welcome the holidays!! wee..
finally after 2 wks of rather intense exam period.. it's a short break again.. bt den again.. i've lots to complain!! firstly.. i've hurt my shoulder (rather stupidly if u noe bout it.. haha!) so kinda had a short break frm training.. bt partly stopped due to exams.. n i resumed training only to find out tt it had not recovered yet!! i really cannot imagine myself back to "kai xia shou" haizz.. went physio last fri.. hope it would help!!
2nd bad thing.. after de SHORT 2 wks break.. gonna do attachment again!! n wad's bad is tt it clashed with my ivp!! roar!! i can imagine myself hurry here n there not getting enough slp.. in addition.. dewen's team is not in my grp!! which means.. no car back to jurong area.. sobx..
3rd.. it's exams time DURING cny!! hai hai hai.. i really dun understand de timetable.. not tt we learn soooooo much things to have 2 exams almost on de same topics!! crap.. ya.. wad a way to end n start a new yr.. =( *grumble grumble*
enough of grumbling.. muhaha.. went for a party last sat.. it was fun talking thru de night.. busy catching up.. reminds me of our endless conferences during secondary sch times.. no one seems to change much.. *thinking bout old times* haha sounds old.. =X another gathering coming up soon.. excited..
some activities lined up in wks n mths to come too.. of cuz.. have to balance out de bad ones with de gd ones.. wee.. even thinking of it makes me excited! =)

my first wake

i din expect my first wake to be of my fren's sister.. de news was shocking to me.. i know it's hard for her too..
it was sad watching her with de puffy eyes and looking so tired.. when i noe tt her younger sis was taking o levels my heart just goes out to her... putting myself in her shoes.. i think it's sooo hard.. all de best to her.. i hope she does well!!
Feng!! we all love you.. be strong!!

when i was young i couldn't imagine wad it's like to have ur love ones away.. i even secretly hope tt i'll go first.. but de pain is always on those who r left behind.. hai.. life is so unpredictable.. u may be well the first min n gone the nxt.. tt's y dewen say should just live ur life happily.. u never know when u'll be going.. y make things so difficult!? "kan kai yi dian"

was damn pissed before the wake.. now i understand how my sis feels when i dun do my things myself instead call others to help me.. i hope i'm not like tt already... hmm..

monday blues

first day of sch and first day of training after soooooo long..

classes was ok.. went to catch a movie after sch.. wanted to watch connected but din manage to rush to amk hub after lesson.. hai.. missed de time slot.. watched another movie (housebunny) was lame.. tt's y it was funny.. bt ok la.. at least it had a moral in de end.. not like those mindless show.. not tt i dun like mindless show.. sometimes when u're really down or sian.. a good laugh might just make your day happier! but.... i soooo want to watch connected!! muahaha..

went for training n went to eat wif de rest of dem.. since i have sch at 3 today so y not!? reached home at 1am ytd.. freaking tired.. mum called at 12am (exactly) and nagged me.. sometimes i think de way i replied her kinda rude.. (pms) but sometimes the things she said kinda irritates me!?

mum: where you?

me: on the mrt on de way home

mum: y r u so late? don't u have to work tml?

me: (apparently she still thinks tt i'm doing attachment) no dun have work tml

mum: even so you have no reason to come home late! you mei you gao cuo

wha lao!! i'm like super angry when she said tt.. firstly.. since i dun have to wake up early y can't i b home a little late.. secondly.. i'm already on the way home!! wad's de pt of saying all tt.. i can't possibly teleport home or wad rite?! damn sian...

sometimes i think tt parents should be strict at the correct time.. i'm like 20 already!! no longer a teen.. n i'm still getting tis kinda shit.. rather can i say tt they r being "ba dao" cuz they wan things their way! y dun they understand tt we will eventually grow up and have a mind of our own.. i understand tt they r worried and concern about us.. but still..

i'm glad tt i dun have to worry about money, food etc.. but this is not the idea kind of life i wanna live.. i'm 20 and accomplished nth!! i've gt almost no childhood or rather memories la.. all i could rmb was mum din allow me to have toys!! sometimes being too strict will restrict the child's creativity.. (no wonder i'm so stupid now..) bt if u dun be strict u'll just spoil the child.. no wonder children nowadays act like a spoilt brat and take so long to become matured.. (of cuz not all the them are like tt..)

but at least i've learn something frm it.. never to treat my child the way i hated to b treated now..

trina once said.. little kids are forgetful.. thus parents have to keep repeating wad they said.. but they forget tt their kid will grow up thus they become very naggy..

how interesting.. hmm...
*grumpy me~

hmm.. my maid of 4 yrs plus had gone home.. went to have our "last" dinner tog yesterday..
hai.. when i c her walking out of de door with tears filled eyes.. made me feel like crying too.. i just can't look on any longer.. grateful to her for taking care of us all tis yrs.. i noe my mum is very sad too.. very thankful to her for taking care of my mum on many occasions so tt we can slp at ease without worries.. sometimes i may look like someone who doesn't cry easily.. i dun really like to cry in front of others especially ppl i noe.. bt i always find it hard to force back my tears.. so ya.. better to look away before i break down.. hope she'll find happiness..
chat with aoy on msn today!! this the first time i saw her on msn.. haha.. was funny with all de broken eng and some thai.. missed her soooo much!! i wanna go thailand!! any takers!?!? haven been playing vb since the pesta sukan competition.. skills gonna gt rusty soon.. prob coach will start "suan-ing" me again.. haha another wk of attachment before sch and training for me starts..

somethings are just meant to end before it really started.. sometimes i wonder if tt's my fate..
was weird not doing something tt i've always been doing..
perhaps i'm already looking forward to it!? hmm..
it's been a long time.. have you broken my wall of defence?!
suddenly i've so much things to say..........
prob emo cuz my maid is not around anymore!! haizzzzz

opps.. it's been uber long time since i've blog..
now for some updates..
now having holidays.. been busying with open competition till now..
happy to know 2 new frens during this period.. they are the 2 thais in volleysport!! and of cuz the 2 coaches too.. so sad they went back le.. really had fun with them during this 1 month..
and of cuz.. without dem, champions is really far frm our reach.. thanks to the usuals who always encourage me throughout the competition.. and yingli who always gimmi tips here n there.. cheers to all..
left with about a wk of holiday.. happy times always end fast.. and i miss aoy and kung already!! wonder when's de nxt time i'll see dem.. hmm...

went for my first ever ripcurl beach competition last sat.. had fun.. though we din win anything la.. n being the only ger.. i'm much of a slacker inside lol.. waited more then we played bt still quite interesting to see others.. haha.. de goodie bag kinda sucked.. haha.. de shirt is like freaking big.. bt nvm shall wear it to beach only.. lol..

hmm shall enjoy de last few days of holiday.. recharge myself for sch and attachment!! =)

hmm it's been a long time since i've last blogged.. haha.. lazy me!
we went to celebrate zh's bday on sun! went chevrons chi restuarant for buffet.. weird place to celebrate bday hor.. haha.. bt de food was quite nice there.. n cuz it's less crowded so we can sit n talk n laugh for quite long.. we bought a game for her as a present.. so after dinner they came my house to play it.. i tink it's called what the fu*k.. haha.. their questions are like.. -.- kind.. example of 1.. which 1 would u prefer to use as eye drops?
a: player A urine
b: player B orgasm secretion
after reading the question.. we all burst out laughing.. lol!! crazy game..
now for the more serious stuff.. i'm kinda vexed tis days!! sigh.. lots of decisions to make.. me being super indecisive can't make up my mind!! internal fighting going on.. how?!?! part of me feels that i should take up the offer.. part of me is scared tt i might regret my choice in future.. n part of me dun really like de idea bt scared to offend the other party which may in turn affect my future.. sigh.. i'm so lost.. n i have little time to consider!!
perhaps i'm taking some things for granted.. hai

oppz receive complains of nt blogging so here i m!!
hmm where shld i start..
went hong kong during chi new yr for holiday.. quite a gd 1.. =) nice food all around.. although those small small shops might b closed bt still enjoyed myself.. first time experience winter.. bt no snow la.. haha bt still cold.. oh ya.. i loved de tv there! haha.. other countries de programmes nt as interesting.. there's 24 hrs of eng movie channel.. though some of it is repeated bt still nice to watch before i slp.. went to watch fireworks on chu er.. 1 word.. NICE!! haha.. so big n last for about half an hr.. there are much more patterns compared to de ones i saw in philippines too.. anyway.. tink we all enjoyed ourselves!!
back frm holiday n start of attachment... kinda sian cuz i'm attached to polyclinics alone.. n as a matter of fact.. i dun like to b alone.. feel kinda gu pi.. especially during lunch time.. bt i spent my time in libraries nearby the polyclinics.. quite relaxing haha.. reading mag.. sitting on couches yawning away.. quite a nice way to spend my lunch break too.. n i tink i learnt quite alot frm de ppl there.. some techniques n presentation wise.. i would say it wasn't quite dreadful as i tot it would b..
going to have end of yr break.. kinda lazy to work.. bt wouldn't want to spend all de time playing too.. hmm.. come to tink of it.. seems like quite a long holiday for me to slack.. haha.. anyway.. i'll take a step at a time bah..
oh ya.. lots of movies tt i wanna catch.. so pls ask me for movies!!! =)
till de nxt post... tata!! gd day everyone..

yeAr 2008!!

it's been another month!! belated merry xmas and a happy new yr to all of u.. =)
there's been attachment and hols n now sch started again.. firstly.. attachment nt tt fun in sgh.. perhaps i've already done wif the fun part.. haha start of yr 2 soon n prob i'll dread attachments le.. hols was short.. din even noe when it passed.. haha.. xmas was celebrated at hanping's house.. nice house!! haha.. had steamboat n gift exchange.. guess wad?! i gt back the same present i bought for de exchange!! haha.. fated.. played some games.. drink a little and off to slack.. haha.. jorn entertained me with his magic tricks!! amazing.. haha.. had another xmas gift.. thanks a lot for de pressie!! u noe who u r la.. teach me how to fold the roses nxt time!! n of cuz mann n zh for de cute little lips.. muacks!! hee..
new yr was spent at philippines.. more of eating shopping n watching tv.. 1 bad thing was tt i had to do all my reports there!! totally waste my relaxing time.. haha.. lots of fireworks on new yr eve!! totally love it!!
start and end of ivp.. although i tot tis might b a gd chance for us to make a name due to the very nice grouping.. bt too bad we juz threw it off.. bt well.. let's try again for the nxt competition bah!! jia you!!
tis term is going to b a very short 1 wif lots of tests and exams coming up.. so ya.. wun b blogging anytime soon bah.. hope tt everyting goes well to all of u!! cheers =)
new yr resolutions!?!
hmm.. hope to push up my gpa.. had been quite slack haha.. i need motivation!!! nxt on the list.. hope i can experience something different tis time.. =) whatever it is.. i just hope everything goes well n i'll stay happy!!