired.. bt ytd training beri slack for 3 of us.. so i nt really tired lorz.. bt well.. since they wanna slp jiu slp lorz.. quite squeezy oso.. like sardine cannot anyhow move.. heez.. woke up around 9 tis morn.. den ate some breakfast n off back home.. reach home le jiu bath and slp haha.. beri tired.. dark rings forming.. in conclusion.. it was quite fun bahz.. =p

hmm haven been updating for quite a while..
re exams r coming.. really not prepared for it.. sorry for making frens around mi worry.. n thanks for ur card.. really appreciate it although i didn cry lahz.. haha.. i noe u all r trying very hard to motivate mi..
tis make mi think a lot.. including de decision to come jc.. many regrets i may have bt i will nt regret continue playing vball in jc.. de days in kl were my happiest moments i guess.. really miss tis team a lot.. wonder if we will have any chance to play as a team again..
looking back to sec sch.. nt tt i dislike it there bt i think there's really not much for mi to think back.. i can only rmb all de conflicts de boycotting.. it's like u can't b who u r.. muz try to please de ppl around u or u'll only b left out by others.. wasn't realli close wif mi class den cuz i'm always hanging around my team mates.. n it's often split into grps.. sometimes i realli dunno where i belong.. perhaps it's becuz we have 4 yrs together n we will c each other personality.. no matter how coach try he's still being dislike by us.. bt i agree tt he's temper could b a rollar coaster.. i quite pei fu him.. every batch he slowly bring us up even without any foundation..
i realli hope tt tis team could at least make it into top 8.. bt without mr tay i think it's quite diff.. although mr tay's training is very tough.. he's very strict.. expecting a lot frm us.. he can b quite arrogant at times bt he's a gd coach.. dewen is also a gd coach lahz.. bt he's too lenient le.. no body is actually afraid of him.. no stress.. can slack slack play play and 1 training is over.. still rmb when i juz come in mr tay said tt he wan 100% commitment frm mi.. n now.. ppl can happy happy dun come for training.. i think if mr tay was de coach de team might b left wif less den half de no now..
even if i realli pass tis test n scrap through tis yr.. is it worth it? to struggle through next yr.. n not knowing whether i can pass a levels.. is tis wad i wan? to finish tis path n go on to uni.. can i do it? i really dun know wad i wan.. i seriously dun think i'm de liao for studying bt wad can i do?! i actually dun noe anything.. can they give me de assurance n motivation i need?!
almost forget to mention.. went for dinner at clark quay to celebrate xj's bday.. bear intro us to brewerkz.. hmm.. i quite like de ambience there.. drank golden ale.. seriously it juz taste a little sweeter den carlsberg.. muhaha.. can u intro something more lady next time?! took lots of pic bt i still haven got it!! anyone.. juz anyone.. send mi pls!! hmm.. ate 2 main n 1 side dish.. wasn't really tt full lahz.. quite ex some more.. haha.. broke le lahz.. went to walk around clark quay after dinner.. nth much to walk around.. n finally decide to hab some ice cream.. in total.. i spend bout 33 tt day.. lucky it's not more den 50 bucks haha.. anyway.. i enjoyed tt day.. shall we chill out someday again!?
not going to work for next wk.. hab to go for steamboat at jos house.. hopefully can ton there.. n i guess it'll b fun!? cuz most of us r there.. pls dun make mi regret not working!! haha.. think i'm working during xmas wk.. no dates.. so sad.. haha.. hope to b in de same outlet wif bear.. *pray..

Juz watched finish "qing chu yu lan".. I like de ending.. quite meaningful although it's kinda expected lahz.. shall gib a brief summary of de story.. there's tis teacher, ruoshi who is sandwiched upon 2 guys.. de principal, jicai and another guy teacher, zhengliang.. ruoshi was with zhengliang before until she knew tt zhengliang indirectly cause de death of her ex husband.. thus broke up wif him.. jicai was always around her and supporting her.. her ex husband son was down wif leukemia and jicai saved him therefore she’s grateful to him.. both is so good to her thus leaving her wif a dilemma.. she finalli decide to leave for de States without choosing ani of dem.. however at de last min.. she finalli realize tt she had been surpressing herself n de 1 she really loves is zhengliang..
Tis quote was mentioned in de drama.. even if u're heartbroken.. de heart continues beating.. life still goes on.. I feel tt it's beri true.. n I'd like to give an advice to mi sis.. she had broken wif her bf.. n I saw her tearing away juz now.. hope she can understand de msg.. broken relationships are part n parcel of life.. a new relationship will start onli when de old one ends.. without a relationship ur love life is a blank sheet.. I really dun understand y does she have to despair for some time after every relationship.. n onli end up to regret and tok bout how stupid u r in de past.. to give up de things u like juz becuz of a stranger who had to cross ur path.. perhaps I've nt experience such relationships to really give my opinions.. ppl say watching tv is bad bt I think tt through such real life dramas.. we learn how to handle stuffs.. my sis even bought a 40 plus book to make her gt over of tis failed relationship.. she still thinks tt she is strong n independent and doesn’t show her weak side.. in her blog she even lament y she is so strong tt she doesn't think for herself.. and doesn't wan to worry others over her probs.. I dunno whether to laugh or wad.. as her sis.. I would always c her weaker side.. n perhaps she really doesn't show out her emotions easily by nt crying in front of others.. keeping ur probs to urself means u r strong n independent!? Den I must say my family have such genes cuz I think tt my whole family is littat.. my mum would only show her weak side when she's drunk.. I seriously think tt she's nt strong cuz she is very grouchy wheneva she's unhappy.. n I can guess easily wad is happening to her.. heartbroken or in love.. she juz writes it all over her face lahz.. bt I oso feel sorry for her lahz.. even if I'm nt really happy wif her I still try to calm down n nt quarrel wif her.. anyway.. juz hope she quickly gt over it lahz.. it's gd for everyone tt way..
juz read my sis's blog.. din noe tt she had such encounters n now i noe y she prefered my dad den my mum.. i realli dunno whether it's dang ju zhe mi or wad.. cuz i feel tt mum loves her alot.. dad has always been de more lenient 1 n whenever there's bad news he's always de first to noe.. although mum is strict bt she still cares for us.. for example.. whenever sis is coming home for dinner mum will cook soup.. she'll always leave soup for her even if sis doesn't come home for dinner.. recently mum was quite often home during weekends.. (not quite normal cuz in de past 17 yrs she's seldom at home during wk ends..) whenever dad suggested going out to eat.. sis will say she doesn't want.. n we will end up eating nearby cuz mum wanna buy food home for her.. sometimes i realli hate her for tt.. i'm really sick of eating at jurong west.. mayb mum was realli more strict in de past.. bt she juz doesn't want us to walk on de wrong path.. n tt's wad she went into.. she even mentioned in her blog tt mum call mi not to tok to her!? i dun rmb anithing like tt lahz.. bt i noe tt they always quarrel bt it's always bcuz she did de wrong thing.. hello.. wad could b rite to b an ah lian n take up smoking when u're juz 14!?!? perhaps it's bcuz she's there to b my "role model" tt's y i'm so guai lahz.. haha.. since young i swear not to b like her.. smoking n commiting suicide stuff.. yuckz.. i think she's stupid at tt age cuz a ger 5 yrs younger can think better den commiting suicide juz bcuz she quarrelled wif her bf!?! bt studies wise.. she's smarter lahz.. i oso dunno how her mind works...

hmm.. shall backtrack a little..
last wed.. training was supposed to b in de morn. bt was cancelled bcuz of de rain.. however.. it was super last min lahz.. i already bathe le.. n some of dem was out of house le.. so xiuyi, manying n mi decided to meet for breakfast.. jos was oso up so we went bukit timah for prata den proceed to her house for mahjong.. i think it was my first time waking so earli to go for prata haha.. after mahjong met up wif bear n gang to catch a movie.. manying came along too.. bt she beri noisy haha keep saying beri weird.. had a hard time persuading her to join us.. was a little rushed for time so we called a cab to tiong bahru.. haiz.. broke le.. haha
ytd went shopping.. or rather window shopping.. didn buy anything.. too broke to buy things too.. haha.. we went to look for a team bag n saw a few quite nice de.. de price was still within my budget.. hope most of dem wan it or else it will serve no purpose.. went to an addidas shop at novena it has 30% storewide.. bt there nth much to shop so we went to city link n suntec.. at city link saw quite a few nice stuffs.. at de roxy shop saw a watch.. super nice wor.. bt muz work to buy it haha.. spotted some ripcurl bag too.. quite nice.. n quite cheap oso.. heez.. actualli wan to buy slipper oso.. bt didn realli c nice nice de so didn buy ani.. went carls junior to eat dinner.. quite ex wor.. bt de things quite nice.. de burger we share so end up we're nt realli full haha.. last stop.. we went esplanade to eat cake n chill out.. nice view haha.. hmm.. went home around 11 plus.. when i reach je it was de last train le.. haha heng we're nt any later... quite fun.. hope there b such outings more often..
oh ya.. on de 20/11 bear n gang came my house to bake brownie.. we tried 2 times.. de first time was very successful.. actualli de taste is ok lahz.. only de looks nt beri nice.. so we tried another time.. tis time bear went home to take her mixer.. although i prefer hand made bt de mixer definately save lots of time.. it's de thought tt counts mahz.. de brownie is for nu er's bday de.. we oso cut de brownie into star shape.. after baking de brownie we went nu er's house there to gib her a surprise.. long time nber c her le.. bt she still looks de same.. haha.. onli a little fairer!? aniway.. it's a bit late bt nvm.. happy bday ger.. haha..

chalet..

day after chalet.. veri tired.. fall aslp while watching tv juz now.. bt after bathing not tt slpy animore so decide to blog a little in case i forget.. haha
it was overall quite fun.. haha.. first time staying over in a chalet too.. hmm.. de first time we played twister, i kena those very difficult moves.. like cross arms n i still have to stretch my legs somewhere.. was laughing like siao.. n they juz kept taking pics of my ugli pose.. 2nd time we played.. quite slack in de beginning.. (not for others hahaha) bt till de end i oso had some realli weird pose... laugh till i had tears in my eyes sia.. we lazy to bbq so we ordered pizza!! yum yum.. after pizza we watched tv till 8 plus.. den we played truth or dare while watching tv.. didn realli find out ani secrets.. jie xing did a dare!!! she was super daring lahz.. bt de opp ppl not fun de.. nber pei he.. still say we crazy.. bleahz.. after tt.. we had some describing game which evolved in taboo.. n den de super sunday show de game.. (dunno how to explain oso) de way ppl describe it's like very furni lorz.. manying still describe in broken eng.. haha.. de super sunday game was super fun.. (all de while sze hui was toking to her boy boy in de room.. miss out all de fun!!) de way it was distorted till de end.. haha.. veri kua zhang somemore... realli cute lahz.. we played for 1 whole round den went up to de room to squeeze n watch vcd.. it was bout 2 plus by den.. watched a little of scary movie 3 which wasn't realli interesting den watched mr deeds.. was quite furni.. some ppl already fall aslp b4 de movie ended.. after de movie.. those still awake went downstairs to take some bite and played some card games... den we decided to watch a witchcraft show since it's already like earli morning?! those scared went up to de room to slp.. watch a while den quite boring cuz in de middle talk quite a lot.. so we decide to go up n slp too.. imagine 11 ppl squeezing in 2 beds n 1 mattress.. sardine can... i cannot even move lahz.. den jos n szehui went downstairs to slp.. i rest for a while.. can't get to slp.. cannot move bu shu fu.. heard dem toking downstairs den i decided to go down.. lie for bout an hr onli.. chat a while den decided to b very noisy to wake de rest up haha (evil..) n surprisingly.. ting ting by 9 still haven wake up!! regardless of how noisy we were.. so we decided to go up n disturb her.. haha.. we wanted to go downtown east to play pool!! we played a while of pool n went back to de chalet.. xiuyi's mum bringing mahjong tiles here!! yay!! by den.. most of dem left le.. left about 6 of us.. den we played mahjong without money for a while den sze hui left.. den we played money.. play all de way till 1am.. with a dinner break in between.. i'm quite tired le.. plus we drank a little wine (xiuyi's bro buy de) n de game was super slow.. till behind no mood le haha.. all hu xiao xiao.. manying n jos combine is de greatest winner.. won 14 i think.. den xiuyi won 7!! i lost 6 n de rest xiao hui.. wasn't very lucky.. cha eng came late cuz she had rugby in de afternoon.. after mj.. we went to slp cuz there's training de next day.. manage to slp a little bahz.. woke up a little here n there.. *yawnz* we woke up at 9 tis morning to get ready to check out.. haha ate some cereals n bread wif nutella!! *yum yum n we checked out!! i went back home while they went to eat.. didn manage to slp lahz.. bathe n off i go le.. so tired... zZz..
lately my sis quite weird.. wasn't realli herself.. quite irritating.. bleahz.. 1 whole wk nber come home eat dinner.. when she came home n eat.. suddenli say wanna put tv in her rm.. den started arguing wif mum for de yes n no bout tv.. aniway i think she's realli bo liao lahz.. it's like she's seldom home lahz.. wan tv for wad?! den she say it's cuz i watch outside mum watch inside she can't watch.. tok cok lahz.. if i'm mum i oso wun agree buying a tv for her.. waste money waste elec.. n she still storm out of house without saying bye to anione of us.. childish.. mum n dad had a long tok after tt.. hope they aren't quarrelling becuz of her.. tis time i side wif mum.. before i go for chalet i started arguing for some things wif her oso.. n she said she needed de stuff cuz she had dance on fri.. TOK COK again.. she went out todae lahz dance wad.. rubbish.. she's like so irritating lahz.. ask her y she didn go work today oso so gl.. horrible.. thank god she went out.. can't stand her lahz..
oh it's midnite le.. so tired.. going off to dreamland le!! muz replenish my shui mian.. tataz~

updates updates.. somebody keep pestering mi bout updates.. so here i am!! while waiting for my camera's battery to b re-charged so i can upload the photos.. i've decided to blog a little.. pls do not ask mi to put it up here.. i dunno how to!! haha if u r willing to volunteer to help mi do it.. i dun mind.. pls leave ur contact down.. haha..
firstly.. went swimming wif dear peifen on tues.. it was super sunny.. however, i like didn realli tan a lot lehz.. so sad.. bt well.. it's fun!! haha.. lots of ppl there too.. after de swim, went to eat dinner wif my family including my grandparents.. so nan de my mum is at home on public holidays.. we went to eat fish steamboat at tiong bahru.. yum yum.. quite ex aniway.. bt mum said it wasn't realli "hua" afterall.. bt well.. it's better den nth mahz..
had to attend self study on wed thus not able to go sentosa for de class outing.. so sorry.. next time ya?! bt lucky i didn go lahz.. if not i'll b tanning for tues wed n thurs.. den i'll b so burnt.. self study was quite boring.. wasn't realli wad i expected.. bt well.. can slack oso better lahz.. afterall i'm all alone n de break is rather redundant to me.. next time i shall leave at 1130.. muhaha..
went sentosa ytd.. it was raining in de morning so kinda scared tt there'll b no sun.. bt it's still ok lahz.. nt realli beri hot bt can tan lahz.. haha.. met cheryl n chunli there too... so long didn c chunli she so tanned sia.. chao ta le lahz.. bt it's nice!! haha actualli wanted to play 2 on 2 wif her bt no chance lahz.. too bad.. next time ya?! aniway.. we played vb.. slack in de water for a while n kayak for a while.. overall was quite fun lahz.. heez.. i didn gt sunburn cuz i put sun block at my shoulders.. de rest put sun tan lotion n tada.. all kena burnt.. haha.. oppz.. sounds bad.. after bathing we still played a few games of pool.. long time didn play.. keep hit lousy balls haha.. xiuyi still keep playing cheat!! haha.. we waited for a long time for de beach line bus bt it's so full thus we walked all de way back to take de blue line bus.. n guess wad?! i can't even c de end of de queue.. we decided to take cab n guess wad again.. no cab to take sia.. all booking or kena snatched.. 1 mercedes cab driver still so action.. say wad tis is a limo. later de c de price heart pain.. bullsh*t sia.. gt money oso dun wan let him earn lahz.. kuku.. aniway.. xiuyi's dad come n drive us out.. so kind of him.. n bad xiuyi dun wan gib him money haha.. evil evil.. we went pasta mania eat.. didn realli like de food there.. haha dun like pasta sauce.. bt ok lahz.. still edible.. de pizza nt as nice as pizza hut's too.. haha.. after eating we play zhong ji mi ma.. eat de cheese alone.. kinda er xin lor.. i tio de still gt 1 drop of chili sauce.. yuckz!! aniway everybody kena once.. n manying kena thrice.. haha.. reach home around 1030 bahz.. so tired.. watch a little tv n off to dream land.. haha.. oh ya my sis kicked my face twice!! eeee
had lesson today n op reharsal.. it wasn't realli smooth.. n i think tt my speech worse den de first time.. eekz.. i kena de ques all i dunno how to ans de.. hope it doesn't happen during de actual op.. *pray hard* went to eat n actualli wanna cut hair bt de hair dresser nt free.. so we booked an appointment tml!! hope it doesn't turn out too bad.. hmm.. had training after tt.. it was ok lahz.. quite tired today so nt realli enthu bout it.. zzz currently no cfm plans for tml.. so sianz.. haha.. shall stop here.. stay tune to de next post.. tata!!