/-LoSt iN buBBle drEaMs-\

2010-05-22T22:06:00.002+08:00

long time no update! haha

firstly.. thanks for all the people who cared and bother to send their wishes!! seeing all the wishes made my day a brighter one!! =)
coping well at work.. at least i hope.. haha.. tho i think might have some unknown complains from the radiologists.. bt i know tt i've been too easy bout passing unsatisfactory images.. i'll work on improving my quality of work!! =X

can't help but feel a little bit disappointed.. been waiting for something tt i know would nv come.. bt at least i now know tt u don't bother.. i swear tt i would not do anything tt isn't worth it anymore..

din realise tt ytd was a significant day for another person oso.. can u still see all the things tt ur family and frens did for u? chance upon ur profile ytd.. i can see how much ur sis is missing u.. i can't image wad it will be like if my sis would leave me.. nevertheless.. i hope u're happy now.. u will always be in our hearts.. was just thinking.. if we knew tt we had so little time with u.. wad would we do? what would we say? tho i'm nt very close to u.. u'll always be the strong da jie da to me.. the smart and confident u..

1 day before the commencement of my first job!

2010-04-14T16:46:00.004+08:00

long long long time since i last updated tis blog.. haha..
i'll b starting work soon! dunno whether i'm prepared for it anot.. bt after slacking for sooo long.. also good to have something to do la.. hols since cny till now.. might b long for some.. might nt b for others.. when to 2 countries during this period.. i'm thankful for them.. it made my hols more colourful and not so boring.. it also made time past faster.. thanks for all de people who made my holidays wonderful!! =) guess i wun have such privillege of such long holiday again.. (unless i quit and shake leg at home haha! which even if happen.. have to wait for 2 yrs after my bond end)

went for another blood test ytd cuz there's something wrong with de first one.. found out tt mum has thalassemia n i might have it too! nth serious tho.. just anemic.. bt becuz i din noe bout it.. i had to give up 3 TUBES of blood for the tests.. white blood count on the high too.. a bit worried bout tt tho.. hope it drops after the 2nd test! mayb cuz my wbc too strong tt's y i seldom fall sick! haha.. i have a strong army inside me k....... =P

since i'm outside ytd.. n couldn't find any free person to eat ice cream with me.. i decide to make dessert! haha.. initially tot of making lemon sorbet again.. bt den i changed my mind n made orea cheesecake!! long time since i made it again.. made 1 small cake only.. tho who wanna have a share of it.. come find me!! bt... while stocks last!! hee..

gonna go back to y poly to work.. a bit scared.. haha.. even had dreams bout it for a few nights already.. hope tt everything goes well.. make less mistake.. n less ppl pls.. need time to adapt.. too many ppl will just stress me up and freak me out.. haha.. it's a good thing tt i start on a thurs cuz experience tells me tt there are less patients on thurs compared to a mon!! haha.. n pls.. de in charge don't say i'm toxic.. cuz u're de one tt wants me there! haha..

tho i'm just gonna start work.. i already feel like going for another holiday! haha.. bali any takers!? bt nt so soon.. since i dunno when i can take leave!! =P

oh ya.. i received a prank call 2 days ago.. by someone who posed as my fren! n he actually replied to all my questions relating to my fren! i said how come u sound different.. he replied.. i'm having sore throat and actually cough!! n i really couldn't figure out who it is.. since he called my house phone.. which not many ppl noe of it..
you better nt be someone i know.. cuz i hate ppl cheating me! have ur fun bt at de end of de day pls tell me the truth.. not nice to have ppl hanging somewhere in de middle! how i know u might even b a stalker! eeks...

2010-02-01T23:32:00.003+08:00

You're Not Sorry - Taylor Swift

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down

And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can say that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
No, oh, no, oh, no oh
Whoa, no, no

this song keep repeating on my song list.. totally relates..
i think it's long enough.. time to put an end to all this..
kick me in the ass if i soften up..
i've made up my mind.. at least i planned to..

tis is the last straw.. don't wanna hurt anymore..

2010-01-02T16:26:00.002+08:00

it's 2010 le...

let go of 2009 and move on to the new year...
i need more courage.. i need more time..
nevertheless.. i enjoyed my last and first day of the year! had steamboat n some drinks..
smiles, laughters, all the fooling around as well as the serious talks, tears from joy n sadness.. everything in a day!
thanks for all the support tt u all had gave.. i know i'll pick up n b stronger.. =)

lazy to think of new year resolutions..
i'm gonna start work in a few mths time! shucks..
from now till graduation.. super stress period..
from graduation till work.. nobody's free at tt period!! double shucks..

2009-12-29T21:07:00.002+08:00

shld i even look forward to 2010?!

i used to think tt i noe u very well.. bt now i realise i dun know wad u're thinking.. one moment we can b like normal.. n the nxt.. u'll gimme a very big shock.. now i don't know if i can trust u.. i have to live with the fear tt any moment it will be different again.. it even came to a pt where i don't even have the courage to read the message.. afraid tt things will go wrong again.. i know i'm weak.. bt i rather tt u keep everything to urself.. don't let me know..

hai.. first time i drift in and out of slp.. dun have appetite.. definitely nt a gd feeling.. bt wad can i do.. i just have to adapt to it and stay strong... wad a christmas and new yr.. hai..

how i wish tt everything was just a bad dream.. less pain.. less complications.. if only life would b smooth sailing..

2009-11-07T22:58:00.003+08:00

opps.. my itchy fingers dunno click wad.. now my old template is gone! n being an IT idiot.. i don't know how to put back my frenslist.. -.- now i lost all my frens blogs links!!
oh well.. perhaps it's time to start afresh.. i've been lazy to change my previous blogskin.. tho it's very pretty!! haha.. or perhaps i shld just close down this blog.. since i'm already not active in blogging.. haha..

com's super laggy today.. dun know is it because i'm dl-ing things.. or there's virus..

wan to buy a bigger memory space thumbdrive.. bt gt tempted by the external hardisk tt is having a promotion in my sch.. hmm... thinking thinking thinking..

my mum just transferred my hp plan under my name.. gt de student plan which i had been wanting for quite long.. bt 1 bad thing.. i have to pay my own bill nxt time.. haha.. gt unlimited sms now!! faster msg me!! haha bought de data plan too.. so now i can serve net without using wifi!! haha.. i'm afraid tt de 1st mth bill will shock me to death as always heard by others.. charge u for things tt u dun even noe.. anyway.. gt a new phone with my new plan.. anyone wanna buy phone?!

Nokia E63 red in colour..
comes with the standard package which includes, ear piece, battery, 1gb micro SD
*brand new* never even on it before!! (only a few days old..)

price: $350
interested parties please contact me!! prices negotiable!
frens.. if u have anyone in mind who might be interested.. pls intro! haha
enquires allowed!! =)
don't know if u're able to leave comments.. bt i'm nt going to put de my contact online..
can contact me in facebook tho.. if u're really interested..
or email me at shar0n_tan@hotmail.com (0 is zero!)
frens.. just drop me an sms! i'm sure u know my phone no.. =D
thanks!!

2009-10-25T23:03:00.003+08:00

last sem of yr 3.. can't believe tt i'm gonna start work soon.. haha
just had a gathering with de jj vb gers.. updates n more updates.. seems like there's lots of changes among us.. bt well.. hope tt everything goes well for all of us!! =)
a successful bbq.. n more to come!! slumber party nxt?! haha..

busy last sem i must say.. with tons of projects.. n test.. n assignments blah blah..
hope tt everything goes smoothly..

oh ya.. if any of u wanna fix some car lights.. pls go to tis blog!
http://www.g-lightings.blogspot.com/

if any of u noe frens who r interested.. can also recommend!! =)
thanks for all de support!!

2009-09-19T16:07:00.002+08:00

i lack de confidence.. i had my doubts..
bt frm de way things turn out.. i wasn't proved wrong..
nevertheless.. i don't regret trying to work it out..
even if de result wasn't what i wanted..

saw tis somewhere.. can't rmb le haha..
u shld learn to let go of the past..
as the past would never let go of u..

just watch finish de last episode of My Queen..
8 yrs difference in age..
many many obstacles in between..
bt non deterring love..
how sweet... =)

2009-09-14T18:10:00.002+08:00

end of 2 day 1 nite vb camp.. (without training haha)
it's de 1st vb camp out of my 3 yrs in tis cca.. glad tt i went to have fun tog with my team mates before i grad.. =)

dunno is it fortunate or lucky tt i have missed de most strenuous part of de camp.. on de other hand.. it may nt b a gd thing as i did not experience the hardship with de rest.. to be able to encourage each other and bond tog..

despite my slight fear of height.. i am proud to complete de obstacle course.. tho it's only like 2 or 3 stories high and i played 1 part of it b4.. there are still some courses tt are quite scary.. some blue blacks here n there.. ropeburns and big hot sun! we laugh at each other here n there.. bt we still encourage each other to go on.. n give some advice n help along de way.. i think it'll b more exciting if de course was like 5 stories high!! haha tho i might have a heart attack before attempting it..

nevertheless.. de time spent was still quite enjoyable! =)
bt i feel tt something was still lacking.......

2009-09-08T13:26:00.002+08:00

Natasha Bedingfield - Soulmate

Incompatible it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do you're not easy to find
Is it possible
Mr. Loveable
is already in my life?
right in front of me or maybe you're in disguise
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
Here we are again,
circles never end
how do I find the perfect fit
there's enough for everyone
but I'm still waiting in line
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you
without being told
somebody tell me
why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

dear feng is gonna sing tis song for her talentime!! like to wish her all de best!! no matter de outcome we'll always love her voice!! =)
i gt "addicted" to tis song ever since i've heard feng sing tis song in ktv! haha..

to all de emo ppl out there..
i believe tt time will dilute everything..
there's a soulmate for everyone.........

2009-08-27T14:34:00.002+08:00

had an international friendly with the TOKYO team ytd!!!
a bit of rush in time so din manage to see de guys team much.. hahaha! nevertheless.. i still spotted no 10!!! kawaiii neh!!!
the warm up and everything was international like.. with 10 mins of separate warm up and exchange of souvenirs.. i had a hand phone strap which states tokyo winter volleyball and a cute logo! i "kop" coach's gift too!! whahaha.. it's 4 badges.. chioosss!! zh kop de mini vb with wordings on it.. tt's super nice la.. n her reaction was super fast.. haha! snatching n not letting it go ever again! haha..

they are super qiang!!!! no 7 was scary!! considering their height which was on the average of 168.. their balls are ping pong piang!! and we can't even gt 10 pts frm dem.. haha! 2nd set they put their reserves on.. n we manage to win dem!! wooo!! if we oso kena trash by their reserve.. a bit throw face.. haha.. bt 3rd n 4th set we still fall in de hands of their main... dewen was like de man with a remote control.. controlling our every move.. haha.. our spiking not as gd as theirs so we use our "wits" and used de soft tactics instead.. i think it worked.. at least put on some fight.. haha.. really really enjoyed de game despite getting trashed.. haha.. seeing their tactics and speed of de ball really wow-ed me.. =) besides.. it had been quite some time since i played with de JJ(2005) team!! hoped we could still have de chance to play tog!!! =D

i realised tt it's always with JJ tt i had de chance of playing with teams from other countries.. it was always a nice experience.. thanks team JJ!! =) -luvs-

2009-07-30T17:41:00.002+08:00

hai... i really dun understand y do things always go de other way..
from my previous post.. i said tt we can choose how our life goes..
but now i realise that in many situations, it takes more den 1 person's choice to make things de way u want.. although i can decide what i want.. i can't possibly help another person to choose...
do i have to learn to accept even if it brings along pain.......
can i CHOOSE not to!?
seems like.. life is not always about your own choice either!

i dunno is it a curse.. bt i can't seem to break away from it...
when i c a light in de dark.. i'll walk towards it.. bt it always disappear before i can reach it..

4 papers nxt wk.. 2 papers de following wk..
0 revision done.. with 1 presentation due tml and ongoing fyp..
sighhhh...........

2009-07-23T19:31:00.002+08:00

ok busy busy.. same goes for de following mths..
was reading this book - whatever u think, think the opposite
it's damn enlightening!! sets me thinking from a different angle..
quote:
i wish means: wouldn't it be nice if...
u always make de right decision, de safe decision, de 1 most ppl make, you will be same as everyone else...
always wishing life was different (paradox)

totally agree!!! y should i potray myself just like every others?! imagine u c someone acting different from the norm.. u would definitely have a laugh or go around telling ppl wad u saw! it makes an impression rather than the plain jane u c everyday rite?! not tt i wan to be weird from now la.. haha..
but ya rather den whining n wishing life was different.. we could choose to be different!
you are wad you choose to be! a plain jane.. a leader.. a weirdo or someone just different from the rest!! it takes courage to be different! dare to be different!!! i'm too timid n rather shy.. i must be more daring to voice out my views!! according to de bk.. there's no wrong n rite decisions.. it's all about choice.. y should u regret over ur decision.. u should regret not making any!

sometimes being mean is bad.. bt being too nice isn't any better.. i think it's only nice to treat others the way u wan to be treated.. some ppl just aren't worthy of u treating dem well.. not cuz of the way they treat u.. bt of the way they think of u.. no matter how nice u r to dem.. 1 slight mistake they will think de worst of u.. if this is how u treat a fren.. den u're not sincere at all.. friends don't owe each other anything.. i'm not obliged to do things tt u should be responsible for.. but i can still be nice and choose to help u.. but if i choose not to do it for u.. would u think de worse of me?! sounds selfish.. but tt's a fact!! not everyone is nice all de time.. u can't just shift ur responsiblities to someone else like tt isn't it?
haha now sounds like i'm grumbling.. but well.. at least now i would stop whining over my life and like myself for who i am.. not to shape myself according to norms.. do wad i feel like doing and not bothering of others opinions..
i used to dislike de idea of going overseas to study or attachment or wadever.. cuz it's means to be alone n independent.. bt now i suddenly wan to experience a life like tt.. although being alone in a foreign country sounds scary.. n fyi i hate being alone.. haha.. bt i just feel like flying all over n seeing things i dun gt to c.. tt's living life to the fullest isn't it!! =D

new aim: to tour the world and gain experiences till de day i die.. who wans to go wif me?! =)

2009-06-25T21:20:00.002+08:00

back back back!! super enjoying trip... super fun till i think i'm having the post holiday syndrome now.. a bit lost.. a bit sad.. or perhaps i'm just too tired..
1st day.. wanted to rent scooters instead of a car.. bt after some testing out.. it's rather scary.. so we change to car instead!! n since we reached there early.. we went for the go kart near the airport!! 1st time playing go kart.. super fun.. tho there's like bits of dunno wad flying against my against and nearly hitting my eye.. making me squint at times.. n... my kart somehow died in the middle of my last lap.. n i'm like totally lost.. thinking is it time up?! haha.. n everyone passed me by without stopping!! n i'm like at the bend so kinda scared they bang into me.. bt they all quite skilled.. can still siam me.. haha.. lucky 1 malay uncle stop n help me regenerate the kart.. thanks to him.. he's de kindest ever!! =)
headed to kuah (the town) to have lunch n shop a bit at the shopping mall after checking in.. we were like lost around there.. n 2 out of 3 choices were wrong.. bt the map provided is like so confusing n not accurate!! so we're kinda like u turn here n there.. haha.. there no traffic rules so we anyhow too!! haha.. oh ya.. i saw a nissan fairlady 370Z there!!! i'm like woah! too bad it's a little bit dirty due to the condition of the roads.. haha.. anyway the shopping has like practically nth!! n nt cheap too.. so u can considering skipping tt part if u plan to go there.. =)
after lunch.. we decided to visit all the waterfalls!!! first stop: durian waterfall (something like tt de.. haha i only rmb the name had durian! =X) wasted our time going cuz it's like nth much.. so we headed on the the seven wells!! had a short stop at the black sand sea tho.. (look at the pics in facebook bah..) the route to seven wells is like super duper steep slope tt we had to climb.. we din make it to the top! bt we climb till the bottom of the waterfall.. when we reached... we were like woah!! it's worth the climb!! excited us climbed the rocks to gt nearer to the waterfall n funny things happened.. like slipping etc.. nevertheless.. it was super fun!! had kinda like a water war... thanks to zh!! nt happy if we appear dry.. haha.. we drove like almost a full circle of the island to the different places.. haha..
had dinner and went back hotel to chill at the bar.. music sucks.. some kinda high ang mohs.. n tt's bout all! slp.. haha

2nd day..
woke up about 10 plus 11.. ate maggi.. the breakfast we armed ourselves with haha.. den down to the beach!!! banana boat!!! din manage to take pics for tt tho.. 1st time on banana boat.. n i think it's quite impossible to not capsize if the driver of the speedboat WANTS it to capsize.. haha.. quite fun tho.. totally enjoying life!! the rest of the water sports were quite ex.. so we skipped dem.. went straight to the swimming pool after tt.. ate a bit of snacks.. had a drink and laze around the pool.. tanned a little bt not quite a burn.. =)
we wanted to have 2nd round of go kart.. bt it was closed when we went there.. so we explore around n driver mann found a pretty cool place which is like a seaside restaurant/cafe/bar kind.. we manage to take pics of sunset... den there's tis grp of local pilot students trying to hit on us.. thanks to................. haha.... the person who owe us 20RM which is upped to 20SGD!! haha.. drank like 2 plus big cans of beer.. it was ok at first.. bt i guess it had too much gas and made me very bloated.. n i can't control it anymore.. so i went to puke.. damn disgusting feeling.. sigh.. never liked beer.. 1st time puking as well.. bt... ya felt like i nv drink after i puked.. haha.. n the guys were asking us to go to a club since it's our last night there.. so we went! quite a happening club i must say in quite a rural area.. the live band singers voices were powerful!! n they were like super frenly too.. i must say our attire totally cannot make it.. cuz we din expect to go till so late.. so we're like beach attire.. haha.. had some drinks paid by the guys.. much better den beer i guess.. haha.. went back hotel around 4 plus.. tired n dirty n everything bt we had a fun nite!! =) woke up real early tt morning.. cuz our flight is morning flight...
oh ya.. we star gazed while waiting for the pilot students to change n sneak out.. haha.. lying on the boot of the car.. damn cool feeling.. saw a shooting star!! i think.. haha.. wishes... hopefully it'll come true.. totally love to star gaze... time to dream.. n think.. brings back many memories.. blast music and sing along.. like some drunkards.. bt we're not drunk! haha.. only time to let ur hair down n put down ur troubles.. scream when u feel like.. sing out loud.. even if u break ur voice.. haha.. all the girl talk.. office politics.. gossips... share ur smiles and tears..
totally cool experience.. now u know y i'm feeling empty now.. haha.. totally dun feel like coming back!! bt reality is cruel..

had my fun.. now it's time to work hard again.......

only bad thing bout this trip..
there's no bolster!! =X
n no road side durian.. haha

2009-06-21T18:01:00.002+08:00

after much delay... langkawi trip is confirmed!!
thanks to mann for helping to search for appropriate hotels.. (tis is no easy task)
now i noe booking a trip is so troublesome!! have to come out with work and money!!!
we'll rotate planning.. nxt time i'll leave the booking n everything to another person.. whahaha.. i think it's only fair to let everyone have a go at planning n booking.. hehe.. my turn to shake leg!!

can't wait can't wait!!

the sun..
the sea..
the symphony of waves..
the breeze..

pls pls pls!! let me enjoy my trip b4 i start my attachment!! =P

admist all the fun..
some is still missing..
i have everything?
i have nothing..

2009-06-14T23:53:00.002+08:00

Holidays are here!!
like finally... haha
the horrible last wk where i have to rush 4 assignments and study for 2 test.. it's finally over!! did my 1st web page design.. the default template made my life easier! haha.. imagine i have to figure out how to write html.. i think i'll prob fail tt assignment.. bt anyway.. it's a nice experience! prob nxt time when i have nth to do.. i can design something like tt again! anyway peps.. here's my very first web page url : www.sharontan.webs.com
i noe it's a sucky name haha.. i din noe tt it'll b the webpage name when i first reg.. n there's a lot of copy n paste stuff so... *cross fingers* dun let me kena some copyright infingement thingy.. and i'll prob remove tt after my hols! so go look at it soon.. =)
i definitely wanna go tt place!! the water sports there like quite cheap cuz it's in peso! haha..

got my very first speeding summon!
haiz... there's no cam along tt stretch of road so i din really take notice of my speed.. haha..
n i've been driving there for the half a yr already n 1st june is the day! oh n apparently.. tp's like to stand on overhead bridges!! so drivers.. pls take note if there's like someone standing on the bridge dunno doing wad.. it's prob to catch speeders! haha..
150 plus 6 demerit pts.. =(

hope tt all the plans for the short 2 wks can fall into place nicely..
before the battle begins again... haha!!

watch a lot like love on tv ytd.. quite a nice show.. gt me thinking...
ok.... 1 typical love comedy.. haha..
bt i guess it seldom happens to ordinary ppl like me! =P
on the other hand.. i don't wan it to happen if u noe wad's the story line is about..
waiting can b quite a pain...
wrong time wrong target is another pain..
or one must endure all this pain to finally gt something sweeeeeeettt..
-.-

good luck for all those that are having exams now!!!
holidays await u.. no stress! *smile*

2009-06-08T00:46:00.002+08:00

terminator salvation:
everybody deserves a 2nd chance..

i admire tt half human half robot guy.. tho i forget his name le.. lol!!
noe's he had been made used of.. but still believe in himself.. the conviction of being human..
to help and save john conner.. save the human world..
such strong beliefs.. not seen in many.. not me at least..
i'm ashamed tt i'm easily waivered..
i must learn to be strong!!

was just chatting wif nu er bout changes.. haha.. 21 and achieved nothing, experienced nothing.. kinda pity.. but well.. i believe in waiting for good things.. good times will come if u wait persistently.. of course plus putting some effort.. waiting alone is not enough..
i will try not to waiver in tt belief.. haha..

strong because u came..
weak because u left..
hoping to be and stay strong!

2009-06-07T01:44:00.003+08:00

ahh... lacking in flow of creative juices..
wanted to start doing my assignment which are due at de end of de wk.. bt simply gt no motivation.. hopefully.. u'll c a link to my 1st very own web page design SOON.. haha..
omg.. i'm totally an IT idiot! sigh... help!!! html writers anyone? haha..

the weather is super hot in sg... global warming... not helping at all!

2 tests up nxt wk.. 4 assignments not done! n i'm still slacking..
oh no...

i'm addicted to green tea frappe..
super lousy feeling without it..
is sugar an addictive too!?
drinks... company??!

quote of the day:

it's easy to leave a name..
hard to leave an impression..
harder to leave a mark in the heart..
but once there,
it'll be there forever..
u'll understand........

2009-05-27T11:49:00.003+08:00

time for a new post!
firstly.. thanks all for the mini celebrations.. really appreciate it.. n sorry for not organising a big event for all of my frens.. =) nevertheless.. thanks for all the wishes.. pressies etc..

eeks.. i'm getting older!! =X

oh no.. napfa is tml!! i've made a training routine tt i'm supposed to keep up wif.. bt i've skip de last 2 runs i'm suppose to do!! my 5 rounds and 6 rounds!! oh no oh no.. hope i dun faint after tml's 2.4km whahaha.. getting less fit day by day.. =X

time always passes by without u knowing..
if u would just slow down and take a look behind..
would u find something tt bring back a smile?
if i can choose..
i would make time freeze at tt moment.....

2009-05-11T23:20:00.002+08:00

i can predict busy days ahead..
sch.. trainings.. start of fyp!! major headache contributor.. nafpa oso coming soon! haha..
really tired today.. bt i've to do research for fyp.. *yawns* not much time for me left to do with the trainings.. n 1 coming dunno wad workshop tt is compulsory!! sigh..
bt well.. being busy is gd.. at least it keeps my mind occupied.. learnt something new.. to accept it and not run away from it and continue to be in denial..
promise someone to try to stay trouble free.. haha.. a bit diff tho.. prob by de time i grad.. i'll have whole head full of white hair! =X
my sis said tt dreaming every nite means u dun slp well.. do you dream every nite?!
for me.. i do.. n i asked ppl around.. they do too.. haha seems like we all don't slp well!
if only we can control our dreams.. it'll be nice and sweet everyday.. i'll b even more glad to just slp for the whole day.. haha.. sometimes i dream of everyday stuff.. too real to be a dream.. sometimes i can dream wad i imagine.. (partially control) too much of a fantasy to be real.. sometimes i have animated dreams tt can make ppl roll of the chair laughing if i tell dem..
ask me.. i might consider telling u.. haha..
hate it when someone disrupt my dream.. make me feel super tired.. like i hadn't been slpin..
recently.. i hope tt i dun have dreams.. have a full n enriching slp.. stop my brain from imagining things.. apparently.. ur brain is the busiest when u slp.. activity goes on..

i need sleep..
i need time..
i need music!
i need to be like wolverine..

2009-05-05T23:19:00.003+08:00

i can't concentrate on studying for tml's test... seriously sianz...... hai.......

speechless..
is there nth to make it go back de way it is?
seriously distracting =(
i can't believe it came from u...

2009-04-30T23:17:00.003+08:00

swine flu alert!!
is everybody on de edge now? thinking when will it hit sg?!
had an itchy throat after de sore throat.. so keep coughing now.. just now in de morning i was sitting in de bus when i starting coughing quite violently i think.. n de person in front actually turn n look at me!! omg.. no i dun have sars or swine flu!! haha.. dun even dare to cough out loud now.. -.- voice still remains sexy.. haha.. will go off tune here n den.. seems like really a lot of ppl is not feeling well lately.. hmm...
in de future when i work.. will there b pandemic?! oh no.. can't imagine i'm being quarrantine.. away frm my family n frens.. oh no oh no..
i hate guessing ppl's tots... bt i tend to observe n draw conclusions.. don't know whether what i've concluded is correct.. bt at least tt's wad i feel... i hope i'm wrong.. aiya.. can u just let me know wad's happening?!
fyp coming up.. need to brainstorm for ideas.. thinking cap where r u!!? hai.. busy busy.. fyp.. training.. test.. lessons.. omg.. hope i can manage my time well..
mp!! dun force me to attend training!! =P
not able to online as frequently now.. bt i guess it doesn't make a difference anymore..........

2009-04-23T18:43:00.003+08:00

hmm i wonder is it post attachment stress.. busy and headaches over reports.. constantly changing de way it's being presented.. worrying bout grammer etc... sigh..
i noe everybody needs frens (help) in one way or de other.. bt sometimes i just wish to be alone.. so tt i dun have to worry bout their views.. n dun have to give an ans to wadever i done.. it's not tt i mind being a bad guy.. i can be de one to break de news even if i find it hard.. or even expect wad reactions i'll be getting.. bt it certainly dun help when others sit n say nth.. it feels like i'm de only 1 tt is taking de blame.. hai..
a lot of things are troubling me lately.. even de iphone!! it was damaged even before i started using it.. -.- already headache over how to activate it n stuff.. n now.. cuz de sim card tray was stuck.. so when pulling out.. it broke!! don't even noe where's de 1 and only service centre in sg..
i think most of de time i'm a procrastinor.. bt sometimes i'm rash too.. for eg.. i already bought de iphone casing online regardless of de price n even tho i haven activate de phone.. who noes.. i might end up not able to use de phone or wadever tt happens.. does it really pays to wait?!
prob wad u had waited for might not eventually be wad u get.. likewise wad u get may not be wad u want.. nobody can predict de future... probably timing n fate does play a part in certain decisions u make..
people like to say if only... or what if.. at least it does happen in my case.. can i conclude tt life is full of regrets?! or as time goes by ppl's thinking change?!

did i think too much??
or this is wad u call intuition..
or m i just purely rash..
m i regretting?
r u regretting?
hai....

troubles don't come alone.. (huo bu dan xing) mum was sick for quite some time.. now i've a horrible sore throat.. hope i dun lose my voice soon.. heard there's a flu bug going around.. take care peps..

pls let tis troubled period past fast!!
where r u when i needed u most...
strepsils pls...

2009-04-12T23:45:00.002+08:00

i've been getting tis really weird feeling lately.. dunno how to explain.. bt it doesn't really feel good.. shall i let it be or shall i do something... hai.. lost....

wanted to work on my reports during tis long hol.. bt i've been slacking!! 100% procrastinator i am... sometimes i really hate myself... tis means tt i've to b a little more hardworking during wkdays... hai..

anyway.. work tml.. so better slp early...

i don't want to sigh my life away!
bt sometimes i just can't help it..
it's never going the way i wanted it to..

2009-04-07T18:37:00.002+08:00

women shld have at least 4 rings in their lifetime.. (seen from tv!)
1. courtship
2. proposal
3. engagement
4. marriage

2,3,4 means 3 rings in a short period of time!!
whaha.. i hope i dun have to buy dem myself! =X

my mum just bought an iphone!! excited.. bt i dunno how to use!! haha.. help!! denny!! i wan ur casing!! haha..

PS: hope my sis dun snatch from me.. =P

2009-04-04T20:03:00.002+08:00

2wks of attachment had passed.. busy n headache over reports as usual.. thank god next wk is a 4 day wk!! haha..
i just notice something tt's obstructing after all my planning!!!!! sigh....... mayb it's not gonna happen afterall.. shldn't gt my hopes high only to find it dashed!! =(
y r there always obstacles.. how i wish life is a breeze.. do whatever u wan.. go where ever u wanna go.. nth to stop you.. nth to hold u back....

2009-03-27T23:47:00.002+08:00

new blogskin!!!
kudos to mr denny tan! whaha...
thanks thanks!! cookie treat when u're back! =)
1 wk of attachment gone.. looking back.. i think it passed quite fast.. bt every morning.. i dread de day.. haha!! is it just me.. or all women or all human.. we seem to live in a life of irony.. 3 more wks to go... dun like waking up early.. bt yr 3 quite ok.. mostly observe.. prob dun gt to do much too.. bt reports r a headache.. cuz it's diff frm wad we used to write!! n some ppl very troublesome... so many rules n blah blah blah.. hai.........
anyway.. i'm trying very hard to spend 20 per wk!! bt i can't!! things r getting more ex!! a meal cost at least 4 now.. omg omg.. i need to save money!! ahhh!!
i must say i'm quite lucky today!! have seats at je.. n frm raffles all de way back!! can slp!! haha.. sooooooo tired..

2009-03-19T22:48:00.004+08:00

words should not be hurtful.. use it to say i love you..

an old couple spent 60yrs together and still said it's not enough..

how sweet..

i feel weird today.. prob it's de weather.. or the dramas tt i watched... or prob i just wan to think too much n irritate someone.. haha.. irony.. (look above)
i'm sure i wun have time to think of anything other den competencies blah blah when i start attachment..
i wan to give my blog a new look.. bt i'm lazy!! n i'm a com idiot.. haha anybody help!?

i feel lousy!! (pms-ing)
down and out...
tata

2009-03-12T16:58:00.002+08:00

i went swimming alone today!! yes alone... i always din like de idea of being alone.. looks gu pi.. haha.. bt well.. since i can't find any company.. n i wan to exercise a little.. i dun mind being a little gu pi.. =)
i must say i enjoyed my swim today!! de pool was not crowded at all.. so i can take my fav lane (de 1 nearest to the wall.. in case i drown lol!) without anyone sharing etc.. i swam 24 laps today!! was thinking of 20 initially.. bt since it's so enjoyable.. i swam till i think it's time to go! hee.. it's so relaxing to swim with ur eyes close.. not worrying whether u will bang ppl or wad.. haha tho i often end up swimming zig-zag-ing.. haha!! it's like being semi conscious.. not thinking of anything blah blah.. weee!!
human are made up of 90% water at birth. The water content in the body of a grown-up person decreases to 70%. babies grow in "water" and tt's de state when human have no worries! sooo i dunno if it applies to all.. bt being in de water definitely allows me to relax!! i sooo wanna go swim again!!
1 more wk left to enjoy!! attachment n hectic yr 3 awaits.. can't believe tt de hols are going to b over soon!! i hope tt nxt wk dun rain so often.. so i can make up my mind to go swim when i'm free..
i miss the sun,
i miss the sea,
i miss the beach,
i miss the stars,
i miss my big bolster!
i miss my holidays!

2009-03-10T13:14:00.003+08:00

i was watching tv when i saw tis....
long ago.. man and woman exist in 1 form.. however, an evil and jealous elf decided to seperate dem.. therefore.. they began their search for their other half in this vast world.. some are lucky to be able to find them.. however.. some are unlucky and could not find theirs.... forever....
how sad!!! it's just like losing 1 piece of a jigsaw puzzle.... imcomplete!!
just for fun!!
and i learn a new word.... serendipity.. 今生缘定

anyway.. happy birthday to all march babies!! hope u all have fun and best wishes to all!! =)

2009-03-05T00:03:00.002+08:00

time for another new update! someone complained tt i nv blog!! =P
enjoying my hols n slacking around now!! went hk some days back.. tis time went macau n zhu hai (some china place) as well!! 1st time in casino.. n de hotel we stayed was freaking nice!! my sis said it was a 6 star hotel!! de suite we stayed was meant for 2 ppl only bt we cramped 4 ppl in n i think could still cramp more!! de casino was big.. had fun there.. tho din win money.. haha.. bt at least din lose! went zhu hai for seafood.. fresh n cheap!! however a mishap happened n kinda spoil de rest of my hol there.. wanted to really curse n swear when it just happen.. bt my qi xiao le.. n forget it la.. don't wanna affect my mood over tis.. bt sometimes life is just unfair.. n i dun even understand whether is it de money or de attitude.. in my view.. i din give any attitude while she's de 1 giving me attitude.. n i said i'll pay for it.. so i dun even noe wad she's angry bout! irritating.. bt well.. it's over.. n i paid her back for it.. sooo.. fullstop..
anyway life now is slp eat watch tv n use com!! omg i can predict my weight after tis.. haha.. i soo wanna go exercise.. long time since i played ball!! bt my arm still hurts at time.. well.. i think it's not gonna recover so ya.. heck it.. anybody pls ask me out for exercise!! if not i'll become a fat pig in no time!!
lots of 21st tis yr.. esp in feb!! haha.. feels it's an auspicious month to have babies ar.. gonna burn out my wallet soon.. attending so many parties.. makes me wonder bout mine.. at first i'm really lazy to organise 1.. bt after attending the parties make it interesting to plan for 1.. bt now.. i'm back to square 1.. lazy old me.. haha!! even de place itself is hard to find.. well.. i shall take a step at a time..
things start to gt a little complicated at tis time.. hmm.. at least i din tot it would turn out tis way.. bt well.. such things are not within our control.. de power of nature! whaha.. once again i'll take a step at a time.. i hate myself for being such a procrastinator.. bt.. tt's wad i am!! take it or leave it!! =P

2009-01-17T22:13:00.002+08:00

ivp over.. attachment ending.. new yr coming = exams coming.. holidays next!

ivp was such a disappointment.. nth much to say.. cuz we din do well even when we have a "shang shang qian" compared to the other grouping.. zh said she'll kill me if we din gt in.. ahh!! for encouragement.. at least we won 1 game.. haha..
can't gt my lazy brain to start working!! sigh exams in bout 2 wks time n i've not started studying!! looking forward to new yr bt dread exams.. bt it's at de same time! contradictory.. looking forward to holidays tho.. hongkong trip confirm!! gd food, cold weather awaits.. woo!!
feb is a short mth.. bt i hope i'll really spend my time fully and happily..
not looking forward to march at all.. yr 3 awaits.. fyp (hot topic).. stress n more stress.. where's my de-stressor!? not around also.. hai hai haizz
lots of 21st bday's tis yr.. i soooo wanna disappear from the earth.. lol!! guess more headaches over presents! bt.. certainly hope everyone enjoy their 21st!! n i like to c parties of different themes.. lol.. prob gimmi an idea on wad i would do for mine! =D

waiting waiting waiting.. bt feels so far from reach..
i wan to tell the world.. bt it's complicated..
future?! i don't know..
emo-ing thinking bout exams.. lol..

2009!!!

2009-01-04T15:31:00.003+08:00

happy 2009 everyone!! =)
hmm.. ask me bout new yr resolutions... i haven tot bout it yet!! lol...
last yr passed by in a flash! before i knew it.. it was 2009 already! been quite busy in de later part of 2008.. only 2 short wks of break which is filled with xmas shopping.. n gatherings etc.. bt it's fun filled!! =D
now i'm having attachments again!! n up nxt will b ivp! hai busy busy busy.. after all tis would b cny!! looking forward to de new year goodies! haha *yum yum* 1 sad thing.. i've major exams during cny!! soooo can't play n spend time out!! have to date my bks!! sobx.... i hope nxt yr time table would not b like tis!!
spent de new year watching fireworks!! lots of ppl squeezing in on marina square hoping to catch a glimpse of the fireworks.. n yes.. i'm 1 of dem!! i always like fireworks.. tho they are shortlived bt they're spectacular!! really enjoyed my day!! of cuz.. de company always play an impt role.. hee.. went brewerks after.. drank some magaritas.. nice!! my kind of drink.. swt! haha.. i nv like those super alcohol kinda drinks.. there're super lots of ppl tt night! din noe tt brewerks can b tt happening too! all along i tot it was just a restaurant/pub kind..
1st time on night rider!! haha.. save up on cab fare.. we are poor ppl.. =X haha.. night rider goes on all de small roads.. n it's a long way home.. lucky halfway gt seats le.. haha.. bt i like long bus rides! can sit n slp!! lol.. can talk talk =)
in conclusion.......
de start of 2009 is great!! i dunno how long it can last.. bt let just hope for the best..

2008-12-13T23:00:00.002+08:00

welcome the holidays!! wee..
finally after 2 wks of rather intense exam period.. it's a short break again.. bt den again.. i've lots to complain!! firstly.. i've hurt my shoulder (rather stupidly if u noe bout it.. haha!) so kinda had a short break frm training.. bt partly stopped due to exams.. n i resumed training only to find out tt it had not recovered yet!! i really cannot imagine myself back to "kai xia shou" haizz.. went physio last fri.. hope it would help!!
2nd bad thing.. after de SHORT 2 wks break.. gonna do attachment again!! n wad's bad is tt it clashed with my ivp!! roar!! i can imagine myself hurry here n there not getting enough slp.. in addition.. dewen's team is not in my grp!! which means.. no car back to jurong area.. sobx..
3rd.. it's exams time DURING cny!! hai hai hai.. i really dun understand de timetable.. not tt we learn soooooo much things to have 2 exams almost on de same topics!! crap.. ya.. wad a way to end n start a new yr.. =( *grumble grumble*
enough of grumbling.. muhaha.. went for a party last sat.. it was fun talking thru de night.. busy catching up.. reminds me of our endless conferences during secondary sch times.. no one seems to change much.. *thinking bout old times* haha sounds old.. =X another gathering coming up soon.. excited..
some activities lined up in wks n mths to come too.. of cuz.. have to balance out de bad ones with de gd ones.. wee.. even thinking of it makes me excited! =)

my first wake

2008-10-18T19:21:00.002+08:00

i din expect my first wake to be of my fren's sister.. de news was shocking to me.. i know it's hard for her too..
it was sad watching her with de puffy eyes and looking so tired.. when i noe tt her younger sis was taking o levels my heart just goes out to her... putting myself in her shoes.. i think it's sooo hard.. all de best to her.. i hope she does well!!
Feng!! we all love you.. be strong!!

when i was young i couldn't imagine wad it's like to have ur love ones away.. i even secretly hope tt i'll go first.. but de pain is always on those who r left behind.. hai.. life is so unpredictable.. u may be well the first min n gone the nxt.. tt's y dewen say should just live ur life happily.. u never know when u'll be going.. y make things so difficult!? "kan kai yi dian"

was damn pissed before the wake.. now i understand how my sis feels when i dun do my things myself instead call others to help me.. i hope i'm not like tt already... hmm..

monday blues

2008-10-14T23:48:00.002+08:00

first day of sch and first day of training after soooooo long..

classes was ok.. went to catch a movie after sch.. wanted to watch connected but din manage to rush to amk hub after lesson.. hai.. missed de time slot.. watched another movie (housebunny) was lame.. tt's y it was funny.. bt ok la.. at least it had a moral in de end.. not like those mindless show.. not tt i dun like mindless show.. sometimes when u're really down or sian.. a good laugh might just make your day happier! but.... i soooo want to watch connected!! muahaha..

went for training n went to eat wif de rest of dem.. since i have sch at 3 today so y not!? reached home at 1am ytd.. freaking tired.. mum called at 12am (exactly) and nagged me.. sometimes i think de way i replied her kinda rude.. (pms) but sometimes the things she said kinda irritates me!?

mum: where you?

me: on the mrt on de way home

mum: y r u so late? don't u have to work tml?

me: (apparently she still thinks tt i'm doing attachment) no dun have work tml

mum: even so you have no reason to come home late! you mei you gao cuo

wha lao!! i'm like super angry when she said tt.. firstly.. since i dun have to wake up early y can't i b home a little late.. secondly.. i'm already on the way home!! wad's de pt of saying all tt.. i can't possibly teleport home or wad rite?! damn sian...

sometimes i think tt parents should be strict at the correct time.. i'm like 20 already!! no longer a teen.. n i'm still getting tis kinda shit.. rather can i say tt they r being "ba dao" cuz they wan things their way! y dun they understand tt we will eventually grow up and have a mind of our own.. i understand tt they r worried and concern about us.. but still..

i'm glad tt i dun have to worry about money, food etc.. but this is not the idea kind of life i wanna live.. i'm 20 and accomplished nth!! i've gt almost no childhood or rather memories la.. all i could rmb was mum din allow me to have toys!! sometimes being too strict will restrict the child's creativity.. (no wonder i'm so stupid now..) bt if u dun be strict u'll just spoil the child.. no wonder children nowadays act like a spoilt brat and take so long to become matured.. (of cuz not all the them are like tt..)

but at least i've learn something frm it.. never to treat my child the way i hated to b treated now..

trina once said.. little kids are forgetful.. thus parents have to keep repeating wad they said.. but they forget tt their kid will grow up thus they become very naggy..

how interesting.. hmm...
*grumpy me~

2008-10-05T21:13:00.002+08:00

hmm.. my maid of 4 yrs plus had gone home.. went to have our "last" dinner tog yesterday..
hai.. when i c her walking out of de door with tears filled eyes.. made me feel like crying too.. i just can't look on any longer.. grateful to her for taking care of us all tis yrs.. i noe my mum is very sad too.. very thankful to her for taking care of my mum on many occasions so tt we can slp at ease without worries.. sometimes i may look like someone who doesn't cry easily.. i dun really like to cry in front of others especially ppl i noe.. bt i always find it hard to force back my tears.. so ya.. better to look away before i break down.. hope she'll find happiness..
chat with aoy on msn today!! this the first time i saw her on msn.. haha.. was funny with all de broken eng and some thai.. missed her soooo much!! i wanna go thailand!! any takers!?!? haven been playing vb since the pesta sukan competition.. skills gonna gt rusty soon.. prob coach will start "suan-ing" me again.. haha another wk of attachment before sch and training for me starts..

somethings are just meant to end before it really started.. sometimes i wonder if tt's my fate..
was weird not doing something tt i've always been doing..
perhaps i'm already looking forward to it!? hmm..
it's been a long time.. have you broken my wall of defence?!
suddenly i've so much things to say..........
prob emo cuz my maid is not around anymore!! haizzzzz

2008-09-04T14:22:00.002+08:00

opps.. it's been uber long time since i've blog..
now for some updates..
now having holidays.. been busying with open competition till now..
happy to know 2 new frens during this period.. they are the 2 thais in volleysport!! and of cuz the 2 coaches too.. so sad they went back le.. really had fun with them during this 1 month..
and of cuz.. without dem, champions is really far frm our reach.. thanks to the usuals who always encourage me throughout the competition.. and yingli who always gimmi tips here n there.. cheers to all..
left with about a wk of holiday.. happy times always end fast.. and i miss aoy and kung already!! wonder when's de nxt time i'll see dem.. hmm...

went for my first ever ripcurl beach competition last sat.. had fun.. though we din win anything la.. n being the only ger.. i'm much of a slacker inside lol.. waited more then we played bt still quite interesting to see others.. haha.. de goodie bag kinda sucked.. haha.. de shirt is like freaking big.. bt nvm shall wear it to beach only.. lol..

hmm shall enjoy de last few days of holiday.. recharge myself for sch and attachment!! =)

2008-04-29T17:29:00.002+08:00

hmm it's been a long time since i've last blogged.. haha.. lazy me!
we went to celebrate zh's bday on sun! went chevrons chi restuarant for buffet.. weird place to celebrate bday hor.. haha.. bt de food was quite nice there.. n cuz it's less crowded so we can sit n talk n laugh for quite long.. we bought a game for her as a present.. so after dinner they came my house to play it.. i tink it's called what the fu*k.. haha.. their questions are like.. -.- kind.. example of 1.. which 1 would u prefer to use as eye drops?
a: player A urine
b: player B orgasm secretion
after reading the question.. we all burst out laughing.. lol!! crazy game..
now for the more serious stuff.. i'm kinda vexed tis days!! sigh.. lots of decisions to make.. me being super indecisive can't make up my mind!! internal fighting going on.. how?!?! part of me feels that i should take up the offer.. part of me is scared tt i might regret my choice in future.. n part of me dun really like de idea bt scared to offend the other party which may in turn affect my future.. sigh.. i'm so lost.. n i have little time to consider!!
perhaps i'm taking some things for granted.. hai

2008-02-25T19:45:00.002+08:00

oppz receive complains of nt blogging so here i m!!
hmm where shld i start..
went hong kong during chi new yr for holiday.. quite a gd 1.. =) nice food all around.. although those small small shops might b closed bt still enjoyed myself.. first time experience winter.. bt no snow la.. haha bt still cold.. oh ya.. i loved de tv there! haha.. other countries de programmes nt as interesting.. there's 24 hrs of eng movie channel.. though some of it is repeated bt still nice to watch before i slp.. went to watch fireworks on chu er.. 1 word.. NICE!! haha.. so big n last for about half an hr.. there are much more patterns compared to de ones i saw in philippines too.. anyway.. tink we all enjoyed ourselves!!
back frm holiday n start of attachment... kinda sian cuz i'm attached to polyclinics alone.. n as a matter of fact.. i dun like to b alone.. feel kinda gu pi.. especially during lunch time.. bt i spent my time in libraries nearby the polyclinics.. quite relaxing haha.. reading mag.. sitting on couches yawning away.. quite a nice way to spend my lunch break too.. n i tink i learnt quite alot frm de ppl there.. some techniques n presentation wise.. i would say it wasn't quite dreadful as i tot it would b..
going to have end of yr break.. kinda lazy to work.. bt wouldn't want to spend all de time playing too.. hmm.. come to tink of it.. seems like quite a long holiday for me to slack.. haha.. anyway.. i'll take a step at a time bah..
oh ya.. lots of movies tt i wanna catch.. so pls ask me for movies!!! =)
till de nxt post... tata!! gd day everyone..

yeAr 2008!!

2008-01-09T19:39:00.000+08:00

it's been another month!! belated merry xmas and a happy new yr to all of u.. =)
there's been attachment and hols n now sch started again.. firstly.. attachment nt tt fun in sgh.. perhaps i've already done wif the fun part.. haha start of yr 2 soon n prob i'll dread attachments le.. hols was short.. din even noe when it passed.. haha.. xmas was celebrated at hanping's house.. nice house!! haha.. had steamboat n gift exchange.. guess wad?! i gt back the same present i bought for de exchange!! haha.. fated.. played some games.. drink a little and off to slack.. haha.. jorn entertained me with his magic tricks!! amazing.. haha.. had another xmas gift.. thanks a lot for de pressie!! u noe who u r la.. teach me how to fold the roses nxt time!! n of cuz mann n zh for de cute little lips.. muacks!! hee..
new yr was spent at philippines.. more of eating shopping n watching tv.. 1 bad thing was tt i had to do all my reports there!! totally waste my relaxing time.. haha.. lots of fireworks on new yr eve!! totally love it!!
start and end of ivp.. although i tot tis might b a gd chance for us to make a name due to the very nice grouping.. bt too bad we juz threw it off.. bt well.. let's try again for the nxt competition bah!! jia you!!
tis term is going to b a very short 1 wif lots of tests and exams coming up.. so ya.. wun b blogging anytime soon bah.. hope tt everyting goes well to all of u!! cheers =)
new yr resolutions!?!
hmm.. hope to push up my gpa.. had been quite slack haha.. i need motivation!!! nxt on the list.. hope i can experience something different tis time.. =) whatever it is.. i just hope everything goes well n i'll stay happy!!

2007-12-07T21:52:00.000+08:00

a funny scene today..
i'm doing attachment at sgh.. n i gt posted to inpatients with seetho n farhana.. n today.. all 3 of us wore purple!! n it's de same shade.. haha.. it's like so funny la!! at first i din notice i'm wearing purple so when i c dem i say.. eh u 2 wear couple shirt ar.. haha.. den they say eh.. u oso wear same colour!! "shocked" haha.. dem everyone was like looking at us.. asking us did we plan to wear de same?! n say it's our new uniform haha.. we c each other everyday till we gt telepathy sia.. haha.. n i tink it looks weird to c 3 ppl in de same colour walking together!! lol... senior n me went rh to visit de ppl there today.. they said we wore couple tee... eekz.. haha..
another wk of attachment n hols r here!! can't wait for hols to start.. can slack etc.. been waking up early.. tired!! lazy to do anyting la.. haha..
met up wif mytriplejs ytd!! went fish n co at wheelock.. long time no c dem le.. happy happy! n as usual.. we took pics around! haha.. hear tt jos is back.. bt busy her la.. meet up wif us soon!!! haha..
oh ya.. i have a new nick name.. by fahana.. i'm a bat! wif sharp hearing bt blind!! lol..

i sense something.. twice came at once.. if i'm nt mistaken.. hmm..

2007-11-17T15:53:00.000+08:00

oppz.. i'm too lazy to blog.. so here for a short update!! =P
hmm had a leadership camp nt long ago.. nt really tt fun la.. bt still acceptable.. bt make me very very tired.. haha
first day of camp, had some ice breaking tingy.. den went for night walk where we played various games n we cannot talk for tt 3 to 4 hrs!? n if u foul in any of de game, there'll b "casualties" for instance blind or dead or crippled.. n guess wad!?! i'm blind n crippled juz because there's too many fouls and to save another person frm being a casualty.. i'm chosen to b 2 casualties in 1.. wth.. it was like very tiring la.. i can't c n can't walk properly n can't talk!! sigh.. n i have to hop around for like 1 hr plus?! n still have to complete de games by getting carried around by ppl.. n they emphasis on safety when de guys have to carry lots of casualties n look after their flags n take note of ppl cuz they might gt "kidnapped" n can't take too long to complete 1 game.. it's like crazy la.. de games they design is like quite easy to gt ppl injured too.. i tink it's dumb la.. more things can be done to improvise it.. n we slept at 430 n woke at around 730.. zzz.. for those ppl hu noe me.. i need to slp ALOT haha..
nxt day we did high elements.. i was quite scared la.. bt it's only 2 stories high soo.. still ok.. so i did de multiple vine.. it was fun!! haha.. except tt we had sunburns after tt.. haha.. horribly sunny tt morning.. did rock climbing in de afternoon.. i'm like no strength le.. haha.. so i climbed once din reach de top la.. n too tired to try again.. so i lay on de floor n slp!! haha.. de rock climbing thingy they planned too much time le.. bout 2 to 6?! i tink by 330 most of us slpin already haha.. too tired le.. at night there's tis cultural night where we have to come up wif performance n each grp there's a guy tt will cross dress as a ger.. haha.. lots of laughter.. we slept at 12 n supposedly we shld wake up at 5.. bt they surprised us by waking us at 4 and said we had to gather in 15 mins.. haven each brush teeth n change la! haizzz..
so we hurried here n there.. n had to do morning physical training.. which is running!! someting i dun quite like.. running at 430!!?? bt luckily it's 1 round only la.. n there's lots of stars in the sky.. nice nice.. after tt we played someting like amazing race.. nt bad la.. quite fun.. except tt they use water to spray us.. throw buckets of water down at us early in de morn!! hardly kept dry before another attack was here.. haha..
so ya.. tt's bout all.. went back on sun n slept pratically de whole day.. juz woke up to eat haha.. n in a daze for de whole day.. =P
exams coming for me.. n most of my frens.. jia you everyone!!

2007-10-24T20:38:00.000+08:00

oppz.. been a long time since i've updated haha..
end of attachment n start of sch..
attachment was rather enjoyable.. de ppl i gt to know were fun n they took care of me.. hee.. so ya.. kinda sad to b back at sch.. 1 thing bad bout attachments.. we muz do reports!! had a headache over the assignments etc.. bt still am looking forward to de next attachment!! hee..
let mi recall some of de interesting things i rmb during attachment..
there was tis little boy who cried and cried while we did de x ray bt when he left i said bye to him n he can wave back at me while still crying.. cute ar.. dun noe how de little brain works.. haha..
oh ya.. i miss de chocomint in RH!! there's like a coffee maker in de waiting area n seetho n i almost every morning will have our daily dose of teh or choc haha..
made various stupid mistakes like forgetting to change cassette.. bt heng nv kena scolding haha.. i should go n buy a little miss scatter brain shirt.. =)
1 wk back at sch.. resumed training.. can wake up a bit later compared to de days when i went for attachment.. bt still v. tired haha.. kinda sian.. time to sit down n study again.. bt i still have 2 n a half more yrs to go..
came to know some seniors during de attachment n ya saw them in sch from time to time.. there's tis yr 3 who is my sis fren too.. haha small world la..
tt's bout all!! i miss my frens.. meet up soon!!! =D

2007-09-14T22:14:00.000+08:00

wed nite spent at pitstop..
before meeting de gers.. i went to american sch to do referee duty.. kinda easy money.. bt i'm still quite new n blur haha.. so i pushed de other guy to do first ref.. n i did 2nd ref.. hee.. nth eventful..
went to pitstop for some games.. we played taboo bang n 1 i can't rmb de name haha..
joke of de day.. it was my turn to describe to mann for her to guess de word..
me: zidane is frm wad country?
mann: erm... pakistan!
all of us: LOL!!!
ans: french..
i was trying to link france to french since i can't say fries..
taboo was fun.. n we (me, mann, chinnyi) emerge winners!! over zh n feng.. yay!! 88yr rockz.. =D
nxt we played bang.. it's a chim card game.. haha.. bt gt de hang of it after de first round..
took a pic b4 we left.. zh decorated it n i tink it can b seem easily.. so ya.. if u happen to go there.. look out for our pic!!
watch music n lyrics wif my sis on 1 sat.. fall in love with de theme song.. "way back into love" anyway.. it's a nice movie! hee..
de lyrics is on de main page of my blog.. enjoy!!!

2007-08-31T23:25:00.000+08:00

oh my my.. it's been a mth since i last blogged...
apologies my frens.. haha.. been busy studying for exams.. although i mostly study 1 day before.. bt ya.. dunno y i feel so busy during tt period.. pehaps cuz of sch n training n open cup competitions..
so yup.. it's been de 2nd wk of my hols.. 1st wk filled with competitions and asean line judging to do.. earn a little money.. bt nt enough to cover wad i spend haha.. bt well.. better den nothing haha.. oh my new idol is korean no 1.. he's cute!! plus he's soooo tall.. standing at 199 while i'm only at 160.. sadded.. thai won korea 3-0 in de finals.. i tot it might b a 5 sets match.. bt hai.. thai is juz superb during de finals.. bt so sucky during semis.. weird.. haha..
2nd wk of my hols.. mostly spent it on zzZz-ing.. feel like a pig.. haha went to send jos off on wed.. she's going aust to study!! hope she copes well there.. n ya.. have fun too!! hee..
hmm.. open cup currently won all bt lost 1.. to red team.. so it'll b 3 n 4 on sun.. jia you jia you.. went to c de guys semis today.. ik won v alliance.. 3-1.. police won safsa 3-1 too.. interesting matches.. haha..
went to watch ntu dancetitude last sun.. quite an interesting concert.. haha saw a cute guy on stage.. muhahah.. my sis event was de supposedly "scary" one.. haha.. not much of a hip hop dance so nth much to "whaaa" bout.. haha.. bt de tribute dance was nice.. though it's a bit sad in de beginning.. bt still happening during de dance.. haha.. went k box after tt.. cuz mann gt de urge haha.. it's quite cheap to go k box on a sun night.. bout 12 plus per person only.. n we sang frm 10 plus till 2 plus.. haha.. sing till wanna slp.. =P bt still an enjoyable day!! bt 1 ting sad.. frm 7 ppl till de 4 of us.. zh feng n liz put my aeroplane!! bt lucky de tics all taken up by my sis frens.. haha..

2007-07-25T23:50:00.000+08:00

happy post for today..
first.. i finally passed my driving!! yay.. no need spend more money n finally can drive around!! bt i din buy p plate.. p plate anyone?! hee.. i think if tis was my 1st time taking de test i might not have passed.. de tester like quite fierce.. n keep saying i shld check more of rear view mirror n less on side mirror n pay more attention to de right side den looking at blindspot on left.. cuz if right side vehicle come n bang me i'll die.. left side wun die.. n if i wanna live longer better look out on de rite side.. haha! n i gave him a bad impression at de start cuz when i went for my circuit it was around 155.. which was a little before de start of a normal lesson.. den de cars were parked on the right lane.. so when i turn at a bend i fail to c de car infront n end up i juz change lane without checking n signalling.. he din even have de paper wif him so he only ticked de boxes when he went back to de room.. so scared he'll fail mi sia.. keep saying borderline oso haha.. lucky it was de 2nd time i took.. hee..
2nd... had de last match against tp today.. felt as if it was de finals cuz only left 1 match of gers n 1 match of guys.. those there were for the prize presentation.. there were spectator seats n camera man n quite a lot of ppl.. compared to before la.. ma chiam finals.. n lucky enough.. we won!! quite unbelievable bt i tink tis muz b de best match since de start.. at least my spikers lao qiu de fen n not lao qiu fly somewhere else.. n of cuz those din lao qiu de la.. haha.. played 5 sets.. bt still feel quite energetic.. i actually pu di twice today.. wad a miracle.. haha.. bt very ugly la.. all my xing xiang lost!! hope no shuai ge saw haha.. happy happy!! de feeling was so different today compared to de previous 1.. mayb cuz no stress le plus last match so everyone played happily.. haha.. picture taking at de end.. yay!! oh ya.. pls send mi de photos!!!
if any of u happen to read harry potter de 6th bk.. there's a potion called felix something de.. haha it's supposed to make u lucky for a period of time after u drunk it.. i felt as if i drank tt potion today haha..
having test on fri.. till now haven really study bt feel like slpin already haha.. die die.. i need the potion on fri n nxt tues too!! =)

2007-07-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

another match down.. vs np..
kena disappointed tt day.. de whole team is like zombies on de court.. where's de spirit against sp n rp!? even if lost at least we fought.. at least lost with pride.. all those things tt wun normally happen all happened ytd.. i dunno if it's my setting lousy or wad.. de spikers all weird weird de.. when we're leading de feeling was like we're losing by a lot.. when we caught up wif dem de feeling oso nt there.. de whole thing was like very wrong lor..
it makes me feel like there's no point rushing here n there.. n i dun look forward for the nxt match.. which is tml or rather later at night.. haha i have a test on fri which due to my busy schedule.. i haven even study for it yet.. bt still i'll go for de match la.. since i'm in it.. i think it's only rite to be present.. sigh i hope tml will nt b like ytd.. it's no fun playing in such atmosphere..
tml having driving test.. hope i'll pass it tis time.. kinda scary.. haha.. i'll bring a bk to read so i'll b less nervous while waiting.. wadever it is.. hope tml turns out well.. exams coming soon.. stress is piling up.. i've nt study!! ahh.. help!!!
i feel my life going hay wire now.. nth seems to be on the rite track.. things i once tot was going well suddenly took a turn.. hai.. kena depressing.. should i b pro active or juz wait.. mayb my intuition is wrong all the while.. it was never tt way n never will it be..

2007-07-22T21:29:00.000+08:00

it's been a while since i've updated.. due to various complains.. haha.. i shall drop a post..
pol-ite had started.. currently we played 3 matches.. won 1 lost 2.. still gt 2 more to go.. bt sadly.. tink tis yr no chance of top 3.. bt well.. lets try again nxt yr!! jiayou my teammates!! we're juz a little unlucky tis yr.. anyway still have to work for the nxt 2 matches.. lose oso muz lose with pride.. =)
exams coming soon.. sigh.. not much time left to study.. bt i still gt a busy schedule nxt wk..
mon: pol-ite match..
tues: ref theory test.. n we're going to sgh for a field trip.. dunno wad it's for too.. hmm..
wed: driving test.. (hope i'll pass soon..) and match too..
thurs: ref practical test.. kinda scared i'll cock up.. it's nt really as easy as it looked..
fri: anp prac test.. it was supposed to be on wed.. bt lucky there's a intersch debate.. lucky me!! bt i guess there's nt much time for me to study too.. =(
tis wk oso very busy.. can't slp late everyday.. sooo tired.. sigh.. woke up at 8 plus today cuz i gonna go vs training.. lucky it din turn out tt bad.. hee.. n lucky zh was there too.. so at least i wun feel so alone.. played a few games today.. seen pei hwee's power today.. haha.. bt expected la.. de mixed team was quite fun wif all de power spikes flying around.. haha.. lucky i din have to receive much of dem.. bt i receive 1 of michelle's spike.. hit my arm.. i tink gt internal blue black.. haha.. saw de jersey for vs too.. it looks small!!! omg.. my fats will pop out soon.. muz jian fei le haha.. after training we went jec hawker eat.. chatted for a few hrs.. quite interesting to hear stories frm all over n look back in the past.. laughed over stupid things etc.. haha.. n i found out a new thing.. grace always have funny expressions haha..
think i'm gonna slp early tonite.. very tired sia.. can even fall aslp while watching tv.. missed lots of my shows too.. sick of tis kind of very busy life!! every wk only eat at home on 1 day.. bt luckily it's all going to end after nxt wk.. den i can really rest n prepare for my coming tests.. bt open cup oso coming soon.. hope tis busy life dun continue for long..

2007-07-01T21:24:00.000+08:00

time for a new update.. it's been a busy period wif all de trainings n ref course..
had a chalet on de last wkend of my hols.. din slp much bt had fun!! hee.. n i finally learnt how to ride a bicycle.. although had to make some sacrifice.. for example.. had lots of ugly bruises on my leg..
first day.. went shopping at parkway giant for food n some things needed for de chalet.. bought lots of things.. de pics still in feng's cam.. haha.. we had to carry dem all de way to de room which was quite far frm de main lobby.. n de chalet like quite lousy.. dun have anything de.. n no air con on de lower floor.. only air con in de rm bt de air con oso quite lousy.. haha.. ok shall stop complaining bout de chalet.. hee.. so we bbq on de first night.. busy joking n chatting de night while waiting for de rest to come.. some of us went geylang to buy supper n gt some rest after tt.. bt i tink i stoned all de way frm 4 till 8 in de morning.. looking at de sky to gt brighter n brighter haha.. b4 most of dem woke up n we conquer de rm upstairs haha.. they went for breakfast while some of us slp in de rm.. they started playing games when they come back so we were awaken n went to cycle..
my coaches were yong cheng n kok liang.. haha.. kind ppl teach me how to cycle.. although i very lousy la.. hee.. we rode all de way to bedok jetty i tink.. or mayb further.. dunno where oso.. hee.. after cycling.. we all quite tired so went back chalet to rest n wash up b4 going for dinner.. we had 3 cars cuz han ping went back to gt his car.. so we ended up at bedok market for dinner.. wif wei lun leading de way.. i muz say he's nt a very gd leader haha.. bt it's nt easy to follow de cars oso.. bt we still reach de market safely.. haha.. de guys order a lot of food.. n wenyong paid most of de food for our table.. thanks!! after dinner we went back n started drinking n playing games.. had fun!! hee.. bt no mickey mouse tis time.. haha.. de games ended early around 2 plus bah.. n i'm nt drunk so did nt feel like slpin.. n upstairs is fully occupied so some of us hang around downstairs lor.. quite bored cuz nth to do oso.. n very tired le.. cuz din slp much..
reached home around 11 de nxt morning.. after eating jiu knock out le.. haha din even hear de phone ringing.. super tired.. n tis effect carried on till now.. haha.. 1 wk plus le.. i still feel very tired.. slp early every nite.. hee..
ytd went to sentosa wif de seniors.. although nt as much ppl as de previous time.. it was quite fun.. bt de sun very hot.. now have sunburn.. pain.. haha.. we went off quite early oso cuz me n chinn yi had ref course.. while de rest of de gers had to go for vs training.. end up had to cab down to phs.. ex!! i'm so broke.. sadded..
nxt wk is a busy wk for me.. polite coming oso.. hopefully everything goes well bah..

2007-06-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

today went shopping wif zh lyn n chinn yi.. saw something quite weird on my way home..
i was on 334 which was packed.. i juz managed to squeeze in too.. when it moved out of de interchange to de nxt bus stop.. something happened.. usually no 1 will gt out on de first stop after de bus moved out.. so ya.. it was still as packed.. den when de bus was already inch-ing out.. there's tis 2 kids chasing after de bus.. den after tt i heard some knocking.. i tot someone was trying to inform de bus driver.. bt it was actually de mother (i tink) knocking on de bus as she was chasing it.. was quite shocked to c someone chase bus until littat.. so de bus driver stopped.. bt he did nt open de door cuz it was quite full already n some bus driver dun like to open when it's packed.. bt she still keep knocking after de bus inch out again.. she acts like she left her baby in de bus n wan to gt back lor.. haha.. den de driver tot de boy gt stuck at de door or something bt she was shouting they're late already.. open the door please..
i was thinking.. is it worth risking urself juz to reach the swimming complex on time for de swimming lesson?! oh ya.. de kids were wearing swimming costume.. n i think the frequency of 334 quite short.. can always wait for another 1 or even take a cab since it's like quite near only.. de bus driver was like quite pissed oso.. saying tis lady frm "sua pa" or someone frm mountains = country bumpkin.. and wad.. u tink u late den i muz drive u meh.. kinda bad la haha..
when i first gt on de bus.. i tink tis driver drives quite fast n ya he's those kind tt heck u even if u chase after de bus.. kinda hate tis kind of driver too.. hee bt i really tink there's no need to keep knocking n chasing when de driver apparently don't wanna open de door for u.. doesn't worth it if u're hurt or something la..
i don't tink tis lady is a singaporean haha.. cuz typical singaporean don't chase bus until littat and knock until it's so attention seeking.. and everybody was like looking at her.. bt well.. everyone have their own views.. u make tink de uncle is very evil never stop for her or she's juz sot sot la.. hee.. hmm..

dePressiNg..

2007-06-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

sigh.. dunno tis yr i fan tai sui or wad.. shld go bai bai le.. been feeling quite unlucky.. for de earlier unfortunate events u all can c de previous post..
today i brought my phone to service.. mayb it's nt a gd day la.. i lost my memory card.. it was so tiny so i oso dunno where to put it.. if put in my bag, i scared will lost.. so i threw it in my hp pouch.. bt haiz.. wad's going to happen is still going to happen eventually.. :(
worst still.. i dunno when it dropped.. sigh.. nt sad bout de songs la since it's all in de com.. bt it's de pics.. y is it always bout pics!!?? mayb i'm nt fated with memories.. anyway.. i'm very sad la.. haizzz... in addition de sim card contacts is like so cocked-up la!! i already copy everything from my phone to de sim card before i take for servicing.. bt de spare phone i'm using like nt updated.. those ppl who change phone no. it still remain as de old 1.. n all my vb mates.. classmates phone no. is totally nt reflected la.. bt den.. some contacts tt i recently added only is still inside leh.. really no idea wad happen sia.. anyway if anyone of u change phone no during last yr to tis yr period.. pls tell me cuz i dunno if i have de correct no.. and sorry if i asked who r u when i obviously "should" know ur no.
i'm easily affected by my emotions.. can totally c it during training today la.. never experience 3 "piu qiu" in a row man.. nt once in my 6 yrs of vb life.. totally no mood.. tried to focus bt cannot leh.. still feel very moody.. hai.. today is my last day of exams b4 hols.. supposed to b a happy n carefree day.. totally spoiled my mood.. nxt wk still gt 2 short camps.. which is also equal to 1 whole wk of camp la.. dunno wad will happen.. bad feeling sia.. mum's nt happy wif my camps.. sigh.. i oso dun wanna go la.. bt ya.. dun have a choice.. unless i quit.. which is quite irresponsible.. although sometimes i tink of quitting.. de long journey and late hrs back home with early lessons de nxt day.. haha.. guess i'm old at de game le.. nt as enthu as before le..
i'm gonna go to bed n hopefully i can wake up feeling better tml.. hope i dun have any nightmare! haha.. nitez peps..

2007-05-18T22:54:00.000+08:00

guess it's time for a new update.. been really busy since sch starts.. well.. with de lessons.. de training.. plus i'm chasing corner with love on u tube.. n de channel 8 shows i've recorded.. without much time to watch haha.. and de vcds tt my mum brought back.. whao.. tt's quite a lot of things yea?! haha
ok.. talk bout my course.. i once kinda vowed never to touch physics after my a's.. or rather sci la.. haha.. bt well.. have to take tt back.. not only phy.. i still have to study for bio which is very new to me cuz i never study it before.. sigh.. wonder if i would b struggling after some time.. now still quite honeymoon period.. hee.. actually it's quite interesting oso.. juz find it a bit irritated to face physics once again.. did my first x-ray on a phantom foot ytd.. de chemicals for manual developing quite smelly.. bt oso quite fun hee..
ok back to something quite long ago.. april 27.. zihui's bday chalet..
we org a chalet for her at chevrons.. bt it wasn't quite a surprise thanks to dewen.. haha.. bt at least it's fun haha.. knew a few of my vb seniors there too.. had some drinks.. lucky din drank much during de game haha.. can't imagine wad it's like to b drunk.. i c zh n mann littat i oso scared haha.. they're quite crazy at tt time i must say.. was nt really feeling well tt day.. so my voice was like.. so man.. haha.. din slp for de entire day.. so i went back early de nxt day n slp.. n yep.. i gt sick hee.. my tutor says having fever is a gd thing.. cuz bacteria hates hot n loves cold.. so it's nt a bad thing to have fever afterall.. hee.. anyway.. zh's planning another chalet.. look forward to a nice gathering again..
quite tired now.. ytd had training n reached home around 11 plus.. n had class at 9 today!! so nt enough slp for a pig like me.. so yup.. i'm off to bed!!

2007-05-02T19:48:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really dun understand wad is ppl made of.. some r nice like angels.. (almost extinct) some have an nice features bt actually is a person with attitudes bt keep thinking tt she's so nice..
i juz can't help bt flare up sometimes.. it's like the whole family is sick.. so wad's a 5 mins drive out.. is it very difficult?! if i have a license.. i would gladly drive.. mum's nt feeling well and someone who is de least sick among us gt's irritated becuz i suggested tt she should drive instead.. like de.. i know it's easy to flare up when u're sick.. can b quite unreasonable at times too.. bt who doesn't have times like tt.. give some kind of sickening attitude.. like who cares..
tt time when she's slpy even give attitude to my frens when playing mahjong.. like HUH!! it's so embarassing la.. i dun even dare to ask her again nxt time.. i know my frens dun like it.. bt they oso dun dare to complain.. they juz hurry n rush through the game which wasn't meant to b like tt.. even if u are really too tired.. can juz bare with the few more minutes before we end.. dun have to b irritated n flare up rite.. besides.. they are not ur frens!! how would u feel if i had spoken in tt manner to ur frens.. at least lyn's sis kb her in the background and although we know bout it.. it's nt right in our face la..
how to deal with all tis.. i juz show a wadeva face and heck everyone.. i juz dun like quarrels.. rather remain silent.. yes.. attitudes make up a person.. attitudes as in literally or as a bad notation..
say i show attitude?! who's the one who "diao" me and show me attitude first.. whatever~

genting!!!

2007-04-04T15:13:00.000+08:00

ok.. i'm a bit laggy haha.. bt it's better late den never rite... =D
went genting wif my jj vball teammates on 24th of march.. although it's only for 1 day and a very tiring one cuz i think i din slp more den 6 hrs for consecutive 2 days.. it's still fun!! hee.. it reminds me of tt time we went to kl.. the long bus rides.. de late nights.. bt tis time there's no trainings hee.. kinda miss de time we used to spend almost everyday together..
first surprise was on sat night.. cuz we booked a quite cheap package and was told tt de bus have tv bt it's 1 in de centre.. bt to my surprise.. de bus was quite luxury and it has a tv for each and every seat.. although de movies and games quite lousy.. furthermore.. my seat's tv is spoilt!!! sadded.. luckily kind lyn change seat wif me so i can watch and she can slp.. so i catched fantastic 4 on it.. hee.. wanted to catch some slp bt din manage to.. now i noe i can't slp on rocky buses.. sigh.. we reached genting at around 3.15 n headed to mac since we can't check in yet.. sat n eat n chat till bout 5 plus 6.. n tried to check in.. bt we need to go some other place tt's for de package 1.. n tt opens at 1230!! so we left our bags at de counter n headed to the theme park!!
first ride of de day.. bumper car!! we're de earliest there so we dominated de place n even took some pics hee.. fun!! it's been ages since i played bumper car..
there's 1 ride tt really freak me out.. de powershot.. haha it's like 12 stories high.. n wha.. my heart was beating at 150 sia.. i dun even dare to open my eyes throughout de whole ride.. mayb a little peeks to c where am i.. haha.. i think if there's a next time i might nt dare to try it again.. bt ok la.. feel de cold air.. and de screams.. n de suddenly fall.. nice experience.. hee.. nt many rides there so we managed to finish everything in a day.. din try de go kart though.. when i was young it always looked fun.. when i c my sis enjoying de ride.. i was green wif envy.. bt tis time round de ride looks kinda slow.. haha.. so well.. i still hope for a fun n fast go kart ride.. anyone know where??!!
played a little mahjong wif lyn's cute little tiles haha.. and watched a horror movie there too.. the buffet breakfast there was de worst i ever ate.. wif little or rather no variety.. bt well.. wad can u expect from a cheap package?! i was really tired the 2nd day n had little interest in anything other den slp.. haha.. bt was awakened by de shopping.. we spent like 1 or 2 hrs in a shop trying n making de dressing room like our 2nd home.. haha eventually everyone bought something of their choice.. yay.. we shopped too long and was kinda rush when we board de bus.. another surprise awaits us.. a double decker bus!! cool... quite clumsy when i board de bus cuz i was carrying a lot of stuff and i nearly fall.. haha.. i even knocked de dustbin cover over.. haha!! lucky zh was behind me to pick it for me.. hee.. catched 2 and a half movies on de bus.. can't finish de last one which was quite interesting!! sad.. we took a last group photo wif de bus as de background.. de kind bus driver suggested n took it for us.. haha..
reached home around 930.. watched a little tv and off to bed.. too tired to even work de nxt day.. hee.. my first trip wif my frens.. great experience.. looking forward to our thailand trip.. hopefully more ppl can make it.. and of cuz.. we can actually go.. hee..
i've receive the posting for nyp le.. although din gt to de course tt i originally wanted.. bt at least it's something other den office and even sound like quite interesting.. i dun mind to try and c if i really like.. bt my family dun really agree.. call me to think properly and dun waste money withdrawing next time.. sigh.. nevertheless.. i still wan to try.. there are many regrets made due to the absence of trying.. if i dun try i'll never noe if it suits me.. n i noe tt i dun like office work is due to me trying admin jobs.. so ya.. i rather waste some money den me missing another opportunity.. mum says it sounds like a nurse job.. well i looks like a more specialise nurse.. hee.. dunno how to explain to her oso.. bt heck.. hee.. wif mann n lyn in de same course.. it sounds like fun!!
ok back to my boring job.. tata.........

2007-03-14T14:22:00.000+08:00

hmm.. hadn't been in the best of mood these days.. easily fustrated.. mayb most of u never really c mi being angry or scolding ppl or wad before.. perhaps i'm nt 1 who show my emotions easily to others bah..
ytd did ot for an hr to pay for my cab fare in de morn.. haha.. when i'm about to leave office, it's raining cats and dogs outside so i decided to stay a little longer den usual hoping it'll gt smaller bt.. nah! instead it gts bigger.. have to share my small umbrella wif my colleague.. end up i'm half a body wet.. nt tt i'm nt willing to share my umbrella la.. he's half wet too haha.. so i went home.. wet n cold n hungry.. mum was watching another channel n dun let me switch to hua yang!! a little pissed off.. so i can't eat n watch at de same time.. next my dad called when i'm eating.. (my mood alrdy bad) and my mum said he tried to call me so many days n i was talking loudly at him.. so i told her my dad there recepetion lousy and he can't hear wad i say n i can't hear wad he say.. n she said... bu hui jiang ni ben.. she me recep bu hao.. wha damn pissed off la.. wad's de link.. n it's really de recepetion prob la.. wad has it gt to do with ben or nt.. tell her she oso dun wan listen.. ggrrrrrrr.....
tis morning.. was looking for another shoe to replace my heels cuz de rubber at de bottom came off.. n it's very noisy wif de metal knocking against de floor.. n mum came out n ask wad happen.. mum: hai ke yi chuan ma.. shen jing bing..
wha.. damn pissed again.. i juz dun like de noise it bring.. does crazy suit a situation like tis!!?? no point telling her de reason cuz she wun listen.. as usual... sigh..
say i'm temperamental.. well i am at times.. sometimes being too kind will gt bullied by others.. ren shan bei ren qi.. yes.. i have my pride and need ppl to listen to wad i say.. i'm indecisive bt there are certain things tt i can decide on my own and i noe how to differenciate wad is impt and wad's nt.. i might nt say it out bt yes i noe know wad i'm doing..
ok i've vent out my anger.. haha.. back to being a gd kid n go home early for dinner tonite!! u noe.. de canteen serves food in small portions n i've lunch at 1145!! a hungry man is an angry man.. muahaha...

2007-02-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

after sooo long.. i'm finally back!! haha
hmm.. kinda lazy to create a google acc.. hee.. anyway shall update a little bah..
firstly.. i've changed a new job.. something tt pays more den my previous job.. n nearer to my house.. which means i can slp more hehe.. bt do more dumb things den before.. bt well.. there's always pros n cons to everything.. de ppl there are all very friendly and furni.. so overall.. it's still a gd choice bah.. at least to me since i dun fancy working in city hall.. despite some ppl think tt city hall is an ideal work place..
secondly.. de new yr is here.. n it's going to end soon.. hmm.. guess new yr is always almost de same routine bah.. wad's nice is there's ang baos to gt.. haha.. went lyn's and zihui's house for some little celebration.. tt's something different la.. haha before de new yr was still fretting cuz there's news tt de A level results might b released before de new yr.. bt heng i can still enjoy my new yr la.. kinda dread all those questions as how did u do.. wad u plan to study after tis.. blah blah.. at least if results are released after de new yr.. can escape some of tis questioning.. haha
anyway.. results will b out tis fri.. stress.. lots of things running tru my mind.. bt well.. shall leave it until i've seen my results bah... wish me luck everyone.. hope i can still control my emotions.. if anyone of u see or feel me in my pms-ing mood.. forgive me.. haha.. tis is a very tricky period for me..
well.. enough of crapping.. let's c if i'm in a gd mood for a post after i gt my results.. tata peps..

2007-01-13T12:51:00.000+08:00

welcome to another post of unfortunate series..
guess tt i'm really suay tis yr la.. ok 1 of the gd thing tt happened: i THINK i saw a shooting star.. haha.. here's how it goes..
i was eating dinner n juz turn my head to look outside.. n suddenly.. i saw something green shoot past the sky and before i knew it.. it vanished behind a building.. i vaguely rmb someone said tt shooting star is green in colour.. so first thing tt come to my mind is.. did i just see a shooting star!? haha.. so can anyone tell mi wad is the colour of a shooting star?
ok back to the unfortunate events.. i can't really rmb some of it la.. shall talk bout those i rmb..
first.. it was one usual day where i was rushing for work in the morning.. n i was on the way to JE mrt station.. n guess wad.. my heels gt stuck in some small creek on the floor.. n mind u.. it was the morning rush hour!! so ya.. my leg gt out bt my heels was at the original place.. so damn paiseh can.. just dunno where can i hide my face.. sigh..
second.. ytd went to celebrate manying's n foong yee's bday (happy bday to u gers..) so mi n man was there after work.. shop around while waiting.. we were supposed to meet with foong yee at de bus stop.. so we walk out of ps and din c her so waited.. n den there she is.. looking for us too.. so we were at de top of the stairs while she was down.. so we saw her n i wanna walk down the stairs to wish her happy bday.. and once AGAIN.. i dunno how my heels gt stuck at the stairs.. so i was on the verge of rolling down the stairs n i started scanning for the safest route.. so i very slow-mo de fall towards the raillings.. n *bang* i langa the railing.. n my knees hit the ground la.. ok i find it funni too so i dun mind man n foong laughing their heads off after making sure tt i was ok.. man still said i was doing it so slow-mo tt she tot i would regain my balance so she din tot of helping mi.. n foong was also thinking whether to climb up n "hop" mi la.. so screwed can.. n imagine it's near the bus stop where there's lots of ppl around!! i just wan to find n hole n hid inside la.. so tada.. 1 blue black on my arm (where i knock the railing) n 3 blue blacks on my knee and leg.. dunno is i suay or is the problem with my heels.. so ya.. if anyone ask mi bout it.. i'll say tt i fight with someone la.. haha.. guess both bday gers r having gd luck so de suay shen look for mi instead.. aahh!! i so wanna die...
been so suay tis yr la.. i tink mayb if i stay at home all day.. mayb it'll explode.. hahaha choy!! wadever.. i juz hope it wun drag till i gt my results la.. i guess i was really lucky during my o's n most prob i've used up all my luck den.. sigh.. oh 1 think tt's lucky.. at least i din fall into a puddle of water cuz it's been raining for the whole of ytd.. lol.. ok tt's all for tis post.. stay tuned to more posting of unfortunate series..

2007-01-03T20:35:00.000+08:00

hmm.. lots of thing to blog about.. shall start with the gd things?!
firstly, i finally have my long awaited family trip.. secondly, i finally after soooo long sat plane again and have my passport chopped.. haha.. tt's all about it bah..
now.. a series of unfortunate events..
firstly.. after prom have to go back home instead of going party wif my classmates.. tt's not very bad la cuz i have an early flight to catch..
secondly.. on the 2nd day there, i had a terrible headache tt led to a slight fever bt it was better after a night slp and 1 gd thing, there's fireworks to see!!
thirdly, i lost my sis cam.. n of all days it's on new yr's day.. de last night in philippines.. wad a way to start a new yr n wad a way to end my trip.. besides.. tt's not all.. she haven been speaking more den 5 sentences to me.. it's nt like i meant to lose it.. i din even notice tt it slipped out of my pocket.. besides i've brought it along on all other days n it din drop!! wth.. n all my prom pics went missing wif it!! de grp photos i can take frm others bt de individual ones are all gone!!! sobx.. plus de 1 min fireworks tt i took a video of.. haiz...
fourthly.. i had a bad sore throat plus i gt stuck at de airport on de 2nd of jan.. there's some mis-communication about de time we're flying.. we were supposed to go back in de morning bt mummy wanted to change de flight to the evening one.. end up my dad gt a seat in de morning flight and we wanted to change back to de morning flight bt de flight was full n we were on the waiting list.. end up there's an auto switch bt becuz of de holidays, we weren't informed.. thus we were put on the waiting list on the evening flight and nearly couldn't come back.. so we stood for 1 over hr to check in..
today.. my sore throat was worse n i almost lose my voice.. n my supervisor totally din sympathise mi la.. she gave mi a list to make phonecalls!! horrible.. i couldn't even swallow water without bearing wif the pain.. sigh..
tt's how my 1st 3 days of the mth passed.. think i'm so going to have a bad time tis yr.. wonder wad more is going to happen tml.. hmmm..

2006-12-22T23:18:00.000+08:00

time for another update.. hee..
de yr is coming to an end to.. talk bout end like very sad.. bt look at it from another view.. it is a new beginning too.. time to set new goals n resolutions.. anyway.. wish all of u out there have a merry xmas n a happy new yr!!!
been working for bout 2 wks le.. de working environment is typical 9-5 kind.. 5 mins b4 lunch n end of work.. most of dem r ready to go.. de ppl there quite frenli.. at least u can find someone hu is willing to smile to u.. n thank god i have gd supervisors.. frenli n patient.. as usual u can find typical aunties gossiping around.. bt there are less office politics going around.. in conclusion.. it's still quite a nice place to work in..
started my practical driving lesson.. today first time on the road.. lucky it din rain if not i think i'll still b doing rounds in the circuit.. n heng today is not de irritating instructor tt i had last wk.. he keep condeming auto car drivers.. frm the moment i stepped into de car till i left he keep saying auto car not gd la.. blah blah.. ppl hu can drive shld learn manual blah blah.. talk non stop.. today i had a peaceful ride.. with only instructions for mi.. bt i still prefer the 1st instructor.. talk in moderate and better topics.. hee nevertheless.. i'm still happy learning auto car.. doesn't matter if i can't drive manual la.. as long as i have a car to drive next time.. shall change my dream car since i dream to drive a sports car which i can't now.. haha..
oh no!! i've not shop for prom stuff.. hope there's still time for mi to gather all the things i need.. bt really very budget tis few days.. keep spending without any pay coming in.. hope to spend as less money as i could for tis event.. actually i dun like to buy stuff tt i onli use once (mayb in a lifetime haha) waste money.. bt well.. still have to do some grooming.. respect others n myself.. read de horoscope today.. it advise mi to pamper myself more.. haha
i'm off for my tv session!! prob update after my trip.. hope it's a joyful 1.. =)

2006-12-03T20:21:00.000+08:00

hmm starting work soon.. kinda dread de no life days ahead.. n imagine it's going to last for 6 mths.. din had a gd experience in my past admin job.. hope tis is not as boring as i tot.. in addition.. de pay's not really fantastic.. n it's less den my previous 1.. bt well i guess de deduction in de few dollars can b made up by de company of frens.. at least i'm not alone!! guess tt's a consolation.. =)
anyway.. had suki sushi on i forget wad day le.. hee.. i noe.. i'm old.. =p went there after our driving evaluation.. i passed!! bt de test date is 2 wks away.. sianz.. ok back to sushi.. xy made a "cake" for leena.. poor ger have to finish tt amt of sushi on her own.. bt well.. i helped to eat her crabstick de hee.. we were quite lousy cuz i think all of us ate quite little.. so de 20 bucks not quite well spent.. bt well.. we had fun la.. after tt we went arcade.. spent 7 bucks each.. quite a lot rite.. haha.. kinda hooked into dytona nowadays.. mayb cuz we learning driving now.. haha
tok bout driving.. i'm going for my first practical lesson tml!! kinda excited.. although it's in de circuit bt it'll b my first time driving.. hee.. hope nth goes wrong.. hee
went smb play ball for de past 2 sats.. kind dewen drove us there earli in de morning.. very long no play ball le.. de feeling of playing competition again was quite shiok.. hee.. although there were aches de next day.. bt it was quite worth it la.. very fun!! besides.. de aches on de 2nd sat were not as horrible as de first 1.. guess i need lots of working out.. fats r accumulating.. hee n congrats to feng on passing her driving test.. 1 more person to drive us around next time.. hee
ok tt's all folks.. cya next time =P

aN eVentFuL dAy..

2006-11-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

frm de title u noe la.. a lot of things happen in a day...
for now.. i shall first announce tt i've officially finished my A's!! cheers!!
after my last paper.. we went for movie (step up) at town on tt very day.. next day.. went derek house for bbq.. it was quite a fun day.. n i believe everyone enjoyed themselves.. even miss yew was there n we shared some secrets.. shhh.. haha.. went back around 1 plus.. cab fare very ex.. no money le.. sobx.. anyone any lobang pls include mi..
fri went to reg driving n went xiuyi's house for mahjong.. lost money.. even more broke.. haha.. her kind dad drove us home in maxi cab.. =)
today went ecp to blade.. bt ya.. lots of things happen.. anyway.. hope jess quickly recover n enjoy her LA trip.. been playing for de past few days.. n back home midnite.. lucky mummy nber make noise.. hee.. haven been slpin enough too.. so tired.. *yawnz*
shall go n rest le.. tataz!!

2006-10-27T21:17:00.000+08:00

nowadays haze isn't realli terrible.. bt it has been raining everyday.. not tt i hate rain la.. it's better den de smelly haze though.. hee..
had a weird dream ytd.. dreamt tt i quarel wif mi sis.. de dream felt so real (ok.. which dream doesn't..) tt i awoke angry n still feel angry after de dream.. mum's been drinking quite a lot tis wk.. kinda sot sot.. hope she's juz feeling depressed n not becuz of some big probs.. when i'm young i juz hate it when she's drunk cuz she does things tt she doesn't normally do n sometimes it really freak mi out.. bt now i'm more worried.. it's not as if we dun care bout her.. bt she juz keep things to herself.. ppl may appear strong on de outside bt may not b so on de inside.. i shall not blame her for drinking bt i hope tt she cuts down on it n hope tt everything is well for everyone..
mayb due to de fact tt exams are coming.. i feel easily irritated.. n sometimes dun feel like talking.. there's 1 day when mum drank quite alot le.. n came back to gt money b4 going out again.. sis n her fren (guy) was in de room chatting when mum came back.. she look quite concerned n she's quite seh at tt moment le.. she insist on going out.. (might as well since i think she'll b sot if she stay at home) i'm kinda angry at sis for not being auto enough.. like who would like to c her daughter wif a guy alone in a rm behind close doors.. c.. i gt irritated at de slightest thing.. haha when i'm young i always wonder if i'll b like my sis when i grow old.. she's rather rebellious when young.. seems like i'm still quite an introvert compared to her.. she makes frens easily n she's very open to challenges n new things.. i'm an anti social.. haha.. happy in my own comfort zone.. i'm a peacemaker!! hee..
exams coming soon!! on one hand i hope tt it faster end so i can spend more time having fun n do some things i really wanna do.. on other hand.. i hope i have more time to study n prepare for it.. so afraid tt i wun make it to uni.. bt i juz can't find my goal to keep mi moving.. sigh..
wadever!! days come n go.. juz hope i'll make it bah.. jia you to all of u out there.. n thanks for all ur encouragement.. =)

me?!

2006-10-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

you chose BX - your Enneagram type is NINE.

"I am at peace"

Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them.

How to Get Along with Me

If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't like expectations or pressure.
I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advantage of this.
Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.
Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally.
Ask me questions to help me get clear.
Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.
Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.
I like a good discussion but not a confrontation.
Let me know you like what I've done or said.
Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.

What I Like About Being a Nine

being nonjudgmental and accepting
caring for and being concerned about others
being able to relax and have a good time
knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around
my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator
my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now
being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe

What's Hard About Being a Nine

being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive
being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline
being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally
being confused about what I really want
caring too much about what others will think of me
not being listened to or taken seriously

Nines as Children Often

feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant
tune out a lot, especially when others argue
are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves

Nines as Parents

are supportive, kind, and warm
are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

2006-10-14T13:28:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i last blogged.. haha
hmm.. dad came back last fri.. when lots of places to eat.. tt's de advantage when dad is back.. haha.. can drive us round singapore to hunt for places to eat.. =)
sis gt hospitalise due to food poisoning.. poor thing.. c her keep running to de toilet.. bt well.. she now lies in a grade A ward.. n de best thing is.. her company pay for her.. win liao lor.. haha.. hope she dun grumble bout work now..
few wks left till a's.. sigh.. progress is slow.. still lots of stuff tt i din noe.. lots of things to do.. so little time left.. sch had officially ended.. took lots of photos ytd.. all kinds of weird positions.. haha bt i had fun.. took individual photos wif some of dem.. n to think of it.. in tis 2 yrs.. i din tok to my classmate more den 5 sentences.. dunno is i anti social or he anti social.. haha i think i'll miss my classmates n teachers.. looking forward to grad nite.. where we can hab more "memories" haha.. well.. hab to go now.. better gt some work done b4 i start slacking de day away..

2006-09-16T21:49:00.000+08:00

omg.. de com is freaking laggy now.. no idea y.. bt i hope it's not virus.. *fingers crossed
start of prelims.. n a wk had passed.. 2 more papers to go..
hmm.. i guess i dun hab to say bout it le.. quite amazed over de fact tt i'm not as guilty when i noe i din do well.. had i sub consiously gave up?! or i juz can't b bothered.. bt well.. after much thinking.. i start to feel bad.. haha especially after i found out de things i memorised din really came out de rite way.. totally depressed.. almost gave up on my physics paper.. bt still managed to revise a little bah.. kinda dread de end of exams.. cuz tt's when de results will b out.. n by den.. things can realli get depressing..
ok wad's past is gone forever.. shall not dwell on it.. anyway wanna thank mama for encouraging mi.. will try to keep de spirit up de.. =) n jia you to everyone out there.. when u're feeling down.. take a look around u.. there r always ppl who really care bout u.. =D really looking forward to de day when i can put everything behind n truely enjoy de beautiful things out there n de company i've gt..

actualli i'm quite curious.. do i really look like i dun care??
i lost faith in myself.. only to find tt most of u have lost faith in mi as well..

2006-08-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

hmm.. another 1 wk plus to prelims.. did a mock maths paper today.. quite a no dunno how to do.. hai.. not quite like a test.. was discussing n refering oppz.. haha
was discussing bout after prom plans n holiday trips before de mock paper.. (where's our sense of urgency!! haha) ji tao no mood to do mock after tt.. haha.. think quite a no of dem going on holiday wif their family.. zhen xian mu.. i think it's been ages since i went on a holiday n sit on a plane.. so sad.. seems like all of dem are busy wif their own things n not interested to go on a holiday.. besides.. mum dun like long hours of plane.. so there goes my hope of a nice holiday trip.. wonder will there b a next time when we can go on holiday as a whole family again.. no one seems interested.. kinda sad rite.. others r looking forward to de hols n trips overseas.. while here i am looking for something to do..
should i even look forward to the hols.. oh.. i start to miss sch le.. haha.. actually i kinda miss my secondary sch frens.. peifen and gang.. huishan n caifeng n huiping.. so long din c dem le.. even my classmates.. mel, zinmar, xuantong, shaolin, chantong, avan...etc guess everyone is busy wif their stuffs.. hope everything is going well for u guys..
hmm.. should i even start thinking of wad job i should look for during my long break.. i hope i can find something tt interest mi.. at least i wun feel bored.. it's high time i should gt a life.. for de past 18 yrs.. my life is revolving around sch n home.. totally no life can.. sigh..
well.. i hope de class holiday trip will b successful.. n can anyone bring mi on a trip!? yes.. i'm dying to leave singapore.. not tt it's not gd.. bt i'm bored of de greens tt i c everyday.. haha.. oh i hope a's will pass faster.. n de results lost in de airplane.. haha..

2006-08-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.

Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.

You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.

In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.

Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

superband finals!!

2006-08-08T21:40:00.000+08:00

had quite an eventful 5/8.. it's de superband finals!! ok.. nt really enthu bout superband la.. bt gt free tics so.. y not.. hee
firstly.. met up wif mh, yy n jos in town to watch click.. hmm.. quite a nice movie.. i would rate it 4/5 although it's not realli realistic.. bt de moral behind it is quite meaningful.. first half it's a comedy.. as everyone would expect it to b.. 2nd part was quite touching in fact.. all 4 of us somehow gt emotional haha.. shall not reveal de story lah.. it's nicer to explore it on ur own.. well.. de moral of de story is.. dun take things for granted.. it may pass faster den u noe.. n when u wan to cherish it.. it's too late.. sometimes we should really slow our pace down n pay more attention to ur surroundings.. show more care n concern for ppl around u.. tt will make u a happier person!! so ya.. i shall b kinder now.. b nice wif my words.. hee..
after de movie.. we went shopping around for jess's present.. it was quite fast compared to de past.. haha.. when expo shortly after.. freaking lot of ppl.. bt luckily de queue wasn't as long as i expected.. once they let ppl in.. it was quite fast.. yupz.. de atmosphere was quite high.. n noe wad.. renfred was standing quite near us!! so shuai!! haha.. can't c de stage cuz i'm like quite short.. so was looking around for shuai ges.. sadly there's none.. lots of crazy gers though.. screaming their lungs out.. bt well.. there r always crazy fans out there..
although we stood for like 5 hrs?? bt i still enjoyed de performance (can c a little bit lah) haha.. bt mayb i prefer watching it on tv.. haha.. when's de repeat!??! oh ya mi lu bing is de champs!!
ok.. enjoy ur national day hols.. peps!!

2006-07-31T18:40:00.000+08:00

tis is de one taken on de escalator.. with a ahem uncle at de back..

2006-07-31T18:39:00.000+08:00

tis is my fav pic.. although we din seem to b looking at de cam.. haha

2006-07-31T18:18:00.000+08:00

had a class gathering on 28/7 and yes.. it's fun.. de tot tt it might b de last gathering before de a's made mi sad.. the turn out was quite gd.. 20 ppl or so?!
first we met at city hall.. n as expected.. there were late comers.. bt i'm late too!! haha so.. some time spent on waiting.. n guess wad.. we saw mr sin wif her gf.. oppz.. dunno is he suay or wad.. haha.. n we went to search for places tt can accomodate such a big grp like us.. de subway at marina square was quite empty.. luckily they din go there.. cuz i wasn't really expecting to eat tt.. in de end we went to cafe cartel.. after like 45mins of waiting?! de gers did their forfeits in de meantime.. haha was quite furni cuz it's like quite lame?! i think tt left de guys thinking for a while haha..
jess jeannie n mi shared a seafood combo n a grilled chicken meal.. yum yum.. bt i think we ate a lot!! (fats) bt we're quite hungry for de fact tt we ate at 9 plus?! we played a little game at de end of it.. was quite fun.. although i had to de forfeit for like 2 or 3 times... n guess wad.. de forfeit was to put either chilli sauce or wasabi or de tobasco sauce on de bread!! n sorry to say.. i'm de 1 tt suggested it!! haha.. i kena once wasabi n another de tobasco sauce.. i think de tobasco 1 was yuck!! although de wasabi 1 wasn't tt nice too.. all in all.. FUN!!
after dinner.. it was de usual photo taking sessions.. fun as usual.. as crazy in our posing.. there were like yoga pose in 1 of dem.. den de guys jumped onto a lorry n took pics wif their middle finger out.. my fav 1 was when we took it outside ms.. on de path to de mrt.. post it in a second.. n another grp photo of us gers on an escalator.. sorry i dun hab de rest of de photos cuz issac or whoever haven send mi..
sat de last train home wondering y mummy din call mi.. despite de time.. n it's de 7th mth.. bt well.. i was lucky.. juz mins after i reached home.. mum came back too.. if i'm late 5 mins will i gt a scolding?! bt since i din gt 1.. it's gd!! haha..
in conclusion.. it was a really fun day!!

2006-07-25T19:42:00.000+08:00

hey!! i'm back again..
meet de parents session was scary.. bt lucky it's over.. hmm.. gt to noe some of my mum's view of mi.. as expected.. she knew tt i did badly.. bt juz kept quiet.. it's nt tt i dun wanna tell her.. bt i juz dun wanna upset her n make her worried.. i noe tt everyone is worried bout mi.. n i'm so sorry.. i'll work hard.. hope tt i wun die off halfway bah..
promised jess tt i'll blog bout something.. so here i am.. a bit late though..
well.. my sis decided to hop job i think.. so she asked mum for her support.. n mum started to tok grandmother's stories.. bt it spark of some of my tots..
what if...
frm de start i went to poly instead.. i sort of regretted my choice of going for jc.. mayb it's juz de kind of mindset tt i have in de past tt led mi on tis road.. last time i dunno wad course i wanna do in poly plus my mind pop out something like.. if can go jc den go lor.. now.. i think further.. what if i cannot make it.. den i'll b like wasting 2 yrs of jc.. plus where can i go? go back poly?? i dun say tt de sch is not gd lah.. i quite like de environment n ppl.. especially my seniors.. they're like so kind ppl.. n de time when we went to kl.. it's like my 1st trip overseas w/o my parents.. it was a memorable 1.. n getting champs.. i dun think i'd ever experience it if i din enter jc.. n of cuz.. gt to noe u ppl.. so u c.. there's pros n cons.. bt well.. it's too late to regret.. regret is always a bad thing.. cuz u noe u can either do it better or do it another way..
now..
what's impt is de end results.. so.. left with 6wks to prelims.. w/o any heading.. bt i noe i gonna work.. i dun wanna side track.. so let's c wad miracle can happen during tis period of time..

p.s: come on ppl.. let's work together!! go go go!! hee.. jia you everyone..

2006-07-18T21:34:00.000+08:00

hello guys.. i'm back again.. (after so long haha)
ok.. got back my results.. n as usual.. dun ask mi wad is it.. it's juz so disappointing.. sometimes.. it's juz so hard to find de motivation especially when wad u gt for at least trying is equal to not trying at all.. hai.. n when i heard tt there's meet-the-parents session.. which i've been afraid of since young.. i was like.. wha.. siao liao.. dunno how will mum react.. so i've been procrastinating n din tell her my results till ytd.. n i onli gave her a very vague idea.. n there's not much of a reaction from her.. i dunno if she expected it.. or she think tt i passed juz tt din do well.. i'm so afraid it's de later.. at tis pt of time.. i really miss my dad.. when i can tell him my result n gt nag a little n more encouragement.. n wad's best is tt he always shelter me frm my mum during such scary periods by going to meet de teacher instead of her going.. bt tis time.. no chance.. i was hoping tt he come back for a holiday or something at tt day.. bt fat hope!! sigh..
countdown.. 7-8 wks to prelims.. bout 13 wks to a's?? omg.. i wan to start bt i dunno how.. ahh!!
i tried motivating myself wif lots of ways n ideas.. (dun ask mi wad is it.. it's lame) bt seems like it's not working..

2006-06-29T22:56:00.000+08:00

relatives! pretty auntie on my left.. lucien de1st little boy frm de left

2006-06-29T22:54:00.000+08:00

me sis n cindy

2006-06-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

hmm it's been a long time since i've updated..
it's de end of holidays which doesn't seem like hols.. cuz of de studying n de exams.. eekz.. dun tok bout de sad things.. haha
when to my cousin's (cindy) 21st bday chalet at east coast on 24/6.. actually wanna go blading in de morn de but man say it will rain n thus we cancelled de trip.. ended up at man's house for our usual mahjong session.. i muz say tt my luck wasn't beri gd.. in fact it was lousy haha.. anyway.. i had to leave earli to attend de party.. n guess wad.. my mum said she's going!! mayb it's not a surprise u some of u.. bt it's really rare for her to attend such events.. unless it's her side tt's organising something.. (cindy is my dad's side) it was really crowded at de party..
it's heart warming when u c everyone in ur family is so busy trying to make everything work juz to make u happy n make ur bday a memorable 1.. i think their family is really bonded n i kinda envy them.. cuz i noe tt i couldn't gt my whole family to do something like tt.. mum always grumble when she have to handle a lot of things.. n they dun seem to like de idea of organising a chalet cuz u have to clean up when everyone goes off n stuff like tt.. so u c de effort cindy's family made juz to make her happy..
anyway.. i gt to c lots of relatives tt i seldom see.. some not even once a yr.. (chi new yr) n i think i mentioned tt i like to b in my dad's side gathering in my blog (ages ago) there's more kids of my age n they're kinda more educated.. n i gt to c lucien again!! after 2 or 3 yrs.. i think tt he changed a lot.. bt still as cute as ever.. haha n his mum still as pretty.. i always gt confused over all de aunties at my dad's side cuz din gt to c dem much.. bt i rmb her as de pretty aunty.. hee.. n her husband as a sporty dad.. he take part in trilathons!! so fit can.. n i think they're super rich too.. envy envy.. all de kids around made de place very lively..
normally mum would rush us home after a while when she gt bored.. although she did do tt again.. bt we weren't de first to go off.. another amazing thing.. haha.. her mood seems pretty gd after dad went overseas.. n she's home more often.. weird..
in conclusion.. i enjoyed myself at her party!! hope for more gatherings.. =)

2006-06-08T14:12:00.000+08:00

hmm.. quite no mood tis few days.. dunno is de stress or juz de time of de month..
sis din came back last night n guess wad.. juz like de weather.. she had a big quarrel wif mum.. hmm.. actually when she called earlier i kinda gt irritated by her too.. here's part of de conversation:
mum: what did ur sis say to u
s: nth much lar.. (dun feel like talking much to her oso)
mum: u say she call u den she never say anything meh..
s: i dunno lahz..
m: wad dunno! den did she tell u she's not coming back last night
s: ya..
m: wad time she told u
s: dunno slp already
m: wad dunno! cannot trace back mehz
s: my settings gt problem lahz (it's de truth) so de timing when i receive de msg sot sot lor
m: u den sot sot.. den buy so gd hp for wad.. use my lousy kind 1 can le..
s: u think i buy hp juz to check wad time ppl send mi msg mehz (kinda angry le..)

c how unreasonable she is.. n since tt day i came back at 3.. she's been unreasonable.. ok i noe 3 is kinda late.. bt it's like once in a blue moon mahz.. n another time when i went for gathering wif my seniors.. she called at 10 (still earli can) n as usual shouted n wan mi to go back at tt instance.. whatever lahz.. i din really care cuz we're having coffee n chatting tt time.. n i can't possibly juz walk off rite.. wad's more.. some of de seniors i dun gt to c dem often.. chat a while.. no harm.. den i came back before 12.. mind u.. before 12 is earli ok.. although she slp already.. i din escape scolding.. de next day i went lib to study n called her to tell her.. n guess wad.. kena scolding.. wad the!! say i not time conscious den say something like i'm going to call ur dad back n not care about all tis anymore.. wadeva lahz.. dad more understanding den her lahz.. i'm totally angry at her at tt time.. 11 plus is not late lahz.. wad's de big issue.. n i'm already 18 can.. not tt small little ger tt dunno wad's rite n wrong n need to b protected.. ppl say i'm dependent.. bt how can i b independent when i dun even hab de chance to learn how to.. how many ppl 18 haven go chalet (other den de 1 when i said i going for camp lah) haven ton at other ppl house (de first time i oso said i went camp haha) cannot come back after 10..
wad makes mi more angry is tt.. she dun wan us to do those things but she always does tt.. drinking.. smoking.. playing mahjong till i dunno how she play until 1000 plus.. not coming home to slp.. den if we din come home slp or even ask her.. she will scream n shout again.. she herself din set an example for us n actually wan us to obey her..
i guess she'll b out drinking tonite.. i rather she dun come back den come back n make a hell lot of noise.. i need to study n sis need to work.. we dun hab time n energy for her nonsense.. since dad went abroad she came back drunk 1 day.. n tok a lot of nonsense to rose since dad was not around to entertain her.. lucky i need to go to sch.. i hate to entertain her when she's drunk.. yuck!

2006-05-26T22:45:00.000+08:00

hmm.. shall add on to my bday present list..
peifen, xingjuan n joanna bought mi a handbag!! haha.. although it's so bear's type.. bt i still love it.. haha muz b keep seeing i use de same bag rite.. n it's my sis 1 somemore.. heez.. hope it doesn't turn yellow cuz it's white!! nice nice.. thanks pepz..
guess wad.. my mum bought a bday cake for mi!! she din buy 1 last yr so i kinda din expect.. she said something like.. i bought a cake for u.. although ur bday over.. bt still can eat.. awww.. so nice of her.. mayb tt's my present frm her since she din bought anything for mi.. or mayb juz to make up for de fact tt she din celebrate my bday wif mi.. hmm.. bt i din blow any candle or wad lahz.. juz cut de cake up and eat!! yum yum.. my fav ice cream cake.. reminds mi of de small 1 tt chai n huishan bought one of my bday.. took a pic of it.. bt it's in my hp..
hols coming!! dunno shld b happy or sad.. cuz it means tt mid yr coming too.. guess hab to send most of my time studying le.. if not i'll gt triple f.. besides.. 2nd wk of hols quite busy.. there's phy camp.. n lucky i'm not in maths camp (thanks to xh) if not there'll b lots of hw to b completed by de end of next wk.. there's oso some econs stuff.. some talk or wad.. n gp common test.. ahh!! i hope de 2nd wk pass quickly.. jia you for all ur tests... polys having dem soon.. muz study hard wor... =) and to my jc frens.. buck up!! it's de final lap.. or rather de 2nd last.. cuz there's still prelims den reach final lap which is a's haha..

hapPy biRthdAy to mE!!

2006-05-22T18:41:00.000+08:00

ok.. i'm officially 18... able to go clubbing.. pubbing.. watch m18 shows.. blahz blahz.. n sad to say.. i'm older by a yr!!
bt still.. i wan to thank lots of ppl!! for all their msg n pressies.. think tis yr is one of de most presents i've receive and more imptly.. it's all stuff tt i like!!
firstly.. i've receive lots of bday greetings frm many ppl.. some even unexpected.. de first to msg mi is nicholas.. although a little earlier den 12am.. bt still happy tt he remembered my bday.. =) last shld b jess bahz.. not too sure.. cuz i off my new phone (refer to below haha) to charge n when i on it.. jess msg was de last.. haha..
ok now for de presents.. de earliest i receive was frm jess mh n jeannie on fri.. it is a pencil box!! kinda expected lahz.. they keep wanting mi to change into something like theirs.. haha.. bt well.. it's nice n i like it!! very practical too.. =D mytriplejs treated mi to a cake in tcc too.. so nice of dem.. haha.. went to watch da vinci n later went to jj's talentime.. it was a really enjoyable day.. i think de talentime was very entertaining.. n glad abel won something.. at least de stuff we did was of use.. haha.. went kboxing wif man, lyn, mama, yuhan and feng after talentime.. sang till 3.. although go home kena a bit of scolding, it still din spoil my day.. haha
went rollar blading on sat.. very fun!! lucky i gt my knee guard n wrist guard on.. if not i'll b like poor xh.. wif wounds all around.. din fall as many times as i did de previous time.. n de falls had lesser impact lahz.. mayb cuz i learnt how to fall in front instead of on my butt.. haha still an enjoyable day.. can't wait for another outing..
went to buy my new phone on sun!! actually it's supposed to b a present frm mummy n sis de.. bt my mum's fren refused to take money frm dem.. so end up.. it's a gift frm him to mi.. so generous of him.. waited quite long for de queue.. so mi n my sis went shopping around.. after tt gt my new phone which i love very much!! haha..
today received a nike bag frm de vballers.. oso like it very much!! thanks gers... haha.. inside de bag there's still a handphone poach.. which i oso wanted to buy.. now it's like suddenly i have everything.. haha.. n derek even said i gt rich overnight.. no lahz.. all those are presents!! juz now.. even yingjie drop by to pass mi a present.. was quite shocked!? haha.. beri thoughtful of her to come all de way down after her lesson which ends at 5!!?? i might not wan to move around if my lesson is till 5.. haha.. thanks nu er!! haha
to conclude.. i hav a fruitful birthday!! only thing missing is a proper bday cake.. bt i still hab a small 1 to blow candle.. haha.. hope tis yr is a smooth flowing yr cuz tis is a major yr for mi.. and to all my frens.. thanks for everything!! jia you for a's!! =)

2006-05-18T21:48:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for long.. hmm the matches finally ended.. not quite in a good way.. bt... hmm..
had long weekends for 2 wks.. n i can't wait for tml to come.. cuz it's our sch's talentime!! n abel is singing.. not tt i nber hear him sing b4 lahz.. bt well.. he's my classmate!! of cuz i'll support him.. haha
last wk.. met up wif bear.. xj.. ah ma n a rare guest.. ah chaix!! haha.. it's been a long time since i saw her lahz.. still look de same.. as pretty.. haha.. we went to eat yuki yaki!! quite nice.. although there's time limit lahz.. quite sucky.. bt there can make ice cream!! which is quite interesting.. laugh most of de time.. they're a bunch of jokers lahz.. oh ya.. i think we quite stupid.. cuz de waitress cover de stove?! den when she remove de lit there's water inside.. n not juz a few drops wor.. it's like quite alot.. we're like quite amazed lahz.. den we started saying wha.. magic.. haha den she explained how she did tt.. n we're like.. omg.. we look so stupid lahz.. haha.. well.. i enjoyed tt day.. n hope another 1 will come soon..
fri was mahjong day at lyn's house.. first time i won so much.. treat dem eat dinner.. n i still gt surplus.. haha.. next day going sentosa.. bt i still lie awake till 4am.. shagged lahz.. wasn't very enthu tt day.. kinda tired n slpy.. n it rained!! coach drove us out to eat.. heng he's there lahz.. if not hab to queue n wait for shuttle bus.. went pasir panjang for dessert too.. went home n slept quite early.. slacked at home for de whole of sun too..
now kinda dread sch.. like suddenly no aim.. nth to look forward to.. kinda lost lahz.. i guess most of us feel tt way.. sounds so sad horz.. haha haiz.. mid yr coming.. quite worried bout my results lehz.. like no improvement.. so demoralising.. haiz.. tis june hols will b quite a busy period for mi.. hmmz..

2006-05-04T22:55:00.000+08:00

now for de final update on de matches..
sad to say.. we're out.. tml is our last match.. vs aj.. jia you everyone..
tues vs vj.. din play well.. in fact.. i think it was one of my personal worst.. we blew away our only chance n hab only ourselves to blame.. i think it's our mental state tt is not strong enough.. anyway thanks for all ur support.. n good job manying.. i think u did well tt day..
wed vs sa.. they're a strong team.. didn gt a good start cuz i'm injured before everything started.. during free spike as usual i was setting.. n den suddenly as i was setting a ball up.. another ball hit my finger.. it's like.. huh!! i'm so near de net le lahz.. n de impact was quite big lahz.. although it's not those thunder ball.. bt it's nt those pwew ball oso.. it's juz a spike lahz.. n tada.. my last finger sprained.. bt not very serious lahz.. lucky is little finger n not index.. haha.. bt well.. tt's juz my luck.. they had a few tyco balls which convinced mi tt we're really unlucky.. nevertheless.. i think we did well for de 2nd set.. dunno is 19 or 20.. at least we put up a little fight n let dem sweat a little.. haha.. n time for debrief.. huihui cried..(very long haha) think she quite guilty cuz quite a no of balls died at her area.. jia you ger.. quite a no. of us cried too.. de tot of everything ending at de end of tis wk makes our heart feels heavy.. i dun dare to go near dem cuz i noe i'll cry too.. i shall leave my tears for de last match..
tml is our last match.. hope we'll do well.. or at least better den de previous.. let us all enjoy de game bahz.. i noe tt our team tis yr not beri strong.. in top 8 u can really c de difference cuz all de other teams were like playing 3 sets or 20 plus points for both sides.. so not really much regrets cuz it's kinda expected lahz.. let de better team wins..
i still hope tt we'll hab gatherings n not drift apart.. we should go down to play ball when we're free to ya?! after tis we should reformat our "com" n focus on our studies le.. let's all jiayou for a's..
de tot of having nth to do after lessons next wk, really makes mi sianz.. wonder how long do i need before i can tune back to de right frequency.. missing quite a no of lessons tis wk.. quite a lot of doubts for many topics.. haiz.. really sianz.. i'm feeling wad i felt during my sec 4 days after match - no life....

2006-04-21T22:25:00.000+08:00

time for updates!!
hmm.. de matches had started.. i think we did ok for de 1st match bahz.. was quite a gd start except some parts of de match when we kinda lax le.. bt well.. it went smoothly.. de feeling of going back there was pretty gd.. rmb de good old days.. saw mr tay there too.. bt wif a different role.. hope we'll improve as time goes..
had a long day today.. bt kinda fun.. haha.. slacked during pc.. did only 2 stations.. i wanna redo sit n reach!! onli tt gt b.. bt kinda lazy too.. n i might nt do as well.. haha.. contradicting ya!? phys lesson was short as mr sin went through skill a in brief n let us off 15 mins earli!! yay.. n we're still munching on titbits n de gers playing hei bai pei when he was in de class.. kinda bad bt it is lively!! din make mi wanna slp.. econs lect was quite fun too.. we're busy copying or rather they cuz i can't really see clearly.. n miss chin was like bullet train lahz.. (as usual) thus it made copying a rather challenging task.. i wasn't up to it so i began reading de notes n highlighting dem while listening to her n see wad's de relevent pts.. apparantly her scribbles are de notes mayb in greater details?! haha so in de end.. their notes were messy n mine colourful! i found out tt sitting beside jess could make time pass faster.. true joker n entertainer.. lols.. provided she not pms-ing lahz.. was quite sian after econs n plan to pon gp to watch match bt.. well.. decided to b guai n not pon.. think i din really do well for de tca.. din had enough time.. think it's time to manage my time properly.. aq n summary was done in a rush.. like 10 mins for summary n 5 for aq!? completely screwed.. n b4 gp de gers were like crapping bout some classroom romanace.. haha.. my god lahz.. do i look so despo.. bleahz.. used to it le.. mayb someday i will crap along wif dem.. will they think i really like him!? eekz.. haha sounds evil.. blah blah.. all de no 5 r my rumoured bf.. pls queue.. oppz.. juz laming around.. =)
training tml morn.. hope it will turn out fine.. ah man seems quite stress.. hey ger.. relax n enjoy!! dun always blur blur de k.. believe in urself n believe in us.. jia you k!! as i have said.. we aim high bt there's always limits to wad we can do.. as long as there's no regrets.. let de better team win.. =D ok.. kinda tired le.. off to my lovely bed!! taz.. take care everyone..

2006-04-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for quite some time.. dun hab de time to even online..
a div starting soon.. beginning to feel nervous whenever i think of de competitions.. trainings are more frequent too.. bt somehow i feel it wasn't really effective.. i even think it's getting worse day by day.. haiz.. is it de bonding!? or de attitude?! or wad.. somehow i dun really feel confident.. we are really lucky for de draw.. bt so wad if we pass de 1st round.. i noe we hav high chance bt i dun wan to feel really bad after we won.. will we play like we did during trainings? or worse.. or better.. de previous 2 times training wasn't really gd.. n i think my setting beri horrible!! how!!?? when coach say whether we win or lose all lies in my hands (as in setting lahz) .. really feel beri wad lorz.. de pressure is setting in.. i really need de confidence frm my team mates.. bt mama say i shld b de 1 giving dem confi. haiz.. how to?! i really dunno.. any advices? i'm always a beri passive person.. waiting for ppl to give mi confi. for ppl to help.. for everything to come on it's own.. i'm scared if my teammates dun play well.. is it due to me? r they angry at mi for wadeva reasons? once i gt such feelings i will juz drop to de bottom.. how to build up my confi!? jiu ming ar!!
went to watch finals ytd.. de feeling was really gd.. esp when de last pt end.. de jumping n crying n everything was so familiar.. i really dun wan to look on.. i'll miss everything.. lyn said we muz come back again tis yr.. somehow it looked so far frm mi.. bt we'll do our best rite?! i hope there'll b no regrets.. no thinking back on how bad i've done.. wad i shld n shld not do.. cuz it'll b too late.. i'm tired of tis.. there r too many regrets to look back on.. i dun wanna add on to de list.. hope tml's training will b better.. i need something to pull mi back on..
for my team mates.. lets all jia you!! looking forward to de match.. lets have smiles instead of tears k.. i noe we will all miss a lot of lessons during tis period bt dun giv up.. it's normal.. we need 12 hearts beating as 1.. we will catch up after tis ya!?
can't concentrate on my studies now.. it's juz so distracting.. grades is still so horrible.. been hearing a lot of nagging frm de teachers too.. "its already too late to start.. ask ur seniors.. they will call u to start studying now.." give mi some more time..

2006-03-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

oppz.. i've disappeared for so long.. haha.. shall update a little..
in a blink of an eye.. de march hols are over.. think most of de days spent on training and going sembawang play play.. anyway.. congrats to dem into getting into top 4.. coach very happy worz.. haha..
i think my life is getting so mundane.. like everyday going through de same routine.. blahz..
saw mr tay on wed.. he gave us some advices.. really wanna work on it.. bt sometimes things do not happen because we want it to.. sometimes i really wish he was back here coaching us.. miss de days.. anyway hope everything juz works out at de end of de day.. it might not b easy bt i believe we can do it.. jia you everyone!! point to rmb: dun slack ur way through.. u might onli b deceiving urself in de end.. dun give up till de very end.. days left: 1 month or mayb 2..
hmm.. bei shang lian ge starting soon.. *excited haha.. off to watch tv.. tataz!!

*i rather not have tt little happiness from de start.. when i noe tt it will lead to nothing, i feel like i've drop to de bottom.. i shld have juz let go.. nothing will come out of tis.. *kiss goodbye - leehom

2006-03-05T15:28:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for quite some time.. hmm.. nth much to blog about bahz.. haha
forget wad's de date tt i went to sentosa.. de effect of manying (bring rain) n some sunshine gers.. it was sunny bt it also rained.. n it din happen once.. it happened many times!! like so hot.. den so cold.. den hot again.. den cold again.. horrible weather.. nevertheless.. i still kena sunburn!! now my shoulders r peeling like mad.. n it's so ugly cuz there are 2 colours.. eekz..
had been sick since fri.. omg.. i think tis is 1 of de worst cuz normally i wun b sick for more den 2 days.. my slight fever din go down.. i tink it did.. bt it went up again after a while.. haiyo.. did not speak for tis 2 days cuz hab throat infection n i hab no voice.. lol.. hate it when ppl call mi.. cuz i dun wan to ans dem wif my sexy voice.. haha.. anyway.. didn do any hw.. quite lazy n no mood lahz.. doc say if after 3 days fever haven subside muz go for blood test.. i was like.. huh.. so serious mehz.. n he din gib mi ani med for my sore throat.. something like lozenges lahz.. horrible.. make mi suffer so long.. n i keep drinking water.. i think i drank at least 1.5 litres ytd.. lolz..
shall update again another day.. tataz..

2006-02-19T19:18:00.000+08:00

had to take a breather from all de maths hw.. had training ytd n didn realli do much hw.. so had to rush dem today.. can't even finish.. still hab to study for econs test tml.. omg stress!!
training ytd was quite fun cuz we juz keep playing games.. bt i'm quite moody cuz of de lack of slp.. bt well.. had to recollect my xin qing.. later affect others jiu bu hao le.. mum brought back frens n made so much noise in de middle of de night.. so i lay awake frm 1 to 4 till de noise finally go down a bit.. haiz.. n i oso told her i had to wake up earli in de morn.. how inconsiderate.. she everytime comment on how noisy we r.. n blah blah.. bt she din even bother to set an example for us lor.. say cannot ton or wadeva bt she always do tt.. say 1 thing n do another thing..
went sentosa on fri.. was quite sunny in de morn n we tot tt we can finally have a gd tan.. bt it started raining when we reach sentosa.. den manying said tt she go sentosa always bring de rain.. n she went late cuz of prac.. so we all joked tt she brought de rain there.. haha.. there wasn't much ppl there.. we saw some jj ppl there.. think it's og outing bahz.. left around 6 to eat..
actualli wanna go c my juniors match on mon de.. bt i dun think can le.. gt extra lessons.. n training.. it'll start to b a busy period le.. mon hab to train till night too.. dunno if i can finish any hw anot.. hope there'll b no test on tues.. bt at least we gt to use indoor bahz..
hab to gt back to my books le.. zZzz.. tata!

2006-02-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

hello!! after so long.. i'm back again.. actually nth much to blog about lahz.. haha.. anyway it was valentine's day ytd!! bt well since i'm nt attached.. it's juz another day to mi lahz.. nevertheless.. i'm still very happy on valentine's day eve.. haha.. my wish made long long ago came true.. mayb not all still dunno haha.. lots of furni things happen on v-day.. youyi gt a song dedication frm someone.. it was so furni lahz.. n she's like so paiseh de whole day.. n her oasis tickets!! it's like whoa.. so ex can.. xin fu de yy.. haha.. sad to say.. there's econs mock test which apparently no 1 cares!! cuz no 1 hand in de essay.. lols..
now for de sad thing.. kinda disappointed tt de j1s r leaving.. actually expecting all of dem to stay.. bt for other reasons they wanted to go to other jcs.. when we asked dem before de results.. they said most prob will stay bt now almost all r leaving.. i hope we successfully pyschoed jiale to stay.. i really hoped tt she'll b able to stay wif us.. bt i really think tt jj is a better choice den pj lahz.. bt it's all up to u..
didn really train much cuz tian bu yao us to train.. de moment we start training it started raining.. den we stop n tok den de rain stop.. till gt a bit sun den we start again n within 5 min.. started raining again.. zzz.. it's really hard to train under such conditions.. in de end.. yuhan treat us to swensens!! so kind of her.. haha had a little bonding lahz.. tml is another long day... zzz

happy new yr!!

2006-01-31T19:45:00.000+08:00

happy new yr peps.. so fast.. celebrations ending le.. hab to go back to sch again.. sigh.. visited both my mum n dad sides.. bt i think i like going to my dad's side more.. mayb cuz i onli gt to c dem once a yr!? or mayb their side more educated n there's more cousins which r closer in age wif mi.. bt as usual.. went dad's side for half de afternoon onli.. n my grand aunts are all old n weak?! like wad dad said.. (kinda bad lahz) mayb after 2 more yrs we dun hab to visit dem le.. kinda sad lahz.. hope everything goes well for dem tis yr.. din gt to c pretty aunt n rich cousins tis yr.. u c de reasons y i keep forgetting their names?! i dun gt to c dem often!! mayb if i'm lucky.. once every 2 yrs or even 3.. went home around 3 n i arranged some prog for myself..
went to watch i not stupid 2 wif bear n ah ma.. quite a nice movie.. n i think it's worth de ticket price lahz.. at least it reflects real life.. de problems between those "old" teachers n students.. de rebellious part of our life.. de 2 extreme kind of parents tt some of us have.. there were furni scenes n touching scenes as well.. i would highly recommend u all to watch it.. n i hope parents would oso watch it.. de movie is trying to tell all parents love their children bt it's always a question about expression..
joshua side: dad is an ex-convict.. keeps hitting him.. tok vulgarities.. as a result.. son kena expel.. join gang.. smoke.. enjoys hitting ppl.. n dun understand his father's love for him.. onli when he's father is dying den he realise everything.. bt it's too late lahz..
shawn side: parents too engross in making money.. giving him a house with everything bt end up it's even more empty to him.. as a result.. son gets rebellious.. gt public canning..
there's tis part which is so sad lahz.. de little bro of shawn.. saves up all his money.. sell his fav pokemon cards n even resort to stealing juz to use money n buy his father's time to watch his concert.. n when he was caught stealing.. he was even canned by his dad..
there's so much more lahz.. shld watch it urself to know more.. very meaningful movie..
dad's going abroad soon.. dunno how my life is going to change.. without him in de house.. it's always empty with mi with de four walls.. although having him makes no diff cuz he does his things n i do mine.. bt at least there's some noise around.. sis n mum always not around.. sigh.. it's going to b quite a bad yr for dragon babies i think.. haha bt it's always up to u to believe or not.. wadeva it is.. i hope everything goes well throughout de yr for mi n my family n everyone of u out there..

2006-01-22T17:16:00.000+08:00

oppz.. haven been blogging for wks.. shld say i have no time.. or say i'm purely lazy.. up to u lahz..
anyway.. update a little.. our class been busy preparing for de cny decos at de canteen n concourse area.. actualli juz doing something simple like making lanterns n hanging de sakura flowers.. feel a bit like de production line when we have to tie de strings onto de lantern haha.. anyway it was fun doing it lahz.. joked n laugh along de way too..
econs tutorials was quite horrible de past wk.. miss chin is going like a bullet train esp after she scolds us for not settling down.. dun really understand.. n we hab to copy n listen n at de same time figure out which part of de notes she's toking about.. although she's fast.. bt she still haven finish de lecture on tis chap.. bt anyway.. i have a bad feeling of de coming test..
went shopping ytd at town.. bought a watch which wasn't my first choice.. as in de 1 i saw at first which i really wanna buy.. bt anyway i still lurve my watch.. it's a mambo watch tt cost onli 104 after discount.. de initial 1 tt i wanna buy cost 139.. it sure looks nicer den de previous 1 n cheaper!! so happy.. haha..
think we walk for a long time in town.. busy trying on clothes haha.. manying end up din buy her bikini partly becuz we wanted to go n eat le lahz.. haha.. she beri fickle de.. a while wan a while dun wan.. so we gave her more time to think haha.. i tried on lots of clothes too cuz mi aim was to pull dem along to help mi choose cny clothes.. most of de stuff tt i tried was like de last piece?! so if dun hab my size den can't buy le.. after a whole day of shopping i bought a top n a skirt chosen by jos.. shopping queen is a gd adviser.. haha bt they made me try so many clothes lahz.. so tired oso.. haha.. actually wanna buy shorts too.. bt either no size or too ex or din c nice ones.. anyway.. i'm done wif cny shopping.. yay!!
oh ya.. we oso had a small vb gathering wif de seniors on fri.. went jp to eat dinner.. actualli wanted to go swensens bt it was kinda full house n we were a big grp so end up we slack at 1 corner while some of dem went to check out where gt place for us to eat.. feng even called de pizza hut delivery to ask if there's space at taman jurong's outlet.. lol.. it's like so cartoon lahz.. when we called de outlet n nearly reserved places, jp's 1 had place for us so feng was like "oh it's ok there's seats at de jp's outlet bye" n she hung up without allowing dem to say anithing haha.. anyway.. it's fun to have a gathering wif dem.. shld organise such outings more.. bt quite sad cuz not much gers (seniors) were there.. after eating mama lyn n my came my house for a short mahjong session.. it's a fun day as well.. lol!

2006-01-05T18:40:00.000+08:00

tis is a new yr and a new start for everyone.. firstly, wish everyone a happy 2006 and may ur road be smooth always..
shall start wif de countdown.. went boon lay to countdown on new yr's eve.. been going there for bout 3 yrs le.. haha i noe it's boring bt no choice lahz.. lazy to go n squeeze wif ppl.. n wad's impt is de company u're in.. nth much happened lahz.. juz tt we sat a free bus ride home cuz de bus is packed wif ppl n we eventually went in frm de back door.. n for ur info.. there's no entry scanner at de back door..
1 bad news at de 1st day of sch (wad a way to start tis yr..) i still failed 1 sub.. bt eventually.. principal let all of us promote.. juz like wad mr tay said.. it's bad n gd news.. he actually came over after work to have a tok wif mi.. juz to give me some advices bahz.. all along i noe tt i'm a person without goals bt it took me tis long to realise tt how dangerous such a situation is.. so for now.. i'm in search for a target which i can work towards to..
shall share some of mr tay's words..
how do u define a millionair? a rich man or someone who had struck toto?! for him.. a millionair is someone who can lose a million onli to earn it back.. and someone who had struck toto is juz a rich man wif a million dollar in his pocket..
i'm quite amazed tt he can actually say out some of our character.. and it's all quite true.. de time i spent wif him is onli about 2 mths plus.. (until vb finals..) n he could already see our character through our actions.. n de reason behind my constant failure is because i have no goals.. no ambition to work towards to.. so i juz anyhow walk which is de first step off de path..
next is some chim chim china words.. bt i juz roughly describe bahz.. first is xiu shen which is cultivate urself.. den ding jia.. which is after cultivating urself den u can stablise ur family.. family is very impt cuz in times of danger mayb all ur frens may not help u.. n if anything goes wrong in life u can jolly well go home n cry.. next is ping guo.. which is after u kao dim urself n family den u can look at de larger picture which is ur country.. n finally something related to world de.. (too noisy can't hear him say..) bt i roughly gt de idea lahz.. it's step by step process.. so now i muz xiu shen first.. n schs are meant to let u cultivate urself..
i've set some new yr resolutions which i seldom make.. cuz i'm juz living day by day without any plans..
1. noe wad is my target..
2. strive towards my target..
3. learn to be more decisive.. (instead of anything all de way..)
4. learn to stand up from set backs..
and my wish for new yr is to do well in my studies.. or rather improve lahz.. cuz now is really beri jia lat.. if i sidetrack along de way.. someone pls remind me.. cuz i noe i have weak determination.. i'm easily swayed!!

2005-12-28T22:37:00.000+08:00

hmm.. so long since i updated..
first.. talk bout xmas.. went shopping on sat.. bought lots of things n now i'm broke!! haha.. mama went cruise so i ask man n frens stay over for some mahjong.. we played tong xiao.. n they went off around 8 plus.. so tired.. bt i slept for onli 2 hrs plus den woke up for breakfast wif dad n sis.. den went home n slp again haha.. sad christmas..
went mr tay's house on 26th.. quite fun.. been a long time since i've seen de seniors.. although not most of dem are there.. bt i think it will b quite long before i can see dem again.. we met up n do a bit of mr tay's present.. wrote some messages for him too.. quite sad to see him leave lahz.. bi jing he was a great coach n helped us a lot along de way.. without him i think it will b quite different.. n can compare de results next yr..
anyway.. we played soft vball in de function hall till someone come in n say no ball games haha.. den we played bingo.. de forfit was to do pumping.. everyone like so scared to tio.. den we were like calling for de no n our hearts all beating so fast haha.. hf was de last 1 to tio n de forfit was to dance.. haha she dance wif ethan.. he's super cute sia.. n can c tt mr tay beri teng his sons.. didn realli scold dem.. onli gave warning.. haha den when ethan help him massage he still kiss him.. we are all playing wif ethan n wan to take pics wif him.. at around 10 plus we left.. dewen drove some of us home n guohua pick zihui up n send some of dem to de mrt station.. so kind of dem.. haha.. in conclusion.. it's a fun nite!! wonder if there'll b such gathering again..
de results still not out yet.. so slow!! bt since it will b out so late.. i guess there'll b no 2nd chance for me le bahz.. i oso dunno how i fared.. mayb i shld start looking out for any interesting courses.. for now.. i'm quite interested to b a pe teacher.. bt tt's after poly bahz.. (if i go poly) for now.. i'll juz see how things goes..

2005-12-17T22:23:00.000+08:00

hmm.. re-exams over!! dunno whether i'll pass.. bt it doesn't realli matter le lahz..
suddenly my mama like nt tt strict anymore.. weird.. it really shocked me when she said fail den fail lor.. go poly lahz.. no big deal rite.. if u really noe me well.. u shld noe my mum well too.. haha it's so unlike her to say something littat.. when we went to take family photo she still said something like when i grad frm uni den we take another photo.. den now she like don't care le..
there's still once when i was playing mahjong at home den she came home.. bt didn scold mi oso haha.. juz said dun play money arz... weird rite.. haha bt i prefer it tis way..
oh ya.. when i say i might go nie be pe teacher she still say.. i noe u can do wad.. go b army.. haha.. i was like huh!!?? den she say dun huh.. gt very gd prospects ok.. do some desk stuff or wad lahz.. dunno bout it oso.. haha.. seems like de world is very wide..
went jos house ytd for steamboat and we stayed over for de night.. hmm ate till bout 11 plus!? den we went up to her rm.. play a game which i dunno how to describe lahz.. haha.. den played blackjack for a while oso.. banker wins all.. haha.. we all play till bankrupt (chips) den some of dem went of to slp.. den man, jos, xiuyi and mi played mahjong on de mattress.. wha so ma fan playing there.. cannot lean near de tiles or else it will collapse.. we played for quite long.. till 630 b4 jos n xiuyi cannot take it le.. mayb cuz we hab training earlier so they beri tired.. bt ytd training beri slack for 3 of us.. so i nt really tired lorz.. bt well.. since they wanna slp jiu slp lorz.. quite squeezy oso.. like sardine cannot anyhow move.. heez.. woke up around 9 tis morn.. den ate some breakfast n off back home.. reach home le jiu bath and slp haha.. beri tired.. dark rings forming.. in conclusion.. it was quite fun bahz.. =p

2005-12-10T16:01:00.000+08:00

hmm haven been updating for quite a while..
re exams r coming.. really not prepared for it.. sorry for making frens around mi worry.. n thanks for ur card.. really appreciate it although i didn cry lahz.. haha.. i noe u all r trying very hard to motivate mi..
tis make mi think a lot.. including de decision to come jc.. many regrets i may have bt i will nt regret continue playing vball in jc.. de days in kl were my happiest moments i guess.. really miss tis team a lot.. wonder if we will have any chance to play as a team again..
looking back to sec sch.. nt tt i dislike it there bt i think there's really not much for mi to think back.. i can only rmb all de conflicts de boycotting.. it's like u can't b who u r.. muz try to please de ppl around u or u'll only b left out by others.. wasn't realli close wif mi class den cuz i'm always hanging around my team mates.. n it's often split into grps.. sometimes i realli dunno where i belong.. perhaps it's becuz we have 4 yrs together n we will c each other personality.. no matter how coach try he's still being dislike by us.. bt i agree tt he's temper could b a rollar coaster.. i quite pei fu him.. every batch he slowly bring us up even without any foundation..
i realli hope tt tis team could at least make it into top 8.. bt without mr tay i think it's quite diff.. although mr tay's training is very tough.. he's very strict.. expecting a lot frm us.. he can b quite arrogant at times bt he's a gd coach.. dewen is also a gd coach lahz.. bt he's too lenient le.. no body is actually afraid of him.. no stress.. can slack slack play play and 1 training is over.. still rmb when i juz come in mr tay said tt he wan 100% commitment frm mi.. n now.. ppl can happy happy dun come for training.. i think if mr tay was de coach de team might b left wif less den half de no now..
even if i realli pass tis test n scrap through tis yr.. is it worth it? to struggle through next yr.. n not knowing whether i can pass a levels.. is tis wad i wan? to finish tis path n go on to uni.. can i do it? i really dun know wad i wan.. i seriously dun think i'm de liao for studying bt wad can i do?! i actually dun noe anything.. can they give me de assurance n motivation i need?!
almost forget to mention.. went for dinner at clark quay to celebrate xj's bday.. bear intro us to brewerkz.. hmm.. i quite like de ambience there.. drank golden ale.. seriously it juz taste a little sweeter den carlsberg.. muhaha.. can u intro something more lady next time?! took lots of pic bt i still haven got it!! anyone.. juz anyone.. send mi pls!! hmm.. ate 2 main n 1 side dish.. wasn't really tt full lahz.. quite ex some more.. haha.. broke le lahz.. went to walk around clark quay after dinner.. nth much to walk around.. n finally decide to hab some ice cream.. in total.. i spend bout 33 tt day.. lucky it's not more den 50 bucks haha.. anyway.. i enjoyed tt day.. shall we chill out someday again!?
not going to work for next wk.. hab to go for steamboat at jos house.. hopefully can ton there.. n i guess it'll b fun!? cuz most of us r there.. pls dun make mi regret not working!! haha.. think i'm working during xmas wk.. no dates.. so sad.. haha.. hope to b in de same outlet wif bear.. *pray..

2005-12-01T20:39:00.001+08:00

Juz watched finish "qing chu yu lan".. I like de ending.. quite meaningful although it's kinda expected lahz.. shall gib a brief summary of de story.. there's tis teacher, ruoshi who is sandwiched upon 2 guys.. de principal, jicai and another guy teacher, zhengliang.. ruoshi was with zhengliang before until she knew tt zhengliang indirectly cause de death of her ex husband.. thus broke up wif him.. jicai was always around her and supporting her.. her ex husband son was down wif leukemia and jicai saved him therefore she’s grateful to him.. both is so good to her thus leaving her wif a dilemma.. she finalli decide to leave for de States without choosing ani of dem.. however at de last min.. she finalli realize tt she had been surpressing herself n de 1 she really loves is zhengliang..
Tis quote was mentioned in de drama.. even if u're heartbroken.. de heart continues beating.. life still goes on.. I feel tt it's beri true.. n I'd like to give an advice to mi sis.. she had broken wif her bf.. n I saw her tearing away juz now.. hope she can understand de msg.. broken relationships are part n parcel of life.. a new relationship will start onli when de old one ends.. without a relationship ur love life is a blank sheet.. I really dun understand y does she have to despair for some time after every relationship.. n onli end up to regret and tok bout how stupid u r in de past.. to give up de things u like juz becuz of a stranger who had to cross ur path.. perhaps I've nt experience such relationships to really give my opinions.. ppl say watching tv is bad bt I think tt through such real life dramas.. we learn how to handle stuffs.. my sis even bought a 40 plus book to make her gt over of tis failed relationship.. she still thinks tt she is strong n independent and doesn’t show her weak side.. in her blog she even lament y she is so strong tt she doesn't think for herself.. and doesn't wan to worry others over her probs.. I dunno whether to laugh or wad.. as her sis.. I would always c her weaker side.. n perhaps she really doesn't show out her emotions easily by nt crying in front of others.. keeping ur probs to urself means u r strong n independent!? Den I must say my family have such genes cuz I think tt my whole family is littat.. my mum would only show her weak side when she's drunk.. I seriously think tt she's nt strong cuz she is very grouchy wheneva she's unhappy.. n I can guess easily wad is happening to her.. heartbroken or in love.. she juz writes it all over her face lahz.. bt I oso feel sorry for her lahz.. even if I'm nt really happy wif her I still try to calm down n nt quarrel wif her.. anyway.. juz hope she quickly gt over it lahz.. it's gd for everyone tt way..
juz read my sis's blog.. din noe tt she had such encounters n now i noe y she prefered my dad den my mum.. i realli dunno whether it's dang ju zhe mi or wad.. cuz i feel tt mum loves her alot.. dad has always been de more lenient 1 n whenever there's bad news he's always de first to noe.. although mum is strict bt she still cares for us.. for example.. whenever sis is coming home for dinner mum will cook soup.. she'll always leave soup for her even if sis doesn't come home for dinner.. recently mum was quite often home during weekends.. (not quite normal cuz in de past 17 yrs she's seldom at home during wk ends..) whenever dad suggested going out to eat.. sis will say she doesn't want.. n we will end up eating nearby cuz mum wanna buy food home for her.. sometimes i realli hate her for tt.. i'm really sick of eating at jurong west.. mayb mum was realli more strict in de past.. bt she juz doesn't want us to walk on de wrong path.. n tt's wad she went into.. she even mentioned in her blog tt mum call mi not to tok to her!? i dun rmb anithing like tt lahz.. bt i noe tt they always quarrel bt it's always bcuz she did de wrong thing.. hello.. wad could b rite to b an ah lian n take up smoking when u're juz 14!?!? perhaps it's bcuz she's there to b my "role model" tt's y i'm so guai lahz.. haha.. since young i swear not to b like her.. smoking n commiting suicide stuff.. yuckz.. i think she's stupid at tt age cuz a ger 5 yrs younger can think better den commiting suicide juz bcuz she quarrelled wif her bf!?! bt studies wise.. she's smarter lahz.. i oso dunno how her mind works...

2005-11-27T20:02:00.000+08:00

hmm.. shall backtrack a little..
last wed.. training was supposed to b in de morn. bt was cancelled bcuz of de rain.. however.. it was super last min lahz.. i already bathe le.. n some of dem was out of house le.. so xiuyi, manying n mi decided to meet for breakfast.. jos was oso up so we went bukit timah for prata den proceed to her house for mahjong.. i think it was my first time waking so earli to go for prata haha.. after mahjong met up wif bear n gang to catch a movie.. manying came along too.. bt she beri noisy haha keep saying beri weird.. had a hard time persuading her to join us.. was a little rushed for time so we called a cab to tiong bahru.. haiz.. broke le.. haha
ytd went shopping.. or rather window shopping.. didn buy anything.. too broke to buy things too.. haha.. we went to look for a team bag n saw a few quite nice de.. de price was still within my budget.. hope most of dem wan it or else it will serve no purpose.. went to an addidas shop at novena it has 30% storewide.. bt there nth much to shop so we went to city link n suntec.. at city link saw quite a few nice stuffs.. at de roxy shop saw a watch.. super nice wor.. bt muz work to buy it haha.. spotted some ripcurl bag too.. quite nice.. n quite cheap oso.. heez.. actualli wan to buy slipper oso.. bt didn realli c nice nice de so didn buy ani.. went carls junior to eat dinner.. quite ex wor.. bt de things quite nice.. de burger we share so end up we're nt realli full haha.. last stop.. we went esplanade to eat cake n chill out.. nice view haha.. hmm.. went home around 11 plus.. when i reach je it was de last train le.. haha heng we're nt any later... quite fun.. hope there b such outings more often..
oh ya.. on de 20/11 bear n gang came my house to bake brownie.. we tried 2 times.. de first time was very successful.. actualli de taste is ok lahz.. only de looks nt beri nice.. so we tried another time.. tis time bear went home to take her mixer.. although i prefer hand made bt de mixer definately save lots of time.. it's de thought tt counts mahz.. de brownie is for nu er's bday de.. we oso cut de brownie into star shape.. after baking de brownie we went nu er's house there to gib her a surprise.. long time nber c her le.. bt she still looks de same.. haha.. onli a little fairer!? aniway.. it's a bit late bt nvm.. happy bday ger.. haha..

chalet..

2005-11-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

day after chalet.. veri tired.. fall aslp while watching tv juz now.. bt after bathing not tt slpy animore so decide to blog a little in case i forget.. haha
it was overall quite fun.. haha.. first time staying over in a chalet too.. hmm.. de first time we played twister, i kena those very difficult moves.. like cross arms n i still have to stretch my legs somewhere.. was laughing like siao.. n they juz kept taking pics of my ugli pose.. 2nd time we played.. quite slack in de beginning.. (not for others hahaha) bt till de end i oso had some realli weird pose... laugh till i had tears in my eyes sia.. we lazy to bbq so we ordered pizza!! yum yum.. after pizza we watched tv till 8 plus.. den we played truth or dare while watching tv.. didn realli find out ani secrets.. jie xing did a dare!!! she was super daring lahz.. bt de opp ppl not fun de.. nber pei he.. still say we crazy.. bleahz.. after tt.. we had some describing game which evolved in taboo.. n den de super sunday show de game.. (dunno how to explain oso) de way ppl describe it's like very furni lorz.. manying still describe in broken eng.. haha.. de super sunday game was super fun.. (all de while sze hui was toking to her boy boy in de room.. miss out all de fun!!) de way it was distorted till de end.. haha.. veri kua zhang somemore... realli cute lahz.. we played for 1 whole round den went up to de room to squeeze n watch vcd.. it was bout 2 plus by den.. watched a little of scary movie 3 which wasn't realli interesting den watched mr deeds.. was quite furni.. some ppl already fall aslp b4 de movie ended.. after de movie.. those still awake went downstairs to take some bite and played some card games... den we decided to watch a witchcraft show since it's already like earli morning?! those scared went up to de room to slp.. watch a while den quite boring cuz in de middle talk quite a lot.. so we decide to go up n slp too.. imagine 11 ppl squeezing in 2 beds n 1 mattress.. sardine can... i cannot even move lahz.. den jos n szehui went downstairs to slp.. i rest for a while.. can't get to slp.. cannot move bu shu fu.. heard dem toking downstairs den i decided to go down.. lie for bout an hr onli.. chat a while den decided to b very noisy to wake de rest up haha (evil..) n surprisingly.. ting ting by 9 still haven wake up!! regardless of how noisy we were.. so we decided to go up n disturb her.. haha.. we wanted to go downtown east to play pool!! we played a while of pool n went back to de chalet.. xiuyi's mum bringing mahjong tiles here!! yay!! by den.. most of dem left le.. left about 6 of us.. den we played mahjong without money for a while den sze hui left.. den we played money.. play all de way till 1am.. with a dinner break in between.. i'm quite tired le.. plus we drank a little wine (xiuyi's bro buy de) n de game was super slow.. till behind no mood le haha.. all hu xiao xiao.. manying n jos combine is de greatest winner.. won 14 i think.. den xiuyi won 7!! i lost 6 n de rest xiao hui.. wasn't very lucky.. cha eng came late cuz she had rugby in de afternoon.. after mj.. we went to slp cuz there's training de next day.. manage to slp a little bahz.. woke up a little here n there.. *yawnz* we woke up at 9 tis morning to get ready to check out.. haha ate some cereals n bread wif nutella!! *yum yum n we checked out!! i went back home while they went to eat.. didn manage to slp lahz.. bathe n off i go le.. so tired... zZz..
lately my sis quite weird.. wasn't realli herself.. quite irritating.. bleahz.. 1 whole wk nber come home eat dinner.. when she came home n eat.. suddenli say wanna put tv in her rm.. den started arguing wif mum for de yes n no bout tv.. aniway i think she's realli bo liao lahz.. it's like she's seldom home lahz.. wan tv for wad?! den she say it's cuz i watch outside mum watch inside she can't watch.. tok cok lahz.. if i'm mum i oso wun agree buying a tv for her.. waste money waste elec.. n she still storm out of house without saying bye to anione of us.. childish.. mum n dad had a long tok after tt.. hope they aren't quarrelling becuz of her.. tis time i side wif mum.. before i go for chalet i started arguing for some things wif her oso.. n she said she needed de stuff cuz she had dance on fri.. TOK COK again.. she went out todae lahz dance wad.. rubbish.. she's like so irritating lahz.. ask her y she didn go work today oso so gl.. horrible.. thank god she went out.. can't stand her lahz..
oh it's midnite le.. so tired.. going off to dreamland le!! muz replenish my shui mian.. tataz~

2005-11-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

updates updates.. somebody keep pestering mi bout updates.. so here i am!! while waiting for my camera's battery to b re-charged so i can upload the photos.. i've decided to blog a little.. pls do not ask mi to put it up here.. i dunno how to!! haha if u r willing to volunteer to help mi do it.. i dun mind.. pls leave ur contact down.. haha..
firstly.. went swimming wif dear peifen on tues.. it was super sunny.. however, i like didn realli tan a lot lehz.. so sad.. bt well.. it's fun!! haha.. lots of ppl there too.. after de swim, went to eat dinner wif my family including my grandparents.. so nan de my mum is at home on public holidays.. we went to eat fish steamboat at tiong bahru.. yum yum.. quite ex aniway.. bt mum said it wasn't realli "hua" afterall.. bt well.. it's better den nth mahz..
had to attend self study on wed thus not able to go sentosa for de class outing.. so sorry.. next time ya?! bt lucky i didn go lahz.. if not i'll b tanning for tues wed n thurs.. den i'll b so burnt.. self study was quite boring.. wasn't realli wad i expected.. bt well.. can slack oso better lahz.. afterall i'm all alone n de break is rather redundant to me.. next time i shall leave at 1130.. muhaha..
went sentosa ytd.. it was raining in de morning so kinda scared tt there'll b no sun.. bt it's still ok lahz.. nt realli beri hot bt can tan lahz.. haha.. met cheryl n chunli there too... so long didn c chunli she so tanned sia.. chao ta le lahz.. bt it's nice!! haha actualli wanted to play 2 on 2 wif her bt no chance lahz.. too bad.. next time ya?! aniway.. we played vb.. slack in de water for a while n kayak for a while.. overall was quite fun lahz.. heez.. i didn gt sunburn cuz i put sun block at my shoulders.. de rest put sun tan lotion n tada.. all kena burnt.. haha.. oppz.. sounds bad.. after bathing we still played a few games of pool.. long time didn play.. keep hit lousy balls haha.. xiuyi still keep playing cheat!! haha.. we waited for a long time for de beach line bus bt it's so full thus we walked all de way back to take de blue line bus.. n guess wad?! i can't even c de end of de queue.. we decided to take cab n guess wad again.. no cab to take sia.. all booking or kena snatched.. 1 mercedes cab driver still so action.. say wad tis is a limo. later de c de price heart pain.. bullsh*t sia.. gt money oso dun wan let him earn lahz.. kuku.. aniway.. xiuyi's dad come n drive us out.. so kind of him.. n bad xiuyi dun wan gib him money haha.. evil evil.. we went pasta mania eat.. didn realli like de food there.. haha dun like pasta sauce.. bt ok lahz.. still edible.. de pizza nt as nice as pizza hut's too.. haha.. after eating we play zhong ji mi ma.. eat de cheese alone.. kinda er xin lor.. i tio de still gt 1 drop of chili sauce.. yuckz!! aniway everybody kena once.. n manying kena thrice.. haha.. reach home around 1030 bahz.. so tired.. watch a little tv n off to dream land.. haha.. oh ya my sis kicked my face twice!! eeee
had lesson today n op reharsal.. it wasn't realli smooth.. n i think tt my speech worse den de first time.. eekz.. i kena de ques all i dunno how to ans de.. hope it doesn't happen during de actual op.. *pray hard* went to eat n actualli wanna cut hair bt de hair dresser nt free.. so we booked an appointment tml!! hope it doesn't turn out too bad.. hmm.. had training after tt.. it was ok lahz.. quite tired today so nt realli enthu bout it.. zzz currently no cfm plans for tml.. so sianz.. haha.. shall stop here.. stay tune to de next post.. tata!!

2005-10-23T17:53:00.000+08:00

hmm.. it was long since i updated.. well.. nth much realli happened.. ytd went joscelin's house to play mahjong.. monkey was de biggest winner haha.. gonna gt some treats frm her.. was fasinated by jos's dog.. it was cute!! haha bt i'm afraid of dogs.. bt i still managed to touch him a few times.. look like a soft toy.. haha.. jos's house realli has lots to eat.. n my fridge is always empty.. nth to serve de guests.. so next time pls buy stuff before coming to my house!! haha..
hmm tml gonna gt news bout de moderation.. was quite relief after toking to miss yew.. before tt i was like hanging halfway.. wasn't even sure of wad is going to happen.. feel very tired of sch.. hope everything will go well in de future..
training had resumed.. quite ok.. wasn't realli very tough compared to de mr tay's training.. bt well at least we are learning as we go along.. monkey mentioned tt de team wasn't bonded together.. bt well.. it's hard to bring everyone together.. any comments or suggestions?! let's hope tt we will have a trip overseas den.. haha.. it's easier tis way..
have to do de op slides le.. and there's hw to b completed!! oh ya.. jj had a small black out on fri.. lasted for de whole day though.. phy lect was cancelled was quite happy bout it.. haha cuz we're having phy for 3 hrs due to de phy prac turned tutorial.. most of us were hoping tt lessons would b cancelled for de whole day bt.. fat hope!! we still hab to carry on wif lessons in a dark n warm situation.. bt it wasn't realli tt bad afterall... life is never smooth sailing rite... becuz of a survey.. i found out tt there are hypocrites in my class!! n it was so unexpected can.. never judge a book by it's cover sia...

end of promos

2005-10-12T14:49:00.000+08:00

didn update for some time.. promos had ended.. n well.. results are all out.. as expected.. failed all a subs.. haiz.. suddenli i c no light in front of mi.. mayb i expected for a miracle? i dunno.. bt i'm still hoping tt somehow de teachers can pull mi up.. bt mayb i shld realli think bout other alternatives.. even if i gt promoted m i able to pull myself up?! or do i realli deserve another chance?! haiz.. i dunno anithing.. i'm juz hoping for de best.. i dunno wad to tell mi parents.. i dunno wad to expect.. i dunno wad to do.. i juz feel so lost... had training on mon.. realli didn feel like going.. didn wan anyone to ask mi bout my results.. i tried so hard to hide everything.. heng training was quite ok.. manage to pass tt few hrs.. feeling some aches now.. haha old liaoz..
had been watching stairway to heaven tis few days.. it's nice n touching bt i didn cry at all.. haha no heart.. i like de song.. n chengjun is beri beri shuai!! as usual.. korean shows almost have de same plot.. n i noticed tt they almost cry in every disc.. bt well.. to find a guy like chengjun i think it will onli happen in dramas.. haha..
i feel so tired.. i juz hope tis wk will pass quietly....

when i'm going through all tis.. who was there for mi?